感謝 上帝給我機會見證榮耀祂的聖名, 願我的見證能勉勵大家深愛全能的 上帝, 更相信祂,倚靠祂,服事祂。

我生長在一個清寒,兄弟姐妹又眾多的家庭中,小時候當相命的說:如果不把我送給別人一定會殘廢, 當時我就很相信命運, 魔鬼又藉虛假宗教說:一定是前輩子做了許多壞事,這輩子才這樣……。 如此殘酷之言常縈繞在耳際,令我深覺自己的人生是殘酷無奈,毫無意義,是多餘的。 於是從小到大一直有個念頭〝結束自己生命吧!〞由於想不出比較不會痛苦的死法才作罷 (我生來就很怕痛!。)

悲觀、自閉、憂愁、孤獨、自卑, 所有人生面面觀盡是負面, 故長久以來都沒有什麼朋友, 直到21歲到台北矯正脊椎,在那兒才認識些好朋友。雖然也有論及婚嫁的男友,但對人生充滿絕望的我,毅然決然地就拒絕了婚姻。

當我手術結束回家靜養一段時間後,鬱悶的心情,低落的情緒一直充滿著我的心靈,迫使我堅決地下定決心〝自殺〞, 回想那段時間,幾乎每天是憂傷。就在那時候,上帝的恩典即時地出現, 祂讓我認識了何師母,上帝藉著她的關愛,讓我清楚上帝是非常愛我的。 又因聖經裡的一句話深深地打動我『 若有人在基督裡, 他就是新造的人, 舊事已過都變成新的了。』林後5:17 這句話不就正是我所祈望能改變 自己不幸的一生嗎?就這樣基督耶穌進入了我的生命之中,一切因著有基督耶穌的愛,真的改變了我許多不完全的地方。

如今我的靈裡充滿了喜樂,並且也充滿了許多希望,當我愛祂,倚靠祂,祂的祝福是不斷地降在我身上,祂所厚賜予我的主內摯友們,都是超級良友,還有兩個可愛的義子女,他們是賴傳道夫婦的子女,老大多加(女),老么又加(男),我是何等有福啊!是因有了基督耶穌。

向來自覺笨拙又軟弱的我,靠著那加給我力量的主,凡事都能做,故能在眾人面前獻詩或作見證、教主日學,真是祂的恩典,若不靠著祂,我真的什麼都不能做。

相命所言有時雖準,但它無法對人有好的影響,魔鬼也藉此謊言欺騙人心, 我們要小心,千萬不要相信上當。因為 上帝是超越一切的主宰,祂可以把不好變為好的,只要你願意信靠祂。我深知祂創造我,乃是出自祂的愛,並非我上輩子做了什麼惡或犯了什麼罪,而是為要在我身上成就祂一切美好的旨意,顯出祂的奇妙的作為,若不是因著這樣殘障,我一定走向滅亡之路。

上帝差派給我的天使--何師母,從她身上我學了許多如何做個榮神益人的人, 也清楚服事神乃是愛 上帝的表現,從服事當中也得了許多信心的操練。真感謝讚美 上帝也常保守祝福我的小羊們 。有次在上主日學之前,我正作課前準備之餘,不知怎地?就對著在身後玩耍的小朋友,特別感動地把他叫了過來,心裡正納悶我叫他過來做什麼? 剛好在教會外玩籃球的小朋友就把落地窗打破,整片玻璃碎片就由外往內從高處往下掉,那個位置正是我把小朋友叫過來之前所站的地方,事後我們都捏了把冷汗,真感謝神的保守。神用我救了那小孩,也啟示了我們每次在教主日學傳福音給小孩子們的目的,不就是把他們從滅亡引到永生之路麼?神若給我們機會,理當努力把握〝叫〞人來信主耶穌。

