Machina (The machines of God)

 

The everlasting gaze

 

You know I'm not dead

Now you know where I've been

As you sleep

Torn I am

Weighted down

Patiently

Born of love

You know I'm not dead

I'm just living in my head

Forever waiting

On the ways of your desire

You always find a way

And thru it all

Into us all you move

Forgotten touch

Forbidden thought

We can never have enough

You know I'm not dead

Found below

The creatures scream

Stranglehold

A god machine

Begging to

Tear us out

Worn as hope

You know I'm not dead I'm just the tears inside your head

Forever waiting

On the ways of your desire

You always find a way

And thru it all into us all you move

Forgotten touch

Forbidden thought

We can never have enough

You know I'm not dead

We all want to hold in the everlasting gaze

Enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway

But underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every c.o.g.

The fickle fascination of an everlasting god

You know I'm not dead

I'm just living in my head

Forever waiting

Forever waiting on cruel death

You know I'm not dead

I'm just living for myself

Forever waiting

You know I'm not dead

 

Raindrops + Sunshowers

Rain falls on everyone

The same old rain

And I'm just trying to

Walk with you

Between the raindrops

I send my echo out

To get your love without

Obscured reflections of

My love

Rain falls on everyone

The same old rain

And I'm just trying to

Walk with you

Between the raindrops

I'll save a prayer for you

So lost and longing to

Be dragged thru dirty streets

Wrapped up in clean white sheets

And if you think they'll watch you now

You should know they won't

Rain falls on everyone

The same old rain

And I'm just trying to

Walk with you

Between the raindrops

And I'm just trying to

Walk with you between the raindrops

I send my echo out

To get your love without

Obscured reflections of

Of my secret love

Force down the words about

To get your love without

Obscured reflections of my love

And I'm just trying to talk to you between the raindrops

 

Stand inside your love

You and me

Meant to be

Immutable

Impossible

It's destiny

Pure lunacy

Incalculable

Insufferable

But for the last time

You're everything that I want and ask for

You're all that I'd dreamed

Who wouldn't be the one you love

Who wouldn't stand inside your love

Protected and the lover of

A pure soul and beautiful you

Don't understand

Don't feel me now

I will breathe

For the both of us

Travel the world

Traverse the skies

Your home is here

Within my heart

And for the first time

I feel as though I am reborn

In my mind

Recast as child and mystic sage

Who wouldn't be the one you love

Who wouldn't stand inside your love

And for the first time

I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for

Your every move and waking sound

In my time

I'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind

You're mine forever now

Who wouldn't be the one you love and live for

Who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for

Who wouldn't be the one you love

 

I of the mourning

Radio

Play my favourite song

Radio Radio Radio

I'm alone

Radio Radio

Please don't go

Radio

I peer thru curtains on empty streets

Behind a wall of caller i.d.

No one's out there

To hear if I care

About the troubles in the air

As I of the morning now come

Pick up where my thoughts left off

Cause I'm home to die on my own

As my radio

Plays my favourite song

Radio Radio Radio

Don't you know

Radio Radio

That radio

I'm alone

I blow the dust off my guitars

In the attic with the stars

I read your letters

To feel better

My tears upon the fading ink

As I of the morning now gone

Pick up where my thoughts left off

Cause I'm home to die on my own

As my radio

Plays my favourite song

Radio Radio Radio

I'm alone

Radio Radio Radio

Please don't go

I sit in the dark light

To wait for ghost night

To bring the past alive

To make a toast to life

Cause i have survived

What is it you want

What is it you want to change

What is it you want

What is it you want to change

What is it you want to change

Radio

 

The sacred and profane

Give me tears

Give me love

Let me rest

Lord above

Send the bored

Your restless

The feedback scarred

Devotionless

You're all a part of me now

And if I fall

You're all a part of me now

In the sun

You're all a part of me now

You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough

Just in time to prove

Will our words ever be enough

Just in time to lose

Give me sight

And barren breast

Pure snow and happiness

Give me time

Give me peace

And I will prove

My release

You're all a part of me now

And if I fall

You're all a part of me now

Trapped in the sun

You're all a part of me now

You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough

Just in time to prove

Will our time ever be enough

Will out love ever be enough

You're all a part of me now

And if I fall

You're all a part of me now

In the sun

You're all a part of me now

You're all a part of me now

You're all a part of me now

And if I fall

You're all a part of me now

Trapped in the sun

You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough

Just in time to prove

 

Try, Try, Try

Pop tart

What's our mission

Do we know

But never listen

For too long

They held me under

But I hear

It's almost over

In Detroit

On a Memphis train

Like you said it's

Down in the heat and the summer rain of

The automatic gauze of your memories

Down in the sleep at the airplane races

Try to hold on

To this heart

A little bit longer

Try to hold on

To this love aloud

Try to hold on

For this heart's

A little bit colder

Try to hold on

To this love

Paperback scrawl your hidden poems

Written around the dried out flowers

Here we are still trading places

To try to hold on

Pop tart

Can you envision

A free world

Of clear division

For too long

They held us under

But I know

We're getting over

In Detroit

With the Nashville tears

Like you said it's

Down in the heat with the broken numbers

Down in the gaze of solemnity

Down in the way you've held together

To try to hold on

To this heart

A little bit closer

Try to hold on

To this love aloud

Try to hold on

For this heart's

A little bit older

Try to hold on

To this love aloud

And we are still alive

Try to hold on

And we have survived

Try to hold on

And no one should deny

We tried to hold onto the pulse of the feedback current

Into the flow of encrypted movement

Slapback kills the ancient remnants

That try to hold on

Try to hold on

To this heart alive

Try to hold on

To this love aloud

Try to hold on

And we are still alive

Try to hold on

And we have survived

Try to hold on

Pop tart

You never listen

Skinned knees

Try to hold on

Stop start

What's our mission

Skinned knees

Try to hold on

 

Heavy metal machine

If I were alive

If I were real

Would you survive

What would you feel

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

As sentimental

As our broken dreams

Let me die

For rock n' roll

Let me die

To save my soul

Let me die

Let me die

Rock n' roll

Let the world forgive the past

Let all the girls kiss the boys at last

Let me go

Let me go

Rock n' roll

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

Heavy metal

A heavy metal machine

We're the metal

In their metal machines

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

If I were dead

Would my records sell

Could you even tel

Is it just as well

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

It's elemental

To all the rust it brings

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

Let me die for rock n' roll

Let me die and save my soul

Let me go

Let me go

Rock n' roll

Let the world forgive the past

Let all the girls kiss the boys at last

Let me go

Let me go

Rock n' roll

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

Heavy metal

A heavy metal machine

We're the metal

In their droning schemes

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

Will I survive

Is it up to me

Could you understand

That it's not yours to keep

Heavy metal

Heavy metal machine

 

