5/22/02
I can't believe it's been this long since I wrote. I've lost 74 now, down to 295. I also can't believe I just write that number so easily. LOL. I never could do that before. The throwing up has improved so very much. It's very seldom now, and then only when I really eat too fast. I've dropped down sizes. I can wear "women's" clothes now. LOL. No more mens' t-shirts. Well, except to wear around the house, or clean in, you know. I wear feminine blouses now. Breaking 300 has really done a lot for my self esteem. I look at my arms and think "where did those come from?" LOL. They look so thin. I need to get a current picture. I got into my wedding dress again, and a nice pants outfit I haven't been able to wear for several years. I've lost 6 inches in my hips. Wonderful!!!!! I've lost 4 in my bust, 4 in my waist, 3 in my arms, and 5 in my thigh. It's so wonderful to get daily feedback at work, and at home. I come home from work and walk past Mike and he notices again how much smaller I am. It's wonderful. I would do this again in a heartbeat. The only thing I would change is I would be stronger in my resolve to walk. I still am not walking and I have no excuse. My REASON is my addiction to the computer and my graphics, but that's no excuse. I really need to walk. I sometimes go most of the day without eating, before I realize I haven't. I never feel hunger, so if I'm playing here, I don't think about eating. I make sure when I'm working that I get all my water and lots of protein in, but when I'm home, I forget to drink and eat. I just don't think about eating now. Weird, I know. LOL
6/3/02
I finally broke the plateau I was on. It didn't last long, but long enough. I'm down 76, to 293. I feel like I'm on the move again. LOL. Thanks to those who signed my guestbook. I really appreciate it. I hope anyone thinking about this surgery will want to inquire about it. I hope to add an information page here. I'm not sure just what to put on it, but I'd like to at least have some links where you can get some information.
6/22/02
I can't believe it has been so long since I updated. LOL.I'm down to 284, lost 85 pounds,but I'm staying there. I haven't thrown up from eating too fast in quite a while, but I have been lately due to nerves. We have a bit of a crisis here at home, and my nerves are really bad. The one thing that has changed though, is I used to turn to food, to deal with it. Now I seem to have to make myself eat. I know I'm not getting enough protein. I did order me some of the ProLab, from Vitalady.com. My hair is really coming out like crazy. I'm getting worried. I don't dare use a brush on it, I use a pic. I use a brush to blow dry the top front, but I just let the rest dry by itself, and then pic it out. I hate it. It's sooooooooooo curly since I can't pull the curl out with the brush while I dry it. Terrelle is going on the 9th of July for his informational meeting and then he will get his appointment with the doc. I hope everything goes okay.
7/6/02
Once again, I'm really sorry I go so long before updating. I've been learning new stuff, graphics and applets. Be sure to check them out, I'm so proud of them.LOL. You know, most people gain weight at holidays, myself included. I had hit a plateau for several weeks and kept hovering between 280 and 285. Well, I went down yesterday and today, and today I'm 276, so I'm down 93. I'm really hoping to pass that hundred mark by the 23rd when I go back for my 6 month checkup. LOL. I'm hoping to get some pics today, to post here tonight. I haven't updated the photos since 2 months postop, I think. Sure hope it shows a big difference. LOL.
7/8/02
Wow, I'm down 3 more. LOL. Maybe I will hit that century mark before the 23rd. LOL. Just 4 more to go. Oh, I almost forgot!!! We went to the beach yesterday, and I actually wore a bathing suit. LOL. I swore I wouldn't but I did. Of course, I didn't move off that blanket, but I did wear it. LOL.
8/8/02
Well, I've lost 10 more since a month ago. I didn't think it was even that much, till I just looked at the previous post. I've lost 106. I've noticed when I don't lose pounds I usually lose inches. I'm 263. Can't believe I readily tell people that. LOL.
