(By David Smith)
If I can only see your face
What expression would it be?
If I can only see your face
Would it have hatred towards me?
On your car a cart and rat
Makes me think that's pretty phat.
To see you get angry and PMS
It's quite simply just the best.
And now I look back and regret the fun
That I should have placed two dead rats instead of one.
To ruin the fun you called the Marshall,
This showed me that you have no sense of humor at all, none not partial.
Well the moral of the story is now being told,
As I break it down slowly for you to unfold.
It's stupidly dumb to mess with me
Because I will irritate you just like a flea.
You will never top me I'm just the best
You will fall hard and fast like the rest.
So go far, far away and let it be
Keeping this in mind, get over it Courtney.
BnB
Now tell me how can I feel this way
Everytime I want to go you influence me to stay
Saying things to me that I don't want to hear
But I can't help but stay here
Though my brain says I should leave
My heart makes that impossible for me
The spell you used must have been strong
Cause if any other girl acted that way I would be long gone
What is it about you that seems so special for me to put up with this
You are annoying, immature, not to mention to my friends a bitch
Sitting here thinking what the hell is wrong with me
Wishing for the day when I can set my feelings free
Happy cause you were here with me today
But something happened that influenced you to change
Saying things that I know you think untrue
So tell me how I'm supposed to feel about you
Right when I think that I have you figured out
You change your game so tell me what's that all about
Why can't you just act the way you always do
Cause everytime I am with you feels like I am with somebody new
But a that's cool, cause you know I still love you
Even though you lie cause hey I do it too
Even though I know we are just friends
I still want your lying to come to an end
I can't understand why you can't tell me everything that is true
Anything you say won't affect the way I feel about you
So please just tell me what I want to hear
Which is the sweet truth about you in my ear.
Yours Mixed With Mine
Saw you with your girlfriend
Thought she was just a friend
Sad cause I was with her
We were at the club late night
Everything was all right
And I just had to holla at her
We got back to the mo-mo
Started things nice and slow
Cause you know that's how it goes
Me on top of her and her on top of me
She's laying on her back and getting on her knees
She is moaning as I hit it loud
It's turning into screaming now
She's showing me all her fuck faces
Yelling she wants it in different places
Saying she's loving it never had a dick go this deep
When I'm dine with her you know shes's quick to sleep
But that ain't for a while got another three hours to get it on
And by the crack of dawn she is spent and I'm gone
JEF
Funny, excited, innocent, and glad
Never mean, angry, hateful, or sad
Perfect the way you are so never change
Though immature at times that's expected from your age
How thoughts of the past always remind me of you
The good times we had though there were some bad ones too
We come from different worlds but we lived them the same
We had the same problems back in the days
But grown up now things aren't always how they seem
You say some things that are really suprising to me
Things that from you I never thought I would hear
Like guys and alchohol something must be wrong here
Cause you are so innocent and I thought that was fact
Or was it just an illusion to throw me off track
I hope it's not because that's one thing that I admire about you
And how you aren't like all the other girls in your group
We stayed friends while all the others left me behind
Weird to say but I always wanted you to be mine
Always happy to see you, wish it could be all the time
Though if it was then I would never be able to get you off my mind
But trapped in a world where we became friends too fast
Still as friends it's cool cause you brought a smile to my past
Always wonder how it would be if something happened between you and I
But I don't think that will ever happen cause you can get any guy
ASO
It could have been love but I never figured it out
Cool in the begining then girls cloudedd my mind with doubt
Tried to fight the temptation keep our relationship strong
But when a bigger challenge came I had to get gone
Cause you were cool but I conquered everything way too fast
Would want to take it slow it I could go back to the past
Still that time is over now nothing to change nothing to lose
Think about the girls I see now and you wouldn't bt the one I choose.
Life Mixed With Love
I'm just sitting here all alone
Debating if I should call you on the phone
Wondering what you might say
Thinking if I should call another day
I know you may be mad at me for the things I did
But those were times when I still acte like a kid
Why is it so hard for me?
To tell you that we should be
I hope you feel the way I do
This feeling that is inexperienced and new
See you and I are nothing more then friends
And I will do anything so that it wont end
But I have stronger feelings for you then that
And I want to know where your heart is at
Is it at romance, friends, or nothing with me?
