| ~ A SPOOKY FEELING ~ When a breeze brushes your cheek And the night is still and meek It�s Spooky When the air is still and light Yet you wake up with a fright It�s Spooky When the world is still and poised But you swore you heard a noise It�s Spooky When you can�t escape the ache And your hearts about to break It�s Spooky When you�ve reached your wit�s end By the loss of your best friend It�s Spooky When you hear four little feet But you swear you are asleep It�s Spooky When you�re crying out in vain Because you�re heavy with the pain It�s Spooky When you�re missing half your soul And you life is just not whole It�s Spooky When you�re wishing for the end Then the breeze comes by again It�s Spooky When a breeze brushes your hair But only stillness fills the air It�s Spooky! written by Spooky's Mommy, June 15, 2002 |
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| Tears For Spooky |
| For the Memories of Mommy Dianne and Daddy |
| ~ The Answer to WHY ~ Scalding torrent acid tears scorch my tired eyes Red rimmed, blood shot, and burning, turned up to the quiet sky Black blood filled with hurt and anger courses through my veins Fueled by a heart that�s so familiar with such loss and pain Searching the midnight sky for answers left by day Happiness and comfort are strangers to my life�s way Wondering and wandering about a world that�s so unkind Waiting for foolish answers to the questions in my mind Why This One? Why Her? There Are So Many Others To Take! This One Is So Special, Who Dares Decide Her Fate? Why Couldn�t She Stay Longer To Easy My Troubled Life? The Loss Of This One�s Little Soul Cuts Deeper Than A Knife No One Else Is Good Enough To Keep Her Safe And Warm Who Else Could Be Trusted To Save Her From The Storm? My Love For Her Is Stronger Than Any Other�s Could Be Why Do I Have To Suffer? She Belongs Right Here With Me! Thou reeling with the loss of one so vital to my days I wear my scar so secretly and drift through life�s great maze Passing minutes turn to hours to mark my time alone Then lightening streaks across the room to touch my heart of stone The answers come so violently like a hammer to my chest Me, who had the nerve to think that I would know what�s best The sky opened up it�s eyes with a great torrent of rain The silent voice wrapped in thunder said �I KNOW YOUR PAIN� �I ASKED THOSE QUESTIONS TOO, BEFORE I SENT HER SOUL TO YOU� ~ June 16, 2002 ~ |
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| ~ Home Soon ~ Spooky used to whine and cry when I would leave to go to the store. She would worry that I would be gone for a long time or that she wouldn�t see me again. I would give her a comforting pat on the head and tell her not to worry. �Silly Spooky! I�ll be home before you know it, and we�ll be together then! I just have a few things that I must do. I know it may seem like a long time that we�re apart, but it will only be a short time before we�re together again!� Even though she didn�t understand, I knew something more than she did. Now, it is my turn to whine and cry because I worry that I won�t see her again. As she sits at the Bridge, it is now her turn to silently give me a pat on the head, saying �Silly Mommy, ---don�t you remember what you told me? You�ll be home before you know it, and we�ll be together then! You just have a few things that you must do. I know it may seem like a long time that we�re apart, but it will only be a short time before we�re together again!� Now it is her turn to know something more than I do. written by Spooky's Mommy, September 9, 2002 |
| I walked a mile with Pleasure, she chattered all the way, but ne'er a thing I learned from her, for all she had to say. Then I walked a mile with Sorrow, and ne'er a word said She, but oh the things I learned from Her, when Sorrow walked with Me. |
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| Finding My Love.... The story of how Spooky came into our lives begins well before she was even born. My husband and I have moved for our jobs on an average of 1 time per year for the last 10 years. Due to this, we�ve never lived in homes where could have a dog. We finally settled down in one place, and bought our first home after 15 years of marriage. It didn�t take us long before we longed to have a furry companion. In January of 2000, we were blessed with a beautiful male Bichon Frise we named Bijou. Bijou made our house into a home! As the summer of 2000 went on, we were spending less and less time at home with Bijou. I began noticing a sadness in Bijou�s eyes, and told my husband that we needed to get Bijou a companion. Bijou was spending too many hours alone, and it wasn�t fair to him. That was the day that Spooky�s new home was waiting for her arrival. We searched for �just the right� friend for Bijou. He was quite the little man about the house, so we didn�t want to make him feel threatened. We searched the newspapers, and then we found what sounded like the right match. We had originally gotten Bijou form a pet store. It didn�t take long for us to realize that our sweet baby was a puppy mill puppy. It took 3 changes of vets before we found a good one to help us with Bijou�s medical issues. We didn�t want to go through a pet store again, so we looked for a breeder. We found Spooky on little country farm. The outside of