This time

This time I need to know

I really must be told

If it's over

It's up to you uou know

The things you want to hold

Are in pieces

Crashing down

Crashing down again

Crashing down

Crashing down my freinds

I've got to move it on

I've got to sing my song

While I still can

Dispatch the last alarms

Hand out the last few charms

There's no surprises

Only love

Only love can win

Crashing down

Crashing down again

Only love

Yeah only love will win

Crashing down

Crashing down again

This time I need to know

I really must be told

That it's over

I've lived my life alone

My every step foretold

To never linger

And yet it haunts me so

What are we letting go

Our spell is broken

Crashing down

Crashing down my friends

Crashing down

Crashing down again

Only love

Yeah only love will

Be enough

Yeah only love will win

For every chemical

You trade a piece of your soul

With no return

And who you think you know

Doesn't know you at all

Their drain is needless

Someday we'll wave hello

And wish we'd never waved goodbye

To this romance

We'll drink up every line

And shoot up every word

Till there's no more

Crashing down

Crashing down my friends

Only love

Only love can win

So cry these tears we'll cry as all

We've held so long to fall apart

As the curtain falls we bid you all goodnight...

 

The imploding voice

Everywhere you are

Is everywhere you've been

Just lost to the beat

Punching thru your skin

You don't know what to do

But still you wanna crawl

All thru the broken glass

That's eveywhere you are

Your love must always be true

Your love must always be you

Everywhere you are

Anywhere you go

Even if you're starved

It matters what you do

But even if you've gone too far

You can follow you

Everywhere you are

And in your mind

You were alone

All this time

With everything you were

And every smile you wore

Still locked in your heart

Everywhere you are

Everywhere you are

Every single chard

Everywhere you are

You're never too far

Cause anywhere you'd go

Even to the stars

All you have to do

Is play the part of who you are

The rest is up to you

Phase unwound

By yourself

Atom bomb

On the shelf unsung

Pause of light

Pulse of life

New face dawns

Everywhere you are

And everywhere you go

Even if you're down

Even if you're low

It's in the thought of you

It's in the eyes of all

Astride a storied past

That's everywhere you are

Your love must always be true

Your love must always be you

Everywhere you are

Anywhere you go

Even if you're scarred

It's all a part of you

But ever should you put it down

You can never lose me

Everywhere you are

 

 

Glass and the ghost children

To the center of the earth

Or anywhere god decides

Full of fever pulling forth

We hear our call as all

To the center of the earth

As if written in

DNA is reaching out

To your frequency

I want to live

Don't want to die

I want to live

I want to try

All in prayer

Prayer in all

All are scared

Scared of all

Black rooms are calling

To men in leather coats

White labs are cooking up the silver ghost

The glass migrates under her translucent skin

And all the spiders wonder what we've got us in

All is you

You are all

All with you

You in all

I want to live

I don't want to die

I want to live

I want to try

 

so, it's all very obtuse

because it's all like, like, i don't know

so, like, i started thinking

that everything i operate on

is based on what i believe god was telling me to do

god could be my intuition or whatever

but i always assume

i always assume that the voice i hear is the voice of god

then i started thinking

what if i'm insane

so i'm operating on the premise

that i'm hearing the voice of god

or what i perceive to be god speaking to me

or through me

but maybe i'm completly in...

so all my...

demagoguery in my life about me thinking that my life has importance

my, my..

thinking that my life has importance

my, my, my thought of it

and the fact that i believe that i'm following my intuition

which in and of itself may be completely false

so then i started freaking out thinking...

of itself may be completely false

and again this creature that believes that he's acting upon

heavenly intuition, but meanwhile he's totally rampant

and i started thinking maybe this is the cause

of all the negativity against...

and i started thinking maybe this is the cause

of all the negativity against...

and i started thinking maybe this is the cause

of all the negativity against...

 

So beats the final coda

Of a vintl storm

One more cherry cola to lift up her dead arms

A dream of sot focus sunsets filters thru the din

We are losing contact as she dials it in

She can hear glass calling

Or is it someone that looks like him

She eyes tv reflection and nods a knowing look

She says it doesn't matter

She never liked her looks

I have seen a thousand fractures

I have seen everything

Cause knowing is it's own answer

Love something in a book

There's not much left to ponder

Not much left to cook

As she counted the spiders

As they crawled up inside her

As she counted the spiders

As they crawled up inside her

 

Wound

There you are

As you always were

In bathing light

And naked blur

You're a part of me

Eternal One

By grand design

And setting sun

If you wait I will wait

Taste I will taste

If you love I will love

Run I will run

To my last breath

Last night I turned around and thought I saw myself turning

Inside the strangest dream of life unloved and cities burning

Awake in my arms

You cry unharmed

Our age of the hours

When they still devour all

So take it all

I doubt if we

Will know it's gone

Cause we've been here

Since time began

Begged god awake and make these plans

Wound opens

Reveal this broken man

And soon there's notions of blood on his hands

If you wait I will wait

Taste I will taste

If you love I will love

Run I will run

To my last breath

Last night I turned around I thought I saw myself turning

Last night I turned around and thought I watched the world ending

Inside the crushing down I felt a pang the tide was turning

Destroyed in the wake

The jealous ingrates

Will tear this world down

To spite god above

With his own love

With his own love

If you wait

If you wait

If you wait I will wait

Taste I will taste

If you love I will Love

Run I will run

To my last bréate

 

The crying tree of mercury

This is the song I've been singing my whole life

I've been waiting like a knife

To cut open your heart

And bleed my soul to you

I did it all for you

You and you and you and you

This is the sound I've been making my whole life

I've been waiting for this night

To clear up all the talk

Although I'm selfish to a fault

Is it selfish it's you I want

You I did it all for you

This love will stand as long as you

There's really no excuse

I did it all for you

These are the tears I've been crying my whole life

Like an ocean of desire

I'm reaching thru the noise

Across the dusk of time

Within the lilting lies

I am singing out to you

 

With every light

Taking over

We're taking over

Throw the weight up off you shoulders now

That we can show our love

It's almost over it's almost over

No more war and no more soldiers

To stand against his love

Away with all the troubles that you've made

Away with waiting for another day

Away

Look ma the sun is shining on me

Impatient, in love and aching to be

Could you believe in heaven

If heaven was all you had

We're taking over we're taking over

Throw away your four leafed clovers

And stand beside this love

Away with everything you've grown to hate

Away with anything that holds you safe

Away

And every light I've found

Is every light that's shining down on me

I'm never alone

Look ma the sun is shining on me

Taking my time to do as I please

Could you believe in heaven

If heaven was all you had

The sun is beaming, radiating

All the love we are creating

We are creating

And every light I've found

Is every light that's shining down on me

I'm never alone

 

