Why are some people soooo narrowminded?? How can someone know the truth about a situation and yet, still get mad at a person who had nothing to do with it? What kinda stupid shit is that?? People are soo fuckin dumb now a days i swear. They let their pride get in the way of everything weither or not they know they are wrong or not. Even if it means to break up a friendship. Thats, something i just cant understand. One minute, u can be the best of friends and care for each other sooo much, and the next.. Pow, they hear some rumors and all of a sudden, they forget everythng you've been throught and how much shiet u've done for them. They forget how important they are to u and forget how deeply u hold them close to ur heart that you wouldnt do shiet like that!! Some people are just plain stupid. I feel as tho people like that need to get a brain of their own and stop fuckin listening to what people have to say, and I'm tired of people who try to sit there n protect their pride, even when they KNOW for a fact, they are wrong!!! Ignorants is such a sad virtue. Poor mofo's!!
People make choice's, Choices make the people! I saw that on a bus advertisement today while driving home from rollerblading at lake merced. I totally agree with that concept... people are who they are becasue of the choice's they made in their life. Don't u think?
I speak the truth to what i see. I speak of what I feel and how I see things. It does not mean what I see or say is right, nor does it mean what i say or see is wrong. But i have the right to have my own opinion. And that is all it is....MY opiniion and no one elses. When i speak of my opinion, i speak of it strongly. That, does not make me a manipulater. I am not out to make people see things my way, or feel what i feel. I can gives a shit, If dey dont feel the same way. But at the same time, just because i speak of my opinions and people dont agree dont make me wrong. It jes means i see things differently. I dont expect the world to see everything in my eyes. For them to see it in my eyes, they would have to walk in my shoes, see everything i've seen, and lived everything i've been through. And if they can't do that, i dont expect them to understand, as long as i can speak my mind is all that matters to me. When i speak of people, i speak for majority, not all. There will alwaze be exceptions, and that i Know. No matter what others think, i will alwaze think the way i do. It dont mak eme narrowminded, it makes me who i am. I stand for what i believe. Is that so wrong? I dont think so!!! No one has the right to judge someone, but of course everyone on earth plays GOD, and does it anywaze. IF you are not god, u cannot judge me, Only he has the right to judge for he is the only person who has seen everything i've been through! AMEN!
Why do people alwaze try to test me?!? I swear!! Today at work, an hour before i got off, some lil flip bitch was talking mad shiet gettin all up in my face. Just because her dumb ass can't cope with the policy, aint got shiet to do wit me!! Man i swear i wouldve knocked that bitch out before she can finish her first sentence. But no, i was on the clock and i couldnt do shiet but try to explain to da dumb whore that im only doing my job. Even tho i was yelling back hehehhe. Its not my fault that she dont like the rules.. if bitch had something to say she need to speak to da manager.. im only doing what i was suppose to do. But NO.... some people jes dont gives a fuck.... she thinks just because im lil n shiet i wasnt gonna do shiet. Fuckin shit pissed me off soo bad. I swear i wanted to hit dat bitch sooooooo fuckin bad. She's lucky i was on the fuckin clock. Otherwise i wouldve beat dat bitch down. Sometimes i wish i was my old self again. The one who didnt give a fuck about shiet! Now that im tryin to hold back my anger and rage, i find that people are alwaze trying to test me even more, and its hard as fuck!! Trying to keep it inside its driving me nuts. I use to be da first to throw a punch at anything, and now, its like.. i cant do shiet cause i gotta think bout my future, my job. I couldnt jepordise losing my job over some skanky ignorant lil whore. All i could think about was fuck, i cant fuck up dis job.. i need it for rent n all that other bullshit! Plus im tryin to go for the sales position and i cant jes fuck up now otherwise all dat shiet wouldve went down the drain. Man i was soo pumped tho it wasnt even funny. After i clocked out i even went around the store lookin for dat bitch.. hoping to run into her outside so i can kick her lil bitch ass. She thinks she can talk her shiet n i wasnt gonna do nottin, she better think again! But now that im home.. heheh i'm glad that i didnt. It's not worth all da trouble if da security caught me. hehehe... I know.. people alwaze say violence solves notting... but shiet!! it sure makes me feel better!! lolz.... people need to stop thinkin becasue im small i aint gonna do shiet!! I got a short fuckin temper... hehe Malachi knows how i am, he caught me yelling at mad customers at work its not even funny. Everytime he see's me pumped.. he sends me outside to chill.. heheh das my boy tho.. hes kewl like dat.. alwaze got my back! No joke tho.... one of these daze.. ima fuckin gonna blow on one of dem mofo's!!!
So tired.... *YAWN* Another friday night at home alone. Exactly how i like it! hehhe
Surfing around the net this morning before work i ended up at this one chicks website (not gonna mention no names)..... Weird enuff she stole what i had wrote on my family page and reword it into her own words for her own site!! What kinda dumb shiet is dat? HahHaha... i swear when i was reading her site... all i can think was... dis sounds like what i wrote on site... Hey, that looks like something from my site? LOLz... dam was i crackin up!!! I couldn't stop laffing for a moment there..... I was trippin soo bad.. i thought i was trippin for reals and had to recheck the site a second time jes to make sure i was seeing the right thing!! LOLz Guess some people dont have a mind of their own. But then again what else is new? LoLz I should of known better then to show her my site to begin wit.. guess das my bad then huh? LoLz.... It just trips me out how her page looks soo similar to mines... The funny thing was... her old site wasnt even like that.. now she got like da came concept as me.. coincidence? MAYBE... but then again.. maybe NOT! LoLz.. oh wells.. it jes shows that some people really don't have a mind of their own. To think dey thought i wouldnt find out... hahhaha that shiet cracks me up!
