(310703 - Thursday)
I'm falling apart. My gears are rusting, the oil needs changing, and the screws are coming loose. I'm in need of servicing. Major overhaul if possible. Heck... I need a completely new system.

Seriously, I'm physically drained. I'm mentally drained. I'm emotionally drained. I'm drained. Sighh... I guess you could say that that's why I'm blogging so little these days. I still have lots to blog, just that I lack the energy to do so.

(260703 - Saturday)
Whoaaa.... sitting here feeling a bit dizzy and typing at the same time isn't as easy as I thought it would be. Less beer the next time I go out. But at least.... at leastttt.... i can't remember.... sighhhhh.... I'm in love. With who? That's for you to know and me to find out! Good night planet earth! Joy to the world, mervyn is drunk, and let.... and letttt.... i don't remember again! sighhh....

(240703 - Thursday)
Too lazy to blog. Sigh...

(230703 - Wednesday)
It is really once in a blue moon that I drink, and it's mostly at parties. Tonight, we, the Leos of KL Unity decided to go for drinks after our discussions. It is rare but truly enjoyable to drink with this bunch of people who talk about mostly nothing but nonsense.

(220703 - Tuesday)
It's amazing what people end up discussing during impromptu mamak sessions. Life changing insights come at the weirdest times, from the least likely people. But nonetheless, these insights are ever so important. And better they came now than when it's too late to even bother changing.

I believe that I am nothing less than a great guy. There are the fortunate few who know the real me, and they agree with me on the matter. Then there are those who only know a small part of the Mervyn who really exists. These are the unfortunate people who misunderstand the great guy that I am. It never really mattered to me anyway, until today. Today, I come to realize that I'm no longer a person who does not need to be known. I have become important. So much so that people depend on my popularity. I now need to be known.

(200703 - Sunday)
Even pretty girls fall for me. Rare, but it happens. Unfortunately, timing is a bit off, and thus, another broken heart. I'd much rather be the one with the broken heart though. Sigh...

(190703 - Saturday)
Yet another week went by without a blog. Hmm.. this is bad!

Anyway, this week was pretty eventful as well. The workload at office seems to be getting pretty erratic. One moment it's unbearable, the next, there's absolutely nothing to do.

Leo Club installation was carried out today. Long, but a good function. Some parts were boring, as always. Everyone looked good. We sang, we laughed, we chatted, we hugged. And now, my club's board of directors have been duly installed to their respective positions, including myself as the Chief Executive Officer.

(130703 - Sunday)
Six whole days went by without a single blog. Allow me to recap.

I am beginning to realize that that which was initially thought to be over, is only just beginning. Not a very good start, but it's still a start. I look forward to a good journey, preferably one which will have no end.

I am now working with people in Sales. I have become a part of a team of corporate people from two continents. I now receive overseas calls from the east, and the west. I now speak to people with weird but admirable accents, the Dutch. I now feel important, for if the work in my hands is not complete, others cannot work. If my work is not complete, the company's counterpart in Europe cannot launch its latest "GrandPrix" system. People depend on me. And it sucks!

I am now an adult, physically and legally. Mentally, well, I still refuse to move along. I shall remain content with my childish ways. At least until someone smacks me across the head and knocks some sense into me.

I am stumped... so much to say, but cannot be said here because of the controversial effect it will have on others. Even if it weren't controversial, the complexity of matters just won't allow me to put it all into words. And that sucks.

I am now no longer wearing my trademark necklace/choker. The five pieces of different coloured jade have retired. Instead, I now wear gold around my neck. The chain is simple, but the pendant is not. Heirloom as some might call it. It is in fact a US$5 coin, gold in colour, from the year 1906. Priceless and magnificent.

(060703 - Sunday)
I remain undecided on whether or not celebrating my birthday is a good thing.

(050703 - Saturday)
My first Leo General Meeting as President of the club. Chairing meetings isn't all that easy, nor is it all that tough either. One definite must is preparation. Other than that, it's a lot of provoking of thought and encouraging participation from others in on-going discussions.

(040703 - Friday)
I seem to be losing my will to blog. Many events from the past few days have gone unrecorded. This is due to two reasons. I'm usually too tired to come online to pen my thoughts down; many of my thoughts have become too complex to be put into words.