You know I'm not dead
Now you know where I've been
As you sleep
Torn I am
Weighted down
Patiently
Born of love
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting
On the ways of your desire
You always find a way
And thru it all
Into us all you move
Forgotten touch
Forbidden thought
We can never have enough
You know I'm not dead
Found below
The creatures scream
Stranglehold
A god machine
Begging to
Tear us out
Worn as hope
You know I'm not dead I'm just
the tears inside your head
Forever waiting
On the ways of your desire
You always find a way
And thru it all into us all you
move
Forgotten touch
Forbidden thought
We can never have enough
You know I'm not dead
We all want to hold in the
everlasting gaze
Enchanted in the rapture of his
sentimental sway
But underneath the wheels lie the
skulls of every c.o.g.
The fickle fascination of an
everlasting god
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting
Forever waiting on cruel death
You know I'm not dead
I'm just living for myself
Forever waiting
You know I'm not dead
Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to
Walk with you
Between the raindrops
I send my echo out
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of
My love
Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to
Walk with you
Between the raindrops
I'll save a prayer for you
So lost and longing to
Be dragged thru dirty streets
Wrapped up in clean white sheets
And if you think they'll watch
you now
You should know they won't
Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to
Walk with you
Between the raindrops
And I'm just trying to
Walk with you between the
raindrops
I send my echo out
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of
Of my secret love
Force down the words about
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of my love
And I'm just trying to talk to
you between the raindrops
You and me
Meant to be
Immutable
Impossible
It's destiny
Pure lunacy
Incalculable
Insufferable
But for the last time
You're everything that I want and
ask for
You're all that I'd dreamed
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Who wouldn't stand inside your
love
Protected and the lover of
A pure soul and beautiful you
Don't understand
Don't feel me now
I will breathe
For the both of us
Travel the world
Traverse the skies
Your home is here
Within my heart
And for the first time
I feel as though I am reborn
In my mind
Recast as child and mystic sage
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Who wouldn't stand inside your
love
And for the first time
I'm telling you how much I need
and bleed for
Your every move and waking sound
In my time
I'll wrap my wire around your
heart and your mind
You're mine forever now
Who wouldn't be the one you love
and live for
Who wouldn't stand inside your
love and die for
Who wouldn't be the one you love
Radio
Play my favourite song
Radio Radio Radio
I'm alone
Radio Radio
Please don't go
Radio
I peer thru curtains on empty
streets
Behind a wall of caller i.d.
No one's out there
To hear if I care
About the troubles in the air
As I of the morning now come
Pick up where my thoughts left off
Cause I'm home to die on my own
As my radio
Plays my favourite song
Radio Radio Radio
Don't you know
Radio Radio
That radio
I'm alone
I blow the dust off my guitars
In the attic with the stars
I read your letters
To feel better
My tears upon the fading ink
As I of the morning now gone
Pick up where my thoughts left
off
Cause I'm home to die on my own
As my radio
Plays my favourite song
Radio Radio Radio
I'm alone
Radio Radio Radio
Please don't go
I sit in the dark light
To wait for ghost night
To bring the past alive
To make a toast to life
Cause i have survived
What is it you want
What is it you want to change
What is it you want
What is it you want to change
What is it you want to change
Radio
Give me tears
Give me love
Let me rest
Lord above
Send the bored
Your restless
The feedback scarred
Devotionless
You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
In the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now
Will our love ever be enough
Just in time to prove
Will our words ever be enough
Just in time to lose
Give me sight
And barren breast
Pure snow and happiness
Give me time
Give me peace
And I will prove
My release
You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
Trapped in the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now
Will our love ever be enough
Just in time to prove
Will our time ever be enough
Will out love ever be enough
You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
In the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
Trapped in the sun
You're all a part of me now
Will our love ever be enough
Just in time to prove
Pop tart
What's our mission
Do we know
But never listen
For too long
They held me under
But I hear
It's almost over
In Detroit
On a Memphis train
Like you said it's
Down in the heat and the summer
rain of
The automatic gauze of your memories
Down in the sleep at the airplane
races
Try to hold on
To this heart
A little bit longer
Try to hold on
To this love aloud
Try to hold on
For this heart's
A little bit colder
Try to hold on
To this love
Paperback scrawl your hidden
poems
Written around the dried out
flowers
Here we are still trading places
To try to hold on
Pop tart
Can you envision
A free world
Of clear division
For too long
They held us under
But I know
We're getting over
In Detroit
With the Nashville tears
Like you said it's
Down in the heat with the broken
numbers
Down in the gaze of solemnity
Down in the way you've held
together
To try to hold on
To this heart
A little bit closer
Try to hold on
To this love aloud
Try to hold on
For this heart's
A little bit older
Try to hold on
To this love aloud
And we are still alive
Try to hold on
And we have survived
Try to hold on
And no one should deny
We tried to hold onto the pulse
of the feedback current
Into the flow of encrypted
movement
Slapback kills the ancient
remnants
That try to hold on
Try to hold on
To this heart alive
Try to hold on
To this love aloud
Try to hold on
And we are still alive
Try to hold on
And we have survived
Try to hold on
Pop tart
You never listen
Skinned knees
Try to hold on
Stop start
What's our mission
Skinned knees
Try to hold on
If I were alive
If I were real
Would you survive
What would you feel
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
As sentimental
As our broken dreams
Let me die
For rock n' roll
Let me die
To save my soul
Let me die
Let me die
Rock n' roll
Let the world forgive the past
Let all the girls kiss the boys
at last
Let me go
Let me go
Rock n' roll
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
Heavy metal
A heavy metal machine
We're the metal
In their metal machines
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
If I were dead
Would my records sell
Could you even tel
Is it just as well
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
It's elemental
To all the rust it brings
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
Let me die for rock n' roll
Let me die and save my soul
Let me go
Let me go
Rock n' roll
Let the world forgive the past
Let all the girls kiss the boys
at last
Let me go
Let me go
Rock n' roll
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
Heavy metal
A heavy metal machine
We're the metal
In their droning schemes
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
Will I survive
Is it up to me
Could you understand
That it's not yours to keep
Heavy metal
Heavy metal machine
This time I need to know
I really must be told
If it's over
It's up to you uou know
The things you want to hold
Are in pieces
Crashing down
Crashing down again
Crashing down
Crashing down my freinds
I've got to move it on
I've got to sing my song
While I still can
Dispatch the last alarms
Hand out the last few charms
There's no surprises
Only love
Only love can win
Crashing down
Crashing down again
Only love
Yeah only love will win
Crashing down
Crashing down again
This time I need to know
I really must be told
That it's over
I've lived my life alone
My every step foretold
To never linger
And yet it haunts me so
What are we letting go
Our spell is broken
Crashing down
Crashing down my friends
Crashing down
Crashing down again
Only love
Yeah only love will
Be enough
Yeah only love will win
For every chemical
You trade a piece of your soul
With no return
And who you think you know
Doesn't know you at all
Their drain is needless
Someday we'll wave hello
And wish we'd never waved goodbye
To this romance
We'll drink up every line
And shoot up every word
Till there's no more
Crashing down
Crashing down my friends
Only love
Only love can win
So cry these tears we'll cry as
all
We've held so long to fall apart
As the curtain falls we bid you
all goodnight...
