Catherine Liu

Remember the chocolates (Milka) that I bought like super last minute the night before. Well instead of just giving her the necklace out of no where I thought I could give her chocolates. It was one of those days. A B Day I still remember amazing huh? I mean it's 50-50. So that day I believe I took the necklace and chocolates to school cause I wanted to show my friends. During arch I showed Sid and I'm sure he was surprised. I think I showed him. Well I bet after class I was hoping that I'd see Cat in the hall. But as Sid and I walk thru this cursed halls she didn't show up or run by or whatever, so I was depressed. So we walk to the library. All that time when I was in the library I bet I was half awake. Well as it was time to go to class, sci-fi up next I think I grabbed the necklace out again and this time I showed Kwok as we walk down the stairs. Ok to skip to General Buisness this time I decided to give Cat the Chocolates at lunch.

May 20, 2002- OPERATION: CHOCO'S AWAY

Left- That's the chocolate that I gave to Cat, except I think it was a bit bigger and there was this little heart thingy on it too. It was Kwok's idea that I get this chocolate. He said that he gave it to Mindy, but it was cuz she liked it. Frankly I would've settled with something of higher quality. See if I were in the US that time, I would've gone to See's Candies and there, all the chocolates in boxes. I would've felt better too. Feel like I was using cheap chocolates to buy her love. I feel bad.

Well my stomach was growling so since I didn't find her. I went to the pizza line and waited. All of a sudden she walks right past me, and I just was caught off guard again. I then decided to go for it and jumped out of line, losing my place (no duh). I chased after her, but I found out she made her way to a table, filled with GUYS! Not really, but I guess they were her friends. I remember one of them. This one guy with the hat who was sleeping when I asked her to the dance about a week ago. Well she like slaps or taps him in the back and drops her bag. I then abort, it's like RED ALERT ABORT ABORT, PULL BACK! And I just lost my courage and turn away and head to class. That was sad. This operation went up into to flames basically. Kinda foreshadowed what would happen. All down hill actually. But instead of giving up I kicked it up a notch and made way by typing a letter of my feelings. I just took a look at some old e-mails that I burned onto a CD and read through, so according to it I was gonna have a math test the very next day, but I don't think I studied at all. So that night I wrote out my letter from the bottom of my heart. I also have a copy of Sid's cause I sent it to him thru ICQ cause I know he'd be able to slash it down, and slash he did. At first I think he said it was a bit difficult to correct since its just a bunch of my feelings on paper, no real dierction or point. But he was able to help me proofread it. What a guy. So at the end I read over it and print out his copy. And I believe that my guns would be bigger than before cause now when I sent out the chocolates at least there's a reason I'm doing that. And plus since I get so nervous around her I could have this letter do the talking. Onto the next plan...devastating at the end.

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For all you guys who are so bored and need something to read, you can read the letter that I wrote to Cat. There are 2 copies, one is the original while the one Sid revised was the final one I sent to her.