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My Youth Like most kids, sex started out with the neighborhood kids getting together and playing "doctor." A few years later I learned about masturbation, jacking off. (Something I still do daily) As a kid I also learned about my ass, I started inserting things into my ass when I was still in jr. high. H.S./College Despite my fantasies, the only sex I was getting was the straight not too kinky type. Intercourse, oral (giving & receiving), a few girls allowed me to enjoy them anally. One girlfriend while giving me head would rim me. That soon lead to her finger-fucking my ass as she sucked me. This same girlfriend had one of her friends join us in bed, very nice. Besides this one girl, no one else showed the same interest in my ass. Although the only sex I was getting was "straight & ordinary," my fantasies were anything but. In my fantasies I always played the part of the submissive. The $0.75 hook-up magazines outside the local liquor store gave me most of ideas for my early fantasies... reading the ads and putting myself into the scenarios the ads depicted. 20's-30's My first experience with M/m sex was in the late 70's at an adult bookstore (Reseda/Sherman Way). I was watching a movie in a booth (yeah, I was jacking off) when a guy stuck his dick through the hole so I sucked it for a while. just my luck I was out of quarters so I had to stop and go get more change, upon getting back the other booth was empty and no one standing in the aisle. Years passed, I drifted in and out of straight (male-female) relationships, nothing kinky. I started my porn collection once I found out about "Stroke" magazine. One girlfriend had sex with an ex-boyfriend a few hours prior to having sex with me. Later when she told me about it she asked if I tasted anything. At the time, I was upset she cheated on me but I was also turned on at the thought that she had cuckolded me (although at the time I didn't know the term cuckold). My second M/m experience came when I called a number on the bathroom wall at the local park where I played tennis. I only went to his house a couple times. Both times I performed oral on him, licked him from head to toe and then he would fuck me. In the mid nineties I learned about "Drummer magazine and placed an ad. I got a few replies (and replied back to all of them), but only got together with the one guy that was semi-local. Had a great time. I still remember my jaws being sore the next day. In Drummer I saw the ads for the the Live Video/Chris Rage videos and started my video collection. 30's-Current Welcome to computers... Thanks to Delos bbs I got together with a couple guys. The first guy wanted me to come to his place at 2AM, bring my toys and stand naked on his porch. He let me in and I followed him upstairs. He ordered me to strip and get on my knees. He let me suck his cock for a while until he wanted me to see me fuck myself. I laid there on his floor fucking my ass as he watched and jacked off. He told me to lay down, he squatted over me and came all over my chest. He didn�t want me to clean up until I got home. The second guy invited me over and ordered me to strip. He sat in a chair and had me suck his cock, I remember him being a little forceful, maybe about the right amount back then. He had me bend over, putting my hands on the bed. He started to fuck me. After a while he pulled out, took the rubber off and let me suck him a little more. He pulled out and shot on my face. He let me wash up before I left. The next time was about the same.... he put some pillows on the floor which I laid over, ass up where he fucked me and used some of my dildos on my ass. He fucked me and came into a rubber. I'm drifting in and out of less straight (male-female) relationships, still nothing kinky. Then came the internet, the newsgroups, alt.com, yahoo groups. I have had a few online relationships with Mistresses/Masters via email and instant messaging. They would send me orders for various pictures they wanted me to take and then email to them. Pictures involving me in provocative positions with an assortment of toys and activities. I have gotten together with 4 guys that wanted a blowjob. I went to one guy, stayed dressed, sucked him off, swallowed and left. Another guy came by my house twice... the first time he walked in, took his pants off, sat down on the couch and let me suck him. He came, of course I swallowed and he left. In an email regarding getting together again a couple days later, he asked if I was submissive and wondered if I would do more. Big YES! The next time he wanted me naked, and wanted to watch me fuck myself as he took a couple pics (with my camera), I sucked him off. (follow the pictures link) The other guys just came over, got blown and left. The other 2 guys I was with were more what I was looking for. One of them called himself a sadist, he enjoyed inflicting pain. He had me show up at his house (very local), hide behind the bushes and strip, put my clothes in a bag and put a collar on myself and wait for him to bring me inside. He was the only guy that tied me up. He tied my hands I think I could have gotten out if I wanted but still restrictive enough. He pulled, squeezed my nipples, dripping hot wax on them and then after the wax dried pulling the wax up in chunks along with some chest hair. He said I had big balls, and that was before he started on them. He tied them up, hit them, slapped them, clamped them, hurt them. It hurt different than when i hurt myself, I feel i hurt myself more but at the same time I enjoy the discomfort... where as with him I never got into the right frame of mind. After he had his fun, my pain, he had me suck him off. I liked him, but I think my lack of real experience (he showed me pics of guys cock/balls that he really abused, not that I wouldn't go that far in the future but that was too big of a first step) and that I'm a little shy and a bit of a scardy-pants was a turnoff for him. The last guy was the closest to what I'm looking for. He was rough with me, i could tell that if we got together again he would be rougher. He had me undress him, and orally service his crotch. He let me suck him for quite a while, he didn't force the action but i didn't hear him complain when i would gag myself on him. He wanted me face down on the floor. He fingered my ass, started using my toys on me. He worked my ass for a while, switching between the different toys, and using his gloved fingers, trying to get his fist up my ass. He had me kneel in the bathtub. He stood over me and pissed on me, telling me to open my mouth. i tried to swallow but he said to keep my mouth open, letting it flow out as he kept pissing. Back to the floor where he worked my ass some more. Every once in a while he would stand up, bringing me up to a kneeling position (keeping a dildo in my ass) to suck him some more. He tried to get his fist in me. Although it is something I am very interested in, our getting together happened so quickly I didn't have advance notice so I could take a couple days to loosen myself. He continued to try, and I tried my best to relax but it just didn't happen. He put a rubber on and fucked me hard. He would pull me back into him as he thrust into me, pulling me by the hair, calling me his bitch. He came, wiped himself clean, ordered me back into the tub where he pissed on me and then left. I emailed him a thank you. Who's next? Contact |