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Ezra came in the room, Cassie motioned him to her, wanting him to sit on the edge of the bed, next to her. He sat down next to her, she was sitting up, looking rather pale and weak. He reached over and caressed her cheek, "How are you feeling Darlin?" Ezra asked, "I am fine, really, please don't be worried." She said. "But I am, you fainted and I have seen the pain in your eyes, you have not been able to hide it from me, now tell what is wrong." He demanded. Cassie looked deep into his eyes, becoming lost again, from their depths, she swore she could see all the way to his soul. She needed to kiss him, before she told him her news, so she leaned forward, barely touching her lips to his, he closed his eyes, enjoying her gentle touch. She pressed harder, making the kiss deeper and more passionate, she relented and gave him access to her, with his tongue. Their tongues danced magically as the pleasure of the kiss increased, she began to devour him, wanting to taste every sweet morsel of him, but he pulled away. "You didn't think you could make me forget, by doing that did you?" He said it with a tremendous amount of seriousness. She looked at him, tears starting to well up in her eyes, "I hoped that I would not become involved with someone, so I would not have to hurt them, but I could not help the feelings I have for you. I am just so sorry that I have to hurt you like this." She said. Ezra became very concerned and confused, "What are you talking about Cassandra? I don't understand what your saying." He was trying to control his emotions, she leaned over and kissed his mouth tenderly, then said "Ezra......I am.......dying.......I have only.........a few month's left." She was starting to sob now. |
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Ezra did not know what to say, he was completely shocked, he never dreamed he would hear that come from her lips. Why? Why did he seem to lose the people he cared about? all his life it had been that way, except Maude. He felt the tears begin to well up in his eyes, he stood and walked to the back of the clinic, trying to form coherant words in his mind, to say to her, but his mind was still reeling from her words. |
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Cassie watched as Ezra struggled with what she had just told him, it broke her heart to see the shock and pain in his beautiful green eyes, which were usually filled with happiness and mischief. She watched as his eyes begin to fill with tears, then he got up and walked toward he back of the clinic, she felt so much pain in her soul, for doing this to him, but it was unavoidable now. She should have left when she began to have feelings for him, if she had just continued traveling, instead of staying here and falling in love with him, he would not be going through this now, he did not deserve this. "I am so sorry Ezra, I never wanted to hurt you, but I could not help my feelings for you. It's not fair that I did this to you Ezra, my heart is breaking watching you in pain." She said, beginning to sob. Her head was also pounding, she began to feel faint again, "Ezra, Please forgive me, your silence is killing me." She added pleadingly. |
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Ezra had heard what she said, he did not blame her, he blamed himself, he should have known better than to get involved with someone, he always paid a high price in the end. He was much better off when he kept himself closed off to everyone. He turned to look at her, she was losing consciousness again, his heart was breaking to see her suffering like this, but he just couldn't get the words to come out. He loved her and did not want her to die, he wanted to know why she was dying, but he would not find out now, for Cassie had lost consciousness again. He moved over to her, caressing her cheek, then stroking her hair, which was so soft, that it felt like velvet to him. He bent and kissed her gently, holding it for several moments, as a tear rolled down his cheek and landed on hers. |
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While Ezra was in with Cassandra, Nathan had gone to the saloon, what Cassie had told him, made him want a drink, he also wanted to tell the others. When he arrived in the saloon, the other 5 men were at a table, talking quietly, they had heard that Cassandra had collapsed and were very worried. They all looked up when Nathan came in, the look on his face, told them that things were not good. Nathan went to the bar and got a bottle of whiskey, then joined the others, as he sat down, Buck asked, "How is Cassie, Nathan?" Nathan shook his head, "She told me that she has a brain tumor and only has, if she's lucky, a few month's to live." He said, the others all looked stricken, this was unbelievable. They had all grown to love Cassie, so they could not believe this was happening "Where's Ezra?" Chris asked. "He's with Cassie, did any of you know that they love each other?" Nathan asked, the others all looked shocked, "No, we knew they spent a lot of time together, but we just thought it was because they were close friends, not that they were in love." JD said. The others nodded, no one really knew what to say. |
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A short time later, Ezra came into the saloon, he looked terrible, very grief stricken and he had obviously been crying. He got a bottle of whiskey, then sat at a corner table alone. Nathan went over to him, he was concerned that Cassie might already be dead, "How is Cassie, Ezra?" Nathan asked, "She is unconscious again, but her pulse and breathing were normal when I left, now can you please leave me alone?" Ezra said. Nathan could see that Ezra needed to be alone, so he left to go check on Cassandra. Ezra sat there, drinking the whiskey and trying to cope with the situation, unable to wrap his mind around the fact that the woman he loved was going to die soon and all he could do was sit by and watch her agony. He tossed back another shot. He decided that he would do everything in his power, to make the rest of her as happy as possible. |
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A few hours later, Cassie came into the saloon, she looked much better, but it was obvious she was in pain. She moved to where Ezra was sitting, by this time he had gone through 2 bottles of whiskey, but still had his wits about him. He stood as she approached, offering her the chair next to his. "Ezra, I am so glad I found you, we need to talk." She said. "Yes my Darlin Cassie, we do." Ezra said. After Cassie was seated, Ezra took her face in his hands and gave her the most tender and gentle kiss, she had ever been given, she put her hands in his hair. then pulled him closer, making the kiss deeper they shared their tongues. Cassie moaned softly, she found that when he kissed her, she no longer felt the pain in her head, so she pressed harder, never wanting to stop, he was the most incredible kisser she had ever known. She caressed his tongue with hers, then he took her lower lip in his teeth, nibbling gently, then sucked it into his mouth, caressing it with his tongue, then taking her whole mouth again, consuming it and her soul with it. She moaned again, as they continued kissing, the others, at the usual table, were watching in amazement, they could not believe how "In love" Ezra and Cassie appeared to be. |
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Finally Ezra stopped kissing her, she had to sit with eyes closed for a moment, in order to recover from that kiss, as she did, Ezra took her in his arms and held her tight. "I am sorry that I couldn't speak ealier, my mind was reeling from what you told me and I couldn't think." Ezra said. "It's all right Ezra, I understand completely, I am just so glad that you aren't angry with me." Cassie replied. "I could never be mad at you Darlin, please tell me why you are dyin?" He said. She looked into his captivating green eyes, which always took her prisoner. "I have a brain tumor, it causes the headaches, I only have a few month's left, I want to spend them with you Ezra." She said, starting to cry. Ezra took her in his arms again, holding her tight as she cried, "I have come to a decision." Ezra said, Cassie looked at him and said, "What's that Ezra?" |
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