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| My Thoughts |
| 05-08-02 6:10 PM Costco SUCKS!! I hate working there. The only thing I've gain ever since I started working there was a few cuts n bruises. Thank god I got two days off of work. That'll give me some time to go look for a new job. LOLz Which reminds me, one of the two construction worker guys that came in to costco last week to offer me some city jobs came back in today to give me a list of employments like he said he would. I think that is so generous of him. Too bad i can't remember the guys name!! SHIT!! Real nice guy though! I'll just ask him for his name next time he comes in. |
| 05-14-02 10:13 PM Yesterday was me and Gary's six month anniversary. Didn't do much, in fact we didn't do anything at all. Gary got sick like usual, and we jes spent the day together at home. It's kewl tho, we both needed some quality time with each other anyhow. IT beats going to JAVA!! Thats for sure. LoLz Plus, I got sex!! LOLz Cant ask for more then that! So u know I'm not complaining....Wink! Hey u can be too sick for work, too sick for school, too sick to eat, but NEVER!!! too sick for sex! hehe YEAH, YEAH, so wat if im a perv!! I bet all u peeps are too!! I'm jes one who's not afraid to admit it! hehe |
| 05-15-02 5:00 PM Mmmm Mmmm!! Reeses Pieces!! I love Reeses!! I can't seem to stop eating up all of Kris's candy Hehehehe |
| 05-17-02 3:33 AM I just finish talking to a nephew of mine that i havent spoken to ever since i left stockton in January, thru the Internet. Brings back old memory's and events that i thought i had left back in stockton when I packed my bags n got out of there along time ago. I wanted to forget everything and start anew here in Frisco. Don't think its gonna happen tho. As much as i try, i know im only pushing my past aside and that itself.... is not really solving anything. I guess i was just tryin to fool myself. Take da easy way out for once. I knew better but, i cant seem to at least take a shot at trying so. Well... obviously it didnt work, just as i suspected. But its kewl... it jes shows that life itself is not easy. I can;t wait till one day wen all this shiet is over with and I wouldnt have to worry bout all dis family crap no more. But the question is.... will there every be such a DAY?????? |
| 05-24-02 1:42 AM This has been such a long week. I've moved out of Kris's place and in with Myque. Still havent unpacked yet and everythng is kinda a mess over here. Things are good but not organized. We're planning on going shopping for some new furniture for our room tomarrow. So hopefully things will be in place by the end of this coming week. I've been too busy working that i havent had time to do shiet. Its about time i had a day off to get things organize here at my new home. A lot of shiet has been on my mind as well. Don't know if its wize to talk about it on this net thing tho... sorry peeps. Kinda personal. Me and Gary on the other hand. We havent had much time together lately. We see each other everyday but only for a good ten mins at work or so. Our shift are totally off from each other. I have mornings and he has nights, so we dont even have ttime to just chill. We dont ever have time to hang out and do anything anymore. I'm begginning to actually miss the guy. *sigh* -=o( |
| 05-25-02 11:03 PM What can I say? Me and Gary broke up last night after i had made him dinner. Somehow it didnt come as such a big suprise to me. I was somewhat hurt last night. I would be lying if i said i wasn't. But I think I'm more upset then hurt. I'm upset at myself for letting it get this far when deep down inside i knew he wasnt the one for me. Why i did it? I still don't really know. I guest i never really thought too much of it. But its kewl. I just came home from having a long talk with a friend about all this. It feels good to let everything out.. all my fustration. So I'm feeling a lot better. Not because of anything she said.. but just to have someone listen to u blab about ur problems... it helps out soooooo much. To think i was gonna pick up and run again. MAN!! I need to stop doing that. I really need to think about my future more now. I'm not getting any younger. Plus.. frisco isnt so bad. Its pretty kewl. I just dont have any friends here. But u know what? If i can make it everywea else that i have been and had made frens there, Im sure ill be fine here. Just need to give it some time......I'm not gonna let some lil shit like dis bring me down. Life is too beautiful to let some petty shiet ruin ur views of it. |
