(200802 - Tuesday)
It is nice to have someone to call your sweetheart, or darling, or something along that line. It is so much nicer to have someone call you something like that. But still, nothing beats calling each other that, and both sincerely meaning it.

(190802 - Monday)
I'm slowly but surely beginning to enjoy working on accounting once again. It isn't really a tough subject, but rather it takes a bit of effort to understand and apply. Once you get the ball rolling, you build momentum and suddenly you realize you want to do more, just for the heck of it. I think it's time to move on to another topic, rather than to stick with something I'm already good at.

(180802 - Sunday)
It took me an entire hour to figure out how to do the first of two parts of a question related to Process Costing. And to think that my accounting paper comprises of four questions of similar difficulty. I will have 3 hours to finish these four questions, which is about 45 minutes per question. Today it took me one hour to finish only half a question. I am far from ready for next weeks examination.

Ever wanted to call someone, but end up hanging up just before dialing the last number because you don't know why you're calling; or wanted to see someone but decide not to because you don't know why you want to see the person? I'm like that sometimes - overly fickle.

(170802 - Saturday)
I finally got started on some revision. It was more of a fresh start actually since I know very little about that which is coming out for the examination. It is always good to have a smart, sweet, pretty girl to use as motivation. If I had not made arrangements for a study date with her today, I probably still wouldn't have gotten anything done.

The haze over here is getting pretty bad. I was half dead within 10 minutes of today's jog. And after that, I was pretty much left with no choice but to maintain a fast stroll, instead of a proper jog. Strangely, I completed the course in a mere 40 minutes, as opposed to the expected 50 minutes. I guess when I jog more than I did today, it leaves me with less strength, and thus I walk at a slower pace. This just goes to show that I do more walking than jogging.

Attended my first Rotaract Club function this evening. It was the Rotaract Club of Bernam Valley's 3rd Annual Installation. Pretty enlightening. And I especially like the speech which started off with a joke about giving the Rotarians, Rotaractors, and Interactors each 2 cows to see what they would do with it.

(160802 - Friday)
Nine days left. Still lots of catching up to do. So much empty determination.

(150802 - Thursday)
Another day went by with productivity at 0%. Things are getting worse. Tomorrow will be yet another day with little effort put into my studies because of 3 hours work scheduled for the afternoon. I shall take a nice hot cup of "Nescafe 3 in 1" after I'm done with the PC. Then I'll sit down and attempt to do some Accounting 2 exercises. At least if I run into any trouble before the weekend, I can look to someone who has already agreed to help me out. Free tuition - don't you just love your friends?

(140802 - Wednesday)
Clocked up a good 6 hours plus at work today. That's good for about RM50. I should be getting my wages for the past one and a half months within the next seven days or so. I estimate it to be one and a half times the amount of my monthly allowance - not too bad. Unfortunately, every sen of it has already been allocated to different areas. And that leaves nothing left for savings.

The Leos Clubs in Kuala Lumpur are really under a lot of pressure, with each club having at least one major project to organize on the District's behalf. Yet the Lions are somehow able to keep coming up with more and more new ideas for us to spear-head. You do not see the Lions themselves do such projects, but they seem quite enthusiastic about the Leos trying it out. Personally I'm alright with the idea. But it would be nice if it didn't seem like the Lions are taking advantage of our youthful enthusiasm in the Leo Program.

(130802 - Tuesday)
I may be just paranoid, but I believe that I'm lousy at choosing friends. After meeting a certain someone who I thought was so great, I decided that I wanted to be as good a friend to this person as can be. And since then, I've always been there for this person when I know that I'm needed. After all this time, I thought that this person is someone I could count on, but I now believe that I was mistaken. This person has probably only been there for me one out of six times I've needed this person to be there for me. I have to start rethinking this so-called friendship. I shall be there whenever I know I'm needed - sincerely of course; but I will never again look to this person when I am in need.

Attempted to dye my hair a different colour for the fourth or fifth time today. I don't really know if it turned out because lighting in this house is just so bad. When I look into the mirror, I see barely any difference. Maybe I've just proven to myself once again that my hair is colour resistant. At best, a very slight colour change can be seen when light reflects off it. Well, at least the strands of white hair will be gone, for a while.

(120802 - Monday)
The BMW broke down today. Problems began while my dad was on the way to pick me up from work. According to him, he had to jam the breaks to avoid hitting another car, and that probably caused something in the engine to crack. Water leaked out so fast (we didn't know) that by the time he got to my work place, the car was already over-heating with a weird cranking sound coming from under the hood. Thinking that we could make it back and send to car for a check tomorrow, we proceeded. Unfortunately, the car gave up on us just as we went through the Sprint Highway toll-gate.

