That's how I feel sometimes. I just throw myself in automatic, and just drift through the whole day. And by the end of the day I'm like "whuh? what time is it? wow! really!" I don't know, sometimes my mind is so busy with thinking of alot of other things, my body just turns on the automatic switch. I guess that's a good thing sometimes. But sometimes its the wrong moment, you know? And as well, I do love being "in the moment" I just memorize everything, the wind, the air, the temperature, what the person is wearing, the light qualities. Anything that I feel that is important. Its just appreciation, I think sometimes, and other times, its afterthoughts thats really great. Memories, ahhhh....precious memories, hahaha. I write these for me, not for anybody really. I don't write them to get into girls pants, or anything like that. I write these, because I feel the need to. Like while I'm writing this, I'm just blabbering to myself, more like talking to myself yah. I'm still in search of "me" you know? I still don't know who I am as "me". And I guess so many people take the road that I'm taking, searching, but on the way, they are finding things about themselves, like me, I don't like farming, so I'm not a farmer. It takes one career off of my career list. I just don't want to be the guy everybody wants me to be, I just want to be the man that I was meant to be. And I don't really want to take "the god" route. Its often travelled by people, I want to take the road less traveled, or blaze my own trail. Do what's right for me, not what's good for everybodies mind. You know? As dumb as that may have sounded, its true, its what I feel. I can't help but feel for myself, not anything or what anybody wants me to feel. But I'm not lost. And please don't try to "find me" or any of that bullshit. I'm not religious or anything so please respect that, just like I'm respecting every other religions. I don't agree with them, but I do respect them. I'm not a sheep. Although I do have faith, I have faith in people, not in "god" or anything like that. I guess if I was religous, I'd be a budhist, or muslim. I don't know why, maybe its the cool names, or something.

I guess I love summer alot more than winter. And you don't really appreciate the summer unless you went through a Saskatchewan winter. Summer is what I always look forward to. Camping is so awesome, I love hiking and backpacking. So many awesome summer memories. Its being cooped up in the house during winter. I love Saskatchewan, I love Fort Qu'Appelle alot. The hills are super beautiful, and the sun sets are to die for. Its just so supernatural to witness a Sunset over Echo Lake. Its, lets see........what word should I use? Orgasmic I guess sounds appropriate. Its like "Who can bring me heaven, when heavens already here." you know? I'm totally in love with the valley. Great idea's, great idea's, I have tuns of them. But they're my secret until I come back.

Sometimes I really love to talk to people who put down their fences. You know? They trust me, and they can 'really' talk to me. They talk about things they like to talk about. I'm really interested in what people have to say. I really am. I think it just adds on to my experience, and it adds to my 'person'. If that made any sense or not, I'd be glad to clear it up. As a 'person' I am me, I have no expectations of anything, and by you telling me things that you really comfortable with, hey I'm there, I'm interested. You know?

I hate argueing with stupid people, first they drag you down to their level, then they beat you with experience. ;) Have a nice day, BON JOUR!