Another Goo Story
By: Rebekah Parham
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We were lying on a rug before the fire. The touching, caressing, and kisses were all nice but we were ready for something more. I felt his hand go to my waist and he squeezed gently then his hand moved to my jeans. His hand expertly undid them and slid inside. "Kayla," I heard him say between the kisses he was planting on my neck.
"Yes," I hissed and his mouth went lower.
"Do you want me?" he asked
I immediately remembered me asking him that same question and what I did when he answered it. "Yes, I want you. I have wanted you for so long now, and I swear to God if you stop now I will kill you," I said looking down at him kissing my stomach.
He looked up with a devilish grin on his face, "I couldn't stop now if I wanted to."
"Do you have anything?' I asked
"What?"
"Any protection?" I repeated.
His hands instantly stilled. He looked up and said, "No"
I gave him a distressing look, more for the fact that he had stopped than because he didn't have a condom. "Hey, I thought I was going to be spending the next three days with Robby" he said laughing..
"Don't stop," I managed to get out.
"Kayla, we don't have anything."
"I can't get pregnant, and I have never had unprotected sex before, so I won't give you anything," I told him.
He didn't look convinced, "Are you sure you want to do this? We can wait until...."
"No," I nearly screamed. "We can't wait. I can't wait." I was about to do something that I swore to myself I would never do...beg. "John, Please don't stop. I want you so much right now. I know you want this just as much as I want it. Please don't stop." I pleaded with him. And he gave in.
I felt his hands begin to slid my jeans down. Before I knew it they were off as were my bra and panties. I parted my thighs so his hand could have better access. I nearly stopped breathing when I felt his fingers slide inside me. I was already wet and ready for him. "Oh God," I whimpered as the exquisite explosion started running through my body. I brought my knees together trying to capture his fingers.
When my body had relaxed some John removed his hand and I experienced a moment of fear. I thought he had planned to stop until he moved on top of me. Ever so slowly John eased himself inside of me. "Jesus, your small everywhere," he gritted out. "How did I ever do this last time without killing you?" he said as he eased slowly inside of me. "Am I hurting you?" he asked tenderly.
"You will hurt me worse if you stop," I said half in pleasure half in pain from wanting him to hurry.
He gave my body time to get use to him before he started moving inside of me. His slow pace that he had set was driving me absolutely crazy. I lifted my hips to met his. "We fit together perfectly," he said.
He must have sensed that I wanted him to speed up his movement. He said, "Now you know what it was like for me. Always wanting something. Wanting more that you would give me. You tortured me just like this for six years, I thought it was time for a little pay back."
"John, don't fuck with me right now." I gritted out. Once again, he stilled his body, and I thought I was going to die.
"I thought fucking is what you wanted from me," he said. I couldn't take this anymore. My body was already blazing with desire. I push him on to his back. I began riding him at a vigorous pace. "You always did have to have things your way" he said. "Fortunately for you, so do I" throwing me on my back. John began thrusting harder, more intimately propelling us both toward bliss. We were both ready to shatter when he withdrew from me, "Tell me Kayla"
"I'll tell you anything, just finish" I begged
"Tell me why you want this so badly" John said pushing his finger inside of me so I wouldn't loose the feeling that had already begun, but also that I couldn't have completion until he got his answer.
"Because I need you," I can't believe that I just said that. I had never needed anyone. But at this moment my entire world revolved around him inside of me.
"No, it's more than that for both of us. Tell me" he said removing his hand and pressing just the tip into me.
"John, I can't," I whimpered into his neck trying to lift myself up to take more of him inside of me.
"Tell me. I want to hear you say it," pressing just a little further into me.
"Say what?" I asked.
"Tell me you love me," he said slipping all the way into me and then withdrawing again. He knew he was torturing me. "Tell me, Kayla," trying to be ruthlessly gentle. He wanted her so bad right now that he couldn't hardly contain himself. But he knew that it was more important to get her to admit that she loved him. He knew he wouldn't have a better opportunity than this.
"I love you," I said through a sob. That was all it took for him to surge back into me with calculated thrusts until we were both out of control. I squirmed around trying to get that last bit closer to him. We both experience our shattering climax together.
For a while John just continued laying on top of me. When he did finally move to the side I felt lost. I wanted him back on top of me, back inside of me. He pulled a quilt off the couch and smoothed it over us. He wrapped his arms around my body. "Go to sleep, Kayla. We will talk about everything later."
