| What do you do When someone lets their true Colors shine through? When something they've hidden Has now been ridden From their secrets and given To the rest of the world. What do you say When they tell you they're gay? |
| Yeah, strange thought, huh? You can go for months or years not knowing that behind the eyes of that best friend, that boy/girlfriend, that soul mate, that person you pass everyday, or the one who walks into work with you each morning is discerning a question of who they are, why they are different, and how to tell people in order to be accepted without persecution. Our society creates a sense of morality. It feeds us dirt and garbage about love, marriage, teen expectations, drugs, and yes, about sexual relations. Right out front, I'm going to convince you that gayness is not an illness, is not something to be cured, and can't be changed by that person. Therefore, it is not considered in my moral structure as "wrong." You are free to make your own decisions, but take this page and its links with a grain of salt. It is here to help everyone better understand the world of being gay, and how a friend of someone who recently came out of the closet is mentally and emotionally processing it. |
| On December 21, my friends' idea of the perfect set-up had taken place: two of her friends started going out. The couple's friends seriously thought they were each other's soul mate. They were almost expected to make it through the distance of college and get married afterwards. Each of them thought it, too. Four years prior, that boy had realized he was gay, told his parents, and discovered society's cruel face towards gays. And so, into the "closet" he hid. The start of the afore mentioned relationship was perfect. In fact, the whole relationship was perfect. He thought he had "conquered" his gaity. On June 3 the girl went to Europe for a couple of weeks, and her absence lead him to realize that he was still hiding what he thought he had conquered. So he slid into endless thought, trying to find the best way to accept the true self he had hidden. He also tried to figure out how to tell the world without destroying his friendships with loved ones. On July 13, my (then) boyfriend openned his website, telling the world he was gay. |
| But life goes on. My heart went numb: at first I thought it was joke. Jesse always used the literary meaning of words, so when his site said "gay and proud of it," I took it as the meaning of "happy." Although he really meant he was homosexual, I've come to realize that his release and acceptance of who he is has lead him to happiness. On July 15 I have started this page to help others who are dealing with accepting and trying to understand the gay community. The links provide insight into what I've gone through so perhaps you can pull strength from it or attempt to relate to it. On July 13, I lost a boyfriend, but gained a best friend and kept a soulmate. |
| Where does spirituality and sexuality meet? |
| Does it bug or bother me? |
| "You can't conquer being gay; for one can't conquer themselves." |
| A progressive report of this endeavor... |