Blue skies bring tears

Unleash the Armageddon

So all the children go to heaven

I sit by quiet still with their pictures on my eyes

You'll draw the guns you're given

Write down the words as written

And never disturb the presence of resurrection crutch

And it's about time

It's about drawing near

Blue skies bring tears

Blue skies bring tears

Descend the darkened stairways

Make hate with plastic playmates

And fire out remaining traces of your self esteem

Mainline the deepest secrets

Lick clean the dirty fingers

I am a stranger to you as you are to yourself

And it's about time

It's about fear

Blue skies bring tears

Don't you want me

As I awake the city sigh

We'll watch the seasons die

Blue skies bring tears

Take me inside your body

Cover me with your soul

To the darkest recess

Is where I wish to go

You are the sweetest flower

That I have ever devoured

I ask for nothing given

For nothing in return

Blue skies bring tears

 

Age of innocence

We dismiss the back roads

To ride these streets unafraid

Resigned to scraping paint

From our bones unashamed

No more the eye upon you

No more the simple man

Desolation yes hesitation no

Desolation yes hesitation no

As you might have guessed all is never shown

Desolation yes hesitation no

And in my prayers I dream alone

A silent speech to deaf ear

If you want love you must be love

But if you bleed love you will die loved

No more the lie upon you

Cast into stone and autumn shade

Desolation yes hesitation no

Desolation yes hesitation no

As you might have sensed we won't make it home

Desolation yes hesitation no

Before the rites of spring - Come to mean all things

A little taste of what may come - A mere glimpse of what has gone

Cause for the moment we are free - We seek to bind our release>

Too young to die too rich to care too fucked to swear that I was there

Desolation yes hesitation no

Desolation yes hesitation no

As you might have guessed we won't make it home

Desolation yes hesitation no


 

Adore

To Sheila
twilight fades through blistered avalon
the sky's cruel torch on aching autobahn
into the uncertain divine we scream into the last divide
you make me real, you make me real
you make me real strong as I feel
you make me real
Sheila rides on crashing nightingale
intake eyes leave passing vapor trails
with blushing brilliance alive
because it's time to arrive
you make me real
you make me real
strong as I feel
you make me real
lately I just can't seem to believe
discard my friends to change the scenery
it meant the world to hold a bruising faith
but not it's just a matter of grace
a summer storm graces all of me
highway warm sing silent poetry
I could bring you the light and take you home
into the night
you make me real
lately I just can't seem to believe
you make me real
discard my friends to change the scenery
strong as I feel
it meant the world to bold a bruising faith
you make me real
but now it's just a matter of grace

Ava adore
it's you that I adore
you will always be my whore
you'll be a mother to my child
and a child to my heart
we must never be apart
we must never be apart
lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head 
we must never be apart
we must never be apart
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls
I've left to die drinking mercury
to the mystery of all that you should ever leave behind in time
in you I see dirty
in you I count stars 
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars
we must never be apart
drinking mercury to the mystery
of all that you should ever seek
to find lovely girl
you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls
I've left behind in time
we must never be apart
and you'll always be my whore
cause you're the one that I adore
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
in you I feel so dirty
in you I crash cars 
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
we must never be apart

Perfect
I know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost
but please you know you're just like me
next time I promise we'll be perfect
perfect
perfect strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind
so far I still know who you are
but now I wonder who I was
angel you know it's not the end
we'll always be good friends
but the letters have been sent on
so please you always were so free
you'll see I promise we'll be perfect
perfect strangers when we meet
strangers on the street
lovers while we sleep
perfect
you know this has to be
we always we're so free
we promised that we'd be perfect

Daphne descends
with the sugar sickness you say the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion
it's the perfect hassle for the perfumed kiss
he makes you miss him more than home
you love him
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot
you can't resist
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one else
past sidewalk ashes a past lovers arc
you come apart to intertwine
it was all so simple
as you watched him move across the darkness in your room
you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one
no one else
and to the winding vines
the pretty boys dive and thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind
will you lose him then
on some gentle dawn
this boy is here and gone
you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one
no one else
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot
you can't resist
you love him

Once upon a time
mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go
fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?
mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes
fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the last goodbye
who cares why?
tuesdays come and gone
restless still I drive
try to leave it all behind
fallin', fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin' with the leaves
I go crawlin', crawlin' in my life...
I went falling
mother I hope you know
that I miss you so
time has ravaged on my soul
to wipe a mothers tears grown cold

Tear
the lights come on fast lost in
motorcrash gone in a flash unreal but you
knew it all along
you laugh the light I sing the songs to
watch you numb
I saw you there you were on your way
you held the rain and for the first time
heaven seemed insane cause heaven is to
blame for taking you away
do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't lose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things I that I can't do?
where is your heart?
where is your heart gone to?
tear me apart tear me apart from you
you laugh the light I cry the wound in grey
afternoons
I saw you there you were on your way
you kissed me cold and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
for taking you away cause heaven is to
blame for taking you away
the lights came to pass dead opera
motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal in nitrous overcast
do you know the way that I can'?
do you know the way that I can't choose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't lose?
tear me apart tear me apart from you
where is your heart?
where has your heart run to?

Crestfallen
who am I to need you when I'm down
and where are you when I need you around
you life is not your own
and all I ask you is for another chance
another way around you
to live by circumstance once again
who am I to need you now
to ask you why
to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
and you may go
but I know you won't leave
too many years built into memories
your life is not your own
who am I to need you now
to ask you why
to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
who am I to you?
along the way I lost my faith
and as you were you'll be again
to mold like clay
to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me

Appels + Oranjes
what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the wind refused to blow?
what if the seas refused to wave?
what if the world refused to turn?
what if the stars would hesitate?
what if what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
what if what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new
what if the silence let you dream?
what if the air could let you breathe?
what if the words would bring you here?
what if this sound could bring you peace?
what if what is isn't true?
what are you gonna do?
digging for the feel of something new
what if what is isn't you?
what are you gonna do?
it came from your thoughts your dreams and visions
ripped up from your weeks and indecisions
what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the world refused to turn?
what if the clocks would hesitate?
what if what is isn't true?
what are you gonna do?
what if what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to choose?
the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to lose?
the thoughts you cannot use
what are you gonna do?