8/22/02
Hey, I'm getting better,LOL, not so long since my last update. Just lost 4 more pounds since last post. Down 110, so I'm exactly half way there. I started out with 220 to lose. I've lost 12" in my hips, 10" in my boobs, LOL, and I can't remember the rest. I'll try to remember to post it one day. I had a wonderful experience the other day. Last weekend we went to Busch Gardens, and I had actually forgotten about the turnstiles. LOL. How could I have done that? And when we got to them, I felt that old familiar panic. LOL. I had Mike go first, (used to have him go last to cover me from the eyes of the people behind me if I got stuck.) LOL. Well, I walked right through it, and couldn't get this grin off my face. Mike turned around to look at me, knowing what I was going through, and we both burst out laughing, and then I started to cry. I was so glad I had on sunglasses. LOL. It touched me so deeply, to know that I don't have to be afraid of that anymore. And just a few weeks ago, we had a meeting at work, and I used to have to find a chair with no arms. There was only myself and another lady in there at the time, so I tried one of the "skinny" chairs. LOL. I got in it!!!! LOL. Oh, what a high!!! LOL. Now, I never have to be humiliated having to ask for a chair with no arms. Never again. LOL. Okay, I gotta go, just wanted to get this in here.
8/28/02
I'm down to 254, lost 115. I still can't believe how I tell that number to everybody. Oh, remember I told you about Terrell? He has his consult with the doc next Tuesday. I hope it goes well. I love him and I want this for him.
9/06/02
I'm only down 1 more. I've been having stomach pains when I eat or drink. I find when I'm at home I very seldom drink, while when I'm at work, I drink most of my water. But I'm sooooooooooo tired of the water. I tried some unsweetened tea, put Splenda in it, and that helped. But I still feel so uncomfortable when I eat. I thought I might go back to a liquid diet today while I'm off work. On another note, I found a message board for this webpage. The link is on the first page, so if you want you can leave a message and I can reply. There are messages in the guestbook I could reply to if I had an email address. And on still another note, LOL, Terrell had his appointment Tuesday and the doc said he's a good candidate for the surgery. I'm sooooooooo glad. I love him. I want this same joy for him. We're now waiting to hear if the insurance approves. He has the same insurance as I have so I see no reason he should be turned down. I'm going to make him a webpage, and since he doesn't have a computer, he could access one at the library, but I'm gonna put a message board on the website so he can correspond with anyone wanting to correspond with him. I know several members of OWLS that would love to.
9/19/02
I'm down 120. We're still waiting to hear if Terrelle got approved for his surgery. His page I created for him is at http://www.geocities.com/tdh652002/
We're getting anxious about his approval. It's been 16 days. I think it took mine about 21 days. I was quite sick last Friday. I think I have been using too much OJ for my protein shakes. And not completely "eliminating", as Barbara says, LOL. I was having terrible gas pains, and then it started actually burning my stomach every time I ate or drank anything. I threw up all day, including on the side of the road trying to go to work. Barbara called me in something for the nausea and some Previsid. That seems to have really helped. But she also said I need to take Dulcolax daily, but if I do, it's too much, so I think I may need to adjust that to every other day. I also still have that terrible itch. My stomach is still covered with spots where I scratch till it bleeds.
9/30/02
Okay, I'm posting an update picture today. We took it yesterday. I'm down 126 pounds, to 243. We are STILL waiting to hear if Terrelle got his approval for his surgery.
