POISON KANDIE
(Stories)
Memories Fading
By: THIRTEENTWO
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I'm losing more of you now. It was bad enough losing you, but now sometimes I can't even get a clear picture of what you look like in my head anymore. I wonder if I would even recognize your voice anymore. What if I forget? Why did you have to go away? Die? Leave me? I wanted to come with you. I want to be with you so bad it hurts. Sometimes I feel I can't go on, but then I hear the crying and I know I have to be strong. If I'm real careful, sometimes I can still smell you here. It's like you're not even gone. I can pretend you're still around. If I don't turn too quickily, sometimes I can see your shadow out of the corner of my eye and for that moment, I am happy. There have been times when I have felt your presence. I see messages in the mirror after a long shower, but they always fade away before I can read them or be sure that I'm seeing anything that isn't a figment of my imagination. It's not fair. I don't know if I should feel angry at you for leaving or sad. I know it's not your fault, but it's so hard being alone with our child. You died and I can't help but put some of the blame on myself...and the rest on the baby. She has your eyes, you know. Your smile too. But you should be here. I shouldn't be doing this alone. I miss you so much. I'm afraid of losing my memories of you. Time has a way of wearing things down and making memories fade away. I don't want to lose anymore of you than I already have. I love you. |
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