Everywhere you are
Is everywhere you've been
Just lost to the beat
Punching thru your skin
You don't know what to do
But still you wanna crawl
All thru the broken glass
That's eveywhere you are
Your love must always be true
Your love must always be you
Everywhere you are
Anywhere you go
Even if you're starved
It matters what you do
But even if you've gone too far
You can follow you
Everywhere you are
And in your mind
You were alone
All this time
With everything you were
And every smile you wore
Still locked in your heart
Everywhere you are
Everywhere you are
Every single chard
Everywhere you are
You're never too far
Cause anywhere you'd go
Even to the stars
All you have to do
Is play the part of who you are
The rest is up to you
Phase unwound
By yourself
Atom bomb
On the shelf unsung
Pause of light
Pulse of life
New face dawns
Everywhere you are
And everywhere you go
Even if you're down
Even if you're low
It's in the thought of you
It's in the eyes of all
Astride a storied past
That's everywhere you are
Your love must always be true
Your love must always be you
Everywhere you are
Anywhere you go
Even if you're scarred
It's all a part of you
But ever should you put it down
You can never lose me
Everywhere you are
To the center of the earth
Or anywhere god decides
Full of fever pulling forth
We hear our call as all
To the center of the earth
As if written in
DNA is reaching out
To your frequency
I want to live
Don't want to die
I want to live
I want to try
All in prayer
Prayer in all
All are scared
Scared of all
Black rooms are calling
To men in leather coats
White labs are cooking up the
silver ghost
The glass migrates under her
translucent skin
And all the spiders wonder what
we've got us in
All is you
You are all
All with you
You in all
I want to live
I don't want to die
I want to live
I want to try
so, it's all very obtuse
because it's all like, like, i
don't know
so, like, i started thinking
that everything i operate on
is based on what i believe god
was telling me to do
god could be my intuition or
whatever
but i always assume
i always assume that the voice i
hear is the voice of god
then i started thinking
what if i'm insane
so i'm operating on the premise
that i'm hearing the voice of god
or what i perceive to be god speaking
to me
or through me
but maybe i'm completly in...
so all my...
demagoguery in my life about me
thinking that my life has importance
my, my..
thinking that my life has
importance
my, my, my thought of it
and the fact that i believe that
i'm following my intuition
which in and of itself may be
completely false
so then i started freaking out
thinking...
of itself may be completely false
and again this creature that
believes that he's acting upon
heavenly intuition, but meanwhile
he's totally rampant
and i started thinking maybe this
is the cause
of all the negativity against...
and i started thinking maybe this
is the cause
of all the negativity against...
and i started thinking maybe this
is the cause
of all the negativity against...
So beats the final coda
Of a vintl storm
One more cherry cola to lift up
her dead arms
A dream of sot focus sunsets
filters thru the din
We are losing contact as she
dials it in
She can hear glass calling
Or is it someone that looks like
him
She eyes tv reflection and nods a
knowing look
She says it doesn't matter
She never liked her looks
I have seen a thousand fractures
I have seen everything
Cause knowing is it's own answer
Love something in a book
There's not much left to ponder
Not much left to cook
As she counted the spiders
As they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders
As they crawled up inside her
There you are
As you always were
In bathing light
And naked blur
You're a part of me
Eternal One
By grand design
And setting sun
If you wait I will wait
Taste I will taste
If you love I will love
Run I will run
To my last breath
Last night I turned around and
thought I saw myself turning
Inside the strangest dream of
life unloved and cities burning
Awake in my arms
You cry unharmed
Our age of the hours
When they still devour all
So take it all
I doubt if we
Will know it's gone
Cause we've been here
Since time began
Begged god awake and make these
plans
Wound opens
Reveal this broken man
And soon there's notions of blood
on his hands
If you wait I will wait
Taste I will taste
If you love I will love
Run I will run
To my last breath
Last night I turned around I
thought I saw myself turning
Last night I turned around and
thought I watched the world ending
Inside the crushing down I felt a
pang the tide was turning
Destroyed in the wake
The jealous ingrates
Will tear this world down
To spite god above
With his own love
With his own love
If you wait
If you wait
If you wait I will wait
Taste I will taste
If you love I will Love
Run I will run
To my last bréate
This is the song I've been
singing my whole life
I've been waiting like a knife
To cut open your heart
And bleed my soul to you
I did it all for you
You and you and you and you
This is the sound I've been making
my whole life
I've been waiting for this night
To clear up all the talk
Although I'm selfish to a fault
Is it selfish it's you I want
You I did it all for you
This love will stand as long as
you
There's really no excuse
I did it all for you
These are the tears I've been
crying my whole life
Like an ocean of desire
I'm reaching thru the noise
Across the dusk of time
Within the lilting lies
I am singing out to you
Taking over
We're taking over
Throw the weight up off you
shoulders now
That we can show our love
It's almost over it's almost over
No more war and no more soldiers
To stand against his love
Away with all the troubles that
you've made
Away with waiting for another day
Away
Look ma the sun is shining on me
Impatient, in love and aching to
be
Could you believe in heaven
If heaven was all you had
We're taking over we're taking
over
Throw away your four leafed
clovers
And stand beside this love
Away with everything you've grown
to hate
Away with anything that holds you
safe
Away
And every light I've found
Is every light that's shining
down on me
I'm never alone
Look ma the sun is shining on me
Taking my time to do as I please
Could you believe in heaven
If heaven was all you had
The sun is beaming, radiating
All the love we are creating
We are creating
And every light I've found
Is every light that's shining
down on me
I'm never alone
Unleash the Armageddon
So all the children go to heaven
I sit by quiet still with their
pictures on my eyes
You'll draw the guns you're given
Write down the words as written
And never disturb the presence of
resurrection crutch
And it's about time
It's about drawing near
