My life as me right now is perfect. I absolutely love my life, and everybody within it. Relationship wise: I guess I'm a little bit too busy to actually have a romantic relationship. It's not that I don't miss one, it's just that I don't really try to think about it as often as some people do. Sure I do miss hugs, and kisses. It's just that I'm living my life right now, and I love being single at the moment. Sure that might change later on in my life. But I'm perfectly happy as things are right now. Do I believe in fate? Perhaps, it's just a possibility among possililties. I do believe something is in Vancouver for me though. That's why I enjoy it there. However, as screwed up as my life is right now. I enjoy living it :)

I love being an asshole sometimes, and I do refer myself as an asshole. Why? Because I love being different, there's too many 'nice guys' around these days. Plus, it also gives me a reason to think differently than everyone else. I love that. I love not being part of the 'in crowd'. Perhaps resurecting old feelings would make me an asshole, or maybe you think it's a lack of self-esteem. I have plenty of self esteem. I just admit that I'm not good at some things. Like neopets, or computer related. However I do dominate on the basketball court, and football, volleyball sometimes. I'm not your stereotypical homophobic jock. I do have gay friends, and what's wrong with that? What would be wrong if I was gay? Nothing. I'm not though. I'm just saying, I'd rather be associated with my friends, than an anti-gay motherfucker. Yes, I do swear occasionally. So please prepare yourself.

In text form, everybody is different. Especially me. Many of my friends over here, were pretty shocked when I started writing articles about subjects. Especially religion. Some friends have stopped talking to me, because I do speak out against organized religion. Go ahead and think "oh because he's native american, it's okay for him to be against relgion." yes, part of that is the reason why. But also because they preach the wrong things, they also brainwash. Yes, my parents are religious, and no I'm not anti-religious because of the rebellion complex. It's just that I had a lot of time to think, and to observe. I used to be religious, I used to have gold crosses in my room, I used to pray everyday, I used to go to church every weekend. It's just that I woke up. I woke up from what people tell you, and how their beliefs should also be your beliefs.

I suppose I should stop talking about religion, if your out there Beatons, and your reading this. I'm sorry that I didn't really meet your expectations as a 'boy scout'. I did respect you, and your beliefs, and I'm sorry that you don't want to talk to me because of my beliefs. For those of you out there, the Beatons were my billet family, they were religous, and after reading my manifestos's they stopped e-mailing me, and responding to my letters. It is disheartening though, when people don't want to talk to you anymore, because you say what's on your mind, and simply put your beliefs in text form. It often catches me by suprise, by the people who won't talk to me. People that I've considered friends for many years.

On with life, I've been contemplating whether or not I should continue writing articles, after some incidents that happened. For one, the rare occasion that people recognize me, they feel that they have the right to come up and tell me that I'm wrong. That, I don't mind. But if your going to swear at me, in front of my little cousin, then you got another thing comming. I don't mind the language when my little cousin isn't around, but if you think you can come and use that kind of language around my cousin. Then your wrong, I will tell you straight. Second is, the hate e-mails that I get. Sure, some of them are funny, and some are hard to take seriously. But it's just the overwhelming amount that get's to me sometimes. Some idiot e-mailed me 450 times in a row, and wiped out my other mail in my inbox. So yeah, I don't really know if I'd like to continue writing articles. Or perhaps I shouldn't put my e-mail address in with my articles huh?

I hate being a coward, and not write. People out there bully people because they have different beliefs. That's what I can't stand. Bullies. I've been bullied up until grade 9 (when I hit my growth spurt), and it drove me crazy. It had an effect on my grades, and made me not want to come to school. So I'm not the type to bully anyone. Nor can I stand bullies.