Is it at Ray or another guy that you see?
I know where I'm at so it's all up to you
You're where I wanna be and that will always be true.
The Life I Lead
What type of game am I playing
Trying to talk so many girls into staying
With me
I guess I can't just let them be... free
Or be with anyone else
Cause I want them for myself
I don't know why this is
I am too old to be playing these games for kids
I am always saying I am in the search for thst special girl
Yet I don't give any a chance since there is never just one in my world
Shit I know this may make me out to be a prick
Hell maybe I am, still however hard I try I can't quit
Then it is funny to see myself fall
Always running into the same walls
Either I get caught up since I admit my guilty ways
Or I don't care about them and end up chasing them away
So now the destiny which is for me to live in sorrow
But the depression will fade and I will be on the tail chase tomorrow.
If I Died Tonight
What would happen if I died tonight? Who would miss me?
See which girl was real, hopefully it would be at least Jeani
Would not want a single person to mourn
What for, there's no emotion left in a corpse
Think back on my life while a piece of my brain stays
Hope my religious beliefs guide me to better days
I can't say for sure cause somethings I did were bad
Hurt some people on the way that if I died they'd be glad
No anger towards them I only holf forgiveness
Hope my soul wont have to suffer for all my weakness
In this life full of material and fame
Doing things I don't believe to get ahead of the game
Sorry God for all the sins that I committed
Hope you forgive so my afterlife can be blessed
Misery over materialistic matters made me mad
People praying for possesion of the priceless pad
Sincere souls sick of society saying for someone to save them
Then there's the middle with all the people the way that i am
It's amazing to learn your eyes were closed for so many years
Open them now and you feel stupid for all your past fears
Insignificant specks of dust are what we are
It doesn't really matter about shit like a house or car
Now back to my death, I have a million good byes to say
This can be said to all my family plus the friends I made and lost along the way
Please don't remember the bad times that were had and what an ass I used to be
Every last thought of me should be times just kicking it and being happy
No sorrow since I can't see tomorrow that just wasn't in my plan
Still thoughts of my last words, wanting my exit from the world to be grand
What to leave a lasting impression on the world from bear to far
After I'm gone creamate me and send to to space to become a star
For anyone who dared to care for me and have them see it clear
So if ever they miss me they can look at the star and it would be like I were there.
JeP
Through all the time that we've been apart
I always held you near and dear to my heart
Always wanted you back over all the rest
Cause I was never the same afteryou left
It killed me to know that I couldn't have you back
Felt my life could never be back on track
Cause life without you is pure misery
And I feel with you is my destiny
Mad at me now cause I was with your friend
Just cause it never officially came to an end
That relationship was long dead to me
And with you was and is the only place I want to be
I just pray you can forgive
Cause I feel terrible for what i did
Scared to know how you feel about me now
The uneasiness inside is keeping me down
Please tell me that we will still be together someday
Since your my life, there's nothing else to say
No other can ever compare to you
And if you hated me I don't know what I'll do
Sorry that I get jealous when you talk about guys
But that's because I want you to be only mine
Though I know that wont happen I can always dream
That someday in the future it will be just you and me
Your the only girl I want to be with for the rest of my life
Forever and ever until the end of time
Always in my head throughout the day
At night in my dreams it's the same way
I'm sorry I tell you everything I feel about you
Since right now there is nothing we can do
You have your life and a million better guys to get with
And you don't want ot hear that your my only wish
21 Questions
What's up love, how've you been?
Do you think it's weird that we're talking like this again?
Do you think it's funny how time flys?
Does it scare you when I say I want you until the end of time?
Do you think I'm sick joking the way I do?
Do you think I'm serious or just messing with you?
How would your life be if you never met me?
Would you be sad or would you finally be happy?
DO you really think someday we will actually be?
If you had a choice would you actually choose me?
Do you think when we're together your feelings will change?
Or is there a chance that they might stay the same?
Is it weird when I tell you I dream of you at night?
Did you really get mad since you didn't have a page on my site?
