(301102 - Saturday)
This evening's weather was finally good enough for a jog. Sadly, I slept it away thinking that it was going to rain. A few droplets of water can be quite misleading at times. I will set my alarm to go for an early jog tomorrow morning instead.

Finally, the last day of the month has come, bringing us a month closer to the next year. The last 31 days are here, and it's time to start counting down.

I still can't believe I watched 6 shows in November alone. I was almost tempted into watching another one just yesterday. Thank goodness for the lack of time.

(291102 - Friday)
It has been 4 years since I played bowling seriously. I didn't expect much from participating in the Samad Charity Bowl this morning. Nonetheless, I did play a little better than I had expected to. I used to average 140 points per game. I thought it would be unlikely that I could break a hundred today. Fortunately, with a little luck, I scored 136 in the first game, and 113 in the second. Not as bad as I thought, and my efforts earned me a free lunch.

I finally visited my country's tallest standing structure. Dinner was 282 metres above the ground. The view was spectacular, the food was mediocre, the prices were extreme. RM80 per head for a buffet, both western and asian mixed. Thank goodness it was paid for by my mom's company. My motto for such buffet - "No appetizer, one round starter, one round main course, 3 rounds desert". I'm now very content.

(281102 - Thursday)
I usually accomplished tasks to the best of my ability so as to not have another fail to accomplish theirs because of me. But today, I feel as though I let my supervisor down. A simple task which I was supposed to follow-up on had slipped my mind. And now, when time is of the essence, we discover that it was left undone. I feel guilty, but it's hard to find a way to fix the situation. What to do, what to do?!

Three people from my Leo Club, inclusive of myself, have just only initiated a new project. Brainstorming commenced just a couple of hours ago, and within minutes, we saw it come together. It has been decided that the 3 of us, possibly with the help of another, will put the entire thing together by the 18th of January, 2003. I shall not disclose any other details in this blog for the time being. One and a half months - pretty darn ambitious if you ask me, yet it is indeed possible.

(271102 - Wednesday)
I'm bored.

(261102 - Tuesday)
Women are extremely evil creatures. Once you fall for one, four words is all it takes to persuade you to do things her way - "Don't you love me?". You'll end up going through hell just to prove that you do.

(251102 - Monday)
A score of 3 over 20 for my Business Law mid-term paper. I didn't think I was capable of doing so badly even if I tried to fail! I guess I deserve as much for studying only less than 2 hours for the paper. Now it wouldn't be realistic to aim for anything more than a credit. I shall do my very best, if not for myself, then as a promise to someone.

Looking on the bright side, I did pretty well for my Management paper.

(241102 - Sunday)
One more week to get through, with only RM3 left in my wallet. I taste history repeating itself.

I saw a certain someone seven out of the past nine days. Amazingly, I'm not bored yet! What more, I still want to see this person very much.

(231102 - Saturday)
Community service leads to a lot of self-satisfaction. An added bonus is that sometimes, when you feel like you could fall no lower, seeing other people who are worse off makes you feel that you're not in such a bad position after all.

I have the tendency to allow my feelings for someone show. But I sure as hell hate it when I have to hide these feelings when we're in public. Sometimes, we are not given any options.

(221102 - Friday)
The feeling of kissing someone is one thing; but to have the kiss returned is a completely different feeling. Now to kiss, and be kissed at the very same moment, is just plain ecstasy - nothing more, nothing less!

It's bad to have word go around to say that plans have been canceled. Even worse for it to be canceled the day before the event. The WORST is to have to call everyone up again to say that we CANNOT cancel due to certain unforeseen circumstances. So now we have to revert to the original plan, disregarding the reasons leading to plans being canceled in the first place.

Check out how frequent I've been going to the movies lately. SIX freaking movies in this month, and it ain't even over yet.

(211102 - Thursday)
It's nice to have gotten everything out in the open. That kind of implies that we're taking a step forward. I'm certain about what I want. Unfortunately, she isn't. She needs time, and I'm in no position to say no.