Pug
kiss and kiss me sweetly
come and drive me home
drag the miles in me
I am yours alone
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you
desire me so deeply
drain and kick me hard
whisper secrets for me
try to go too far
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into...
please don't change
please don't change at all
bring your rain
bring your rain to fall
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you
come and kiss me sweetly
ride the telephone
drag the miles to me
I am yours alone
yours alone
on the telephone
yours alone looking for a kiss kiss
yours alone

The tale of dusty and pistol Pete
dusty screams through the doors and imaginary floors
"why can't you miss me?"
pistol pete removes the final breaths from her unkind
and she is shaken
what does this mean in love or in peace?
with you lying next to me
so faithless serene
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars
alone he roams
inside the ordinary catacombs of her
waiting with raven hands
she steals and staggers towards her man
still scorned by his demon
because he's undone
become the language of disaster and love
vengeance and dust
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars
dusty screams through doors and imaginary scenes of hurt and  teardrop
as he holds her down in the cold lonely winds
together again
her inside him
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

Annie-dog
amphetamine
Annie-dog has her leash and a face
her velvet spleen
her shackle spine
her diamond curse it comes with mine
a vessel
she for violent
I confession arms awake
mine mine you were always mine
possessed by my tears
and below the angel dog combs her hair and sings her psalms
the bombs go off
she doesn't notice
it all goes wrong
she sets things tragic
she is venus
she is mars
she's electric and the struggle of
upon her face we leave no trace
but in her stomach mercury aged
she holds the blood
she carves the knives
she digs the wires in our babies
amphetamine
Annie-dog pulls her trash
and her stories from place to place
and bed to bed
gives of herself and the magnet head
another floor
another ceiling
counting stars with double meanings
is it wrong to be swallowed whole
to disappear in her
to give to her the priceless peace
of giving up control
we tumble out into the streets
and Annie-dog she drags her leash
pretty face
ugly mouth
bitter bred and so released
and by the no
and in the yes
Annie goes if you couldn't guess
a simple man
a sycophant
her elephant with the laughing cough
she wants clean sheets
and fresh flowers
her dental shots
and the Hong Kong glue
amphetamine
Annie-dog
her her leash and a face

Shame
you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna see this through
don't let them get to you
shame
love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is drunk all the time
shame
you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna walk so far
you're gonna wonder who you are
shame
love is good and love is kind
love is good and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
hello goodbye
you know you made us cry

Behold! the night mare
I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
appease you
the wind blows and I know
I can't go on digging roses from your grave
to linger on beyond the beyond
where the willows weep and the whirlpools sleep
you'll find me
the coarse tide reflects sky
and the night mare rides on
and the night mare rides on
with a December black psalm
and the night mare rides on
what I fear is lost here
the wind blows and I know
all you have to do is run away 
and steal yourself from me
become a mystery to gaze into
you're so cruel in all you do
but still I believe
I believe you
so may you come with your own knives
you'll never take me alive
with all the force of what is true
is there nothing I can do?
I can't go on digging roses from your grave
to linger on beyond the beyond
where the willows weep and the whirlpools sleep
you'll find me
and the night mare rides on
and the night mare rides on
with a December black psalm
and the night mare rides on
I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
to hold the flower I can't keep

For Martha
whenever I run
wherever I run to
you lost one it's never done
just hanging on
the past has let me be returning
as if dream shattered
as belief
if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go
I will get someday
I'll follow you and see you on the other side
but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of heaven from above
your picture out of time
left aching in my mind
shadows kept alive
if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
I will follow you and see you on the other side
but for the grace of love
who'd will the meaning of heaven from above
long horses we are born creatures
more than torn
mourning our way home

Blank page
was all the rage never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line looking for you
at the five and dime stop sign told me stay at home
told me you were not alone
blank page
was all the rage never meant to hurt anyone
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
you haven't changed
you're still the same
may you rise as you fall
you were easy
you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes
I catch the rainfall through the leaking roof that you had left behind
you remind me of that leak in my soul
the rain falls
my friends call
leaking rain on the phone
take a day
plant some trees
may they shade you from me
may your children play beneath
blank page
was all the rage never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
but there I was picking pieces up
you are a ghost of my indecision
no more little girl


 

 

Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness:

Disc One : Dawn to Dusk

 

Tonight, tonight
time is never time at all
you can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe, believe in me, believe
that life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
and you know you're never sure
but you're sure you could be right
if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade in your city by the lake
the place where you were born
believe, believe in me, believe
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

   
Jellybelly
welcome to nowhere fast
nothing here ever lasts
nothing but memories
of what never was
we're nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to be
nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to see
living makes me sick
so sick i wish i'd die
down in the belly of the beast
i can't lie
you're nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to be
nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to see
there's nothing left to do
there's nothing left to feel
doesn't matter what you want, so
to make yourself feel better
you make is so you'll never
give in to your forevers
and live for always
and forever, forever, you're forever to be
forever, forever, you're forever to me

 

Zero   
my reflection, dirty mirror
there's no connection to myself
i'm your lover, i'm your zero
i'm the face in your dreams of glass
so save your prayers
for when we're really gonna need 'em
throw out your cares and fly
wanna go for a ride?
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
cause she's the one for me
emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness
bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
i never let on, that i was on a sinking ship
i never let on that i was down
you blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
you blame yourself for wanting more
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
she's the one for me
she's my one and only

 

Here is no Why
The useless drag of another day
The endless drags of a death Rock boy
Mascara sure and lipstick lost
Glitter burned by restless thoughts
Of being forgotten
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Desperate and displeased-with whoever you are
And you're a star
Somewhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile
A hidden diamond you cannot find
A secret star that cannot shine over you
May the king of gloom, be forever doomed
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines
The useless drags, the empty days
The lonely towers of long mistakes
To forgotten faces and faded loves
Sitting still was never enough
And if your still giving in, then your giving up
Cause in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams, of teen machine

 

Bullet with Butterfly Wings
The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
Even though I know-i suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold like job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got
When you feel the same
Even though I know-I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold like job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was only son
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved

 

To Forgive
ten times removed
i forget about where it all began
bastard son of a bastard son of
a wild eyed child of the sun
and right as rain, i'm not the same but
i feel the same, i feel nothing
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i sensed my loss
before i even learned to talk
and i remember my birthdays
empty party afternoons won't come back
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i forget to forget me
i forget to forget you see
nothing is important to me
i knew my loss
before i even learned to speak
and all along, i knew it was wrong
but i played along, with my birthday song
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again

 