Is it weird cause I'm writting all these poems now?
Do you think when your have we will actually get down?
Will you be nervous and put up a front actin you shy?
Do will you be straight up and show you really want this guy?
If I said that we are soul mates would you agree?
Do you think yourself that we are destined to be?
One last question now and then it's through
Do you believe me when I say that I love you?
Another 21
Okay girl here we go, are you ready for this again?
Of course got to say what's up and ask how've you been?
Did you ever think I could come up with another 21 questions?
Is there anything in your life that has got you stressin?
Do you really mean it when you say you love me?
Is there anyway I can make you truly happy?
If I wanted to use my tongue would you teach me that?
If it got hot and heated could I hit it from the back?
If we were going and it started hurting would you tell me to stop?
Are you freaky, handkuff me to the bed, actin like your a cop?
Do you want to be in control, on top all night?
Do you think I can fuck you so hard you will lose your sight?
When I told you I would break you in half did you believe what i said?
Do you really have such a thing against giving a guy head?
If so does that mean you'll never do it to me?
Does this mean that I'll never see rug burn on your knees?
If were going at it and I sucked would you tell me?
Or would you fake it and be screamin out Marky?
So how flexible are you, I would be glad to check?
]I want to know can I twist your ankles behind your neck?
Now here again at the last one
You know there questions have a lot of fun
To think of one last question is always hard choose
A million more to ask so that means more poems to do
Okay enough chit chat, getting out of my perverted mood
Final question is, how many times a day would you want to?
Ashley's Sonnet
Words can't describe how I feel about you
Don't know how to say it or what to do
You are my pinnacle, never want you to leave
Spent all my life for this goal to achieve
Every second I am with you it is heaven on earth
Money couldn't buy what our relationship is worth
See I may be sprung but you never held it against me
And after every second together I feel we were meant to be
Look at the things that led to us being together
The freshmen and the former friends were in our favor
All I want to do day and night is see you
Everytime I do is like a dream come true
Since it is nothing but fun when we are with each other
There is no better girl that I would ever have to bother
Cause you are my number one choice to do anything with
And to let you know there is only one digit in my numbers so don't trip
So what I would like to say is Ashley you have me addicted
For you I am on my knees just wishin
Last Confession
In a world that is so cold
There seems to be no where to go
Trapped in the maze
Of all the media ways
Making yourself something you weren't suppsoed to be
Going far off the roads that were your destiny
Many pit stops that are along the way
Just for memoires when you get to your grave
Friends and flames that now seem to be everything
In the end just memories that vanish to nothing
The purpose of it all be yet unknown to all
The answer waiting the day that you fall
But what happens after you depart from the earth
Is there a heaven and hell or is there rebirth
Could this really be an endless cycle we have lived many times
Just everytime that we die the memory is erased from our minds
If true so sad would want death then to relive the trials
On this earth full of sin and countless untold rivals
No one is for anyone they are all out for themselves
Seeking worldly possesions of greediness and wealth
May their souls be pitied when it comes to judgment day
When they try to enter the gates but are sent on their way
Condolences to them though they show people none alive
It is only with a humble heart that thou shall survive
To see behind the great gates and answer the question
May my heart be clensed with this my last confession
The Lat Life
The present the past if only it could be
Thinking it could happen but nothing that good can happen to me
Yes another count of depression since that's how I live
Always thinking of the past and hating everything I did
Talking to you now wishing it was like back in the day
Cause since you left my heart has never felt the same way
I have heard all of what you have done and vice versa here
And after all the years you are still to my heart dear
Wish I could have you back if only wishes came true
Since the only time I was ever my happiest was when I was with you
Remember how long we were together, we were even engaged
What it was to be kids with dreams back in the days
Now decisions to be made with everything to lose
Wish I was still the one that you would choose
I can't say anything and there is nothing I can do
But to sit here and say how much I love you
ASL
Spending many sleepless nights thinking about you
Still sprung and there isn't a thing I can do
To get you off my mind and get over it
Cause you were the best girl I was ever with
It didn't take me long to figure out
That your the perfect girl without a doubt
Would be with you if I had my way
But you didn't want to stay
Choose not to stay, wanted to go away
