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Sweetness
Two years have past yet I still feel the same way
Seeing you again and it seems I haven't missed a day
You are still the same perfect girl I was crazy for in the past
Never knew how long this feeling could possibly last
Yet the sparks still there and I can't get enough of you
I'm hoping you feel the same way that I do
But I'm not trying to tie you down and ruin your game
Even if your out getting down and I'm not doing the same
Cause you are so beautiful you can have anyone
You never have to settle with just having one
Still I will be there whenever you need
And my heart, this time, is not full of greed
I'm cool with what we have and never want it to change
Well maybe in the future but that's a ways away
For now I'll give you my all and do the best for you I can
Because I love you girl and I'm so lucky to be your man.

Playing the Pawn
Sitting here thinking and my mind begins to twist
Started to feel that it wasn't my actions that made everything go amiss
Feeling like I was a pawn in a jealousy game
If true, so sad, since it is wrong to put me through such pain
I hope you weren't acting that way
Because everything that happened between us is taking a toll on my brain
Wonder why when things got good you went away
Then thought that was it, I was used to make him change
If not true tell me so
Since I will give anything to let that feeling go
But until you prove to me that it's not true
I will continue to think that I meant nothing to you
Now this could be and I will have to deal with the fast that I was played
But tell me now since this indecision has me in a craze.

JAM
I want to be with you so bad
The fact that I can't just drives me mad
Your the only thing in life that I need
Just wish there were some way we could be
Never had a girl make me feel this way
I'm hoping your heart might feel the same
Cause your the only girl in my life for me
And with you is where I want to be
You have been with him so long
And what we're doing might seem wrong
But just the thought of holding you all night
Let's me know that it has to be right
Always happy when you are here
Getting the chance to hold you near
Can't remember my girls name when I'm with you
Wonder if you forget his name too
Fighting the desire to kiss you so
Everytime you have to go
Happy cause you find time for us to be together
It's just depressing that it can't last forever
Being way from you gets the best of me
Cause the time we spend apart is an eternity
That's why I always beg for you to stay
Since it hurts so much when you go away
My life and everything that I do
Revolve around the thoughts of seeing you
Saying there's a million better girls for me
But a girl better than you could never be.

Heartache
So many things unknown, just wish I could see
have been told all ready that you would just hurt me
Still willing to try don't care about the consequence
Though I know in the end it will cause countless stress
Got to get it through my head that everything can't go my way
Everyone has there own emotions and don't always see things the same
Thinking about you and wondering how things are the way they are
My feelings for you are stronger than for any girl by far
Maybe that's why i can't seem to get you off my mind
But I have to except the fact that you will never be mine
Going through too much right now and you need to get it figured out
Just remember that I'll always be here for you if you ever have any doubt
Sorry I am sorry so much and never have much to say
But my heart has me all choked up and I can never find the way
To tell you how I feel or even ask how you have been
All I can think about is how your heart I will never win
I'll tell you thin I am here if you ever want to have me
I stay and pray for the day we can actually be
And if it turns out the day we will be is really never
Then I will just have to keep the memory of us in my mind forever
Cause those few days were the happiest in my life and you can believe that
But now it is sad to say that I can never bring those days back.

Relationship Cycle
(Part 1)
Such a bliss when we met
The first kiss I can't forget
Since that time you are always on my mind
I'm always wishing you are mine
Though when I had the chance I was blind
To turn back the hands, change how everything stands
Make it so I could be your man if I can
But it is all gone, played the game all wrong
Tried hard to keep it strong but it turned out to be a lost cause
Went through the pain of losing you
Not much that i could do
I always tried to be true
But without you my heart has turned blue
(Part 2)
Blast from the past, hear I might have a second chance
Hopefully this time it bites me in the ass
So I know that it's there
This time show that I actually care
Cause I have no hate for you
Like you say I do
Since that could never be
You just need to see
That your the perfect girl for me
That's why I always want you to stay
Never go away
What more can I say
To show you my hearts way
(Part 3)
Through all the rain and pain
Reflections of your image in my brain
I know that we can never be there is no chance
Then you come around and everything changes from your glance
To be last in the race for your heart is crippling
I can just hope maybe you will be willing
To take a chance on me
See what we could be
But for the chance of you passing up history and money for nothing
Is probably an impossible at best dream of seomthing
(Part 4)
Dazed and confused
Don't know what to do
Can't think of anything true
Except that I want to be with you
Played in a game to make things for you all good
Can't complain since for you that's the way it should
I waited for so long
Let everything else in my life go all wrong
Since you were the only thing I felt I needed
Thought with you my life would be completed
Up and gone
Yet I still can't move on
Wishing I could see your face
That you would come back to my place
And I guess wishes do come true
Since yesterday after all this time I got to see you.

