Last Update September 11,2002
Today was a day of reflection, remembering what went through my mind and heart that sorrowful day. I spent some time listening to other people's stories today and it's overwhelming. That day I felt so sick inside and wondered how this could happen. I was at school that morning, it was around 8:50 when one of my classmates who was there early for class, told me that a plane had just crashed into one of the World Trade Center Towers. I was shocked and couldn't believe that we were still sitting there in a classroom waiting for class, it angered me so much. How could we continue class with all of this going on, it was stupid and senseless. After class, I rushed to my car and listened to the radio. Tears were rolling down my cheeks without cease. I cried so hard all the way home, thinking about how horrible it was for all the innocent people who were dying, how there families were suffering. All the life that would disappear in an instant because of somebody else's hatred and dismay. It wasn't fair and I felt helpless, I couldn't do anything to help anybody at the time. I wanted to run and help them all..,but I couldn't... When I went into my house I switched on the news and felt even more sick, seeing how everything was being destroyed and all those people running and calling out... I called my boyfriend later and we talked,but it was so difficult because we both were crying so much... for a long time after that I never felt stable, I couldn't stop crying, I felt so violated by everything that had gone on, felt annoyed that I couldn't have done anything to prevent things. I can't even recall when I started to feel " better",about things,but somehow I made it through.. I hope that everybody has taken some time to think and remember. This is how I show my respect to those who have lost not only for September 11th,but for those in other countries where it's a daily happening... We all need to open our hearts and minds.. be aware.
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