從服事當中得到益處與祝福的還是自己以及周遭所愛的人。我有一位乖巧又忠心(他常拿全勤獎)的主日學小孩(他還未讀幼稚園之前就上我的主日學)當他幼稚園要畢業時, 有個很重要的畢業考,由於他的智商資質還未開竅,只要能拿個園長獎不難看就很不錯了, 所以家人的心情都很緊張, 有如應付聯考般壓力,我常與他一起禱告,鼓勵他要倚靠 神,果然!上帝祝福他不但拿到園長獎還得到董事長獎,他的老師說:原本班上很多比他厲害的同學,都出乎意料的一個也沒有拿到獎,竟被最不可能得到的給得了, 真是跌破大家眼鏡,此後主日學同學們都叫他董事長, 真是讚美神!當他讀國小三四年級時,因覺級任老師不是很認真教學,我請他常為五六年級的老師禱告。結果他升五年級的時候,上帝果然把他擺在全校最強的班級, 導師也是全校最優秀的,此寶貝小羊就是我所疼愛的姪子(弟弟之最小兒子)。

神是如此愛我們,常垂聽我們的禱告,在祂的旨意裡”只要信就必得著”(馬太21:22).已有好長一段時間,我教那乖巧的姪子作獻身的禱告,願神能使用他將來成為一位好牧師。

我雖然生長於佛教家庭,但因蒙神賜福已有十人信主,還有三分之二的家人尚未信主,我當更加努力禱告及多關心未信主靈魂之得救。當我們關心別人時,神定將我們所看重的加給我們,祂的心意就是要我們先求祂的國和祂的義,其餘的都要加給我們了(太6:23), 神的應許絕不落空,必要彰顯祂的信實、公義、恩典、慈愛…..。

感謝讚美上帝如此恩待我,在世人眼中毫無用處,不起眼,卑微軟弱的人,但在神眼中卻化為祝福(哥林多前書2:27-29) 深願大家珍惜已經擁有的,並且善用 上帝賜予的恩賜服事主,因為上帝說:『凡有的還要加添,叫他有餘』(太25:29)。

就我的例子,更願弟兄姐妹能給殘障者多一些認識福音的機會,讓他們重生得救,在主裡給他們多一些的關懷和鼓勵。凡你們所作的,上帝必加倍賜福,願 神祝福大家福杯滿溢。

I thank the Lord for giving me an opportunity to testify and praise His holy name. I hope my testimony can encourage everyone to love the Omnipotent God deeply, rely on Him, serve Him, and trust Him more. I grew up in a cold family of many brothers and sisters. When I was small, the fortuneteller said, “If you don't give her away to another family, she will be handicapped.” I believed in fate very much, and the devil used this vain religion to say to me, “In your past life, you must have done many horrible things for your life to be this way now . . . .” Harsh words like these often flew around my ears making me feel that my life was harsh, helpless, meaningless, and superfluous. From then on I always had the idea of “finishing my life off” but I couldn't think of a painless way to die. (I have never been able to stand pain!)

Pessimistic, silent, worried, lonely, down on myself—since every aspect of my life was negative, for a long time I had no friends. Finally, when I was twenty-one, I went to Taipei to have my spine straightened and met some friends. Although I even discussed marriage with a man there, because I felt hopeless toward life, I decided to turn down his offer.

When my operation was over and I could go home to recuperate a while, gloom and depression filling my heart, I decided then and there to commit suicide. That time period in my memory is one of pain. It was right at that time that the Lord showed His grace to me. He let me meet Mrs. Ruth Harbour. Through her care the Lord let me understand He loved me very much, and because the Bible verse “If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature, old things are passed away, behold, all things are become new” battered against my heart, I knew it was the secret I had hoped for to change my miserable life. At this point Jesus Christ entered my life, and because of His love, He changed many incomplete areas of my life.

Today my spirit is full of joy and hope. When I love Him and rely on Him, His blessing never stops falling on me. The closest friends I have in Christ are wonderful friends, and I have two godchildren: Daniel and Amy Lai's daughter Dorcas and son Youjya. I am very blessed because I have Jesus Christ.