-36-
I slept for a little while, but not very well. I couldn't believe that he had gotten me to say that I loved him. Oh God why did I say that? How was I going to get myself out of this mess now? It was just suppose to be a one night thing now it had gotten complicated. These same questions kept running through my mind. I couldn't be still anymore. I moved away from John and got up. I was cold so I put on the first thing I found. It was John's shirt he had worn earlier.
I walked over to the window to look out. It was only two in the morning so I still couldn't see anything. Reagan was definitely going to pay for this.
"Aren't you cold?" John asked from where he lay on the rug.
"No, I'm fine."
I heard him moving around and assumed he was getting up. "Kayla, don't be upset" he said coming to stand behind me. He was so close that I could feel his body heat radiating from him. When I didn't say anything John turned me around to face him. A tear was beginning to fall from the corner of my eye. "Kayla, don't cry. I am so sorry, this shouldn't have happened."
"I'm not sorry. That was the way I always imagined it would be between us."
"Did I hurt you? You are just so small and..."
"You didn't hurt me. It was wonderful. You were right when you said we fit together perfectly.".
"Then why are you crying?" he asked concerned.
I looked away. I didn't want to fight with him right now, but I knew if I told him why I was crying we would only argue. "Kayla, please tell me" he urged. "Is it because you told me you loved me?"
"Why did you make me say that?"
"I didn't make you say it, you did that on your own."
"That is not true and you know it. You waited until you finally got the upper hand with me so you could make me do whatever you wanted."
"Kayla, that's not what I did. I am sorry that if telling me that has upset you. I didn't want that."
"Can we just pretend that I didn't say it?"
John swallowed hard. "If that's what you want. We will pretend, but I will never forget."
I stepped into his embrace and let him hold me. This felt so good, I knew it was wrong, but I didn't care. John had his head resting on my head, "You are my sweet charade" he said. I wanted to ask what he meant by that but my mind went blank when he started nibbling on my ear. "If this is going to be our only night together lets make it count."
I was all to ready to succumb to his love making again. We didn't sleep any more that night. The rest of it was spent giving us something we knew was going to have to last us a life time. We sat wrapped in a blanket watching the sun come up. We decided to shower together, which proved to be a lot of fun. "Now I know that you can do more than just play a guitar with those hands" I told him as we were dressing. He jumped over the bed and I ran around to the other side. When he went to grab me I jumped on the bed. He pulled my feet out from under me and I landed on my back. He quickly joined me on the bed.
"You know what's more fun than getting dressed?" he asked
"What?"
"Getting undressed." In a matter of minutes we were both without our clothes again. We couldn't get enough of each other. We knew that all to soon it was going to end and we would have to go back to our real lives.
-37-
Reagan met Robby at his apartment on Sunday. "They have been together for two days now. You think they have killed each other?" Robby asked.
"I don't know, lets go find out." They followed each other up the mountain to the secluded cabin. When they walked in there were no signs of John and Kayla. "Maybe they are in the bedroom."
Walking into the bedroom they saw me and John sleep together. "Looks like it may have worked" Robby said once they were out of the bedroom. "Should we wake them?"
"No, let them sleep" I said smiling. "How about we fix something to eat. Maybe they have worked up an appetite."
"Let's hope so"
Reagan and Robby were in the kitchen cooking hamburgers when John and I woke up. "Looks like our captors have returned" John said.
"Reality rears it's ugly head" I said saddened that this was all going to end.
"Kayla, are you sure you are ready to give this all up?" he asked one last time.
"John, I know we would end up hating each other You will see this will be for the best."
He didn't want to but he agreed to go back to the way things were before. We dressed, again, and went to face Reagan and Robby. They both looked up when we emerged from the bedroom.
"How are you two doing?" Reagan asked cheerfully.
"A bit cheery for someone that just forced two her closest friends to spend time together" I said.
"You aren't going to be angry with me about that are you. I had you best interests at heart you know."
"I know. I should be furious with you right now but I'm not."
Reagan come around the table and hugged me. "I want details" she whispered in my ear.
John had moved over to where Robby was. "Man, I should kick your ass."
"But you're not going to right" Robby asked.
"No, why the hell did you go along with something like this?"
"I knew that you loved her. I didn't want you to spend the next fifty years in the same torture that you spend the last five." Robby said "So am I going to be the best man or what?" Robby asked with his signature smile on his face.
"Not unless you have become good friends with Zack in the two days we were apart" John said.
