behind the smiles there is the answer
Mom : “Sorry, we’re not rich ... if we’re rich I’ll buy anything that you want dear...”
Me :”No mom... if we’re rich.. there won’t be the challenges in my life.. I’ll be a just so so people...”
Mom :”Thanks dear, Mom loves you so much.” Kissed my head and cried.
It is such a sweet moment, isn’t it ? By this conversation actually there was another event that depressed me and my family. But by that action, I was sharpening to be a steadfast girl, to be a strong girl, to be an explorer girl, to be a great woman in the future.
It began when I was 2 years old. When everything were changing. When the top of circle rolled down to the bottom of it. When I was the victim and he was as the crook. He is my father. He killed all ambitions that I had. He went from my home with a new woman beside him and brought all the things that my mother had. Took the wealth that we had. And he went away from us... it’s the first time to a little girl started to think about what should she do for her mother by seeing the tears that fell down from her mother’s eyes to the cheeks. And from that time, she realized that she need to do something. She was starting to make a big dream. A big dream that owned by a little girl aged 2 years.
I spent all the day long only for playing and crying. It is Just the same thing happened with most of children around the world. But, what makes it different was I kept thinking while other children didn’t do so. I was thinking how to help my mother, how to reduce the using of money and got the schoolarships.
GOD HAS THE PLAN FROM THE VERY BEGINNING
From the very beginning, God has made my mother pregnant. It was me inside her stomach. 1 month left.... 2 months... until 5 months... there was an accident with my mother. My father hit my mother with a stick. On the ..... stomach. If only I have been existed in this world, I wanted to do the same thing like what that guy has did to my mom.. unfortunately , I couldn’t do it. months left. Doctor said that my gender was male. The happiness came to my family because the hoped that they could get a male child. When it was in the 8th month of my mom’s pregnant, the diagnose stated that I was a female. And my family was disappointed because of that. Until the last month was coming. Mom did the test once more and the result was amazing. My gender was going back to male -_- and the happiness came once more. The toys that have been bought before were not going to be put in the orphanage.
