Sexual Abuse:

Links:

Escaping Hades: Sexual Abuse Survivors Website. Stories, resources, messageboard.

Long Term Effects of Childhood Sexual Abuse: Article by Crescentlife.com.

Healthy Place: Personal journals written by survivors. Information, community, radio shows related to abuse, a place to create your own survivor journal.

Physical Abuse
Sexual Abuse
Psychological Abuse
Spiritual Abuse
Self-Abuse
Eating Disorders
Substance Abuse

Dancing in the Darkness: One survivor's personal website. Information about sexual abuse, rape, trauma, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and many more topics. Forum and Message Boards. A beautiful website.

National Clearinghouse on Family Violence: Downloadable PDF documents. Canadian resource. Excellent.

Sexual Abuse of Males: Web Book written by psychologist Jim Hopper, Ph.D.

Survivors Art Foundation: Online gallery, and resources for survivors.

Dissolving the Effects of Abuse: Article from Tantra.com about healing from Abuse. (**may be triggering for survivors- as it is the Antic website)

The Invisible Epidemic: Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Memory and the Brain: article about PTSD, from thedoctorwillseeyounow.com

Trauma and PTSD: From a guide to psychology and its practice.

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder: From the HopeForHealing.org website.

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Damn you!!!
Damn you to oblivion…
Her face sitting in that chair
So lost
So fragile and faint and sad
And damaged…
How could you possess no heart?
How could you allow such atrocities?

ajd

Mother of me-

Earth and sky
You hold me in my painful moments
For the night
Never lasts
Never ends
The sun Never sets…
It simply moves
And sometimes it seems I run from the light,
Embracing the darkness and the pain.
Let me cry tears
Let me express the rage
Let me feel the pain
At last
Let me be free to express
The anger locked within
And the agony.
So I may fly and follow a different path.

I can not act,
Because action builds a source of strength
Which I have never allowed myself to have.
I insist on tearing myself down-
I hold myself back with lies and omissions-
Until I accept the pain I can not be whole-
But goddess will I fall and fail again?
This time I may not rise…
I seem too weary. empty. small. still.
I feel exposed.

Wrap your arms around me
I need your compassion and your love now.

I'm afraid I'll love my self in this process.

So many memories blocked.

Hidden from view in the core of my mind
Like so many seeds I tried to spit them out,
And get rid of the bad taste
But they were swallowed instead.
How could a mind so vivid forget so much?
I want to dissolve into nature,
Not feel what is there waiting to be exposed.
I can not express my heart;
Delving deep brings up traumas,
And longings,
And evil memories.
Pain surfaces then
Teases-
Pulls-
And grasps me
Tight.
I taste the salt of my tears
Like blood.
.ajd.

BITCH!song

Hey! Look at me!
I'm not a pretty plaything on your desk.
Not a ceremonial dish storing pauperism.
Not a piggy bank to slide coins into.
WHATTSUP!
Do I have to be your bitch-
Flex some ass-
Point my double barrels at your face-
Be filled with your bullets
Pumped to be your "baby"?
n. o. t.
I am full of venom so bitter i want to SPIT it OUT!

But the essential component that I am missing,
is your advantage.
You are 6 inches ahead.

You sow your soul in random projects,
while i follow popping pills in hope that nothing catches.
MEN!
You are all around me everywhere I turn.
you astound me by believing in that silly old boys club-
barring the door and shutting me out.
So you can spit, grab each others balls,
and admire their size.

Nice brass ones those.

Again-
not to repeat myself (oh no!)
I'm lacking the props-
know what I'm saying?
I can watch you take it up the ass- sir.
Bend over myself- Sir!
(when it is my turn in line-SIR)
but I can't give it back.
It SUCKS.
I dont.
GET it straight ok.
How's it hanging now?
And how much is 6 inches anyway?

.ajd.