An Ode to No One
I'm never coming back
I'm never giving in
I'll never be the shine in your spit
I disconnect the act
I disconnect the dots
I disconnect the me in you
And you're mistaken, It's you that's faking
Living and breathing and dying too
This message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool
You can't bring me back, You can't bring me back
Cause I give it all back to you
Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks
Wreak their havoc upon this world
The disenchanted, the romantics
The body and face and soul of you is gone that deep black hole
Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart
And you, you make me so I need to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect
To runaround kids in get-go cars
With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs
Galaxies full of nobodies
Giving us the farewell runarounds
I took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby Jane, lost my innocence to a no good girl, scratch my face with anvil hands, and coil my tonge around a bumblebee mouth
And I give it all back to you
No way, I don't need it, I don't need your love to disconnect
And you make it, so real, I don't need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect

 

Love
To my mistakes, to my mistakes of cowardice
She shimmy shakes, the jimmy jakes of consequence
Born of the airs and dues, my airs of madness to declare
That it's OK, it's love
It's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be
For what you needed to need, she'll make it up
Love, it's who you know
Machine gun blues, her vacant rush is so steel
I'm unaware, lost inside your visions
I got mine too over, i got mine and I got you
Cause I know you, you're love
It's what you wanted to see, it's who yu wanted to be
For what you needed to need, she'll make it up
Love, it's who you know
Can I look up to you as you look down to me
Can I feel in to you as you felt into me
I can't help what you see, I can't help but to be
For what I needed to need, she'll make it
Love, it's who you know

 

Cupid de Locke
Cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart's bow
To cast divine arrows into her soul
To grab her attention swift and quick
or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
With turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

See the devil may do as the devil may care
He loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare
Her mouth the mischief he doth seek
Her heart the captive of which he speaks
So note all ye lovers in love with the sound
Your world be shattered with nary a note
Of one cupids arrow under your coat

And in the land of star crossed lovers
And barren hearted wanderers
Forever lost in forsaken missives and satan's pull
We seek the unseekable and speak the unspeakable
Our hopes dead gathering dust to dust
In faith, in compassion, and in love

 

Galapogos
Ain't it funny how me pretend we're still a child
Softly stolen under our blanket skies
And rescue me from me, and all that I believe
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?

Carve out your heart and keep it in an old oak tree
And hold me for goodbyes-and whispered lullabyes
And tell me I am still
The man I'm supposed to be
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?

Too late to turn to turn back now, i'm running out of sound
And I'm changing, changing
And if we died right now, this fool you love somehow
Is here with you
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Would you leave me too?

 

Muzzle
I fear that I am ordinary, just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done is gone and dead
And all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to par
I know that I am meant for this world
My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the words
I'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong
And all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world
And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever
But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun
And I knew the echo that is love
And I knew the secrets in your spires
And I knew the emptiness of youth
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world

 

Porcelina of the Vast Oceans
As far as you can take me, That's where I believe
The realm of soft delusions, floating on the leaves
On a distant shoreline, She waves her arms to me
As all the thought police, are closing in for sleep
The dilly dally, of my bright lit stay
The stream of my misfortunes
Has given me the power to be afraid
And in my mind I'm everyone
and in my mind
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue
In the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts
The light of all that's good, the light of all that's true
To the fringes gladly, I walk unadorned
With gods and their creation
With filth and disease
Porcelina, she waits for me there
With seashell hissing lullabyes
And whispers fathomed deep inside my own
Hidden thoughts and alibis
My secret thoughts come alive
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes it right
And in my mind I'm everyone
You make it right
It's all allright
You make it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue

 

Take me Down
Take me down, to the underground
Won't you take me down, to the underground
Why oh why, there is no light
And if I can't sleep, can you hold my life
And all I see is you
Take my hand, I lost where I began
In my heart I know all of my faults
Will you help me understand
And I believe in you
You're the other half of me
Soothe and heal...
When you sleep, when you dream, I'll be there if you need me, whenever I hear you sing...
There is a sun, I'll come, the sun, I hear them call me down
I held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun
And you're all I see...
And trumpets blew, and angels flew on the other side
And you're all I see, and you're all I'll need
There's a love that god puts in your heart


 

Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness:

 Disc Two: Twilight to Starlight

Where boys fear to Tread
Candy cane walks down
To build a bonfire, to break my fall
My baby, my sweet thing
Just maybe we could lose ourselves this time
King of the horseflies, dark prince of death
His tragic forces are heaven sent
In sweet things, in a lovers breath
In knowing this was meant to be the last
A go-go kids, a go-go style
A suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile
As always, in young need
A veiled promise to never die
On dead highways, her black beauties roam
For june angels, so far from home
For a love lost, a faded picture
To tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies
So get back on the bomb
Get back where you belong

 

Bodies

Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life in need
Come into my life forever
The crumbled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own
Love is suicide

The empty bodies stand at rest
Casualties of their own flesh
Afflicted by their dispossession
But no bodies ever knew
Nobodys
No bodies felt like you
Nobodys
Love is suicide

Now we drive at night, to the ironies of peace
You can't help deny forever
The tragedies reside in you
The secret sights hide in you
The lonely nights divide you in two
All my blisters now revealed
In the darkness of my dreams
In the spaces in between us
But no bodies ever knew
Nobodys
No bodies felt like you
Nobodys
Love is Suicide

 

Thirty-three
Speak to me a language I can hear
Humor me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
As the cluttered streets greet me once again
I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
Tomorrow's just an excuse away
So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
Steeple guide me to my heart and home
The sun is out and up and down again
I know I'll make it, Love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
And for a moment I lose myself
Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
I've journey here and there and back again
But in the same old haunts I still find my friends
Mysteries not ready to reveal
Sympathies I'm ready to return
I'll make the effort, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you

 

In the Arms of Sleep
Sleep will not come to this tired body now
Peace will not come to this lonely heart
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
I need you tonite
I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
Cause I'll always miss her wherever she goes
And I'll always need her more than she could ever need me
I need someone to ease my mind
But sometimes a someone is hard to find
And I'll do anything to keep her here tonite
And I'll say anything to her to make her feel alright
And I'll be anything to keep her here tonite
Cause I want you to stay, with me
I need you tonite
She comes to me like an angel out of time
As I play the part of a saint on my knees
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire for you

 

1979
shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and i should meet
junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all
and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in the store
morphine city slippin dues down to see
that we don't even care as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement, lamented and assured
to the lights and towns below
faster than the speed of sound
faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
justine never knew the rules,
hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made, i know you better than you fake it
to see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
the street heats the urgency of sound
as you can see there's no one around

 

Tales of a Scorched Earth
Farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights
And let me be, Let me die inside
Let me know the way from of this world of hate in you
Cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back
And we're all dead yeah we're all dead
Inside the future of a shattered past
I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
Bless the martyrs and kiss the kids
For knowing better, for knowing this
Cause you're all whores and I'm a fag
And I've got no mother and I've got no dad
To save me the wasted, save me from myself
I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
Everybody's lost just waiting to be found
Everyone's a thought just waiting to fade
So fuck it all cause I don't care
So what somehow somewhere we dared
To try to dare to dare for a little more
I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no reasons