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Descend the darkened stairways
Make hate with plastic playmates
And fire out remaining traces of
your self esteem
Mainline the deepest secrets
Lick clean the dirty fingers
I am a stranger to you as you are
to yourself
And it's about time
It's about fear
Blue skies bring tears
Don't you want me
As I awake the city sigh
We'll watch the seasons die
Blue skies bring tears
Take me inside your body
Cover me with your soul
To the darkest recess
Is where I wish to go
You are the sweetest flower
That I have ever devoured
I ask for nothing given
For nothing in return
Blue skies bring tears
We dismiss the back roads
To ride these streets unafraid
Resigned to scraping paint
From our bones unashamed
No more the eye upon you
No more the simple man
Desolation yes hesitation no
Desolation yes hesitation no
As you might have guessed all is
never shown
Desolation yes hesitation no
And in my prayers I dream alone
A silent speech to deaf ear
If you want love you must be love
But if you bleed love you will
die loved
No more the lie upon you
Cast into stone and autumn shade
Desolation yes hesitation no
Desolation yes hesitation no
As you might have sensed we won't
make it home
Desolation yes hesitation no
Before the rites of spring - Come
to mean all things
A little taste of what may come -
A mere glimpse of what has gone
Cause for the moment we are free
- We seek to bind our release
Too young to die too rich to care
too fucked to swear that I was there
Desolation yes hesitation no
Desolation yes hesitation no
As you might have guessed we
won't make it home
Desolation yes hesitation no
To Sheila
twilight
fades through blistered avalon
the sky's cruel torch on aching autobahn
into the uncertain divine we scream into the last divide
you make me real, you make me real
you make me real strong as I feel
you make me real
Sheila rides on crashing nightingale
intake eyes leave passing vapor trails
with blushing brilliance alive
because it's time to arrive
you make me real
you make me real
strong as I feel
you make me real
lately I just can't seem to believe
discard my friends to change the scenery
it meant the world to hold a bruising faith
but not it's just a matter of grace
a summer storm graces all of me
highway warm sing silent poetry
I could bring you the light and take you home
into the night
you make me real
lately I just can't seem to believe
you make me real
discard my friends to change the scenery
strong as I feel
it meant the world to bold a bruising faith
you make me real
but now it's just a matter of grace
Ava adore
it's you that I adore
you will always be my whore
you'll be a mother to my child
and a child to my heart
we must never be apart
we must never be apart
lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head
we must never be apart
we must never be apart
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls
I've left to die drinking mercury
to the mystery of all that you should ever leave behind in time
in you I see dirty
in you I count stars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars
we must never be apart
drinking mercury to the mystery
of all that you should ever seek
to find lovely girl
you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls
I've left behind in time
we must never be apart
and you'll always be my whore
cause you're the one that I adore
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
in you I feel so dirty
in you I crash cars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
we must never be apart
Perfect
I know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost
but please you know you're just like me
next time I promise we'll be perfect
perfect
perfect strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind
so far I still know who you are
but now I wonder who I was
angel you know it's not the end
we'll always be good friends
but the letters have been sent on
so please you always were so free
you'll see I promise we'll be perfect
perfect strangers when we meet
strangers on the street
lovers while we sleep
perfect
you know this has to be
we always we're so free
we promised that we'd be perfect
Daphne descends
with the sugar sickness you say the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion
it's the perfect hassle for the perfumed kiss
he makes you miss him more than home
you love him
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot
you can't resist
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one else
past sidewalk ashes a past lovers arc
you come apart to intertwine
it was all so simple
as you watched him move across the darkness in your room
you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one
no one else
and to the winding vines
the pretty boys dive and thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind
will you lose him then
on some gentle dawn
this boy is here and gone
you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one
no one else
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot
you can't resist
you love him
Once upon a time
mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go
fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?
mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes
fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the last goodbye
who cares why?
tuesdays come and gone
restless still I drive
try to leave it all behind
fallin', fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin' with the leaves
I go crawlin', crawlin' in my life...
I went falling
mother I hope you know
that I miss you so
time has ravaged on my soul
to wipe a mothers tears grown cold
Tear
the lights come on fast lost in
motorcrash gone in a flash unreal but you
knew it all along
you laugh the light I sing the songs to
watch you numb
I saw you there you were on your way
you held the rain and for the first time
heaven seemed insane cause heaven is to
blame for taking you away
do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't lose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things I that I can't do?
where is your heart?
where is your heart gone to?
tear me apart tear me apart from you
you laugh the light I cry the wound in grey
afternoons
I saw you there you were on your way
you kissed me cold and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
for taking you away cause heaven is to
blame for taking you away
the lights came to pass dead opera
motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal in nitrous overcast
do you know the way that I can'?
do you know the way that I can't choose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't lose?
tear me apart tear me apart from you
where is your heart?
where has your heart run to?