| 05-28-02 12:36 AM For the first time in my life, I took a break up well. When Gary first told me he felt like he needed to be free. I didnt understand. I thought to myself... "how can he say he doesnt feel free? He spends all his times with his friends!" But now I understand. Even tho we didnt spend so much time together, my heart was so dedicated to him that i felt trapped myself. Unfortunely, I didnt realize how trapped I felt until we broke up a few days ago. Now, I feel free as ever. I feel as tho i'm back to my old self again. Enjoying everything i use to enjoy without alwaze worrying about how Gary is. I think Gary was going through da same exact feeling i felt. Only he realize earlier then I. It's kewl tho, everything is good now. He even came over today when my car broke down on me (YEAH, my car is a piece of shiet... even tho its my baby). He even brought his friend Doug to help out. I thought that was sweet. Sometimes.... people really dont belong together as a couple but is best as firends. I spend most of my recent days catching up on old friend that i havent spoken to in ages. I guess I'm back to phone slanging all day, everyday!! HeHEhe!! Its a good thing tho. I missed most of my friends sooo much!! But like i said before. I'm not gonna run this time. I've already made a new friend from work. Malachi!! Real sweet guy. I can honestly say Majority of people at work will always be... JUST PEOPLE AT WORK.. but Malachi is different. He actually likes to just chill just like me.. So I think thats kewl. I spent like two hours just chatting it up with him last night. Something I havent done for a long time with just anyone. Tthis just may be a start of a beautiful new friendship!!! -=o) And you know what else? I think I will be just fine all by myself!! |
| 06-04-02 9:25 PM Talking about stressed out!! I can't help but to be this way. Gary now totally hates my guts. I'm so hurt by this but at the same time angry. I dont know weither i should just say fuck him... or hope for him to realize things and have his frenship back. I want to be his friend so much but at the same time...i cant help but to be angry for him not knowing how I am. Obviously he doesnt know me as well as i thought he did. Because if he did, he would know that i would never bad mouth him, ESPECIALLY at costco. Not only am i angry at that but also at him not believing me when i told him so. How can he just be so cold. How can he not care about my feelings at all? I stress off this shit soo much for the last few days. I cant help but to be so sad and hurt over this. Even tho i dont want to be. I know, I know.. what doesnt kill you only makes u stronger... but this is the first time i had ever gone through anything like this. Most people who hate me hates for a reason, and that i can live with because i knwo i deserved it. But for the first time.. someone i care sooo much about hates me for something i didnt do. I had never done anything wrong and for him to hate me for this actually disturbes me sooo much. I guess its just a new lesson in life i just gotta deal with. I know not to stress it too much, but sometimes u cant help ur feelings. I am only human. I try not to let it get to me, but i end up thinkin bout it not stop before bed and waking up to it everyday........i just hope one day.. he'll realize how much i cherish his frenship and know deep down in his heart that i would never do anything to hurt him in that sense. ......... *SIGH* |
| 06-12-02 1:24 PM Montel William is soooo KEWL!! LoLz HehEheHE. |
| 06-13-02 1:13 PM *COUGH COUGH* Oh my god... I've been sick for the last three weeks!! I think I"m dying over here!! *COUGH*... this non stop caughing is gettin on my last nerve!! grrrrrrr....I got work later at five thirty tooo... Man that sucks. Well, not everything sucks. Life itself rite now for me is getting better. I'm finally getting setted in at my new place wit Myque. We both has been shopping and reorganizing our place for awhile now. I think we finally got it set the way we like it. Since life is not soo bad... I now gotta focus on dis dam COUGH!!! *COUGH* *COUGH*. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...... My throat is killing ME!!!!! |
| 06-18-02 2:06 PM FUCK!! I just got a fuckin ticket for street cleaning!! Fuckin living here is soo chills, i totally forgot all about street cleaning. Not use to this Frisco thing yet i guess. I dunno, when i was living at Kris, it was more strick since everything was only two hour parking or meter.. i was more careful over there. Over here.... everything is sooo laid back.. i only got to worry bout one day. And i fuckin forgot all about it.. DOH!! At least maybe now i'll remmeber...The ticket isnt so bad anywaze... its only 30 bucks. But still... i just hate getting tickets for bs reasons. But i know.. its the only way the city is gonna make money.... is to rip off mofo's like myself wit dumb ass laws. lolz. STREET CLEANING SUCKS!!! not like it works... the city still dirty ANYWAZE!!!! pshhhhhhh!!! |
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