Try to tell myself that I don't love you
But the way I feel makes that untrue
Everything you say I can't forget
I just feel that we are meant
I dreamed of us too many times for it to be fake
I know these things fortell our fate
Though I just say I want to be friends
I hope for the day that this lie will end
The color of your eyes your hair so fine
Everything about you is embedded in my mind
I will I will only get in your way
I love you so much there is nothing else to say
I know you are set for the future and I am not there
But my feelings are so strong that I just wish you to care
I may call you my lil' sis'
But I know you sense something is amiss
That I think of you in another way that I say
You have tol me that my eyes tell you the same
Though you want to play the players and I'm not even in the game
I want to be with you and only my heart is to blame
I have to find someway to let you know how I feel inside
Because it's so obvious and hard to hide
But I fear the worst if I were to
So please tell me what I am to do
Will these secret feelings remain inside of me?
Or will I let them out to see if we are meant to be.
Not Friends of Mine
How could I have been so ignorant and blind?
Thinking that they were really friends of mine
Only coming when he was around
This little game is getting me down
See at first I thought they were really my friends
But now that he is gone my friendship with them is at an end
These so called friends
Made me lose all my sense
Changing my thoughts and the way I act
How could I have allowed things to get like that?
I guess it was my desperateness trying not to be alone
Or maybe just the thought of having someone to call on the phone
But I guess they played me out and moved on with their lives
While I am here trying to make the most of all the good times
And how I miss those days so
I just wish they didn't have to go
Those days when I felt like I was finally alive after all this time
Now those times are just a memory in my mind.
My Girl
There is someone out there for everybody or so people say
Someone to make you happy and make your day
I never thought this until the day I met you
After that I think this saying true.
I don't want you to go
You are my heart and soul
The reason that I live
The one that I adore
And I can't stand the thought of being without you
Believe me when I say that my feelings are true
See I fell in love with you
And I don't know what to do
That day that I found you
Was like a dream come true.
Friendship
Now see in the begining it's just harmless discussion
A little frontin and touchin but ain't nobody fussin
They constantly together and when they're not they're on the phone
When asked about it they say their friends cause they don't even know
Then the time comes and the girl's feelings change
She starts yearning for the guy getting all in a craze
The guy still innocent to the feeling don't know what's going on
Wondering why she's acting differently after so long
He starts thinking might as well give it a try
Not willing to let his best friend slip out of his life
So they get together but it isn't as she had planned
She starts realizing she doens't want him as her man
So she changes again throwing the guy off track
Actin like she wants the friendship back
But it's too late the guy has caught the feelin
Still the girl is not willing to jump back in
She cuts him loose and gets on with her life
He's stuck there wondering what happened to their good time
And just like that they go their seperate ways
Leaving behind every memory since they met in third grade.
Senor Cupid
In another time we were the closest of friends
Hanging out everyday until the day would end
Yeah back in high school we were always together
Didn't think anything could ever tear us apart never
Up through graduation nothing ever changed
Hanging out through summer looking toward our college days
Then here they came and there we went
Talk here and there just to hear each other vent
But the closeness of friendship isn't there anymore
Don't think anything can make it like it was before
Cause in the few months we have grown apart
Life is so hectic for friends there isn't a part
We got our own lives now what can I say
Must admit a part of me wishes we were back int he day
Cause those were some fun times out late cruising the mall
But we're grown ups now we can't have such immature calls
Still here's to the times of days we once had
And the times I would stay at your pad
The many memories that brought a smile to my past
As long as they stay in my mind the good times will last.
Lord
My Lord Jesus Christ I know I need to change my ways
Living this sinful life has me going insane
I wish I followed your word since the first day of my life
I wish the first girl I was with would have been my wife
I'm sorry for all the times I take your name in vain
I'm sorry I get caught up playing such sinister games
I know I was wrong for never respecting my mother
I know I'm wrong for not teaching your word to my brother
Forgive me Lord for the times I tried to commit suicide
I know your the only one that decides when I should die
I pray that you give my friends and family nothing but the best
I pray that the grudges that I hold within me finally come to a rest
I ask that you allow me to see everyone through your kind eyes
And give me the ability to better everyone's lives
When I need the strength you shouldn't be the last one I turn to
When I'm in trouble I shouldn't blame all my problems on you
(under construction)
NaO
Girl the thing abut you that caught my eye
Is when you started talking about all of your guys
Saying what had happened and what went wrong
Girl if you gave me a chance I will show you how to get it on
See I can be the guy you need
To fullfill your sexual fantasy
So if your down just let me know
I'll be there to give it to you nice and slow
Cause you need a guy like me in your life
Someone to fill your needs and treat you right
I'll do you anyway you want me to
Cause my goal is to please you
Got with these guys that you thought could please you
But when it came down to it they didn't know what to do
And now your frustrated and need it fast
Girl you can count on me to please that ass.
