My son has been trying to get me on the Internet, thinking I would enjoy the chat rooms. I resisted the idea for months but one Sunday I visited his house and we spent the afternoon on the computer. He showed me what I could do, and this convinced me to get connected.
Two days later he set my computer up. I enjoyed being in the first chat room, I got into on the Tuesday, although I observed rather than talked, I found it very interesting. A few nights later when I went in my son was on line and we talked for a while, but he left the chat room just as a medium came in.
This medium said he had been told to come into the chat room at 9.45p.m. And to find me and give me a message from my husband, who had died two years earlier. He told me my husband had been trying very hard to contact me, and he was sorry about what had happened just after he died. I think he was that excited he was allowed to contact me, he didn�t realise I wasn�t ready, and I couldn�t understand why it was happening to me.
He told me John had told him to tell me to stop tying myself down, and to write this book. I was looking after my friends two children while she worked; they were sleeping overnight twice a week sometimes more. I stopped the babysitting next day; their uncle looks after them now. I had started to go back to the church a few weeks earlier, and he said he was pleased about that.
The medium told me I had met my guides, I was puzzled but when he described them I knew they were the man, woman and child I had seen in the vision. He gave me messages about my family, mentioning them by name. He told me John had sent me a healing spirit to undo all the damage I had done to my body, John and I had been heavy drinkers over the years and I was still drinking.
He told me to stop drinking now as I didn�t need to any more, but he said I could still smoke. Well I will have to stop drinking now or the healing will have been in vain. That was what it was, I wish they had told me at the time, I knew in my mind it was something like that, but I wish they would clarify their actions. That must have been the spirit John was trying to catch, and the orange stone warming me was part of the healing.
He told me John was packing me a case and I would be travelling. I had to learn to communicate with spirits and John would be around for another two years to help me. I was told it wouldn�t be easy and I had to start straight away.
He said John had been keeping him awake, talking about his life when he was young and had talked non-stop for four nights. That sounded like my John always the good storyteller. The medium found me in the chat room three nights running, with long messages coming through from my husband and my father. Mainly about my family reassuring me and telling me what was planned for their future and mine.
These were the most in depth messages I had received so far, everything he said was accurate to the smallest detail. He knew I had been contacted through the post from other mediums and asked me why I had not responded. I told him I didn�t think I should pay for their help. I don�t think that asking for money, luck, etc. is right anyway. You get whatever you deserve and if it�s meant to happen it will. He agreed with me.
He also said that it was Johns wish that I joined the circle and I would be accepted into it. I thought when the two marigolds closed together it was like a clock telling me it was Johns time up, he told me I was wrong, they closed to keep Johns spirit safe and something came to collect him and carry him out on the flower that was snapped off. This being slammed the door as it left the house with John. The medium didn�t tell me much about his self, but he did say his name was the same as my husbands, he was an American and he lived in Glasgow now.
Things are getting explained to me now, and I am pleased to have some explanations. The spirits are taking their time with me now instead of overloading my poor brain. He was asked by John to be a mentor to me, he said he would come into the chat room twice a week to talk to me and teach me. He said I would write this book and put it on a web page, and I would learn to be a healer.
I had some difficulty with my computer and I have not heard from him since then. But I am sure that if I need him he will find me. I started writing the next day; I had kept rough notes and the important details I have included. There have been a lot of small instances I have missed out; you know when John was just trying to get my attention.
He did however switch the electric kettle on when my friend was in the house; she made a joke about it and said I had a remote control. But we thought it was John, I told another medium what had happened and he described the spirit who had switched it on, and it turned out to be my dad. I was wrong again. They must be looking after me in shifts. I have been to the circle for the second time this week, and find I take a lot longer than the others take to open. By the time I start getting images through its time to close the circle. I see objects but don�t know their meaning yet but when I have given them to someone in the circle they say they understand.
I believe it was one of my guides quizzing me that night I saw bits of sketches on the television. Getting to know what opinions I had formed so far in my life. That night I felt so much energy it was frightening, I wonder if I will ever get the results of that exam or did I fail because I fled.
The baby come into my life ten months after John died, I now believe he was telling me I had a grandson on the way, he is just so perfect, and hopefully I will have more beautiful grandchildren to come. I enjoy going on the Internet now and there are loads of sites to learn more about spirit contacts.
There is still a lot I don�t understand, and I will always be a student it may take me a few more lifetimes to graduate. I will enjoy learning though. I was told I will become a healer and, I like the idea, if I succeed I hope I will be able to help as many people as I can, my husband has faith in me, now I need to have faith in myself. I believe I taught my husband how to love, it took me twenty-seven years, and he has come back to reward me for my patience. Now he is showing me his love.
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