Never Get Over You
I hear your taking your time again, having a good time,with all your good time frens.
I dont think that you think of me,your on ur own now, and im a woman free.
I know that i should get on with my life, but a life lived without you could never me right,
As long as the stars shine up from the heavens, long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me.
I try to smile so the hurt won't show, telling everybody, i was glad to see you go
but the tears just wont go away (wont go away) no need to smile on me,
looks like its here to stay. I know that i'd oughta find someone new,
But all i find is myself alwaze thinking of you.
As long as the stars shine up from the heavens, long as the rivers run to the sea,
I'll never get over you getting over me.
Oh.... nomatter what i do, it's got a lifetime to live through,
i cant go on like this, i need your touch.
You're the only one i'll ever love.....oooooh I.....
and as long as the stars shine up from the heavens, long as the rivers run to the sea,
I'll never get over you, getting over me,
I'll never get over you, getting over.....
never get over you.. getting over.
I'll never get over you getting over me...........
Expose
Have there ever been a time in your life wea u jes felt soooo twisted in the head? Seems like nottin is goin right. And you have jest lost your mind, thoughs, and sense of any direction. Thats how im feeling right now. I think i've finally lost my mind. I cant seem to remember anything. And today.... i dunno what happened but i felt like there was no control on my behalf with my behavior. I did something i know i shouldnt have done. And the worst part is, i somewhat pulled someone else into my problems as well. Its weird how when ur stressed, it has a big effect on ur mind and how u think, (which in my case, i wasn't thinkin at all). The funny thing is.. this isnt the first time i did something outrageous because of stress. I guess i tend to act out wen i feel there is notting i can do. That "i dont give a fuck" mode, really can take over ur sense of thought. You dont know whats right and wrong anymore, in fact, the whole process of thinking.. should i or should i not dont even come to mind. And when shit is all done wit. Thats when u actually sit back n say.. Hey, did i just do what i thought i did/? WTF!!!
I FEEL LIKE SUCH A REJECT! ARRRGGG!!!!!
Ok, I'm giving up on this journal crap!!! No more entrys!! ok ok i'm playing.. hehe im just transfering it to my new xanga site. For new journal entrys check out my Xanga aights?!? (Linke to Xanga on the bottom).
HAhaHaa I know i said i was giving up on this journal crap.. but i guess sometimes.. i just need to express myself more then i can on xanga. Hmmm Well... life has been kinda weird lately. Things are gettin kinda bad.. but kinda good at the same time. Work has cut down my hours to 25 hrs a week.. das barely making it for rent n everything else... Um.. my phone got cut off today.. haha cuase i refused to pay da phone bill after i've requested for a change of phone numbers since june and shit.. its not december.. and still notting!! Guess u can say i got fed up.... It's all good tho.. i think i can go on witout a celly for about a month.. not a big issue to me... I'm planning to get a new phone anywaze... NEXTEL piss me off too much. Lets see wat else!? My back today dont feel soo bad. It was hurting a lot from da car accident but i guess because i'm resting today... that it feels better. Um.... What else?!? So much to catch up on... so im jus blurting out anything that pops in my head.. hehehe don't mind da instant change of subject!! lol OH ive also been on this AXO thing for a few months now.. hahah i must admit.. its very interesting. I be checkin up on that shiet everyday.. lolz guess its something to do to pass the time wen there isnt anything else better to do. I'm planning to go to ny again in early Jan, but now a days.. things are gettin kinda tight on money wit work cutting down my hours n all. I might not be able to make it.. which sucks big NUTS!! Lets seee.. what else is new?!? Well.. with me n billy.. our lil situation i guess u can say it's been resolved.... I think i've finally gotten over him. Took me long enuff. It's about time i let things go... it's not worth it. Plus he's much better as a fren anywaze. LOL... Not only that but now im interested in someone else.... Don't know if i should even be taking things so seriously but hey.. i'm basically going with the flow. I do end up missing him a lot through out the day. But hey... its all good. I just hope he feels the same and isnt playing wit my heart... Thats the last thing i want now a days.. no more time for games.. its time to get real. u know? I'm not gettin any younger....( not that im that fuckin old or anything.. lolz hahaha) but i mean shiet... i'm tired of childish mind games... thats soo fuckin HIGH school!! lolz *sigh* Guess only time can tell... We'll see how things go. As of right now.. I miss him a lot, havent been able to speak with him for about two days now. He's been busy with finals n all.. So i miss him. I dont think i should tho.. I dont want to... I'm honestly trying hard not to get too attache to anyone anymore.... once im attache its hard to let go.. lolz (I got issue's with that shiet!!) Oh wells... Cant fight the feeling even tho im trying to. -=oT Well.. i guess das it for now... Not much has been going on lately. Only thing making my days a bit brighter lately has been thinking of spending another day with **** . YEAH YEAH!! i'm keeping him a mystery!! lolz.. eventually i'll give out his name.. and who he is.. until then.. u guys will have to guess who's beginning to steal my heart away............... hehehehee