Everyone wants it and nobody really has it. Countries try to control other countries, and people try to control other people. The problem is you don't really have control over someone, unless they let you. So it is not you who have the power, they do. The problem with trying to control people is that you are trying to take something from them. Some might be willing to let you take whatever it is that you want, most won't. And what happens when you get it? Do you feel more powerful? Probably not, so then you start looking for something else to control, or take some other part of that person. What happens when that person has let you take everything? Are you more powerful still? Doubt it. Now, you start looking for your next conquest. The quest never ends because you cannot have what you seek. Control is an illusion. You think by "controlling" those around you, you are in control of your life and all things in it. Wrong again. You don't really control those around you and you sure as hell don't have any control over your life. Just when you think you have it all, Wham!, you die, or some other catastrophe strikes. Ok, so occasionally someone gets to live forever and have it all without troubles or tribulations, but how often does that happen? And it only happens because whoever or whatever really runs the universe let it happen. The hard part about learning that you don't really have control over anything is giving up. It's very hard to give up on the idea of trying to control everything. It takes a long time to understand it. And the older we are when we finally realize it, the harder we fall. First we get angry, and try harder and the harder we try the less we have control over ourselves. We start to lose sight of everything. We focus only on regaining the control that we don't really have and all else falls by the wayside. Including the control we have over our emotions and reactions. Every little thing now pisses us off. And we try harder still. Yet the realization keeps creeping in. You can't control the little things anymore than you could the big things. Now, you are really angry. You start pushing the people around you away because they are constant reminders that you don't really have control and you just aren't ready to face it yet. Now, you are in the bowels of hell, Deepressed. You have fallen and can't get up. It is now, that you have to face it or you'll never break the cycle you have just fallen into.
There is a great freedom in letting go. The weight of a thousand lifetimes is lifted off your shoulders when you finally realize you don't control anything. Except yourself, or rather how you react to what happens everyday. It's called attitude adjustment. Instead of trying to control a situation gone bad, you accept it for what it is and react then in the best way you know how and let the rest blow by. How liberating. Now, you get to spend the rest of your life, constantly learning that little lesson. Because we are human, we are still gonna find ourselves trying to control. Realize it. Stop it. You'll be happier for it!.