God smiles upon me. Now that there's only one car to be shared amongst the four drivers in our household, I'll have more reason to cut back on my outings to nowhere for no reason. All the more time to spend with my long forgotten text books.

(110802 - Sunday)
Another blasted day right down the drain. An SMS received at 3am in the morning forced me to change my stand about not going for the Kuala Lumpur Leo Clubs Liaison Committee Meeting. It's quite funny how it's so easy for someone to push their responsibility onto another person, even more so at the very last minute. Or maybe it's just me.

So it was another long and boring meeting, as always, with the committee discussing many items which are not on the agenda, because it has little relevance to us. Alas, that is the way things go when it is one of the top people who keeps bringing up such distasteful matters. It's even worse when this person is so long-winded, and insists on arguing black into white, and white into black. Such a person does such unpopular things because he/she is stubborn, and wants everything done in his/her way, without any adjustments or compromises. This is how a simple 1-hour meeting can drag on to 3 hours or more.

(100802 - Saturday)
It has been yet another one of those days. A day when all I feel is a certain emptiness; where nothing seems worth doing, and living has no purpose. Life is giving me no inspiration nor motivation. I guess that's what happens when a person lacks passion for anything. Or could it be that I just haven't found that passion YET. I hunger for such a passion, and if things go my way, I will find a soul for myself together with it.

Emotions aside, I finally managed to get my bum out of bed and out of the house to go for a jog. Kiara has got to be one of the best places for such an affair. Lots of trees, cool fresh air, peace and tranquility, and a nice hilly path with a distance of 5km or so. I completed the route in 50 minutes, much slower than I should be doing. The outcome: smelly socks, a sweaty shirt, messy hair, and numb thighs. I definitely have to do this more often. Note to self: piss before you go for such a long jog.

(090802 - Friday)
Barbeque parties are fun. But it would be even more fun to have it in a place with nice cold weather, such as the highlands. Having it down here where it's just so blooming hot isn't a good idea. To have a helping of red wine to help down the chicken, sausages and lamb is satisfying. But to overdo it isn't. I should keep that in mind the next time the opportunity arises.

(080802 - Thursday)
Added yet another movie to the list. Tonight was Tom Clancy's "The Sum Of All Fears". Starring Ben Affleck and Morgan Freeman, it was no where near disappointment. I find it hard to even begin criticizing any part of the show. It has a plot so thick yet so believable. On a scale of 1 to 10, I'd give the movie a rating of 12! Watch it and you'll understand my words.

(070802 - Wednesday)
Having a charitable mother who is so into collecting other people's unwanted stuff for jumble sales has its ups and downs. For one thing, it is quite sickening to have to come home everyday just to find more 'junk' clogging up the living space in the house. But on the other hand, some of the stuff that ends up in my house is quite cool. I'm beginning to enjoy filtering the stacks of VCDs which come through here. I've actually come across a number of titles which I missed some time back. After lots of hunting at numerous video stores and VCD stalls, I had lost hope in ever watching Rush Hour 2. Now I have my mom to thank for this particular show to be among the junk she brought home.

I'm beginning to realize another interest I have - dancing. The only time I ever dance is on the really rare occasions I visit one of the popular nightclubs in town. I lack the practice, and maybe even the talent. But I do know I have a passion for dancing. And I get extremely hyped up after watching movies with storylines about dancing. Have any of you seen "Save The Last Dance", "Billy Elliot", and "Center Stage"? Spectacular!!

(060802 - Tuesday)
Lecturers at Help Institute's are real disappointments. My Accounting 2 lecturer somehow managed to top the list today. While trying so very hard to explain yet another topic today, we came across a part where she had to use the unit m², which is supposed to be read as square meter. She must have used that same unit at least 10 times during the lecture, but it kept coming out as cubic meter (m³). Only God knows why a lecturer for a degree course can't get her such simple terms right. Sitting at the back of the lecture theater, I couldn't make out whether the unit on the whiteboard was to the power of 2, or to the power of 3. I was pretty much depending on audio instead of visual. After hearing her repeat 'cubic meter' a couple of times, I got so confused trying to figure out the relationship between a factory's rental and m³. Thank goodness it weren't I who's slow at comprehending.

My PC is giving me a shit load of problems, mainly the graphics card. I think the AGP slot on my motherboard has some loose connections because it's causing my PC to hang ever so often. On top of that, I'm unable to boot up my PC without first removing and reinserting the Nvidia Geforce 2 graphics card numerous times. I may just have to put the updates on this site on hold while I get the entire system sorted out. I wonder if my cousin is free anytime soon to take a look at it. I'd sure hate to trouble him, but it beats the heck out of spending a bomb by sending the PC to a repair shop.

