some entries have been taken from various diaries of mine
I just want to be held in her arms and fall asleep with the sound of her heart beating in my ear, I want to wake in the middle of the night and feel her body against mine and watch her sleep so beautiful and innocent. I want to wake up in the morning next to my love and kiss her awake so I can look in her amazing eyes and know that for the rest of my life I can look in those eyes and feel completely safe.
I think I fell in love all over again today and I havent even talked to or heard from my baby gurl. All I had to do was think about her, and talk about her and I fell in love with her again. Am I crazy for feeling this way about a girl that I have never met in person, who lives on the other side of the world? Perhaps. But I love her none-the-less and really really wish she was here with me tonight, and every other night.
I am so alone. And watching Armegedon didn't help me in the least. That song, 'Don't Wanna Miss a Thing', brought tears to my eyes. And I'm not an emotional person. Since I met Lisa, all these stupid love songs aren't so stupid anymore, I understand them and know what they are talking about. I mean, I liked them before but now they mean so much more, they are coming from my heart, I think all those things, they just have the voice to say them when I don't.
I really need to be held right now. I have my dreams but a dream can never even compare to the real thing, dreaming is like eating brocolli when what you really want is chocolate.
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Okay, I really have to change my topic. I love my girl but thinking about her so far away is really depressing me. So you wanna hear a funny story? Sure you do.
I don't live in a very big town but once in a while a movie will be shot here. Like Reindeer Games that was shot here, watched it but didn't recognize anything. And right now Dreamcatcher(Stephen King) is being shot here. So Morgan Freeman, and Donnie Walberg(New Kids on the Block!!!!!!!!!hehe) are both here as well as Stephen King.
So this weekend a couple of guys were sitting at Denny's eating their supper, and they noticed this guy in the table next to them. He was wearing an absolutely hideously coloured fur coat. So these guys are making fun of him(just between them I think, not actually to the guy), after a few minutes the waitress comes over and hears what they are saying and is like, "that's Stephen King."
I thought that was so funny when I heard it. A couple of hick town city folk, making fun of big time best seller Stephen King. All I can say is glad it wasn't me. I've done stupid things in my life, and embrassed myself, but that one was a classic. Imagine if that was me, wanna be writer making fun of bigtime writer Stephen King, there goes my career down the drain. Haha, okay I'm feeling a bit better now, I'm not thinking so completely about my girl anymore, for now. Oh and kind of a cool thing, one of my professors houses is being used in the movie, they said that his house from the outside at least was exactly what they were looking for so it's gonna get its 15 minutes of fame. Pretty cool right.
So how was your day? Mine was average. I think most of my life has been based on average days. Classes some how manage to find new and interesting ways to become more boring. Ten more weeks, and then fineto. I will be finished for good, no more pencils no more books no more teachers dirty looks...though the dirty looks doesn't apply because I never say anything in class and therefore no cause for dirty looks.
Well my dear readers, thank you for giving me a few moments when I didn't feel so lonely. Now I am off to my devastatingly empty bed. I do dread this time of night. Take care.