I hear her words as they leave her precious lips.
It is upon them that I wish I could kiss.
I mustn't thought; I fear it would ruin the night.
I may want to but what makes me think I have the right.
It was a casual thing; it was because she was bored.
To blow any chance on a whim I just can't afford.
Still the urge it there, how long can I fight it?
Such a thing should be saved for when we are in private.
This is a parking lot??? not the best place for such things.
If I were to escape with a kiss though such joy it could bring.
No, there is that thought again plaguing my mind.
I must redcind and let such ideas unwind.
Maybe if that movie wasn't such a complete catastrophe.
I would be more secure and not want to let things be.
She forgave you for that, you weren't to blame.
Besides, all the other movies probably would have been the same.
It is all right you got to know more about her than before.
Next time not a movie with so much gore.
I didn't think of her as a model until I saw her there.
Stuck in aw for so long after, it was more than I could bear.
How did I muster up the courage to even ask for her number?
How did I find it in me to ask for some time from her?
That is so unlike me, what made it that much more easy?
Well I did freak and I know that made me look geeky.
If anything I can't look back with any regrets, I actually tried.
Though in the end I might feel like crawling under a rock to hide.
It is all right I ended that night in such bliss.
Maybe somewhere down the road I can retrieve that kiss.
Departure
First I pray everyday just to get me by.
It is only because my Lord that I actually try.
Can't give up I have to make our Father proud.
Before my body ends un in the ground.
Clean off the sin that I have gathered on my soul.
All that stress on my life that has taken its toll.
Has me all stressed out and I don't know why.
None of it will matter the day that I die.
Wordly pleasures are only around for a second of eternity.
But it is because of them I don't know what will happen to me
Slipped up so many times I don't deserve to be forgiven.
I feel that I lost out on my chance to go to heaven.
So what, should I give up and make my life worse?
I might as well try my hardest to lift this curse.
Is it too little to late? I won't know until it is my time.
Though I feel it might be hell for all my crimes.
Back Again
I knew this was a mistake from the start
I knew I should have never given you back my heart
I did it before and you cause me such anguish
To have taken it back used to be my only wish.
Then we were seperated and you started to care for me
And when I came back I felt that it was destiny
You are my perfect girl or so I thought every day
You said you loved me and with me you would always stay
But maybe it was because you thought I was the best you could get
Maybe I made you feel special by saying you I could never forget
Whatever the reason there we were once again.
Skipped over everything since we knew we couldn't be friends
It was all fine and dandy, are relationship grew strong
You transformed your body so your low self esteem was gone
That's when the other guys started to notice and you noticed them too
And then your heart started to split in two
You started acting strange and keeping things from me
And I took it but in my mind I knew I was being deceived
The culmination was the day I caught you in your little lie
After reading that text message I just wanted to die
I couldn't believe it, I trusted you so damn much
How could you do like that, it was so fucked up
You got on my case about my lil sisbecause I'm three years her senior
But he has to be over ten years older then you, so how do you figure
It is cool I guess whatever let's just forget the whole thing
About us together forever cause now it can never be
I loved you so much more than I knew I should
But doing something like this to me I thought you never could
My mistake I should have known never to trust you
It happened before but I thought the years apart gave you a clue.
So much pain inside I wanted you to be the last girl I was with
I gave you my heart and all you did was throw it with shit.
Jack's Poem
It all happened so fast, I didn't know what was going on
Earlier today you were feeling fine but now you are gone
I still can't believe it I never imagined this moment at all
I just can't understand how something like this did befall
Seeing you lie there with the blood coming out of your mouth
My heart and stomach sank straight down south
We did all that we could boy I wish you could have pulled through
Brain dead or not you know we would still always love you
And now I miss your face and I hate myself for not spending more time
Playing with you, I feel I committed a heinous crime
Seeing you lay there in the back of the car as we rushed you to the vet
And thinking of all the time in your condition you must have spent
To get as bad as it did I wish I could have just went outside
To check on you, I didn't think you would have died
But I hate myself for it, why couldn't I have changed such an event?
Was such a dastardly deed supposed to be meant?
What was the purpose? What lesson should be taught from this?
All I know is that forever it will be you that we miss
I remember when you first came home and how scared you were
You would hide under me and that would be your frights cure
And then you got older yet at times you did the same thing
God for you I wish it would have been me
So much regret now so the saying has been true all along
You will never know what you have until it is gone
I hate that you're gone and I hate that I couldn't save you
I hate that life has to go on and that today was actually true
So this one's for you Jack, you were such a good boy
Know that your life filled all of us with such joy.
