I dream of forever
heaven in a touch, a look
I dream of happiness,
moments spent with you, near you
It cuts like a knife
through the heart of me here
I have moments and memories of moments to shelter within for a lifetime. But I have given far more to you. And you yourself owe me more. Not just anyone. Anyone would not fill this emptiness.. Just you.
You ...time proximity, moments
Days I yearn for..
there is not possibility of me settling for less
so here I am : -
LOST
Somewhere in the last few days the heart has been torn from me. I go through the motions that I must...empty, meaningless... But I am a hollow soul, for all the beauty, strength, heart and soul of me rests there with you. Without you I am merely a cardboard cutout. No depth. Just someone that becomes a resource otehrs access...bound to a terrible wheel paying an horrendous price. Pinned.
You are the only person wo knows me well that has ever asked how I am....who listens...who watches and cared. Who cares now?
How will I ever stop crying? How will I make myself each day do what I have to do...how on earth can I DO this?
I don't know.
I know already you rationalise and argue against us. I know you have the capacity to find otehr "controllable" distractions and that you have,..... what hurts is that what you have learned and how you have grown was born from us, for us. It hurts to think you take this and give it back to someone else. In that sense I feel terribly used.
You said you owe me much.
You do.
You owe me love, joy and a measure of happiness.
You owe me what I have given.
I do not love you for what you might or can provide for me materially. I love you for yourself.
