The
Grinch
I have very scary features for a gay individual. Large hands that
could cover a petite face. Psoriasis which people often mistake
for Eczema. Itchy skin which doubts any outside contact with a slap
in the face. Discolored to cope with the math. Even I cannot unveil
my real skin color. Mid length nails which are hazardous to all
people associating with me, as sharp as dull knives. Perpetual contemplating
eyes also known as “evil eyes.” Long legs and arms that
could be potentially used as martial weapons. Large feet transmitted
from my father’s side and lastly, a stealthy face, but still
I declare no shame.
Being the legendary
grinch has been an impelling joy ride. I again thank you mother
and absent father. I do in fact scare children with the stereotypical
Goth image. How ironic.
Yes, I am the
dark individual. The darkest of them all I dare say. BEHOLD! Thy
mightiest cloak! My mission is to scare all the little children
and intimidate the adults.
Watch as I retch
to my own melodrama. Melodrama. . .melodraMA!
So, I will
take the steps back to reality now. I have gone through the stereotypical
Goth phase which gained me ignorant attention. I have defended the
Goth philosophy which I so declare does not exist. But what does
exist is the history of the warrior Goths from so, so long ago.
I’ve written little ignorant journal entries a few years back
which I regret dearly. One is as follows:
I didn't
wake up one day and say "Oh I'm Goth!" I've been this
way for a while. It mostly started(11 years old) when I wanted
certain things. Nothing too bright, something velvet, lace, medival,
etc. . .
Bullshit bushido
of a typical depressed teenage response. Not that I’m one
to judge.
You think
I don't know, but I do know something. I know that the Goths originated
in Scotland. They were a kind of group, I guess you can say a
clan. Then it progressed into England where it became a Britain
thing while they started making music, most eerie sounding, and
clothes and called it Goth (Not exactly, it was called New Wave
and Ambient too). We adopted it in the US, most people called
it being creative and eerie and adopted certain styles from England
and the US made newer versions. Some examples of bands are London
After Midnight, Bauhus, Switchblade Symphony, Vein, Alien Sex
Fiend, Rosetta Stone, and Miranda Sex Garden.
By the way. . .not everything came from England. Some things were
carried on from Medival times, 18th - 19th century.
I did in fact
listen to those bands and still do. How could I ever be more controversial?
Then there
came the stereotyping and renaming.
People started calling Edgar Allen Poe and Dracula goth. Not only
this but many other things. Probably for some known and popular
things to be on the goth side.
Survey says: TRUE!
Stereotyping
progressed in this world with a new thing called goth. Whoever
someone saw with black hair and black clothes, they called that
person goth. So on, so forth.
Yeah, what else Helena oh dark one?
It became
something different to be, a part of some's personality So alot
of people were considered morbid and eerie and they felt so. They
went on the goth side having a little clique with them all wearing
black nail polish, having black hair, etc...maybe. The people
around them probably captured this image and said "Oh look
at those people over there, those are GOTHS!" "They
always. . .so and so. . .and act. . .so on so forth"
Yes, and this
still goes on. I am still considered morbid and eerie. AT least
I had an understanding of the gossip.
So you
still want to stereotype when someone has already done it before?
So to wrap it up, Goth is a subculture.
It was.
Its not
that I'm against Goth, I am very much with. I find it to be unique
and a good style for myself. Something that I approve of! Something
I am interested in and want to research on.
Wanted my dearest
Helena. Wanted.
So do
you still want to say that I know nothing!?
By the way. . .I got this from alot of research in the library
and observation of society. I didn't copy this from a website.
These are my own words!
Yes, they are
my own words. The whole essayish defense explains itself.
Now that I’ve fully assaulted myself on Gothism, I will go
to my dark corner now. Mwahahaha . . .
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