Crestfallen
who am I to need you when I'm down
and where are you when I need you around
you life is not your own
and all I ask you is for another chance
another way around you
to live by circumstance once again
who am I to need you now
to ask you why
to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
and you may go
but I know you won't leave
too many years built into memories
your life is not your own
who am I to need you now
to ask you why
to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
who am I to you?
along the way I lost my faith
and as you were you'll be again
to mold like clay
to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me
Appels + Oranjes
what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the wind refused to blow?
what if the seas refused to wave?
what if the world refused to turn?
what if the stars would hesitate?
what if what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
what if what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new
what if the silence let you dream?
what if the air could let you breathe?
what if the words would bring you here?
what if this sound could bring you peace?
what if what is isn't true?
what are you gonna do?
digging for the feel of something new
what if what is isn't you?
what are you gonna do?
it came from your thoughts your dreams and visions
ripped up from your weeks and indecisions
what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the world refused to turn?
what if the clocks would hesitate?
what if what is isn't true?
what are you gonna do?
what if what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to choose?
the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to lose?
the thoughts you cannot use
what are you gonna do?
Pug
kiss and kiss me sweetly
come and drive me home
drag the miles in me
I am yours alone
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you
desire me so deeply
drain and kick me hard
whisper secrets for me
try to go too far
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into...
please don't change
please don't change at all
bring your rain
bring your rain to fall
inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you
come and kiss me sweetly
ride the telephone
drag the miles to me
I am yours alone
yours alone
on the telephone
yours alone looking for a kiss kiss
yours alone
The tale of dusty and pistol Pete
dusty
screams through the doors and imaginary floors
"why can't you miss me?"
pistol pete removes the final breaths from her unkind
and she is shaken
what does this mean in love or in peace?
with you lying next to me
so faithless serene
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars
alone he roams
inside the ordinary catacombs of her
waiting with raven hands
she steals and staggers towards her man
still scorned by his demon
because he's undone
become the language of disaster and love
vengeance and dust
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars
dusty screams through doors and imaginary scenes of hurt and teardrop
as he holds her down in the cold lonely winds
together again
her inside him
and she calls to him
let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars
Annie-dog
amphetamine
Annie-dog has her leash and a face
her velvet spleen
her shackle spine
her diamond curse it comes with mine
a vessel
she for violent
I confession arms awake
mine mine you were always mine
possessed by my tears
and below the angel dog combs her hair and sings her psalms
the bombs go off
she doesn't notice
it all goes wrong
she sets things tragic
she is venus
she is mars
she's electric and the struggle of
upon her face we leave no trace
but in her stomach mercury aged
she holds the blood
she carves the knives
she digs the wires in our babies
amphetamine
Annie-dog pulls her trash
and her stories from place to place
and bed to bed
gives of herself and the magnet head
another floor
another ceiling
counting stars with double meanings
is it wrong to be swallowed whole
to disappear in her
to give to her the priceless peace
of giving up control
we tumble out into the streets
and Annie-dog she drags her leash
pretty face
ugly mouth
bitter bred and so released
and by the no
and in the yes
Annie goes if you couldn't guess
a simple man
a sycophant
her elephant with the laughing cough
she wants clean sheets
and fresh flowers
her dental shots
and the Hong Kong glue
amphetamine
Annie-dog
her her leash and a face
Shame
you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna see this through
don't let them get to you
shame
love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is drunk all the time
shame
you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna walk so far
you're gonna wonder who you are
shame
love is good and love is kind
love is good and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
hello goodbye
you know you made us cry
Behold! the night mare
I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
appease you
the wind blows and I know
I can't go on digging roses from your grave
to linger on beyond the beyond
where the willows weep and the whirlpools sleep
you'll find me
the coarse tide reflects sky
and the night mare rides on
and the night mare rides on
with a December black psalm
and the night mare rides on
what I fear is lost here
the wind blows and I know
all you have to do is run away
and steal yourself from me
become a mystery to gaze into
you're so cruel in all you do
but still I believe
I believe you
so may you come with your own knives
you'll never take me alive
with all the force of what is true
is there nothing I can do?
I can't go on digging roses from your grave
to linger on beyond the beyond
where the willows weep and the whirlpools sleep
you'll find me
and the night mare rides on
and the night mare rides on
with a December black psalm
and the night mare rides on
I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
to hold the flower I can't keep
For Martha
whenever I run
wherever I run to
you lost one it's never done
just hanging on
the past has let me be returning
as if dream shattered
as belief
if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go
I will get someday
I'll follow you and see you on the other side
but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of heaven from above
your picture out of time
left aching in my mind
shadows kept alive
if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
I will follow you and see you on the other side
but for the grace of love
who'd will the meaning of heaven from above
long horses we are born creatures
more than torn
mourning our way home
Blank page
was all the rage never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line looking for you
at the five and dime stop sign told me stay at home
told me you were not alone
blank page
was all the rage never meant to hurt anyone
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
you haven't changed
you're still the same
may you rise as you fall
you were easy
you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes
I catch the rainfall through the leaking roof that you had left behind
you remind me of that leak in my soul
the rain falls
my friends call
leaking rain on the phone
take a day
plant some trees
may they shade you from me
may your children play beneath
blank page
was all the rage never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
but there I was picking pieces up
you are a ghost of my indecision
no more little girl
Mellon Collie
and the Infinite Sadness:
Tonight, tonight
time is never time at all
you can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe, believe in me, believe
that life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
and you know you're never sure
but you're sure you could be right
if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade in your city by the lake
the place where you were born
believe, believe in me, believe
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight
Jellybelly
welcome to nowhere fast
nothing here ever lasts
nothing but memories
of what never was
we're nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to be
nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to see
living makes me sick
so sick i wish i'd die
down in the belly of the beast
i can't lie
you're nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to be
nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to see
there's nothing left to do
there's nothing left to feel
doesn't matter what you want, so
to make yourself feel better
you make is so you'll never
give in to your forevers
and live for always
and forever, forever, you're forever to be
forever, forever, you're forever to me
Zero
my reflection, dirty mirror
there's no connection to myself
i'm your lover, i'm your zero
i'm the face in your dreams of glass
so save your prayers
for when we're really gonna need 'em
throw out your cares and fly
wanna go for a ride?