Am I really more matured than I'm expected to be? Is that a good thing? I sure as hell don't want to grow up before my time. But what if I already have? I can't turn back the clock can I?! Why do things happen without us realizing it?!

(201102 - Wednesday)
Feeling quite fatigue lately. I'm not sure if it's the lack of sleep, or the strenuous activities I do.

Ten days left till the end of the month, but I only have RM45 left in my wallet. How will I survive!

(191102 - Tuesday)
I learnt a very good lesson today - if you're planning to tell a lie, make sure you sort out the entire story before it gets started. Once you start the lie, it can get very disorganized along the way, and you wind up forgetting what you said earlier.

My love life seems to be moving along. I wonder what the future has in store for me. Good or bad, it will come.

(181102 - Monday)
I must admit, I have very poor work ethics. I get paid by the hour, but whether I actually do my work is a whole different issue. It's a good thing no one complains.

(171102 - Sunday)
Karaoke-ed for the first time today. I can't say that I enjoyed it a lot, but I sure as hell can't say I did NOT enjoy it either. I guess it's just another activity to help kill some time. If other people want to do it, and I haven't anything else better to do with my time, then sure - I'm game!

I'm still wondering about this "older gal - younger guy" issue. I'm not against it, but three years does seem like a big difference. I think I'll just play it out and see what happens.

(161102 - Saturday)
After last night's major screw up and having all the negative energy flowing through my body, I didn't get much rest. Tossing and turning the entire night sure does the body no good. My day started a little past 8am.

The bottle cap factory visit was quite interesting. It was a reasonably small factory, but the process still is quite fascinating. And the capacity of production was indeed very impressive. I bet you didn't know that one machine can produce 250,000 crown caps an hour, or 4,000++ per minute! Well now you know! And if you want to talk about efficiency, only one out of about 80,000 of these bottle caps is defective, on average. Not bad for a company born is this country!

I've never before gotten involved with a girl who's older than me, until today. Is 3 years too big a difference? Maybe I shouldn't get too carried away with this. Not just yet.

(151102 - Friday)
Treat someone too nice, and what you get is a fucking screwed up night.

Two nights ago, someone gets off the phone and tells me "Friday night we're going to The Beach.". My response - "We who? 'We' you and your friend, or 'we' you and I?". And she goes - "US la! Go meet some of my friends." I don't usually entertain such invitations, especially to go out clubbing till the wee hours of the morning. What more if I have a 9am appointment on Saturday. But I decided to make an exception since she made it seem like my presence meant something, and I do consider this person somewhat special to me.

Because of her dinner plans, and my own evening engagements, we decided to meet there. She sends me an SMS saying that her cousin won't be going, so she'll be joining her friends. But when I got there and started calling her on her phone, she just didn't pick up. It would ring a few times, and then "Number Busy". I think I must have dialed at least 10 times, but she still didn't pick up, until finally there was no response whatsoever. So what was I supposed to do? Pay the cover charge and walk in to hunt her out? What if I can't find her? It's not like the place is an open field where everyone can see everyone! Then what? Walk back out, go home and sulk?

Well, giving her the benefit of the doubt, I hung around waiting for her to find some way to contact me. Two hours later, I receive this message from her - "Hey, sorry bout just now. My phone was low on batt. Sorry ya?" Maybe coming straight home and sulking would have been a wiser idea.

Fuck la! If you're going to invite me so indirectly, and then accept your own invitation on my behalf, have the decency to not screw up my evening when I DO show up! It wouldn't matter quite as much if clubbing was a weekly affair for me, but IT'S NOT! I have my reasons for not doing it so often, and I chose to ignore those reasons because of YOU! Maybe that was my mistake. So I can't blame you can I?

Once again, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SCREWING UP MY ENTIRE EVENING! I sure won't be forgetting this little incident anytime soon. And I'm sure going to be hearing a lot from my father in the morning about the late return home.

After all that shit, if you think "sorry ya?" is going to make everything alright, you'll most definitely have one friend less! I don't need such selfish and inconsiderate people around!