 

Thru the Eyes of Ruby
Wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes
Your innocence is treasure, you're innocence is death
Your innocence is all I have
Breathing underwater, and living under glass
And if you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seems
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
I believe in never, I believe in all the way
But belief is not to notice, belief is just some faith
And faith can't help you to escape
And with this ring I wed thee true
And with this ring I wed thee now
And with this ring I play so dead
But no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you
If you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
To the revelations of fresh faced youth
No one will come to save you
So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
But youth is wasted on the young
Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
My love for you just can't explain
Why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,
forever lost inside ourselves
The night has come to hold us young

 

Stumbleine
Boredoms in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
Sally's in the stirrups claiming her own destiny
And nobody nowhere understands anything
About me and all my dreams
Lost at sea
Jack it up Judy set your heart alight
Mayfair mistress of the satellites
Misspent youth- faking up a rampage
To hold off the real slaves
Paid off and staid
And what you never knew
Can never get to you
So fake it
I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super-queen
And make you
Jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore
No matter what you say he'll be back for more
Mommy's in the manger with the little kids
She's got her reasons, got my forgets
of tears and idle threats
Misplaced
And no matter what they do
They can't get to you
So fake it
I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super-queen
And make you me
Come around Ruby I could never sleep alone

 

X.Y.U
she didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know
she couldn't run away cause she was crazy
she gave it all away, she saw her baby break
and in the air it hung that she was dull razors
and i said, i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up
from one another, another one should come to one another
no one should come between us
still i was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only
knows that she could never hide
i couldn't feel her, and it was just a game,
cause i was lonely and she was crazy
rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this
cause i'm a watcher, and i'm a doer of none
come to save you, cause you're all mine
i hurt where i can't feel, i feel where i can't hurt
i know where i can't know, i bleed for me and mine
ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
cause i'm a sister, and i'm a motherfuck
i am made of shamrocks, i am made of stern stuff
i am never enough, i am the forgotten child
and i said i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up
from one another, no one should ever come
in between us, between us and our love
mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow
and everywhere that mary went i was sure to go
now mary's got a problem, and mary's not a stupid girl
mary's got some deep shit, and mary does not forget
and this is how mary's garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts
and into the eyes of the jackyl i say ka-boom
now we begin descent, to where we've never been
there is no going back, this wasn't meant to last
this is a hell on earth, we are meant to server
and she will never learn
bye bye, baby goodbye

 

We Only Come out at Night
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
and once again, you'll pretend to know me well, my friends
and once again, i'll pretend to know the way
thru the empty space
thru the secret places of the heart
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
i walk alone, i walk alone to find the way home
i'm on my own, i'm on my own to see the ways
that i can't help the days, you will make it home o.k.
i know you can, and you can
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
and once again, you'll pretend to know that
There's an end, that there's an end to this begin
It will help you sleep at night
It will make it seem that right is always right
Alright?
We only come out at night

 

Beautiful   
Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
And I can't help but feel attached
To the feelings that I can't even match
With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
Wonderful, It's wonderful, to know that you're just like I
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell
Who'll you love and who you won't
And I love you, as you love me
So let the clouds roll by your face
We'll let the world spin on another place
To look down on you and me and them
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell
Who'll you love and who you won't
Don't let your life wrap up around you
don't forget to call, whenever
I'll be here just waiting for you
I'll be under your stars forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
I'll be under the stairs forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you

 

Lily (My One and Only)
Lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Silly, I know I'm silly
Cause I'm hanging in this tree
In hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me
And through her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she......?
Lily, my one and only
Love is in my heart and in your eyes
Will she or won't she want him
No one knows for sure
But an officer's knocking at my door
And thru her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she could only see me
And when I'm with her I feel fine
If i could kiss her i wouldn't mind the time it took to find
My Lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Oh, Lily, I know you love me
Cause they're dragging me away
I swear I saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)


 

Siamese Dream

Cherub Rock
Freak out
And give in
Doesn't matter what you believe in
Stay cool
And be somebody's fool this year
'cause they know
Who is righteous, What is bold
So I'm told
Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?
Hipsters unite
Come align for the big fight to rock for you
But beware
All those angels with there wings glued on
'cause deep down
We are frightened and we're scared
If you don't stare
Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Tell me all of your secrets
Cannot help but believe this is true
Tell me all of your secrets
I know, I know, I know,
Should have listened when I was told
Who wants honey
As long as there is some money
Who wants that honey?
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
let me out

 

Quiet
Quiet 
I am sleeping 
In here 
We need a little hope 
For years 
I've been sleeping 
Helpless 
Couldn't tell a soul 
Be ashamed 
Of the mess you've made 
My eyes never forget, you see 
Behind me 
Silent 
Metal mercies 
Castrate 
Boys to the bone 
Jesus 
Are you listening? 
Up there 
To anyone at all 
We are the fossils 
The relics of our time 
We mutilate the meanings 
So they're easy to deny 
Be ashamed 
Of the mess you've made 
My eyes never forget, you see 
Behind me 
Quiet 
I am sleeping 
Quiet 
I am sleeping 
Quiet 
I don't trust you 
I can't hear you 
Be ashamed 
Of the mess you've made 
My eyes never forget, you see 
Behind me 
Behind me 
The grace of falling snow 
Cover up everything you know 
Come save me from the awful sound 
Of nothing

 

Today
Today is the greatest 
Day I've ever known 
Can't live for tomorrow, 
Tomorrow's much too long 
I'll burn my eyes out 
Before I get out 
I wanted more 
Than life could ever grant me 
Bored by the chore 
Of saving face 
Today is the greatest 
Day I've ever known 
Can't wait for tomorrow 
I might not have that long 
I'll tear my heart out 
Before I get out 
Pink ribbon scars 
That never forget 
I tried so hard 
To cleanse these regrets 
My angel wings 
Were bruised and restrained 
My belly stings 
Today is 
Today is 
Today is 
The greatest day 
I want to turn you on 
I want to turn you on 
I want to turn you on 
I want to turn you 
Today is the greatest 
Today is the greatest day 
Today is the greatest day 
That I have ever really known

 

Hummer
Faith lies in 
The ways of sin 
I chased the charmed 
But I don't want them anymore 
And in their eyes I was alive 
A fool's disguise 
Take me away from you 
Shame my tongue 
Fat with promise all along 
But when I woke up from that sleep 
I was happier than I'd ever been 
When you decide 
That your life is a prize 
Renew and revive 
It's alright honey 
It's alright, yeah 
Happiness will make you wonder 
Will I feel OK? 
It scares the disenchanted 
Far away 
Yeah I want something new 
But what am I supposed to do about you 
Yeah I love you, it's true 
Life's a bummer 
When you're a hummer 
Life's a drag 
Ask yourself a question 
Anyone but me 
I ain't free 
Ask yourself a question 
Anyone but me 
I ain't free 
Do you feel 
Love is real?