Cause I can't seem to please you, so I can't be with you, though I'm begging you to stay
I miss you
And all the little things we used to do
I wish you would make my dream come true
I still believe that we can be
Won't you take the time to see
That without you my life is in misery
I never thought that you would let it end this way
Please say we will be together again someday
Words can't begin to describe how I feel about you
Only the angles up in heaven know how much I do
Girl I will do whatever just to have you by my side
Forever and ever until the end of time
All the stuff you used to say how I wish it were true
Without you in my life everyday is sad and blue
You were the greatest gift in my world Just wish that you were still my girl
Wish you were my girl, cause you're my whole entire world
But I couldn't please you, now I am not with you, and I'm wishing things to change
Regret
I wish what we had never came to an end
Don't think I can live with you as just a friend
I would do anything to be back with you
There is no limit to all the things I would do
Wish I could have made you happy with me
Should have known it was way to good to be
I didn't deserve someone like you from the start
Still I made the mistake in giving you my heart
The memories of our times still make me smile
Hopefully the pain I fill will fade away in a while
I know I have to keep my head up and move on
But that is impossible when I refuse to believe your gone
Fighting back tears as I picture your face in my mind
Still have to be happy cause for a short while you were mine
So in the end it is like it never happened to you and I guess I understand
I mean i know you wouldn't want to admit to your friends that i am your man
Like I said the happiest times of my life were when I was with you
And I am hoping someday in the future we can go for a round two
Cause it barely ended and I miss you too much to comprehend
Wishing there were a way that we could just make amends
Can say I never felt like this for a girl around here before
Until the end of time you will be one of the girls I truly adore
Hopefully this isn't the last scene only the intermission
Cause with every girl I am with I think it is your lips that I am kissin
The Past Relived
Waken up everyday just wishin you'll be mine
If only there were a way to go back in time
See I should've stayed didn't care I was being played
I was the one that did it first came back got it seven times worse
But girl you a playa pimp the game
How could I expect your feelings to be the same
Why wait for a guy so far away
When there's a million better guys that you want to lay
See I'm a greedy sonamabitch that wants you all for me
Seeing you with me every night when I dream
Always thought I'd be the first one to tear it up
Played out and your first time was with a lil chump
Damn you really did love him probably more then you loved me
I just ask how can you love someone you can't see?
For me it's easy since you're the only girl that stayed in my heart
But I know in your life I am the smallest part
Remember you hating me when I said I still love you
You threw away my love and made me look like a fool
But I can't get mad since you were happy with your life
Didn't want some guy far away to mess it up for you, right?
Then he started acting like a dick until there was no more you could take
But when you dumped him seems your heart was the only one to break
After that you started talking to me like you actually care
Is it cause you just needed someone to be there?
Well if you ever need anyone you know you can count on me
Though I know it's hard to lean on someone you can't see
Always there for you, to see you through, all the hard times
My hearts on lock, a million miles I'll walk, just so you would be mine
Feeling the Distance
Just talking to you everyday makes me smile
Even though I might get jealous once in a while
Anything and everything about you is blessed to me
Never thought I'd be this sprung over someone I can't see
I was wrong cause you are the greatest thing in my life
My love, my best friend, and in the future for sure my wife
In love with you can't think of any other words to say
Cherishing every moment I have with you, thanking God everyday
Happy that he sent you jakee girl this has to be fate
Every second is heaven showing this is not a mistake
Lately having you on my mind all day and all night
Looking at your pictures and just smiling at the sight
Evolved from a simple question to I love you with all my heart
Pathetic as you think you were I am happy in your life I am a part
Unusual as the begining was it has molded to be a beautiful thing
Loving you for every moment of happiness you bring
Silly girl sounding cute no matter if you are angry, sad, or glad
Insisting that you should forgive me for everytime I make you mad
Please forgive I guess it is jealousy that makes me at that way
Hoping the future goes exactly the way that you say
Eventually we will be together forever and you know this is true
Romance aflame, shall always be the same, cause Jeani I love you
Past Mixed With Today
(To the background of Boys of Summer by The Ataris)
Girl when I first met you, you really blew my mind
I started walking around feenin just wishin you were mine
Everyday and everynight I just can't leave you alone