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
cause she's the one for me
emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness
bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
i never let on, that i was on a sinking ship
i never let on that i was down
you blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
you blame yourself for wanting more
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
she's the one for me
she's my one and only
Here is no Why
The useless drag of another day
The endless drags of a death Rock boy
Mascara sure and lipstick lost
Glitter burned by restless thoughts
Of being forgotten
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Desperate and displeased-with whoever you are
And you're a star
Somewhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile
A hidden diamond you cannot find
A secret star that cannot shine over you
May the king of gloom, be forever doomed
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines
The useless drags, the empty days
The lonely towers of long mistakes
To forgotten faces and faded loves
Sitting still was never enough
And if your still giving in, then your giving up
Cause in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams, of teen machine
Bullet with Butterfly Wings
The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
Even though I know-i suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold like job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got
When you feel the same
Even though I know-I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold like job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was only son
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved
To Forgive
ten times removed
i forget about where it all began
bastard son of a bastard son of
a wild eyed child of the sun
and right as rain, i'm not the same but
i feel the same, i feel nothing
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i sensed my loss
before i even learned to talk
and i remember my birthdays
empty party afternoons won't come back
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
i forget to forget me
i forget to forget you see
nothing is important to me
i knew my loss
before i even learned to speak
and all along, i knew it was wrong
but i played along, with my birthday song
holding back the fool again
holding back the fool pretends
i forget to forget nothing is important
holding back the fool again
An Ode to No One
I'm never coming back
I'm never giving in
I'll never be the shine in your spit
I disconnect the act
I disconnect the dots
I disconnect the me in you
And you're mistaken, It's you that's faking
Living and breathing and dying too
This message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool
You can't bring me back, You can't bring me back
Cause I give it all back to you
Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks
Wreak their havoc upon this world
The disenchanted, the romantics
The body and face and soul of you is gone that deep black hole
Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart
And you, you make me so I need to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect
To runaround kids in get-go cars
With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs
Galaxies full of nobodies
Giving us the farewell runarounds
I took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby Jane, lost my innocence to a no good
girl, scratch my face with anvil hands, and coil my tonge around a bumblebee
mouth
And I give it all back to you
No way, I don't need it, I don't need your love to disconnect
And you make it, so real, I don't need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect
Love
To my mistakes, to my mistakes of cowardice
She shimmy shakes, the jimmy jakes of consequence
Born of the airs and dues, my airs of madness to declare
That it's OK, it's love
It's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be
For what you needed to need, she'll make it up
Love, it's who you know
Machine gun blues, her vacant rush is so steel
I'm unaware, lost inside your visions
I got mine too over, i got mine and I got you
Cause I know you, you're love
It's what you wanted to see, it's who yu wanted to be
For what you needed to need, she'll make it up
Love, it's who you know
Can I look up to you as you look down to me
Can I feel in to you as you felt into me
I can't help what you see, I can't help but to be
For what I needed to need, she'll make it
Love, it's who you know
Cupid de Locke
Cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart's bow
To cast divine arrows into her soul
To grab her attention swift and quick
or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
With turpentine kisses and mistaken blows
See the devil may do as the devil may care
He loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare
Her mouth the mischief he doth seek
Her heart the captive of which he speaks
So note all ye lovers in love with the sound
Your world be shattered with nary a note
Of one cupids arrow under your coat
And in the land of star crossed lovers
And barren hearted wanderers
Forever lost in forsaken missives and satan's pull
We seek the unseekable and speak the unspeakable
Our hopes dead gathering dust to dust
In faith, in compassion, and in love
Galapogos
Ain't it funny how me pretend we're still a child
Softly stolen under our blanket skies
And rescue me from me, and all that I believe
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?
Carve out your heart and keep it in an old oak tree
And hold me for goodbyes-and whispered lullabyes
And tell me I am still
The man I'm supposed to be
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?
Too late to turn to turn back now, i'm running out of
sound
And I'm changing, changing
And if we died right now, this fool you love somehow
Is here with you
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Would you leave me too?
Muzzle
I fear that I am ordinary, just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done is gone and dead
And all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to par
I know that I am meant for this world
My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the words
I'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong
And all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world
And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever
But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun
And I knew the echo that is love
And I knew the secrets in your spires
And I knew the emptiness of youth
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world
Porcelina of the Vast Oceans
As far as you can take me, That's where I believe
The realm of soft delusions, floating on the leaves
On a distant shoreline, She waves her arms to me
As all the thought police, are closing in for sleep
The dilly dally, of my bright lit stay
The stream of my misfortunes
Has given me the power to be afraid
And in my mind I'm everyone
and in my mind
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue
In the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts
The light of all that's good, the light of all that's true
To the fringes gladly, I walk unadorned
With gods and their creation
With filth and disease
Porcelina, she waits for me there
With seashell hissing lullabyes
And whispers fathomed deep inside my own
Hidden thoughts and alibis
My secret thoughts come alive
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes it right
And in my mind I'm everyone
You make it right
It's all allright
You make it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue
Take me Down
Take me down, to the underground
Won't you take me down, to the underground
Why oh why, there is no light
And if I can't sleep, can you hold my life
And all I see is you
Take my hand, I lost where I began
In my heart I know all of my faults
Will you help me understand
And I believe in you
You're the other half of me
Soothe and heal...
