SUICIDE DILEMMA

 

Well this happened to my friend .The subject is from a middle family.And as everyone he too has problem .He is alone .His best friends are the people in his family ,That's not bad yeh ? Wait till you hear that he has very few, two or three friends outside the family.Now what is wrong with that ? I will tell you.

The more you are depending on someone the more vulnerable you become...Now that's a crazy idea...yeh....Imagine a situation in government office .You have to get something done and the only person who can get it done is a government employ . (I hate these bastards ).Now there are millions of people living on this planet .But unfortunately they don't know you .And u can 't get your best friend in that position for the time being .So ..........U R in deep shit .....And the mother fucker sitting in front of you sems to be the most powerful man in the universe all of a sudden .

And worse , he knows about it ......So he keeps you on your toe till the work is over .

If you shift the same situation to your house .......it can be a nightmare from hell....

Most of the suicides happening in the world among teens are due to this ...Even my friend tried to do suicide once .This is narrated as he told me ..

The guy had a fight and decided to take off (to heaven ?).He sat in his bathroom with a blade cursing his father ,mother and all those people whom he could think of that movement .Bad people ...he kept saying ....Bad time .........

Well he said before I leave let me reflect on some things I know ....in this beautiful world ..Suddenly the picture of Leander Pace flashed infront of him ..The guy thought he had brain tumer ...Was preparing for death ...when finally ..he decided to see a foreign doctor ....where he came to know that it was just some bacteria...he happiness knew no bounds at this news .....in t.v he was shown thanking all his dear friends ,his family and all those he could think of ....so much that I heard he even thanked the dog that used to walk infront of his hospital ....Is life that beautiful ?

Naaa....Sale ki phat gaye ....Marne ke liye gand me dum chahiye ...( He is a coward ....u need guts to die ).

Or may be I should look at my attitude ..Now what can be wrong with my attitude ...Seems okay to me ....or ...may be there is ..I take some people too seriously .In the sense I easily get upset when they don't respond in the way I think they should.May be I should look to a world outside me .or ...my house ...The nice people whom I can help ....May be I should be with them .

And if indeed they want me dead ...My suicide will be like playing to their anticipation .. ... And that I should'nt .

Oh ...God what I am thinking all these bull shit .I am in bathroom with a blade in my hand .May be I should just cut my hand viens and let the blood loose .

He slowly put the blade on his wrist ...and tried pressing it ...It was swiss blade .made in china .if you know what I mean .It suddenly occured to him that the blade has to pass by slitting the skin , then to the viens .And again there was two three of them .Which is the one I should slit .Not all ..good lord ....

And the china blade he took for suicide was not very sharp ...or so he felt that time ..a 7o'clock blade would have been nicer .But now that he don't have it ...

Now way man I am not going to slit my hand with this " Axo blade thing " .he said. Suddenly to him life seemed to be a better option .He thankfully dropped the idea ..and is still alive to tell me this story .....

All those people who want to try suicide ....Don't do it mike .....World is not that bad ...You need someone to share your problems ...let me know ....mail me (get it from abt'me column )....I try my level best to be in touch ...After all I am a human being ...Errare humanam est ..To err is human .....

Just in case if you are that determined to die ...Man ,don't forget to buy a 7o'clock blade ....China blade sucks..