DaB
Sitting here wishing I could hear your voice on the other line
But the ringing only seems to lead to your voice mail every time
It feels like forever since I had the priveledge to hear your voice
Though I know that to you I'm not your only choice
Here I am falling head over heels and you don't have a clue
We are just friends but you know I have stronger feelings for you
I know I shouldn't act this way because of your age
But everything about you has me all in a craze
The early morning phone calls and talking everyday
Makes me want you I just wish that there was a way
Transpires
I felt as though I was losing my way
I couldn't find anything to make me feel the same
No knowing what direction I was coming or going
Afraid of the slightest emotion to be showing
All it will cause is tremendous pain
So I decided to get caught up in a bunch of little games
Now I feel as though I am being selfish and unruly
Still stuck thinking about my pure beauty
How I let her get away tell myself I am better life's anew
That it was just another broken road to pass through
On my way to the true love that I was meant to be with
Now thinking that song is full of it
But all I have now is to dream of the better things to come
While messing around with all these other ones
Don't think of myself as a bad person so why feel guily
Thinking I am getting myself into such filth
Having the time of my life though so why complain
It was what i was yearning for when I was with the dame
Guess just the thought of laying down alone each night
Though in the afternoon they are here curing my plight
No one to cuddle with when I my dreams come to me
I all ways thought that this way it should be
I was tired of being in a relationship why change my mind
Guess still trying to get over all of that time
Though I am over it guess trying to get over the lonliness
Which is why I am all ways out getting into all kinds of mess
Don't think I could settle with a girl for some time now
Though so many think that in no time that road we will go down
Feel bad for leading them on but the love in my heart is platonic
No matter what I say when I drink and am high off the chronic
You're only twenty one once right so i am going to live it up
Cause at this point I just really don't give a fuck.
Suga
Oh my homegirl McNutt you have me in a rutt
I dont' know what it is, is it just the way you shack your butt
The way you talk, maybe your past
Or is it cause of how long in that spa you made me last
The way you make me feel everytime you're near
What you whispered to me that night in my ear
Could it be cause I couldn't believe that I was with you
Hell even til this day I can't believe it was true
You got me open, on lock, and even sprung
Your kiss the only smoke I want in my lung
You're a nuaghty girl yet so innocent in the light
I can't get around it girl you just make me feel so right
Wish that you didn't have to live so far away
Love it when you come over to stay
I could spend all day just lying there with you beside me
And hate it everytime from me you have to leave
Even though I know you are a top playa in the game
And all the fools you mess with are the same
Still want a chance to see what could be with us
Or we can stay the same girl I'm not gonna fuss
As long as I can see you once in a great while
I'll at lease know that there is one time I can smile
Si play your game girl continue to get down
Just know I'll all ways be here for you when you come around
Girl
I don't mean to hurt you girl
Don't mean to work you girl
A little sad that I'm doing this girl
But you just trip too much gril
It's all about drama with you girl
Trying to make me feel bad for not being there girl
Trying to make it seem like I'm your man girl
And I've handled almost as much as I can stand girl
Cause we ain't even together and you get mad girl
Just cause of all the girls I have girl
You all ready know what kind of friend you were getting girl
I'm the last person you should try to be upsetting girl
I try to be supportive and this you know girl
So stop trippin on me before I have to go girl
Cause I don't need this stress from someone who ain't my chick girl
Maybe it was a mistake that I ever gave you this dick girl
Since now you think I owe you and that's a joke girl
Just had no idea you'd get so sprung over a lil poke girl
Cause your man don't want you how's that on me girl
Don't think I'm gonna give up on the fish in the sea girl
It was nice to know you but I gotta move on girl
Hope you have a good life but I am gone girl
In Your Bed
He can be the one that puts you to bed
I wanna be the one that wakes you up
In the middle of the night put my love all on you
You know you wont mind cause you want it as bad as I do
I know how to keep it on the down low so he won't have to know
We can take it nice and slow got some new moves that I'm dying to show
I wanna kiss you up and down lick that kitty til your ready
This isn't a mintue production I'm trying to get hot and heavy
Could it be that you want all of me now are you sure
Don't want to make it hurt like I did before
But if you're ready for it I will put it down
Cause it turns me on so much when you moan so loud
I wanna rock your body back and forth, up and down, twirl you around
Got me on top of you, you on top of me, side by side underneath the sheets
Standing holding you as you're taking all of me
Starting to shake cause your heading for the ending
Hear you scream my name and scratch my back
Don't move thought girl cause I'm on the right track
At least gotta give you a couple more before I hit the door
Isn't that the whole reason you called me over for
I feel your leg begin to shake you're getting there again
Don't worry girl we have hours before this here's gonna end