When you sleep, when you dream, I'll be there if you need me, whenever I hear
you sing...
There is a sun, I'll come, the sun, I hear them call me down
I held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun
And you're all I see...
And trumpets blew, and angels flew on the other side
And you're all I see, and you're all I'll need
There's a love that god puts in your heart
Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness:
Disc
Two: Twilight to Starlight
Where boys fear to Tread
Candy cane walks down
To build a bonfire, to break my fall
My baby, my sweet thing
Just maybe we could lose ourselves this time
King of the horseflies, dark prince of death
His tragic forces are heaven sent
In sweet things, in a lovers breath
In knowing this was meant to be the last
A go-go kids, a go-go style
A suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile
As always, in young need
A veiled promise to never die
On dead highways, her black beauties roam
For june angels, so far from home
For a love lost, a faded picture
To tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies
So get back on the bomb
Get back where you belong
Bodies
Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life in need
Come into my life forever
The crumbled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own
Love is suicide
The empty bodies stand at rest
Casualties of their own flesh
Afflicted by their dispossession
But no bodies ever knew
Nobodys
No bodies felt like you
Nobodys
Love is suicide
Now we drive at night, to the ironies of peace
You can't help deny forever
The tragedies reside in you
The secret sights hide in you
The lonely nights divide you in two
All my blisters now revealed
In the darkness of my dreams
In the spaces in between us
But no bodies ever knew
Nobodys
No bodies felt like you
Nobodys
Love is Suicide
Thirty-three
Speak to
me a language I can hear
Humor me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
As the cluttered streets greet me once again
I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
Tomorrow's just an excuse away
So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
Steeple guide me to my heart and home
The sun is out and up and down again
I know I'll make it, Love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
And for a moment I lose myself
Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
I've journey here and there and back again
But in the same old haunts I still find my friends
Mysteries not ready to reveal
Sympathies I'm ready to return
I'll make the effort, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
In the Arms of Sleep
Sleep will not come to this tired body now
Peace will not come to this lonely heart
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
I need you tonite
I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
Cause I'll always miss her wherever she goes
And I'll always need her more than she could ever need me
I need someone to ease my mind
But sometimes a someone is hard to find
And I'll do anything to keep her here tonite
And I'll say anything to her to make her feel alright
And I'll be anything to keep her here tonite
Cause I want you to stay, with me
I need you tonite
She comes to me like an angel out of time
As I play the part of a saint on my knees
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire for you
1979
shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and i should meet
junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all
and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in the store
morphine city slippin dues down to see
that we don't even care as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement, lamented and assured
to the lights and towns below
faster than the speed of sound
faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
justine never knew the rules,
hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made, i know you better than you fake it
to see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
the street heats the urgency of sound
as you can see there's no one around
Tales of a Scorched Earth
Farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights
And let me be, Let me die inside
Let me know the way from of this world of hate in you
Cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back
And we're all dead yeah we're all dead
Inside the future of a shattered past
I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
Bless the martyrs and kiss the kids
For knowing better, for knowing this
Cause you're all whores and I'm a fag
And I've got no mother and I've got no dad
To save me the wasted, save me from myself
I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
Everybody's lost just waiting to be found
Everyone's a thought just waiting to fade
So fuck it all cause I don't care
So what somehow somewhere we dared
To try to dare to dare for a little more
I lie just to be real, and I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no reasons
Thru the Eyes of Ruby
Wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes
Your innocence is treasure, you're innocence is death
Your innocence is all I have
Breathing underwater, and living under glass
And if you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seems
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
I believe in never, I believe in all the way
But belief is not to notice, belief is just some faith
And faith can't help you to escape
And with this ring I wed thee true
And with this ring I wed thee now
And with this ring I play so dead
But no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you
If you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
To the revelations of fresh faced youth
No one will come to save you
So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
But youth is wasted on the young
Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
My love for you just can't explain
Why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,
forever lost inside ourselves
The night has come to hold us young
Stumbleine
Boredoms in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
Sally's in the stirrups claiming her own destiny
And nobody nowhere understands anything
About me and all my dreams
Lost at sea
Jack it up Judy set your heart alight
Mayfair mistress of the satellites
Misspent youth- faking up a rampage
To hold off the real slaves
Paid off and staid
And what you never knew
Can never get to you
So fake it
I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super-queen
And make you
Jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore
No matter what you say he'll be back for more
Mommy's in the manger with the little kids
She's got her reasons, got my forgets
of tears and idle threats
Misplaced
And no matter what they do
They can't get to you
So fake it
I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super-queen
And make you me
Come around Ruby I could never sleep alone
X.Y.U
she didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know
she couldn't run away cause she was crazy
she gave it all away, she saw her baby break
and in the air it hung that she was dull razors
and i said, i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up
from one another, another one should come to one another
no one should come between us
still i was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only
knows that she could never hide
i couldn't feel her, and it was just a game,
cause i was lonely and she was crazy
rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this
cause i'm a watcher, and i'm a doer of none
come to save you, cause you're all mine
i hurt where i can't feel, i feel where i can't hurt
i know where i can't know, i bleed for me and mine
ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
cause i'm a sister, and i'm a motherfuck
i am made of shamrocks, i am made of stern stuff
i am never enough, i am the forgotten child
and i said i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up
from one another, no one should ever come
in between us, between us and our love
mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow
and everywhere that mary went i was sure to go
now mary's got a problem, and mary's not a stupid girl
mary's got some deep shit, and mary does not forget
and this is how mary's garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts
and into the eyes of the jackyl i say ka-boom
now we begin descent, to where we've never been
there is no going back, this wasn't meant to last
this is a hell on earth, we are meant to server
and she will never learn
bye bye, baby goodbye
We Only Come out at Night
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
and once again, you'll pretend to know me well, my friends
and once again, i'll pretend to know the way
thru the empty space
thru the secret places of the heart
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
i walk alone, i walk alone to find the way home
i'm on my own, i'm on my own to see the ways
that i can't help the days, you will make it home o.k.
i know you can, and you can
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
and once again, you'll pretend to know that
There's an end, that there's an end to this begin
It will help you sleep at night
It will make it seem that right is always right
Alright?