Dam my back is sore!! Don't know why either? It's not like i had crazy ruff sex last night or nottin, heheh even tho i wouldn't mind if i did!! LoLz Anywaze... heheh today was one of ur typical average days... weke up, went to work, put a cop in check, go home and made dinner... u kno... da usual!! LoLz.. yeah u heard me right.. i had to put a cop in check at work. Hey! wat other job can i get that i can actually have authority to do such thing to a cop other den costco? LOLz...Shoot.. wea i work.. i dont gives a fuck wat kinda badge u have. Plus, i took advantage of da chance jes to do so... oppertunitys like that dont jes pop out all the time. LoLz.. it was kewl tho.. hahah that cop was pissed as fuck wen i told him..."Out of all people... You! Should know better... rules are rules...it's just like the law.. once's its set.. u just got to follow them!! LoLz.. oh wells.. wat are the chance's of me gettin to do something liek dat again? prolly neverr. It was fun while it lasted! Oh and there's this new kid at work.. not too bad looking! I wouldn't mind hittin dat!! LoLz jk... heheh but for reals tho.. he's pretty cute.. watch me try to bust my mack!! LOLZ SIKE!!! me too shy! ok ok its not that either...... But We'll see wat happens..... don't even know if he's even Legal to drink!! lolz dam im such a child molester!! i need to stop dating younger guys ! yeah.. das about it tho.. other den that... life is same o same o.....oh wait.. one more update.... remember dat girl who copied my page?? funny thing.. i checked again dis morning n all of a sudden she changed it back to her old site? Wonder y? hehehe don't matter to me.. better for me... sorry for her.. hahha i dont kare.... ok.. yeah.. now i'm done for reals... hehe
Got back to work today from my vacation to LA. LA wasnt as great as i expected. But then again, I don't know y i expected it to be so good to begin with. I guess it was jes my way of tryin to get out of the ordinary but instead ending up being in a enviroment filled wit bling bling flossing every penny u got materialistic snobs. But what else is new? It's not like i didnt know wat LA is all about.. I mean shiet.. i use to live down south. Sometimes.. i wish things would change. People need to open up their eyes n realize all these things dey hold such value to doesn't really have much value to it at all. Like their mercedez, LV purses, versace clothing. It's all replacable. The things that do have value. They take advantage of. What about morals? and dignity? None of that is anything to these people. Society is reaching its ugliest twist. With all these brain washing. And none of these people have a mind of their own.... all trend followers. It's no wonder these people are soo fucked up and screwed.
Times are beginning to get difficult again. *SigH* -=oT Not much i can do but wait and let time ride it out. Some things in life are so unfair. It's funny how the bad things are alwaze happening to good people. "Good guys finish last" is what they say. I'm beginning to think there's a lot of truth to dat. I might have to be moving again soon. Working one job jes ain't cutting it with the bills, and there hasnt been no luck lookin for a second job. Unfortuently... i like San Francisco. I would hate to leave after meetin so many wonderful people here. Most place's i wouldn't mind pickin up and goin in a instant. Frisco is nearly my home. I'm almost as comfortable here as i am in NY. I got two months to try to work things out. Hopefully within that two month period... i would have found a second job. I'm beginning to think im a work a holic. Life will alwaze have its ups and downs.... i've been through worst. To think i would be use to it by now.. but it alwaze suprise's me again everytime a obstacle like dis comes up. As of right now.. it's not the obstacle im very much worried about.... i think its more of letting go of the people and the city here. I think i've grown attach to some and i dunno if i can find people like dat elsewhere, but in time.. if thats what i have to do, i Must do wat i must. *Sigh*
Back to work!! It was nice to have a day off for a moment there. Labor day turned out to be good after all. I didn't expect it to go so well after Andrew canceled our plans of going to the state fair the night before. But it's all good. I spent the day wit G. We went to eat, shopping, and went site seeing..... he showed me many beautifule view's and place's off the golden gate bridge. He also took me to sausalito... a lil town right off the bridge... Beautiful place.... would love to live there.... with the view being as great as it is... it's prolly worth starving for.. hahah jes to pay for rent!! But the site was beautiful. He also took me to this lil coffee shop that sits right off the coast and overlook the whole city of San Francisco. A view that would take ur breath away. Overall i had a very good day. Got to go out and enjoy the sun, got to wear my hoochie gear for the first time in a long time, did some shopping, and i finished the day with a work out at the gym.... Good shiet!!!
I almost forgot how much fun and relaxing it is to go rollerblading!! Ive been workin so much i barely have time to do anything recreational anymore. Luckily i had a easy shift today... only five hours n got off early... it gave me a chance to go to the beach n rollerblade by myself. It was so peaceful, i had to stop and enjoy my enviroment for a moment. Jes kinda let it soak in, with the wind blowing and the sun shining. It's rarely sunny here wea i live too, so for it to be sunny and for me not to take advantage of it would have been a waste of a sweet day. I'm glad i did. I'm glad im back to my old self again.. Back to being able to work out, and enjoy living. It was so hard to do the things i loved when i was tied up in a relationship wit whats his face. He didn't like the fact that i worked out too much or anything. I don't know y i even stopped... it feels great!! and the best part is that its good for u as well... -=o)