Okay, this is what I call my stupid plagerizing bitch phase. I deserve to be shot in the head repeatedly for doing this crap. What we have here is the culmination of years of wanky outcast teenage vibes put into written form. Oh, and did I mention the plagerizing? Okay, here's the dirt. Way back when in the years between 14 to 17 I was one of those attention seeking internet whores. Come on, you know the type. Desperately quiet in real life but secretly hoping to be placed on a pedastal with the adoration of their peers. The internet was perfect for these ambitions. So in my zeal for respect and admiration, I started a website like fifty thousand other girls out there. Yeah, and we see how well it worked for them. But you know how it is, we all have the "it'll be different because it's me" mentality going on. So up goes the site, but not the little counter on my website. Down went my ego.
Enter the plagerism. Seeing as how I didn't have an original bone in my body at the time, I perused my favorite sites and tried to copy their methods for being popular. That's where the Lounge Archives came from. I pretty much took someone else's idea and ran with it, some of it actually verbatim. Look, I'm not proud of it, but it happened. It still didn't make me happy and the counter didn't do the happy number dance.
Personally, I'd just like to take a moment out to apologize to all the people I screwed over with my stupid fangirl tactics. But seeing as we don't have an eternity and my memory is kind of shoddy when it comes to names, I'm just gonna give out a general sentiment to all the peeps I did this to out there: Sorry. Look, this is far more embarassing to me than it is to you, 'kay?
So why am I keeping this shit up if it's so embarassing? It's a matter of pride. I'm not proud of what I did, but I tried for a long time to hide from my mistakes. I figured that as long as I seperated myself from it then no one would remember and I could start with a fresh slate. That's bullshit. See, my past is still a part of me no matter what I try to do to erase it. It's a central part of the person I've become, and I gotta take the good with the bad. And boy, is this bad. It's like that old adage: "Those who forget history are doomed to repeat it." And quite frankly, I've had enough crap to go around for enough of a lifetime without repeating it.
Enough of this mushy "look at me, I'm so enlightened" hogwash. I hate that kind of crap. Welcome to the archive from hell, dumpster for the embarassment factors. So enjoy.
SEASON ONE
Lounge #1 - Posted July 7th, 2000
Lounge #2 - Posted July 12th, 2000
Lounge #3: My Birthday - Posted July 13th, 2000
Lounge #4 - Posted August 15th, 2000
Lounge #5 - Posted November 25th, 2000
Lounge #6 - Posted December 24th, 2000
SEASON TWO
Lounge #7 - Posted August 7th, 2001
Lounge #8 - Posted November 19th, 2001
Lounge #9 - Posted December 31st, 2002
And if that's not embarassing enough, here's a look into my mentality at the time. This'll further perpetuate my online attention whore status as a teen. I cringe to think that I actually wrote this peice of dreck once upon a time. Apparently the whinety teenage girl strikes again. Just kill me now.