Coming Out Stories
The best advice, is advice given by those that are there to care.
It started with dreams about girls and fantasizing about being with them, but at the same time I was still thinking about guys. I was confussed and didn't know what to think about what was going on in my head. But slowly I thought of guys less and less and let my fantasies take over whenever they wanted, which at times was quite often. I met a girl that sent shivers through my body and gave me butterflies in my stomach when I saw her...she's straight. I saw her one day at the college coming out of a room I was waiting to go into and I the feelings running through me were amazing, a guy never did that to me especially not just by walking by. I only saw her a hand full of times but each time it was the same. She took over my fantasies, became the one I thought about, and I wished that I could have a chance with her. At the same time I became infatuated with someone else I knew, that I saw quite regularily and when I didn't get to see her I begged in my head for her to come into my sights. She too took over my fantasies...she's also straight. When I was close to her and our arms happened to brush I was in heaven. I loved everything about her, and thought I was actually in love with her. I never felt that way about a guy either. That lasted for about a year.
Over the summer last year, I was never thinking about guys anymore, and the two girls that were always on my mind weren't...much. I think I pretty much had answered for sure who I was. I no longer just wondered if I could be but if I would tell anyone I was. I knew I would, I just didn't know how or when, since on occassion I still did wonder. Classes started again and with the turmoil in my mind of what to do I started going into lesbian chatrooms to talk to others that could understand me. Talking to them, answering their questions, helped me to get used to talking about my sexuality. It was there that I met Lisa. From our very first conversation I knew my sexuality without a doubt. We talked more and well you know the rest, I fell in love and now she has taken over my fantasies and forever shall. And from loving her I know that the other girl I thought I loved, I didn't. I was infatuated, I was lusting over her but I did not love her.
Since meeting Lisa I have been working towards being out, and slowly I am opening my closet door wider. And those butterflies I spoke of flutter faster for Lisa then they ever did for my first attraction.
Though my coming out stories may not be the most interesting or inspirational, I hope they will help you see that you are not alone and that coming out can be done, it just takes some time and does get easier.