10/9/02
I'M SOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!I just measured. LOL. I've lost a total of 55 1/2 inches. LOL. I lost
11/17/02
I can't believe it! LOL. Once again. I can't believe I have let this long a time go by before updating. I'm down to 228, down 141 pounds lost. It feels wonderful. Mike and I are going to Warren, Ohio the day after Thanksgiving to meet friends from my gastric bypass support group. I can't wait, I'm so excited. Oh, I see I haven't let you know............Terrelle got approved, and his surgery date is Jan. 15th. I'm taking off that day to be with his family. I love that young man so much. I can't wait for him to have this gift. He's so precious. I seem to be having a bit of trouble with emotions lately, it's like I'm PMSy. I finally went for my Pap Smear. She wants me to come back for an ultrasound next month. She had me do that last time also. It seems I spot between periods, and she doesn't like that. She also sent me for a mammogram and a colonoscopy. I haven't scheduled the colonoscopy yet. I've been on a plateau for about 3 weeks. I HATE IT!!! LOL. But, usually when I'm not losing pounds I lose inches. Okay, gotta go, can't see to type. It's late. LOL. Until next time. LOL
11/20/02
So many people lately have seen my site and have asked me questions. This is so neat. I hope I have been able to help someone. And people who have recently told me I looked very tired are telling me I'm looking "not so tired". That's nice. We recently got new picture IDs at work. Hey, this one is soooooooooooooo much nicer than the last one. LOL
12/31/02
Happy New Year. I know, you're tired of me saying I can't believe I have gone so long since updating. But I really am sorry. I've been taking lots of computer classes, and have just been busy.See, people ask why people who have already had the surgery don't come back and update as much, and that should show anyone having the surgery that that's how they'll be. Busy! Where we didn't do lots of things before surgery, we do lots more after losing. I finally broke yet another plateau this morning. I've now lost 150, down to 219. I swear, I still can't believe I tell people that number. LOL. OMG! I just reread some of my past posts and see that I have not told you......Terrelle got his approval. I emailed Hilary at the docs office and she said his doc had NEVER even given them the info to send the insurance company. Well, angel that she is, she took care of it, and 4 days later he had his schedule. LOL. I'm so happy for him. He's due to have surgery in just 2 weeks, and 1 day. LOL. January 15th. I'm gonna be there. I won't be able to relax until I see him. I love him so much. I want this joy for him. As you know, some people die after surgery, and I don't know what I'd do if something happened to him. I think I'd lose my sanity. I've stressed to him, he HAS to be doing this for HIM. He can't do it because he thinks I or someone else wants him to. As it is, there may be a glitch. He said they want him to have a second psych eval, (that doesn't look spelled right, LOL)but the woman can't schedule him before his surgery date, so we don't know what's gonna happen there. I hope we know soon, I need to put in my request to be off that day. I would be no use at work even if I weren't going to be at the hospital, but I AM gonna be there.
For anyone who recently tried to access my site, I apologize. I had a bunch of scripts on the main page linking to pages with my homework from my classes, and something went wrong. It was knocking us out of the browser. Well, I deleted all the scripts, and now it's working. Again, sorry for that. Okay, gotta go. Got lots to get done. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!
1/10/03
Terrelles surgery is Wednesday, I'm excited and scared. I love that young man, and if something were to happen to him, I think I'd lose my sanity. I feel almost as anxious now as I did with my own surgery. I want him to know this joy, I want him to have such a difference in his life, like I have in mine. It will be fun watching him, discovering all the little things he can do, like I did. Watching him gain confidence, walk differently, talk differently, LOL. All those fun things, like the first time he measures and sees how many inches he's lost. LOL. Mike says I giggle like a child when I fit into new clothes, smaller than I expect. He's having as much fun as I am. LOL. And I want Terrelle to have that fun too.
1/18/03
I had a long post here and hit the button with my foot and turned the puter off. LOL. Lost the whole message. Darn! I hate it!. Anyway, I was trying to thank everyone who prayed for Terrelle. He did fine. He's home now. Went home yesterday. It was a very long day Wednesday. Hey, I've remeasured. LOL. I've lost more inches. I've lost 153 pounds and 68 3/4 inches. LOL. Can you tell I'm excited? LOL. Maybe a little bit, huh? LOL. Here are the inches...
LOL. I had no idea!!!!! LOL. I LOVE IT!!!! Uh, can you tell I'm excited? LOL