(050802 - Monday)
My parents went to watch Men In Black II at Midvalley this evening. It is nice to know that they can still casually go for a movie. What's more is that they just celebrated their 25th Anniversary a week ago. I do so wonder how my marriage will turn out, assuming I get married of course. I suppose that taking my wife out for a movie or something similar at least once a fortnight isn't too much to ask of myself. Only time will tell.

Patience wears thin, especially after a four hour wait for transportation home from college. Class ended at 11:30am, and I sat around with literally nothing to do until my dad came to pick me up at 3:30pm. I definitely need a change of education environment. Help Institute is possibly the most lifeless place one could choose to pursue a degree.

(040802 - Sunday)
Another weekend flushed right down the toilet bowl, through the pipes and into the sewage system. The only productive item I accomplished was get my hands covered with dirt and grime removing and reinstalling a new battery for the BMW. Maybe, just maybe I'll get to some Accounting 2 exercises a bit later. That should please my tutor who doesn't think very highly of me. It would also ease the task of catching up for the finals which are just 3 weeks away.

I also found out today that my Charade's back tyres' threads have been completely worn out. But it will be some time before I get a new pair of back tyres. Things like these don't come cheap these days. I guess there won't be any spontaneous trips outstation for the time being.

I somehow just can't seem to partition my harddisk properly. I can't even complete the simple task of running scandisk because some program keeps writing to the drive which causes scandisk to restart. Funny thing is that I've already closed all programs. Defrag doesn't seem to work either, for the same reason I guess. And Windows ME doesn't give me the option of booting the system with MS-DOS. I just don't know how I'm going to get any maintenance work done for my PC, let alone reinstall the second operating system.

(030802 - Saturday)
I chaired my first Leo Club General Meeting today because the President had gone off to Seremban for some family function. I must say that it wasn't as tough as I thought. Actually it seemed rather easy and everything went well. It was quite a productive meeting and we did get a lot more done in one hour as compared to past meetings.

I have completed the task of backing up all important documents and emails onto a CDR. I did try the new CDRWs I bought last weekend, but they just don't seem to work. The PC would hang out of the blue while the drive wrote data onto these "3 for RM10 CDRWs". I guess it's hard to get away with buying extremely cheap stuff, even at the PC Fair.

The more I find out about a certain person, the more disappointed I feel. Yet the infatuation just doesn't seem to go away. I'm still as excited as ever to see and hear from her. Am I cursed to never have situations go my way when it involves my feelings?

(020802 - Friday)
I've finished my Macroeconomics assignment, for the second time. Somehow, I really don't think I'll do much better as compared to the first one which only got me 6/20 marks.

A half an hour call to a mobile number registered in Penang, I do believe this particular call will be obvious in my very first Maxis phone bill. And I think my dad is going to flip when he receives it. That's it - no more porridge boiling sessions until the bill comes.

Friday night, and I'm not out. It's quite amazing that I can somehow or other find myself out of the house every other week night. But when Friday night comes, there's just nowhere for me to go. Shona was right - "You don't have enough fun. You've got to come down to Penang." Sighhh! I wish!

(010802 - Thursday)
Forgive the incomplete page. I know that a lot of text is missing, layout is slightly off, and most of the links here do not work. But I will have them up and running by Sunday at the latest. The layout will be adjusted and corrected by then too.

My Macroeconomics assignment grade came out today. I got 6/20 for the sloppy job I handed in. Hopefully I can complete another copy of the assignment, but this time with much more effort, and hand it in tomorrow. My tutor said that he would try to help me change the grade based on the latest work, but he has to discuss it with the lecturer first. All I can do is my best, and then pray that God likes me.

Curse the little sex shop in Mid-Valley Megamall which goes by the name of "I Need House". All my friend and I wanted to do was kill some time, and so we strolled in to glance at condoms and whatever other kinky stuff you find in such shops. Straight away the salesgirl who attended to us boldly asked if we were 18 years old yet. We casually looked her in the eye and said yes. But that just wasn't enough! She just had to ask to see our IC's, in a very loud manner. So much so that patrons, both in and outside the shop started to stare. I'm freaking 20 years old for crying out loud. And my friend is 19. I seriously don't think that we look anywhere below the age of 18. Could she not at least give us the benefit of the doubt?

That lady has every right to have her doubts. But what really pissed me off is the fact that she didn't have the decency to ask in a more discreet manner. Why does she have to announce to the entire shopping mall that we look too young to be browsing in a shop like that?! Stupid BITCH!