the farm was filled with many abandoned exotic animals, and injured wild animals that the owner had taken in to care for. The breeder was a retired Vet who had dedicated her life to caring for animals that would otherwise have had no home. We went into her kitchen and were greeted by 12 wiggly black toy poodle puppies and 2 very proud mommies. How do you choose? I could not possible choose one from this bunch, so I petted the 2 mommy poodles and asked them to help me. It wasn�t long before my husband pointed to one of the little black fur-balls and said---this is the one. This was the introduction to the love of my life. The breeder got a tear in her eye, kissed little Spooky on the head, and gave her precious puppy to her new family. She was only 8 weeks old. We brought Spooky home to Bijou, and it was pure puppy joy! Bijou had the happiest smile on his face, and I knew we had the right one. Although she was to be Bijou�s companion, it didn�t take long for Spooky to become �Mommy�s Girl�. She followed me everywhere and waited for me to come home every day to her loving kisses. She was there for me everyday and had comforted me through some difficult times. When we had to sell our dream-house and move again for the �job�, Spooky was there to make the new house my home. There were many nights I remember laying in bed with my husband and my 2 puppies and I said, �Everything that matters is in this bed. As long as I have all of you, I could lose everything else and not care.� I thought about Spooky constantly, and couldn�t wait to get home every day to see her. I never knew how quickly that was going to come to an end. It was the middle of April when Bijou and Spooky were in much need of a haircut. Their last cut was at Christmas, so they were just little woolly mammoths! We made the appointment and looked forward to seeing our 2 puppies all primped and pampered. We counted the days to the haircut. How cute they were going to look! What a striking pair they were going to make on our walks---------a fluffy Bichon and his little shadow. We had great plans to take many pictures of the 2 of them. We hadn�t taken many pictures of either of them, so we decided to wait for their �New Puppy-Do�s�. We were loaded up on film and ready to go. We decided to snap a few before pictures of them the morning we took them to the groomer. We had no idea that they would be the last we�d ever take of Spooky. We took them to the same groomer they had always gone to and set a time to pick them up. We went to work without another thought. All day at work I watched the clock. I knew at 2 pm were going to pick them up. I counted the hours. When we arrived back at the groomer, we knocked on the door at I was so excited with anticipation to see her. When the groomer answered to door, her words would change my life forever. She said she had terrible news. I expected her to say that she had accidentally cut off an ear or a toe, or something like that. When she said that Spooky had passed, I was in disbelief. How could that be? She was only a year and a half old! She was healthy! How could a dog die from a haircut? It wasn�t until I saw her still form that it hit me. The rest is a blur of tears and pain and uncontrollable grief. Somehow my husband got me, Bijou, and my Spooky in the car to take us home. I don�t remember any of it. He made arrangements with the vet to have Spooky cremated. Before I let him take her away, I cut off the remainder of hair on her tail; it�s all I have left of her now except the memories. I wear a locket around my neck with her hair in it. It helps keep her close. My little Spooky girl was born on August 22, 2000 and she died on April 29, 2002. The vet thinks it was a heart attack. It has certainly been an attack on my heart. I love you Spooky, Mommy Dianne |
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| Schnapps von Hund April 1993 to July 2, 2002 (Nappy, Ginky Boy) Nappy was a sweet little mini black Schnauzer. My little "Ginky". He was born in April 1993. He was a sweet little puppy and a wonderful dog. We had him for 3 wonderful years when circumstances led us to find him a new home. Both my husbands and my job were keeping us from home for long hours, and Nappy was suffering from loneliness in a terrible way. Although it broke my heart, we made a decision to give him to my sister and her family. My sister has 2 kids and they loved Nappy, even though they had only seen him a few times. Our family live almost 1,000 miles away, so we don't see each other often. As we drove Nappy to my sister's house, a terrible ache grew in my heart. Even though I knew Nappy would be happy with my sister, the pain of "giving him away" was very strong. My husband discussed keeping him, but it would have been cheating Nappy out of companionship. Neither one of us was in a position to quit our job, so we had to be strong. Nappy lived many happy years with my sister and her 2 children. The kids were his constant companions and he thrived. We saw Nappy 1 or 2 times a year and he was always overjoyed to see us. He later developed several ailments, including diabetes. He needed 2 shots per day. He had several complications, went blind, and had to be put to sleep on July 2, 2002. Although I will always be grateful that he lived a long and happy life. |
