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09/06/2005-- Deep awareness of the suffering of others with the wish to relieve it. That is what compassion is. There are no limits to human compassion. We are all suffering. I think that if everyone were more compassianate toward one another, then the world would be a much happier place. There is no such thing as too much compassion. While we have each other, we still fight each other, lost in confusion, only compassion could help drive out all brokeness. If people no longer had compassion, then we would all be full of hate.
09/14/2005-- I would like to tell you the definition of status; buying something you do not need, with money you do not have, to impress people that you do not like. Nothing gives a person status because everyone should be equal to one another. For example, if a person with little money walked up to a wealthy person, it should be like two people talking to one another. In reality, the wealthy man would walk away proudly thinking, "That man is extremely low. I need to socialize with people of my status."
2006
God put all of us on this earth to serve him. He gave us all free will, so we could choose not to serve him. Those who do follow His ways, will get rewarded. Our gifts await in Heaven. Those who do not follow Him, get sent to Hell. He LOVES us all, just as much as He loves Jesus, no matter how many times we have messed up. This is no lie. You could be the worst person alive, but as long as you recognize your sin, and you repent and give your ALL to God, he will still love you. you have to keep on following Him, you have to keep on doing His will, and you have to keep on loving Him and those around you, and He blesses us here on earth, but there is far more in Heaven. Through the good times and the bad, NEVER run out of FAITH, for He is right there next to you, fighting your battles with you. (Spiritually of course), He hates seeing people choose not to follow him. It breaks His heart. It is our duties as Christians, to make sure that we spread THE WORD. We all have missions, to save the others around us, and to fight the battles of sin, and to show the world who He is. Feel alone ever? He is ALWAYS there for you, he wants to have a personal relationship with you, you do not even have to consider it praying, just TALK to Him, tell Him how you feel. He UNDERSTANDS your needs. He understands your pain. He is here to HELP you. Just do him a favor, and serve your coming KING!
I would like to read a verse that means a lot to me. It helps me get through some of the toughest times like when I feel there is no hope.
Exodus 14:14
"The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still."
Moses told the Israelites. "You shall hold your peace." That is true for you too. You do not have to fight, because Jesus has already won your battle. Do you have to just sit around and do nothing? You have to stay strong, stay close to Him and keep believing that He's already won. References from the Extreme Teen Bible
Whenever I find myself in my room upset or angry, I remember this verse and with faith you can make it come true, just like I do. Through the years, I have learned to never give up, God will always make things better. I keep praying in difficult situations, and it also helps not to worry. I also find encouragement from reading my Bible as well.
Ezra 3:11
"And they sang responsively, praising and giving thanks to the Lord: For He is good, His mercy endures forever toward Israel. Then all of the people shouted a great shout, when they praised the Lord, because the foundation of the house of the Lord was laid."
God is all good, all of the time. He blesses us in so many ways, but do we do the same for Him? Think of it like pudding. One serving of it could be really good. Too much, however makes it gross. That is exactly what sin does to us. God will always be good, but when we are good all of the time, sin corrupts or lives and we fall away from Him. It is because Satan does not like it when we are close to God. We need to keep a strong foundation built for Christ, so we will not find ourselves trapped in sin again.
05/27/2006
Email Response: Well, I do believe that He is real. God gave us knowledge and he knew the things that would occur in our heads. Your logic, is extremely reasonable, but contrary to what I think. You basically told me that you have no reason to believe in or serve the King. I really do not know why God made mankind to do things like this, but when we die, He will answer all of our questions. And these are my beliefs, from what my churches have taught me, and from what the Lord Himself has shown me. I know the there is a loving God who lives in all of us, but it is hard to prove it to people like you. I choose to have a personal relationship with my Creater. When Jesus comes to free us again, you will see. I know that He is there, because Caitlin has faith that soars. When I get unhappy or depressed, I pray. All of my happiness comes from God. When I am in pain, I say, "Father, please heal me, and deliever me from my pain." and right then and there, I feel no pain. Sometimes it takes time, but he has proven and revealed himself to me, many, many times.