 

Rocket

Bleed in your own light  
Dream of your own life  
I miss me  
I miss everything I'll never be  
And on, and on  
I torch my soul to show  
The world that I am pure  
Deep inside my heart

No more lies

A crown of horns   
An image formed deformed  
The mark I've borne  
A mark of scorn to you  
Consume my love, devour my hate  
Only powers my escape  
 The moon is out, the stars invite

I think I'll leave tonight   
So soon I'll find myself alone  
To relax and fade away  
Do you know what's coming down

Do you know I couldn't stay free?

I shall be free  
I shall be free  
I shall be free  
I shall be free  
I shall be free free  
Free of those voices inside me  
I shall be free  
I shall be free

 

Disarm
Disarm you with a smile 
And cut you like you want me to 
Cut that little child 
Inside of me and such a part of you 
Ooh, the years burn 
I used to be a little boy 
So old in my shoes 
And what I choose is my choice 
What's a boy supposed to do? 
The killer in me is the killer in you 
My love 
I send this smile over to you 
Disarm you with a smile 
And leave you like they left me here 
To wither in denial 
The bitterness of one who's left alone 
Ooh, the years burn 
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn 
I used to be a little boy 
So old in my shoes 
And what I choose is my voice 
What's a boy supposed to do? 
The killer in me is the killer in you 
My love 
I send this smile over to you 
The killer in me is the killer in you 
Send this smile over to you 
The killer in me is the killer in you 
Send this smile over to you 
The killer in me is the killer in you 
Send a smile over to you

 

Soma
Nothing left to say 
And all I've left to do 
Is run away 
From you 
And she led me on, down 
With secrets I can't keep 
Close your eyes and sleep 
Don't wait up for me 
Hush now don't you speak 
To me 
Wrapped my hurt in you 
And took my shelter in that pain 
The opiate of blame 
Is your broken heart, your heart 
So now I'm all by myself 
As I've always felt 
I'll betray my tears 
To anyone caught in our ruse of fools 
One last kiss for me...yeah 
One last kiss good night 
Didn't want to lose you once again 
Didn't want to be your friend 
Fulfilled a promise made of tin 
And crawled back to you 
I'm all by myself 
As I've always felt 
I'll betray myself 
To anyone, lost, anyone but you 
So let the sadness come again 
On that you can depend on me, yeah 
Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah 
When god sleeps in bliss 
And I'm all by myself 
As I've always felt 
And I'll betray myself 
To anyone

 

Geek U.S.A
Lover lover let's pretend 
We're born as innocents 
Cast into the world 
With apple eyes 
To wish wish dangerous 
My dear delirious 
To try and leave 
The rest of us behind 
Shot full of diamonds 
And a million years 
The disappointed disappear 
Like they were never here 
Kiss kiss all of this 
The hiss that we had missed 
And understand what can't be understood 
Sear those thoughts of me 
Alone and unhappy 
I never liked me anyway 
If by chance 
Or circumstance 
We should fail 
Don't be so sad 
Shot full of diamonds 
And a million years 
The disappointed disappear 
Like they were never here 
In a dream 
We are connected 
Siamese twins 
At the wrist 
And then I knew we'd been forsaken 
Expelled from paradise 
I can't believe them 
When they say that it's alright 
Words can't define what I feel inside 
Who needs them? 
Caught with this virus of my mind 
I give in to my disease, of my needs 
To my disease, of my needs 
She really loves to break 
Her dad says its OK 
She really loves to break 
And give it all away 
Her ma says she's afraid 
What more can she fake 
She really needs to break 
And give herself away 
She gave it all away 
She gave it all away 
She gave it all away 
We really love the USA

 

Mayonaise
Fool enough to almost be it 
Cool enough to not quite see it 
Doomed 
Pick your pockets full of sorrow 
And run away with me tomorrow 
June 
We'll try and ease the pain 
But somehow we'll feel the same 
Well, no one knows 
Where our secrets go 
I send a heart to all my dearies 
When your life is so, so dreary 
Dream 
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow 
While the harlots of my perils 
Scream 
And I fail 
But when I can, I will 
Try to understand 
That when I can, I will 
Mother weep the years I'm missing 
All our time can't be given 
Back 
Shut my mouth and strike the demons 
That cursed you and your reasons 
Out of hand and out of season 
Out of love and out of feeling 
So bad 
When I can, I will 
Words defy the plans 
When I can, I will 
Fool enough to almost be it 
And cool enough to not quite see it 
And old enough to always feel this 
Always old, I'll always feel this 
No more promise no more sorrow 
No longer will I follow 
Can anybody hear me 
I just want to be me 
When I can, I will 
Try to understand 
That when I can, I will

 

Spaceboy
Feel it 
Break your bones 
Mr. Jones 
Taste me 
As I bleed 
Taste my need 
And spaceboy I've missed you 
Spinning round my head 
And any way you choose me 
You'll break instead 
Watch me 
Death defy 
Defile my life 
I don't need 
I don't care 
Please 
I want to go home 
I want to go home 
I want to go home 
I want to go home 
'cause when a lover aches 
That's when a lover breaks 
I want to go home 
I want to go home 
And spaceboy they'll kill me 
Before I'm dead and gone 
And any way you choose me 
It won't be wrong 
And anyway you choose me 
We won't belong 
We won't belong 
We won't belong 
We won't belong 
We won't belong 
We won't belong

 

Silverfuck
I hear your winter 
I hear you rain 
I've failed your summer ways 
And I feel no pain 
I hear what you want 
And I feel that way 
I hear what you want 
And I feel that way 
I hear you fade away 
And I hear you crawl 
I gave my life away 
And I feel no pain 
And I feel no pain 
And I feel no pain 
And I feel your pain 
And she was my lover so sweet 
And she was my angel 
And what I've recovered of me 
I put into a box underneath my bed 
When you lie in your bed 
And you lie to yourself 
When you lie in your bed 
And you lie to yourself 
Lie, Lie 
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head 
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head 
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head 
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head 
I hear what you want 
And I feel that way 
I hear what you want 
And I feel that way

 

Sweet Sweet
Sweet sweet sweet sweet little agony 
I don't know just where you've been 
But I'll take take take 
All that you have for me 
In sin 
Where are we going? 
And they all want you to change 
And they all want you to change 
And the sad sad sad 
All the sad faces drown 
In this town 
Where are we going? 
And they all want you to change 
Where are we going? 
And they all want you to change 
Where are we going?