We only come out at night
Beautiful
Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
And I can't help but feel attached
To the feelings that I can't even match
With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
Wonderful, It's wonderful, to know that you're just like I
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell
Who'll you love and who you won't
And I love you, as you love me
So let the clouds roll by your face
We'll let the world spin on another place
To look down on you and me and them
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell
Who'll you love and who you won't
Don't let your life wrap up around you
don't forget to call, whenever
I'll be here just waiting for you
I'll be under your stars forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
I'll be under the stairs forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
Lily (My One and Only)
Lily,
my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Silly, I know I'm silly
Cause I'm hanging in this tree
In hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me
And through her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she......?
Lily, my one and only
Love is in my heart and in your eyes
Will she or won't she want him
No one knows for sure
But an officer's knocking at my door
And thru her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she could only see me
And when I'm with her I feel fine
If i could kiss her i wouldn't mind the time it took to find
My Lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Oh, Lily, I know you love me
Cause they're dragging me away
I swear I saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)
Cherub Rock
Freak out
And give in
Doesn't matter what you believe in
Stay cool
And be somebody's fool this year
'cause they know
Who is righteous, What is bold
So I'm told
Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?
Hipsters unite
Come align for the big fight to rock for you
But beware
All those angels with there wings glued on
'cause deep down
We are frightened and we're scared
If you don't stare
Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Tell me all of your secrets
Cannot help but believe this is true
Tell me all of your secrets
I know, I know, I know,
Should have listened when I was told
Who wants honey
As long as there is some money
Who wants that honey?
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
let me out
Quiet
Quiet
I am sleeping
In here
We need a little hope
For years
I've been sleeping
Helpless
Couldn't tell a soul
Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me
Silent
Metal mercies
Castrate
Boys to the bone
Jesus
Are you listening?
Up there
To anyone at all
We are the fossils
The relics of our time
We mutilate the meanings
So they're easy to deny
Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me
Quiet
I am sleeping
Quiet
I am sleeping
Quiet
I don't trust you
I can't hear you
Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me
Behind me
The grace of falling snow
Cover up everything you know
Come save me from the awful sound
Of nothing
Today
Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long
I'll burn my eyes out
Before I get out
I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face
Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out
Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings
Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you
Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever really known
Hummer
Faith lies in
The ways of sin
I chased the charmed
But I don't want them anymore
And in their eyes I was alive
A fool's disguise
Take me away from you
Shame my tongue
Fat with promise all along
But when I woke up from that sleep
I was happier than I'd ever been
When you decide
That your life is a prize
Renew and revive
It's alright honey
It's alright, yeah
Happiness will make you wonder
Will I feel OK?
It scares the disenchanted
Far away
Yeah I want something new
But what am I supposed to do about you
Yeah I love you, it's true
Life's a bummer
When you're a hummer
Life's a drag
Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain't free
Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain't free
Do you feel
Love is real?
Rocket
Bleed in your own
light
Dream of your own life
I miss me
I miss everything I'll never be
And on, and on
I torch my soul to show
The world that I am pure
Deep inside my heart
No more lies
A crown of horns
An image formed deformed
The mark I've borne
A mark of scorn to you
Consume my love, devour my hate
Only powers my escape
The moon is out, the stars invite
I think I'll leave tonight
So soon I'll find myself alone
To relax and fade away
Do you know what's coming down
Do you know I couldn't stay free?
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free free
Free of those voices inside me
I shall be free
I shall be free
Disarm
Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send a smile over to you
Soma
Nothing left to say
And all I've left to do
Is run away
From you
And she led me on, down
With secrets I can't keep
Close your eyes and sleep
Don't wait up for me
Hush now don't you speak
To me
Wrapped my hurt in you
And took my shelter in that pain
The opiate of blame
Is your broken heart, your heart
So now I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray my tears
To anyone caught in our ruse of fools
One last kiss for me...yeah
One last kiss good night
Didn't want to lose you once again
Didn't want to be your friend
Fulfilled a promise made of tin
And crawled back to you
I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray myself
To anyone, lost, anyone but you
So let the sadness come again
On that you can depend on me, yeah
Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah
When god sleeps in bliss
And I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
And I'll betray myself
To anyone
Geek U.S.A
Lover lover let's pretend
We're born as innocents
Cast into the world
With apple eyes
To wish wish dangerous
My dear delirious
To try and leave
The rest of us behind
Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here
Kiss kiss all of this
The hiss that we had missed
And understand what can't be understood
Sear those thoughts of me
Alone and unhappy
I never liked me anyway
If by chance
Or circumstance
We should fail
Don't be so sad
Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here
In a dream
We are connected
Siamese twins
At the wrist
And then I knew we'd been forsaken
Expelled from paradise
I can't believe them
When they say that it's alright
Words can't define what I feel inside
Who needs them?