04/22/2007
Yeah. So things aren't as "spicy" anymore. A little prayer can go a long way. I'm really starting to be happy again. Like totally. Not many people knew, but I get depressed every once in a blue moon, and that time was a few days ago. I was really sad, about quite a bit of things. You know, "a lot going on in my life right now." I read some encouraging scriptures just today in church, and I thought to myself, "Wow! I love you God!", with a big smile on my face. This is what I read:
I definitely don't have to toil, but I am anxious and overwhelmed with stuff that I let get to me. So, it may have nothing to do with my problems, but it did speak to me. I miss many things that used to be there, and I'm finally accepting, or learning to accept this huge change. God had a purpose for me. I know he does. I need to keep on believing, and stay hopeful in these situations. I hope to become strong and courageous again. I was weak, and found small excuses to be happy. It wasn't true happiness, if that makes sense. No one really noticed, at least, I don't think that they did. They just thought that is who I was. Well, I will tell you my friend. There is too many good things in this world to make a person happy. I felt like that was all taken away from me when I moved here, which, funny thing is, was a long time ago. I still have my family. Which isn't like EVERYTHING totally changed. I still have them, even though they are a lot different now.
OH YEAH! I love you Caitlin. I love you God. I love you friends who have always been there for me. I love you world for letting me be in it. Letting me have purpose, and letting me have the greatest thing in life. GOD!
I went to a school dance last night, and oh my goodness was there a HUGE after-effect. It was a Halloween-costume-dress-up-dance dance, and I was Darth Barbie. I was wearing a pretty sparkly blue, very revealing dress with a voice-changing Darth Vader mask. I didn't realize how immodestly dressed I was until I went outside when the dance was over, and I was freezing my toshie off. Yes, I had a coat on, but if I had wore at least a t-shirt with pants, I would have been fine. I should have worn a costume for that matter, but I wanted to look really good, not realizing that there is great temptation for the guys around me. I'm not typically one to show off my "areas" that would lead to lust for another guy, but when I go out, I tend not to care about what I'm wearing as long as I feel beautiful. Speaking of beauty, I've recently finished a novel by Mabel Hale called, Beautiful Girlhood. It is on book that definitely encouraged me to be better as a person, and gave me a wiser definition of what a true woman is, that I could, and wish to, grow up and be.
One thing that also stuck out last night, was when I was dancing with a good friend of mine to the song called "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls. "I just want you to know who I am." How is someone seriously supposed to know who I am when I show off my body in an improper manner? In this time, it's considered normal and many encourage us girls to show off more and more of our chest. It's beautiful, but I want to save every part of me for the one other person. My husband! I don't know him yet, but waiting is a very good thing. I don't want every boy in school, and even guys on the streets in public to look at my body in a sexual way. I want to stay as pure as possible, because that is how God intended it to be. It is also doing a favor to those around me for keeping myself covered, and being modest. The reason why guys lust, is because we let them. We allow them to see us, and we can prevent that! It takes two. Really.
In conclusion, I'm not going to anymore silly school dances, unless a there is a really good reason for me to go that goes along with everything I have just proposed. Lord, let this be a good day. Your Will be done always and forevermore! Amen.
08-08-2007 -Dear God, That wasn't love. It was lust. I knew it was wrong to get physical, but still wanted him to stay. I wanted to let him know God like I do. The best way to do that, is to be his friend. I felt like I had to be with them to make them a better person, and it wasn't my place to make him realize that. I hurt myself. I gave away pieces of my purity for nothing, and inflicted heartache upon myself. Don't ever do that again. I'll meet my soul mate someday, and I'll know when it's time to get serious. Never EVER give my heart to a stranger, even with those good intentions. I'll find it so hard to let go, and a hurricane of emotional problems will flood my life. I'll lose more than I've gained. I'll constantly think about what I should have done differently. If it takes that much thought on whether or not to kiss them, then come on, don't do it. The infatuation must be fake if I have to think about whether it's right or wrong. Someday I'll know when it's time. Things will fall into place. Don't beat myself up. I need the person that really, really loves me back. If I want it, give it. Don't be naive anymore. When I've been giving all I have for a long time and don't get anything in return, then it will hit me like a bomb when it's over. I'll feel real love someday. Don't fret. My young heart isn't capable of feeling it yet, but when the one comes along I'll feel it. Wait, because I'll know when it is time. Be patient, because God gave me that wisdom. I am loved by the King of the universe. That's all I'll ever need. (Proverbs 4)