The Night's Forever
It was just one night only happened one time
Yet the memories of that evening stays embedded in my mind
I was so happy when is all came to an end
Then I realized after that we were back at just being friends
Here I am going crazy cause in my heart I want you desperately
Thinking of you being with your man and I'm wishing that it was me
Want you to know that I am here through your pain and your struggle
Depend on me whenever you have needs or your in trouble
Everything about you has me sprung and addicted
Trying to find places to go or just time that we can kick it
Wondering if it were a different place and time
Would there be a chance that you would be mine
Perhaps it's just my destiny to be all alone
Depressed and sad never have a chance to live in a happy home
Sitting telling you that you're the only thing I want to have
Your only answer is your trouble, not to love you cause your bad
But that cannot be, why can't you see, you're a gift in this world
Your heaven sent, I just wish it were meant, that you were my girl.

LaS
Funny how things ended this way
Never thought we'd be together back in the day
We we're friends talking about the special someones to us
We made a few sex jokes but it wasn't a fuss
I spent maby drunken nights on your couch
Who would have knew in the future we'd be looking for a house
It's amazing now thinking how much I love you
And I'm lucky that you share these feelings with me too
Though I know sometimes I piss you off nd you don't want to be with me
So I am so lucky you are also so forgiving
Cause there isn't a day I don't want to be with you
Even when I am pissed and in the worst mood
Now our futures set and all that's left is to live out our days
Together forever, hand in hand is the only way.

Hidden
How long must I hide my true self inside
Why can't I break the ties that bind
Long for the past but love the present
But thinking of your past makes me hesitant
You lived a full life and three times again
You've had multiple partners and kids with your ex husband
And here I am not even a year out of high school when we got together
Talking to me how you want to be with me forever
Is that just cause everyone else has left you and you feel I'm your last chance
You must have cast a good spell to get me in such a trnace
Yet you slipped up cause learned you can't trust
Thought you knew in a relationship it's all or bust
You destroyed the machine that you built to control my life
Now that you're gone my future looks so bright
All my stress and hardships seem to have left with you
Put up with so much it's no wonder why everyone called me a fool.

The End
I can't believe that it took so long for us to fall apart
Don't even know how I let this relationship even start
You were my friend hearing all about my little games
And all my escapades with all these different dames
Can't imagine how you let yourself fall for a guy like me
WSas it because so many others put you through such misery
How could you possibly think I wouldn't do the same to you
I guess hoping is the only thing left that you could do
You know it would just take time before I moved on
And I thought it would hurt you a lot more when I was gone
But you moved on the very next day
So I know that ending it wasn't a mistake.

CaC
Millions of seconds and thousands of minutes have past
Since the last time at your face I did glance
Humbled how after all of this time
You are so beautiful in body and of the mind
For it was your thoughts that had attracted me to you
What seems like ages ago, while IMing you in my room
It was for you I ended a makeshift romance
Just to throw it all away when you gave me a chance
We remained sparce friends only conversating here and there
And every time we talked I was reminded how much I cared
I vanished for a while but you remained the same
Talking to you that night reminded me of better days
Time has passed now and I have returned from a stressful journey
But instead of making things right I drove you away with my immaturity
One look at you girl caused my courage to depart inside
And it's safe to say I killed your feelings for me in stride
Now we are apart again and I'm left all alone
You don't even answer when I call you on the phone
So I use this now, I guess to say my last good bye
Pardon my sorrow but it hurts to see this die
I've known you for so long, how can it end now
Don't want to go the rest of my life withouy you around.

Breakdown
Not the hardest man in town
Not even half sane now
Stressed life flip my frown
No tears ever came from a clown

Everybody seems to do it better
Can't seem to find the words ever
Mind all cloudy going through bad weather
Should have known not to mix all these drugs together

Don't want to ever be left alone
Though I have strong desires to roam
Can't leave the house an empty home
I need a queen next to my thrown

Locked up for a law I couldn't abide
Life sentence how can I feel alive
Everyday in the back of my mind I cry
Is there truly any reason left to try

It's never too late to go back home
No matter how many years you've spent on the road
The time you spent away helped you to grow
But you had no one you were all alone
Not once did you have to answer a ringing phone
Cause you dissed your family the day you moved on
Yet they still loved you every second that you were gone
How lucky you are for not being punished for your wrongs