(141102 - Thursday)
Shopping has never been so much fun. No doubt I've always enjoyed it, but never this much. I need to find more shop-o-holics so that I can do this more often. The side-effect - extreme exhaustion.

Today's date was a whole new experience. I've been out on countless dates, but never one like this before. This is the first time I've walked around the city's hot spot, with almost every Thompson, Dickson and Harrison stealing glances at my date. On top of that, while crossing the road, cars actually stop to allow us to cross first. It's no doubt because of her. Now I know how it feels to walk beside such an attractive young lady.

I enjoyed myself and I sure hope she did too.

(131102 - Wednesday)
Spending close to three hours with Shona was all it took to make me forget everything I did today. That's because now, I'm exhausted beyond words and it's hard to remember anything. We spent the evening at Coffee Bean in BSC, and then proceeded on a little expedition around KL. All that driving, and the traffic was in deed tiring.

On the other hand, now I have a shopping date for tomorrow, which means I'm going to have to skip a class. But that doesn't matter - it's just a management lecture. Furthermore, it's not everyday I get to go out with a chic from Penang. Another down side is that I have to postpone my working day to Friday instead, but that's no big deal either.

Because of the same person, I now have an invitation to go to The Beach on Friday night with her, and some friends of hers who I've never met. I do have other plans that night, and I'm not keen on going to The Beach, but I don't think I could find it within myself to turn her down either. We'll see how things go.

(121102 - Tuesday)
Having a 3 day week timetable isn't that great after all. Spent the entire day at home, eating, sleeping and breathing. I need to overcome this, and fast!

(111102 - Monday)
I may not be as young as I wish to be, nor am I as old as I dread being. Maybe this isn't such a bad age after all. The prime years. Alas, like all other things in my life, good or bad, time will take it away from me too.

(101102 - Sunday)
There just doesn't seem to be anything to do around the house on Sundays. Now I know why I'm usually not at home anyway.

Jogging plans went bad with rain yesterday. The scenario occurred today as well, except that today, it's 10pm and it still hasn't stopped raining.

(091102 - Saturday)
Yesterday's prediction was very correct. It's going to take a miracle for me to pass today's Business Law paper. Looking on the bright side, it only carries 20% of my total Business Law assessment.

Just an observation, but it seems that some girls just insist on dressing up, or should I say dressing down, during examinations. Really eye-catching, not to mention distracting too! Sometimes last-minute studying before the exam begins becomes terribly hard because of these girls trying to show off as much of their bodies as they possibly can. Maybe it's some psychological thing they use to get guys to do worse in the exams, so that their own grades look better on an overall scale.

(081102 - Friday)
Productivity today was low, very low. My overconfidence is going to cost me dearly during tomorrow's Business Law paper. Worse yet, the paper is at 10.00am, leaving me little time for final flip-throughs.

(071102 - Thursday)
It's funny how sometimes, even last minute studying pays off. I think I did pretty well for my management paper today. But of course I do not expect to be getting distinctions.

Mr Deeds - great show! Good laughs from the beginning right till the end.

(061102 - Wednesday)
Finally got started on my management revision. It's quite hard to consider it revision in the first place when I have never learnt most of it before.

It's time to find peace with myself.

(051102 - Tuesday)
I broke my own record today. Spent more time in the office than I ever have. Clocked up a total of 9 hours and 15 minutes, and I didn't even have to leave office for lunch. With my wage rate, how can I complain? Today's wages totals a good one quarter of last months grand total.

A whole day without a tad bit of studying. The situation is getting worse.

(041102 - Monday)
Deepavali - festival of lights. Lots of good indian food, lots of good curry!

Three days till my management mid-term paper, yet I've barely started preparations. This is clearly a bad sign.

(031102 - Sunday)
Slow day.

(021102 - Saturday)
Two more months til the end of the year. Nothing much seems to be happening. So little to look forward to. And even that which I look forward to seems to not happen.

(011102 - Friday)
I completed my Law assignment one and a half hours before the dateline. Handed it up on time, and now I need not worry about any more assignments till February or March next year. Some peace at last!