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| Lacey born April 29, 2002 (Lacey Lou, Lacey Puppy Facey) I received a very special gift from my Spooky girl and my sweet boy Nappy. The only way to describe it is miraculous. I am humbled by the effort that both Spooky and Nappy went through to make it happen. I had been contemplating getting another poodle to help ease my loneliness for Spooky. I was worried that I would try to be trying to avoid dealing with her loss, but I think my tears have affirmed that I have. I had been doing random searches of poodle sites just to look at pix and see what is available. I happened to use a different search engine Tuesday, July 2, the same day I later found out that Nappy died. I came upon a breeder located in my state. I asked her if she had any black female poodles available. She had one. A black female, born on April 29..... the same day Spooky died. She is perfectly jet black except for a bright white spot on her chest, above her heart. A true sign from my Spooky for sure! We brought her home on the 4th of July. I have finally shed some tears of joy! A gift of love from my Spooky and Nappy for sure! Her antics and presence keep Spooky's memory close. I have forgotten so many little things about Spooky, and Lacey helps me keep her memory alive. Sometimes the forgetting is more painful than the remembering. I admit that I have accidentally called Lacey "Spooky" on more than one occasion. It brings tears to me eyes, but also a little smile too. |
| Bijou born November 12, 1999 (Fifi Bijou Puppy Do) My little jewel �Bijou�. He�s a beautiful and joyous Bichon Frise. HE joined our family in January 2000. Although he�s a puppy mill puppy and we had some medical issues, he�s a happy, healthy and PLUMP fluff ball. When Spooky passed, Bijou was just distraught. He was also at the groomer, and I don�t think he had any idea that she died. He was happy as ever to see us when we came to pick them up. I think he just thought Spooky was sleeping. Even in the car ride home, he was still excited. It wasn�t until he was at home and couldn�t find her that he realized that she was gone. Bijou went into a very deep depression�no wonder since I was constantly crying as well. We decided that we must get a new companion for Bijou right away. Although I was no where ready, we had to think about Bijou. He didn't eat, he wouldn't sleep in his normal spot, and he just tried to hide. We couldn't explain why Spooky was gone to him, and I think he must have thought he did something wrong. Just thinking of his pained expression brings tears to my eyes. Both my husband and I still work very long hours, and that would have left Bijou all alone for many hours a day. I was not about to repeat the past with Nappy. |
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| Diva born March 1, 2002 (Diva Doodle Puppy Noodle, Doodlicious, Punky) Even though I was not ready for another pet, I HAD to get some companionship for Bijou. We got a little Shih Tzu puppy, Diva only a few days after Spooky died. It was so hard to have a new puppy. I felt terrible because having a new puppy was supposed to bring joy, and all I think was that the only reason she was here was because my Spooky -girl was gone. But OH Bijou! He was so happy! He became his old self within just a few hours. I was so relieved. Because he's now a "Dog" Bijou still needs his space every once in awhile, but the joy Diva and Lacey bring him let's me know I did the right thing. It took me a very long time to let Diva into my heart, but she has helped me through the very worst of times in dealing with the loss of Spooky. My faithful Doodle-Noodle is never far from my side. |
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| Spooky August 22, 2000 to April 29, 2002 (Spooky-girl, Incubus Miss, Spooky-Saurus) My little Spooky-girl-----she was a beautiful little black toy poodle. She was just 8 lbs. and only 1� years old when she left. We took her for a routine trim at the groomer. We counted the days and hours until she had her haircut. She always looked so cute afterwards! She was such a woolly mammoth! We even took some �before� pictures just moments before we left the house. When we went to pick her up, the groomer said she had terrible news. I thought that maybe she had cut off an ear or a toe. I never imagined what she would say next. Her words still ring in my head and changed my life forever---- She told us that Spooky had passed away. The vet says she had a heart attack while she was there. To say it was a shock is an understatement. She was so young, so healthy---she'd been groomed before. We had made such a big celebration out of the whole thing-- I remember having lunch just before picking her up and talking about how cute she was going to look, how I couldn't wait to get her, etc. I had no idea, no premonitions, nothing---just a foolish, joyous excitement. Then, she was gone. |
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| Bijou & Lacey dashing through the snow |
| This Rainbow appeared was on the photo when I had it developed! A True Pot of Gold sent to me by Spooky |
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| Welcome to your new home Spooky & Nappy. We are The Three Wolfketeers, Pooky, Troubles & Tasha and we are your friends. |