some entries have been taken from various diaries of mine
I don't know what I would do if everyone I cared about turned their backs on me, or if our relationships changed and started to become uncomfortable for either of us. If I tell my friends and they don't take it well I think I would move to Calgary, somewhere like that, just because I wouldn't be able to handle seeing them and knowing that they no longer like me or that they talked about me behind my back. If I moved atleast I could start new, start 'out' and see how my life is living in open honesty. Aahh, I want to go to Australia to Lisa. Wonder what she is doing.
Love, sometimes I think you are only a figment of my imagination and you never were or will be real. I'll think that until I can put my arms around you and hold you close to me, then I will know you are real. If I told people about you would they think I was crazy? Falling in love with a girl from Australia over the internet, ha, sometimes I think I'm crazy. Ah well, imagination and insanity are what makes a good writer great...I must be magnificent. If only I could find a way to unleash this magnificence and write something, a complete something, that people will love. Gonna write that lesbian harlequin someday, and all those controversial screenplays to!