Do you ever just stop and think for a moment that you will never know what it is like to be someone else? No I mean it. Really stop and think. You will never ever know what it is like to be someone else or know what they really think and how they feel inside. I think about that sometimes and it makes me sad that we deal with other people on such a superficial level never knowing (or sometimes never caring) what their hopes and dreams are. We are all such complex creatures with complex motivations and drives but in our everyday interactions we boil down our interpretations of others to "that guy is an idiot" or "she is so ugly" or something like that. It's like though we care about ourselves we forget that other people are real too.

Sometimes I can't stand it when people around me put other people down with things like "people suck." I believe we are all God's creatures and that everyone has worth and some amount of goodness in them. When someone says "people suck" I remember that I am a person and that they are saying that I suck, that we all suck. The idea is so negative, so filled with a lack of faith in the human race and in human kindness that it makes me want to cry out in despair. We are all beautiful and we are all unique. I believe that with all of my heart.

In psychology class we learned that we are more likely as humans to attribute other people's shortcomings to themselves and more likely to attribute our own shortcomings to outside circumstances. For example, a person who is tailgaiting you is an *sshole while you tailgating another person is you being late for work or trying to get your wife to the hospital. While these different perspectives make logical sense, it is very sad. So when people make me upset on the road or in a restaurant I try to remember that they have their own problems and that they might just be having a bad day.

Enough boring deepness. I want to talk about something interesting. Is there anything interesting?? I can talk about some cool things to do I guess. Okay, this is an awesome idea for a prank. Someday i want to put a plastic bag into my pocket and walk into an ice cream store and order ice cream. When they ask me whether I want it in a cup or a cone I want to hold out my hand and say "here." After they put the ice cream in my hand and I pay I want to stuff my hand into my pocket and walk off just to psyche them out. This doesn't sound funny typed out, but I bet it would be really fun!

I worked a little on my second song today in Noteworthy. It is progressing, but it doesn't sound complete yet. I think it reminds me of a cave or something. I also did some more Utena drawings. I've started to try drawing heads from different angles (looking up, down, sideways, etc.) and I think I'm getting the hang of it. I still have yet to get different body/hand angles quite right.

I have also recently started trying to practice my calligraphy more. I started doing calligraphy when I was in middle school and I've been doing it off and on ever since. Recently I also started practicing Chinese/Japanese calligraphy and painting on rice paper. Perhaps someday I'll come up with something scannable. The only other creative projects that are going on now are book carving and this website stuff. Daniel, Amber, Dan and I started a website business (http://www.toy-republic.com) this past summer. Right now we're thinking of rehauling the site but we haven't made any definite decisions yet. Okay, time to work...

Quote of the moment:

It is better to have loved something inanimate than to never have loved at all.

Current music: some song the frats are playing
Current mood: nervous
Characteristic of the moment: I like medival history and want to have a sword collection someday