"What? She isn't still going to marry Zack is she?" Robby asked incredulously. "after what you two did here together. How can she do that to you?"
"Rob, it's cool. Don't worry about it." John said walking back over to me.
"We did good don't you think?" Reagan said to Robby.
"Not good enough" Robby muttered.
"What are you talking about? Look at them, they are in love." Reagan pointed out to Robby. He could see that we were standing arm in arm talking to each other.
"John just told me Kayla still plans on marrying Zack. Worst of all, John is cool with it." Robby said leaving Reagan as clueless as he was.
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We ate and everyone thought it best if we got moving so we would get home before night fall. John and I went into the bedroom to make sure all of our stuff was together. When the last of our bags were packed away I took one last look around the cabin. This place was always going to hold memories for both John and myself. I was so happy but at the same time I was heart broken. John came back into the cabin and saw me sitting on the couch. "Robby and Reagan are ready. They are waiting for us."
I got up to turn off the last light that was on and started to walk out the door. I took John by the arm before we got into view of Reagan and Robby. "Thank you" I said.
"I am the one that should be thanking you. Do you have any regrets?" he asked.
I looked into his eyes, "None" I told him honestly. "You?"
"Not a one." he said taking my face in his hands and pressing his lips to mine. Then we turned away from each other and got into our separate cars.
I slid into the seat beside Reagan. She didn't say anything just waited for Robby to back out of the driveway so she could do the same. Nothing was said until we were half way home. I kept hearing Reagan sigh and that usually meant she was peeved about something. "What is it?" I asked.
She had obviously been waiting for me to ask, "Are you seriously still going to go through with your marriage to Zack?"
"Yes" I said calmly.
"Why? I saw you and John together today so don't even bother denying that you don't love him anymore."
"I do love him, that's why I'm going to marry Zack."
"You love John but you are going to marry Zack. I understand completely now." Reagan shrieked.
"Reagan....." I started
"Why can't you guys be together?"
"We aren't good for each other. We would end up driving each other crazy."
"You don't think you're driving each other crazy now?" Reagan asked
"In time these feelings that we have for each other will pass. He will find someone that can love him the way he deserves." I told her.
"You deserve someone who can love you unconditionally, not someone like Zack. You know you are always going to take a back seat to his job. Don't you want someone that would give up everything to be with you?"
"I'm too old to believe in fairy tales. You have to play the hand that life deals you. Zack is that hand not John. So lets stop talking about it."
"I know that you and John fight but I also know that he loves you and he would do anything you asked if he knew you loved him too." As soon as the words were out of her mouth she realized why John wasn't furious with me. She swerved the car off the road into a nearby rest area.
"Reagan what are you doing." I asked when she jumped out of the car and walked around to my side. She opened the door and practically pulled me out.
"You asked him to walk away didn't you? You asked him to give you this one weekend with him and now you're just going to turn your back on him."
"Why are you so angry? What did you think we would do when you and Robby stuck us together? I thought you wanted that to happen."
"Kayla, I am not mad because you had sex with him. I'm mad because you are taking everything and not considering what John might want." she screamed.
"I am doing this for John. I can't give him everything he deserves so I'm giving him the freedom to find someone that can." I yelled back.
We stood there for a moment before Reagan walked over to me. "All my life I have wanted everything you had. You were smart, sexy, beautiful, and everyone always loved you. People would stop what they were doing to watch you walk across a room. I always wanted to know what that was like. I never begrudged you any of it because you were my best friend, and I loved you. But at this moment I have never been more disgusted with anyone than I am with you. You could have everything and you're throwing it away, all because you are too afraid of someone finally getting close enough that they might hurt you."
Stunned I just stood there, I couldn't believe she had just said that to me, but I couldn't be mad because it was all true. Reagan tuned away and walked around to the other side of the car. She opened the door to get in. "I know he would regret marrying me and he would eventually leave" I said through my tears. I felt that I had to make her understand why I was doing this. I walked around the car where she stood. "I am afraid. Afraid that he will hate me. That I would have to see the resentment in his eyes that he would feel towards me."
"You are afraid that he would leave you so you left him first."
I grabbed her hand, "Reagan, please don't hate me. I know that this is the cowardly thing to do, but I couldn't bare it if I lost both of you. Please be my friend and stand by me through this."
"I may not like what you are doing, but I will always be there for you no matter what," she said through her own tears that had formed. We had never fought like that before and it was tearing us both apart. "Lets go home" she said after we hugged and dried our tears.
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