First if all, I should say that I am sharing all your sadness. I am really miserable. The last thing I could not believe was Ruth's d_ _ th. Because I had convinced myself of Ruth's recovery. I am still shocked and still crying for her. She was too young to leave us. But I believe that her soul is beside us.

I sticked her photos on my room's wall. I am speaking to her overnight. I am asking her why she left us. But she never replies. Her smiling picture makes me cry. She was a very libely person. She reflected this in her letters. Although we were far from each other, I loved her as a sister. We had been corresponding for 3,5 years. I can not stop thinking of her. That is not fair I know. She was too young. She had years to live for a long time. But God didn't let us live those years together. I always dreamt about Ruth's coming Turkey. We would visit historical places of Ganakkale (Yasemin's homeplace-webmasters). She would be a guest of my home. But her sudden abandonment dealt a blow to all my ecpectations. Now I am just crying behind my disappointment.

Dear Leo

In the middle of November, I received Ruth's last letter. (There are unmailed letters from Ruth---webmasters) I wrote a reply to her. Unfortunately, before sending it, Emine told me the black news. (You can notice that Yasemin was informed very late because according to Ruth's family, she had her review classes for the uiversity entrance examination.---webmasters) I had a great shock then. I do not want to remember that day again. Immediately I sent an e-mail to you. I wrote all my feelings of misery. Almost a week later, again Emine told me you had sent a mail to her and had been waiting for a piece of news from me. I sent so many mails after Emine's message but you haven't replied none of them. In this period, you may have thought that I piad no attention to the black news. But this is not true. How could I guess that all my mails weren't receved by you I waited for your replies during that period.

Dear Leo,

As soon as you receive my leer, please contact me. My e-mail address is: [email protected]. Please chnage your mail address. Because that address does not receive my mails. I am also giving my mobile phone number to you. If you can, please call me. Or you could send a short mesage through my mobile phone.

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I will be looking forward to your mail or letter or call.

Please release a piece of news.

tell your family that I am sharing all their misery. I am as miserable as they are.