Jamie Baby
My life without you by my side would be pain insurmountable
The feelings that I have when I am with you can only be described as incredible.
I never could have guessed that love could ever be this amazing
And that it could have me doing so many crazy things
But I couldn't care less if anyone were to laugh of the things I did for you
For there are millions of other embarrassing things for you that I would do
If it will make you happy then you can just about consider it done
Cause in my heart of hearts you are the person I hold as my number one
I want to be with you from here until my parting breaths from this earth
If that were to happen I will consider my life more than well worth
I love you sweet heart and I wish there were stronger words to say
But know that I do and I will always forever, even after my dying day.
Finding
(Part 1)
And there he was, wondering what life was meant to be
Will true love ever find him waiting
It feels like he is running out of time
In his life love didn't seem to hold a part
There always seemed to be a lock on his heart
He had all but given up in despair
Because he had lost all faith
And he was tired of the wait
He decided to live a loveless life
Never have any kids or the pleasure of a wife
He lived long into this sheme
Lacking what life did truly mean
Until a voice called upon him to say
My son why all the sorrow?
Do you need some joy to borrow?
Is there anything in your life that you need?
Why is your heart so full of this doubt?
Did you forget what life is all about?
Trust in me and you will be happy
In a week make way to this place
There you will set eyes on her face
And you will be lonely no more,
(Part 2)
And there she lay, just like she had so many times before
Maybe that's why she was called a whore
All she ever wanted was to be liked
And so she went with so many lovers
In between all of their covers
Love was never meant to feel this way
Because she lost her self respect
For someone to love her was never meant
Would see live her life like this always?
Hating herself more and more each day
There were many times she wanted it to end
A lonely soul without even a friend
No one would miss her when she was gone
But she couldn't she knew it was wrong
She prayed for a stop to her suffering
She just knew she had to do something
Her eyes opened filled with tears
A voice talked to her saying it will be okay
My child your suffering ends on this day
Your true love waits for you out there
He is the answer to all your prayers
In a week he will appear in this coastal town
And with him you will never have a frown
You will never have to be happy again.
(Part 3)
And there they stood just like they were told they would be
This must be what they called destiny
They stood there as they caught each others eyes
How slowly they came together, it seemed like it took forever
But they wound up in each other's arms
They stand entranced with one another
How could it have take so long for them to find each other?
This must be what they call love at first sight.
Because he can't take his eyes off of her
And she can't take her eyes off of him
One kiss and they escape from the binds of time
How perfect an instant as this, the first time that lovers kiss
Nothing could seperate them at all
Because he is captivated by her
And she is captivated by him
How simply two people can become one?
So away they went from this blessed place they met
It is true that everything in life is meant
They got married and started a family
They lived out the rest of their days together
Showing that true love does last forever
And when they passed they did so hand and hand
Because he could never let go of her
And she could never let go of him
Their love continued into the after life
They were destined to be
Drawn from the seperate lives they lead
Followed their hearts to that coastal shore
And were never lonely anymore.
Heartbreak
Hearing you choke back a cry trying to hide
I can't lie or deny
I felt like I could die.
I never meant to hurt you
Tell me how this pain I can undo
Cause to you I just want to be true.
Now your saying your trough with me
How can this be
You have to see that we are destiny.
You were my pride and joy
Our love nothing can destroy
Cause you know I was always meant to be your boy.
Even though things now are crazy
I still say you're my baby
Cause to me you'll always be amazing.
Please don't let it end this way
This can't be our last day just tell me what to say
To put these thoughts at bay.
I don't want you out of my life
Hell I want you as my wife
I want to end your strife.
Bling
They say that diamonds are forever
That saying no truer than the day I met you
The sparkle in your eye held me in a trance
And there was nothing I could do
Dancing with you I felt a closeness
I hadn't felt in a long time
Wondering if there were possibilities
The you could ever be mine
Didn't want to start the thought
I just got done having me heart broken
But I couldn't stand by and see
Your heart taken without having spoken
I have nothing but fun
When you are around it is splendid
Wondering if our souls
Could possibly be kindred
There is not telling in this world
Who are sould mate may be
Still there is only today
So I have to see if yours is me
Not sure but in life
How mant things are permanent?