In the past I felt I was stupid and weak. Now “I can do all things through Christ that strengtheneth me.” And now, what is a testimony to God's grace, I can even give my testimony, teach Sunday school, and sing before whole groups of people. If I don't rely on Him, I can't do anything. After I met Jesus, I haven't been so down on myself and don't think myself ugly. In fact, I look better and better, don't you think? It’s because I have the beauty of Jesus.

Although fortunetellers are sometimes right, they can’t have a good influence on people. The devil uses these lies to cheat people. We need to be careful not to be fooled by them. Because God is the Lord of all, He can turn what is bad to good if you will just trust Him. I really believe that although God created me so that I couldn’t walk, I believe it was out of His love, and not because of some sin in a previous life. It was so that He could accomplish His perfect will in my life, to demonstrate His marvelous works. If it weren't for my handicap, I would be on my way to destruction.

God sent an angel into my life—Mrs. Ruth Harbour. From her I have learned much about how to glorify God and to help other people. I also understand that serving God is the way to show my love for God. In my service, I also exercise my faith. I really thank the Lord that He often protects and blesses my little sheep. One time before Sunday school, when I was preparing to teach, I didn't know why, but I felt like calling the child who was playing nearby over to me. He was a bit annoyed that I had called him. Right then, a large glass window in the church broke and fell to the ground right to the place where he had been playing. We both broke out into a cold sweat as we hugged each other there and thanked the Lord for His protection. God used me to protect a child and showed me that the reason we give the gospel to children is to save them from destruction. If God gives me the chance, I must work to “call” people to believe in the Lord Jesus.

The benefits and blessings received from serving the Lord have come to me and to the people around me that I love. I have a Sunday school student (my nephew) who is clever and faithful (He often gets the prize for perfect attendance). When he was ready to graduate from a special kindergarten, he had a very important examination. Since his ability wasn’t fully developed, if he was able to get President’s (standard) Honors that would be pretty good. So, with his family putting pressure on him as if he were taking the college entrance exam, I prayed with him and encouraged him to rely on the Lord. And as we hoped, he not only got President's Honors, but he received the Chancellor's (highest) Honors. His teacher said, “The students I thought would do better than he didn't even make Standard Honors. He got the award that seemed impossible to get. He ‘broke everybody's eyeglasses!’” After this the Sunday school kids all called him “Chancellor.” Praise the Lord! When he was in third and fourth grade, because I felt his teacher wasn't paying that much attention to her teaching, I asked him to pray for the fifth- and sixth-grade teachers. This year he is in the fifth grade and the Lord has put him in the best class with the best teacher in the school.

God loves us this much and listens to our prayer. According to His will, we will receive if we only believe (Mt. 21:22). Already for a long time, I have taught that clever nephew to pray and dedicate his life to the Lord. I hope the Lord can use him one day as a good pastor.

Although I grew up in a Buddhist home, because I trusted the Lord, now there are eight Christians in my family. But still three-fourths of my family members are not saved. I need to work harder at praying and showing concern for my unsaved family members. When we show concern for other people, God gives us what we value most. His desire is that we seek His kingdom first and its righteousness. He will then give us other things (Mt. 6:23). God’s promise will never be unfulfilled. He will show Himself faithful, righteous, gracious, loving . . ..

Thank the Lord for how gracious He has been to me. Although I was weak, insignificant, and worthless in other people's eyes, in God's eyes, I became a blessing (I Cor. 2:27-29). I really hope all of you value what you have and use your gifts to serve the Lord because God says, “For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance” (Mt. 25:29).

By my example, more Christians can give handicapped people more opportunities to know the gospel, so they can be born again and be cared for and encouraged in the Lord. Whatever you do, the Lord will pay back many times over. May God bless you with an overflowing cup!