We keep it going on girl same passion and the same rage
Finally getting to my pinnacle after the fourth time that you came
Hitting my stride girl and your about to do the same
In the moment loving the feeling we're digging deep for eachother
The serenity of it the thought runs through my head maybe we were made for one another
I pop my top but don't want to stop you're telling me you're so close
So I choke it up until you bust your nut and I grab my clothes
Happening
I can make believe that I love the life I live
That I mock you now for caring for someone elses kid
The phony rockstar life just used to feed my ego
Doing all I can to forget the day i let you go
Though I may say I am much more happy now
I still can't kill the pain that I feel deep down
Ignored it as much as I could until I thought it gone
Yet just the mention of a sighting turned the emotions on
Day went from flying high to ten feet under ground
How long will it take now to turn my feelings around
Banished you from my mind and to think I thought we could be
Friends after we broke up but I admit it would be agony
That is why I avoid a confrontation at every cost
To think of all the things because of that i lost
Still it would be worse to have to see you face to face
Which is for my life I can't go to my friend's place
Though I hang out on them it just doesn't feel the same
I can hear them catching themselves before they say your name
Been so long and yet not a day can go by when i don't think of you
To escape this place and all it's memories can be the only thing to do
For anytime I look around there is just another memory
Making me once again slip into my constant misery
Kay Jay
Kay Jay my text lover such a good friend
Early morning convos going until the day comes to an end
Been crushing on you since psych in AL high
So long ago how the years flew by
Still we keep in touch without the slightest touch
Would want to hang out once again if it's not asking too much
Though what we have is cool cause you're there when I need you
Out of all of my friends you're the one that all ways stays true
Even though half the time I'm telling you how much I want it
The other half is you saying the same thing making it quite comic
Have a funny feeling that this will change some day
Instead of text I'll be the friend you call when you want a lay
Heck girl don't trip that would be a dream to me
But I know at this point it's just a sweet sweet fantasy
I like hearing about your day and all that's going on in your life
From your job, to your flings, to all most becoming Travies wife
You've heard all about my drama and my booty calls too
Don't know why I told you that when I'm crushing on you
Want to be truthful though don't want to ever tell you a lie
Or mess with you since you were so mad when I told you I had a guy
Promise not to do it again, never thought I could make you mad
I thought I ruined our friendship for a second, never felt so sad
Refuse to lose you as a piece of my life no matter how small the part
Cause you're there with all my friends as the warming of my heart.
My Love
You claimed to be the most amazing girl and you are
We have come quite a ways since the back of that car
Didn't think I could get myself in a relationship again
But after only two short weeks that thought did end
Now we hang out everyday and I wouldn't have it another way
Just so sad cause with me you can't all ways stay
My little shorty girl you can all ways make me smile
And i am sorry for the way I get once and a while
Damn baby you drive me crazy with all those things you do
Nibbling my lip, kissing my neck, makes me so want you
I don't want to make it seem though that I want you just for that
And I don't want you to think that to me you're just a stat
You are my baby girl and you are so fun to be around
You are the one thing in my life that can never bring me down
Don't want to sound to serious cause i don't want you to freak out
Still I would say it if to you it wold shatter all your doubts
Wonder sometimes why you want to be with me
Thinking of what I did to become so lucky
I know our ages aren't exactly the perfect match
But like I told my friend you can't control where your heart is at
So now I'm getting to know you and falling more each day
And I'm hoping that on your side that things are going the same
i love holding you in my arms while you fall asleep
Must admit now my feelings are getting deep
So nothing left but to see how far our path does lead
it could possibly be that we're meant for eternity.
My Love Pt. 2
Love... so many things I'd like to tell you
I just wish it was so much easier to do
Don't want to tell you how I feel for you baby
cause in this short period I know you'll thinkg I'm crazy
But I'm feeling you in a way I thought impossible
And to you I want to be nothing but responsible
Cause you're my shinning star, my pixie dust
Want you to know that this is way past lust
Don't want to hurt or lose any of your trust
It would hurt so bad for you and I to bust
You're a gleeming hope all I need to get by
Vow not to ever cause you sorrow or make you cry
Just promise love and happiness as long as you know me
And the finest things I can get you, just wait and see
I love you babe, I know it's soon to be saying this
but truth be told you had me sprung from that first kiss
In the backseat driving through the street from Universal
Though it means retiring my party side girl you're worth it all
Waking up with you in my arms gives me the biggest smile
I know you are something since I miss you after the shortest while
Love the way you make me feel, got butterflies in side
To you I swear my loyalty will all ways abide
Funny though never thought I would fall for you so fast
Now just hopefully we can make this feeling last.