All you can do is live
And make the best of all of it
So continue my inquiry I will
Until I know what is to become of you and I
Sitting, waiting, wishing,
Hoping for the slightest sign.
Fem Annie
Oh feminist Annie you are a spectacular being
You stole my heart without having to do a thing
With your precious smile and a personality no one could beat
Just have you as a friend is a blessing to me
Wish I could help you through your trial in life
But I know you have to do it alone to make everything right
Just know you can count on me whenever you need a friend
And I will wait for you until you are ready for something to begin
CVause you need to grow and I don't want to hinder what life has sent
Still I feel meeting you wasn't an accident it was meant
I can remember first seeing you and that smile that brightened up my day
I knew that I would get to know you some day in some way
Crushing on you from that minute and I can't deny any part
Just hoping that maybe soon I could claim your heart
Tell then I will be your friend until death
And will do you right until my very last breath.
JAM Ends
Sitting back in my bedroom
Feeling all alone
Want you to stop by but you are gone
You had something else to do
And now I'm feeling blue
Cause all I want to do is be with you
I know that you're happy
Though it drives me crazy
Thinking you're being shady
But I can't fight it
Cause we both called it quits
So I live with this feeling in my stomachs pit
Although its getting better now
Still some times I feel down
Cause I miss having you around
You will always be my baby girl
Always want you in my worl
Cause in this land of rocks you're a pearl
So until the time we are again
My feelings will never end
Cause you will always be my friend.
Wondering
In the end there is nothing but pain and doubt
Still trying to figure out what we were all about
Wondering if I should have kept my distance from you
Thinking if the whole time you were playing me for a fool
Denouncing that notion cause I have no proof of it
Contemplating if apart was the way we were meant
Not even seeing a future with you standing with me
It's the only way to make our situation more easy
Threw me for a loop still that shouldn't have been a surprise
Just want you to know when you're ready I won't be that guy
No third times the charm I gave you a second that's it
I will tell you now someday you will regret calling it quits
Though at times I know I could have been overbearing
But no man alive could compete with me in caring
You were my love, for you I fought hoping that you would feel right
Maybe I drove you away with all the games I played that led to so many fights
Who knows now what life holds for you and I
Hope you have a good life and know I'll love you 'til I die.
Ja Ma Ma
(set to Frances of Mute by The Mars Volta)
We can't always say what we feel, cause feelings change everyday
ine change in instances and I need to learn no to say
How I feel at every moment and every week
Cause it's making all my relationships bleek
Hate the things I'm saying I swear it's not how I feel
Just know when I say I love you know that it's real
Look at how I was yesterday and how I did overreact
I was just so lucky you were willing to take me back
And I'm trying to change my ways as much as I can
So that down the road I can once again be your man
Our love will last forever and I know you need time
I just know in the end you will always be mine.
Girl in the Hall
We met in the hall, we were both a little early
Instantly attracted to that long hair that was a lil curly
I was in a strange mood that day which allowed us to talk
Any other day and right past you I would walk
I'm a shy guy with a self esteem that isn't very high
But that day it was up there, though I don't know why
Either way it made it possible for us to meet, a beautiful mistake
Still have to muster up the courage for that next step to take
Love hearing of your weekends and learning more about you
Hate that I only see you once every seven morning dews
Hoping for the day that the number of times will increase
Afraid of the day that seeing you may cease
So heres to hopes we at least become great friends
If not then happy I will refuse to pretend
E. Ka
Damn girl you got me feeling so intense
Been a long time since I felt this sense
Thought it was gone burried in the ground
Resurected the second that you came around
So hot girl no matter what your hair color
Wondering if you would hit your friends brother
Would treat you good girl don't worry about that
Cause with you is where I wanna be at
I know that what I'm saying may seem outta whack
But I'll prove my self the day I break that back
I'm a grown dude don't expect any silly games
And I was raised up never to act like a lame
So my skin chick let us match once more
Nothing but our skin all of our clothes on the floor
Rubbin and kissing plus caressing and touchin
Gettin the mood just right before we start fuckin
Hittin those right spots so you'll remember my name
After that night girl you'll never feel the same
I'll make you forget that I'm the younger sibling
Girl I just want to know if you are willing
Guess I'll have to wait til the next time you are next to me
Until then girl you will all ways be my ultimate fantasy.