 

Luna
What moonsongs 
Do you sing your babies? 
What sunshine do you bring? 
Who belongs 
Who decides who's crazy 
Who rights wrongs where others cling? 
I'll sing for you 
If you want me to 
I'll give to you 
And it's a chance I'll have to take 
And it's a chance I'll have to break 
I go along 
Just because I'm lazy 
I go along to be with you 
And those moonsongs 
That you sing your babies 
Will be the songs to see you through 
I'll hear your song 
If you want me to 
I'll sing along 
And it's a chance I'll have to take 
And it's a chance I'll have to break 
I'm in love with you 
I'm in love with you 
I'm in love with you 
I'm in love with you 
So in love 
I'm in love with you 
With you 
I'm in love with you 
I'm in love with you 
So in love 
I'm in love with you 
I'm 
I'm so in love 
I'm in love with you


 

 

Gish

I am One
I am one as you are three 
Try to find a messiah in your trinity 
Your city to burn 
Your city to burn 
Try to look for something 
In your city to burn, you'll burn 
Am I as I seem? 
I'm down 
Down, so down 
Time is right for a guiding light 
Try to turn to reasons in your bitter life 
Your city to burn 
Your city to burn 
Try to look for something 
In your city to burn, you'll burn 
See you, don't you just want to 
See you, I am one 
See you, don't you just want to 
See you 
See you, don't you just want to 
See you, I am one 
See you, don't you just want to 
See you, I am one

 

Siva
I spin off and lose my head 
Throwing stray a spark instead 
Gather strength down in my heel 
And dig it in the world I peel 
Way down deep within my heart 
Lies a soul that's torn apart 
Tell me, tell me what you're after 
I just want to get there faster 
I don't live - I inhale 
I don't give - I unveil 
Don't want to live in your misery 
I don't live - I inhale 
Sprinkle all my kisses on your head 
Stars full of wishes fill our beds 
She said, "I'm dead" 
All this pain smothers me 
Like a bomb that you can't see 
Tell me, tell me what you're after 
I just want to get there faster 
I don't live - I inhale 
I don't give - I unveil 
I don't live - I inhale 
I don't live

 

Rhinocerous
Planned a show 
Trees and Balloons 
Ice cream snow 
See you in June 
Could have known 
I would reveal 
Should have known 
I would conceal your way 
She knows, she knows, she knows 
She knows, she knows, she knows 
How's it 
She knows, she knows, she knows 
Colors show 
After the moon 
I should go 
See you in June 
Your way 
Open your eyes 
To these must I lie?

 

Bury Me
Bury me in love 
Bury me in love 
Shared your kisses, take your heart 
Buried me and it hurts 
I love my sister so [chain, unchain] 
She don't smother me [chain, unchain, unchain] 
I played the spades I know [unchain] 
I'm a Jack of all trades 
Would you bury me? 
Once you see her 
One inside  [hide, hide] 
Some things you just can't hide 
If you see her 
Tell me why  [why, why] 
Why won't she come outside? 
If you see her 
Tell me why  [why, why] 
Why won't she come outside? 
Once you see her 
One inside  [hide, hide] 
Some things you just can't hide 
She will bury me 
She will bury me

 

Crush
You wrap your arms around 
A feeling that surrounds 
Like liquid peppermint 
Just taste the drinks that she served 
And this feeling shivers down your spine 
Love comes in colors I can't deny 
All that matters is love, love, your love 
You're sleeping in your bed 
Just rest your weary head 
Maybe you shouldn't care 
Throw away those dreams and dare 
And I wonder if it matters to me 
Love comes in colors I can't deny 
All that shimmers is love, love, your love 
Your love 
Your love

 

Suffer
All that you suffer is all that you are 
All that you smother is all that you are 
And you're saying you're seeing, you're saying who you are 
What takes meaning is cleaning the meaning of who you are 
All may say 
I will dream 
All may say 
All of your struggles beneath your disguise 
Drink from the reasons that hold you alive 
'Til we're safe from the wounds of desire and pain 
You must rise from the mounds of desire and change 
Too late to discover peace of mind 
Too late to recover me 
All you see and all you breathe and all you cease to be 
Taken down your only son and what he means to me 
Your dream will be 
To dream with me 
Will you wait? Yes I will, I will wait for you 
To cleanse your life takes more than time 
Take what you want 
Take all of it 
Too late to discover peace of mind 
To late to recover

 

Snail
All your seven dreams 
Look closer than you believe 
As your things come undone 
See you are the only one 
Flower, seize the hour I did 
I wait 
Waiting, waiting for your wake 
I'll wait 
When you wake up you're all weak 
Throwing your life away 
Someday, sorrow coming home 
Sorrow, snail 
What you wait for 
Flower, the pain will wash away, away 
When the sunshine climbs through your window 
into your bed 
When you wake up you're all weak 
Throwing your life away 
Someday, sorrow coming home 
Sorrow, snail 
Down in my heart 
Flower save the hours 
Flower away 
What you wait for 
Flower chase the sunshine 
Flower chase the sunshine 
Flower

 

Tristessa
Pledged your faith 
my heart embraced 
struggle to renew 
Blurry mind 
so hypnotized 
fast enough who 
Wonder where you are 
Tristessa 
Soul takes soul 
as I take eye 
I will wait for you 
What you believe 
you'll wish to receive 
I won't believe in you 
Hang on to your life 
Tristessa 
I love you true 
Surely I do 
I love you true 
Surely I do 
Surely I do 
Surely I do 
Do you ever wake up and find yourself alone? 
Do you ever wake up far from home? 
What you believe 
you'll wish to receive 
I won't believe in you 
Tristessa 
Tristessa 
Tristessa

 

Window Paine
Window paine 
Around my heart 
Shadows streak 
Around my heart 
Do what you got to do 
And say what you got to say 
Do what you got to do 
Yes, start today 
Start today 
Wind blow shame 
Around my heart 
Shadows scream 
Around my heart 
What are you coming to 
Stripped down to the bone? 
Laughing, living on your own 
All alone 
Do what you got to do 
And say what you got to say 
Do what you got to do 
Yes, start today 
Start today

 

Daydream
My daydream seems as one inside of you 
Though it seems hard to reach through this life 
Your blue and hopeless life

My daydream screams bitter 'til the end 
The love I share -true- selfish to the heart 
My heart, my sacred heart 
My daydream dream 
My daydream 
My daydream dream 
My daydream 

I'm going crazy 
I'm going crazy 
I don't want feelings 
Your feelings 
I have gone crazy 
Motherfuckin' crazy 
I have gone

 

 

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