My musings on the world that surrounds and astonds me. For October, 2000
October. It's here. My favorite month.
It's more than the whole death and dreary goth thing, it's my true love of October, of fall, because a season of death is part of rebirth, you can't go from nothing to something or something to nothing, so you need death if you ever want to have growth.
And it's also the whole dreary goth thing. I like it that way. Things that are dramatic, intense, dark - they draw me. I want to embrace that aspect of myself because it is a clear picture of who I am.
I am dark. I am at peace with death. I am fascinated by serial killers. Okay, I'm a little freaky. But I'm that way because I love things like horror stories and clothes that look like I'm in mourning. I've always dug that. (Yeah, I don't listen to goth music, so shoot me!)
I love trick or treating.
I love crinkling leaves.
I love the smell of decaying plant matter. Death.
I like the time of preparation for winter, for hibernation. A time to take respite and prepare for spring when we are born again. The sun is swallowed.
I like making cookies, and nesting. I like chocolate frogs. I love warm clothes and big socks.
For me this year has a lot of opportunities for rebirth, for growth. Whether it be getting Xcylur to work harder on school, or for me to work harder on Zen, or to find a new nitche in the job world.
Or for me to get all the costuming crap I have to do done. I want to do a Sleepy Hollow Dress, but I have decided I need a pattern. And I need fabric. And I really need something to make the Ichobod Crane outfit with the glasses.
Xcylur wants to be a Pokemon for Halloween. I've been able to avoid "furry" costuming so far. But I'll give my son what he wants, because I adore him.
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School is approaching fast. I'm really nervous. I've not been in school for years. I don't think I'll blow it, but I really need to do well. The nice this is that Omaha Steaks has tuition reimbursement, so the longer I'm here, the more of school I can get paid for.
Html programming is just a start anyway. The more I learn about the technological side of computers the more I'll be able to utilize said things. Not that web designers aren't quickly becoming a dime a dozen, but Fredd says that if you learn how to actual do the work, and you have a good eye for graphics, you'll outclass most of the kids out there who have really only learned how to use a couple of programs. Knowledge is always power!