Calling me late at asking me to go over to your home
Things are changing the way that most things do
I just can't seem to be committed to you
Now I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the girls of summer are gone
Remember all those hours talking about every little thing
Thinking of all the happiness and joy it would bring
Now I can't understand how things ended this way
Hopefully I can make it all better by the end of the day
But things are changing the way that most things do
I just can't seem to be committed to you
Now I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the girls of summer are gone
Laying with this girl today your name popped in my head
Wondering how you were doing and how you have been
Said I'd always love you and this much is true
But when a girl wants to fuck me I'm gonna do what I gotta do
Things are changing the way that most things do
I just can't seem to be committed to you
Now I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the girls of summer are gone
Things are changing the way that most things do
I just can't seem to be committed to you
Now I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the girls of summer are gone
That Girl
(To the background of Boys of Summer by The Ataris)
Somebody's missing you, it happens to be me
I just can't help the feeling, I wish you could see
I'm into you are you into me or was it a one time thing
I hope it is more cause to me it wasn't just a fling
Cause out of all the girls I am quick to choose you
You're always on my mind no matter what I do
Now this feeling will last a long long time
Just say that you'll always be mine
The first night we spent together felt more like a dream
I only cared about you not what the others thought on the team
The next night I admit I came on a little strong
But I was dying to kiss you and lost perception of what was wrong
Cause you are great girl, your always on my mind
Just wish we could be together all the time
Now I don't know how your feelings are towards me
But your the only girl that I see
Hope things build from here and that nothing goes astray
Would want to be with you for as long as you want me if I had my way
I want to explore the possibilities of the things we do
Just believe me when I say i will never hurt you
Cause out of all the girls I am quick to choose you
You're always on my mind no matter what I do
Now this feeling will last a long long time
Just say that you'll always be mine
Cause you are great girl, your always on my mind
Just wish we could be together all the time
Now I don't know how your feelings are towards me
But your the only girl that I see
Tell Me
(To the background of Tell Me by Tyrese)
I sit there starring yet you don't look back
Looks like I'm the only one stuck in this trance
How could this be I thought things were going positively
But I guess that viewpoint you just can't see
So can you tell me tell me tell me why I why I don't try
when I when I know you feel this thing that's so real
So now where does this leave us now
I want to make you happy just show me how
Oh girl, you know I'll be there for you whenever you need
Cause you know you can trust me
So can you tell me tell me tell me why I why I don't try
when I when I know you feel this thing that's so real
Girl youknow I want to be with you
I want you bad so desperately
I'll try hard to wait for you
Just hope I don't lose your eyes sight
So can you tell me tell me tell me why I why I don't try
when I when I know you feel this thing that's so real
Lately
(To the background of Lately by Tyrese)
How could this be here
We are so near yet so far
After all the things we've been through this weekend
Things I thought would bring us closer
Have driven us further apart
And here we sit not saying a word to each other
Lately have I told you I want you
Lately have I told you you are everything to me
Have I told you I need you
I'll be anything that you want me to be
Don't think I will hurt you
I don't play games like that
Especially with a girl like you cause your special in everyway
Can't explain how it happened
But I am glad it did
Cause now I have a reason to smile again and I thank you for that
Lately have I told you I want you
Lately have I told you you are everything to me
Have I told you I need you
I'll be anything that you want me to be
Try your hardest to se if you and I can ever be
You know that I want you and that's a fact
Just want to know if you want me back
Lately have I told you I want you
Lately have I told you you are everything to me
Have I told you I need you
I'll be anything that you want me to be
DaB2
Laying back listening to countless tracks all about love
None though can explain about my angel from above
That angel being you, the one who took over my mind
The girl that has me on the phone calling her all the time
The girl that I think of every second of everyday
The girl that I would give the world if I had my way
The girl I want more than anything, yet she can't be mine
The girl that, with a glimpse of her eyeys, makes my day shine
The girl that has me writting corny poems saying how much I care
The girl I wish will be the one that will always be there
The girl that I would wait my lifetime and more for
The only girl in my life that I truly adore.