Sometimes I think about it. Sarah and I are the last two people on earth. And things go back to our normality. As dumb as it sounds, I sometimes like to think about it. But then again, what are the odds of that happening? I like to play with my imagination a whole lot. But right now I have a whole lot to offer. As back then, I didn't. And I was totally suprised that she loved me the way she did. But anywho, I'm different now, and alot more mature. And on the maturity level that I wish to be on, I'm on 6. The maturity level is on 10. I still need to improve, but I'm happy with my accomplishments. Would I go back to her if she wanted me back? In a heart beat. I wouldn't even think about it. But that's the way life is I guess. As pitiful as I may seem, its true. I'm only being honest. Sometimes I'm so rarely involved in what a person is thinking that I actually become part of what they're thinking. Like synchronicity. We were so in tune. But now I think its over, I'm still open to the idea, and I guess she has other plans. I guess I really should stop talking about this.
On with my life.
I'm writing this on a Friday early morning, its 2:21am and we have our opening night tonight for our theatre. I've always loved acting, and I always say that if your a good actor, your a good liar. I can't believe its March already. Time flies when your busy I guess. Its so refreshing to get back into acting again. I never lied really well in long time. I guess I'm a good liar. But rarely there's things to lie about. Most of the time I just tell how it is. Lies become difficult to remember. hahahaha. Anywho.... yes. I discovered that it is true, some tea leaves fell into an emporors hot water, and viola tea was created. It wasn't english guys, it was an asian emperor.

I think with my life, I'm totally happy. I love nature, I love the outdoors. And on occasions I'm caught totally admiring the place that I'm in. It's like I'm in a dream. Like tonight, I was driving along the lake, this was about midnight, and I saw the lake, the scenery, the stars, the moon. Everything, the smell of the air was so refreshing, it was hard for me to explain it. I could see the outline of the hills in the blue-ish tinge of the moonlight. The stars, oh my god, the stars looked as though I can reach my hand and catch a thousand of them. They looked that close. And between the stars was a beautiful midnight that I missed so much. Maybe something is supposed to happen to me? I realize that life is wonderful. Being alive feels so good. Alot of people focus on the bad side of life. All they know and remember was the bad stuff that happened. I see the good things, I see the nature, I see everything. This past summer when I was driving up on the hills, I stopped my car and walked about a kilometer down the road, and it was so awesome. The frogs and crickets creeked, and the wind was blowing, and you can hear the midnight air. The wind gently swayed the long grass back and forth.

If anything should happen to me, I just want people to know that I love life. I lived my life as much as I could. And I'm happy. I realized alot of things, and I saw things. My life wasn't a waste, I made the best of it. Sometimes you have to live your life with no regrets, and that's what I'm doing. I'm thankful for the people that are in my life, and were in my life. And it just sometimes feels like when you reach this height realization, its like something is going to happen to you. It's very rare that you find someone with this general realization. Or maybe its just that my native roots are finally catching up with me? I don't know. I've just grown to love nature, the outdoors, and tons of things like that. Although, I still have that feiry quality in me that I do love. I love me, as an individual, and as a being of "Curtis".

Whispering Winds
Like the whispering winds that seduce you,
I whisper in your ears that I love you too.
Like the midnight air that resides by your side,
I lay with such great love, that I do abide.
Like the rain off your window my tears are true,
my tears don't only shed for you.