Caught with this virus of my mind
I give in to my disease, of my needs
To my disease, of my needs
She really loves to break
Her dad says its OK
She really loves to break
And give it all away
Her ma says she's afraid
What more can she fake
She really needs to break
And give herself away
She gave it all away
She gave it all away
She gave it all away
We really love the USA
Mayonaise
Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June
We'll try and ease the pain
But somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go
I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream
And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will
Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad
When I can, I will
Words defy the plans
When I can, I will
Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this
No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will
Spaceboy
Feel it
Break your bones
Mr. Jones
Taste me
As I bleed
Taste my need
And spaceboy I've missed you
Spinning round my head
And any way you choose me
You'll break instead
Watch me
Death defy
Defile my life
I don't need
I don't care
Please
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
'cause when a lover aches
That's when a lover breaks
I want to go home
I want to go home
And spaceboy they'll kill me
Before I'm dead and gone
And any way you choose me
It won't be wrong
And anyway you choose me
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
Silverfuck
I hear your winter
I hear you rain
I've failed your summer ways
And I feel no pain
I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear you fade away
And I hear you crawl
I gave my life away
And I feel no pain
And I feel no pain
And I feel no pain
And I feel your pain
And she was my lover so sweet
And she was my angel
And what I've recovered of me
I put into a box underneath my bed
When you lie in your bed
And you lie to yourself
When you lie in your bed
And you lie to yourself
Lie, Lie
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
Bang bang you're dead hole in your head
I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear what you want
And I feel that way
Sweet Sweet
Sweet sweet sweet sweet little agony
I don't know just where you've been
But I'll take take take
All that you have for me
In sin
Where are we going?
And they all want you to change
And they all want you to change
And the sad sad sad
All the sad faces drown
In this town
Where are we going?
And they all want you to change
Where are we going?
And they all want you to change
Where are we going?
Luna
What moonsongs
Do you sing your babies?
What sunshine do you bring?
Who belongs
Who decides who's crazy
Who rights wrongs where others cling?
I'll sing for you
If you want me to
I'll give to you
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break
I go along
Just because I'm lazy
I go along to be with you
And those moonsongs
That you sing your babies
Will be the songs to see you through
I'll hear your song
If you want me to
I'll sing along
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
With you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you
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Gish
I am One
I am one as you are three
Try to find a messiah in your trinity
Your city to burn
Your city to burn
Try to look for something
In your city to burn, you'll burn
Am I as I seem?
I'm down
Down, so down
Time is right for a guiding light
Try to turn to reasons in your bitter life
Your city to burn
Your city to burn
Try to look for something
In your city to burn, you'll burn
See you, don't you just want to
See you, I am one
See you, don't you just want to
See you
See you, don't you just want to
See you, I am one
See you, don't you just want to
See you, I am one
Siva
I spin off and lose my head
Throwing stray a spark instead
Gather strength down in my heel
And dig it in the world I peel
Way down deep within my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster
I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live - I inhale
Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars full of wishes fill our beds
She said, "I'm dead"
All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster
I don't live - I inhale
I don't give - I unveil
I don't live - I inhale
I don't live
Rhinocerous
Planned a
show
Trees and Balloons
Ice cream snow
See you in June
Could have known
I would reveal
Should have known
I would conceal your way
She knows, she knows, she knows
She knows, she knows, she knows
How's it
She knows, she knows, she knows
Colors show
After the moon
I should go
See you in June
Your way
Open your eyes
To these must I lie?
Bury Me
Bury me in love
Bury me in love
Shared your kisses, take your heart
Buried me and it hurts
I love my sister so [chain, unchain]
She don't smother me [chain, unchain, unchain]
I played the spades I know [unchain]
I'm a Jack of all trades
Would you bury me?
Once you see her
One inside [hide, hide]
Some things you just can't hide
If you see her
Tell me why [why, why]
Why won't she come outside?
If you see her
Tell me why [why, why]
Why won't she come outside?
Once you see her
One inside [hide, hide]
Some things you just can't hide
She will bury me
She will bury me
Crush
You wrap your arms around
A feeling that surrounds
Like liquid peppermint
Just taste the drinks that she served
And this feeling shivers down your spine
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that matters is love, love, your love
You're sleeping in your bed
Just rest your weary head
Maybe you shouldn't care
Throw away those dreams and dare
And I wonder if it matters to me
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that shimmers is love, love, your love
Your love
Your love
Suffer
All that you suffer is all that you are
All that you smother is all that you are
And you're saying you're seeing, you're saying who you are
What takes meaning is cleaning the meaning of who you are
All may say
I will dream
All may say
All of your struggles beneath your disguise
Drink from the reasons that hold you alive
'Til we're safe from the wounds of desire and pain
You must rise from the mounds of desire and change
Too late to discover peace of mind
Too late to recover me
All you see and all you breathe and all you cease to be
Taken down your only son and what he means to me
Your dream will be
To dream with me
Will you wait? Yes I will, I will wait for you
To cleanse your life takes more than time
Take what you want
Take all of it
Too late to discover peace of mind
To late to recover
Snail
All your seven dreams
Look closer than you believe
As your things come undone
See you are the only one
Flower, seize the hour I did
I wait
Waiting, waiting for your wake
I'll wait
When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorrow coming home
Sorrow, snail
What you wait for
Flower, the pain will wash away, away
When the sunshine climbs through your window
into your bed
When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorrow coming home
Sorrow, snail
Down in my heart
Flower save the hours
Flower away
What you wait for
Flower chase the sunshine
Flower chase the sunshine
Flower
Tristessa
Pledged your faith
my heart embraced
struggle to renew
Blurry mind
so hypnotized
fast enough who
Wonder where you are
Tristessa
Soul takes soul
as I take eye
I will wait for you
What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you
Hang on to your life
Tristessa
I love you true
Surely I do
I love you true
Surely I do
Surely I do
Surely I do
Do you ever wake up and find yourself alone?
Do you ever wake up far from home?
What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you
Tristessa
Tristessa
Tristessa
Window Paine
Window paine
Around my heart
Shadows streak
Around my heart
Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today
Wind blow shame
Around my heart
Shadows scream
Around my heart
What are you coming to
Stripped down to the bone?
Laughing, living on your own
All alone
Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today
Daydream
My
daydream seems as one inside of you
Though it seems hard to reach through this life
Your blue and hopeless life
My daydream screams bitter 'til the end
The love I share -true- selfish to the heart
My heart, my sacred heart
My daydream dream
My daydream
My daydream dream
My daydream
I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I don't want feelings
Your feelings
I have gone crazy
Motherfuckin' crazy
I have gone
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