West Oz's Bear Club


AU/NZ CyBear Club


The place for bear data

Oz.Org IRC chat channel

Get Lockergnome's FREE Newsletter: Cool Windows 95/98/NT/2000 Information!

Management in One


Quick Messager

Excellent humour

Good font source

XiRCON IRC Client

The official link button

3rd February 1998

Yes it has been MONTHS since I last made an entry. Well - two reasons - Work got to me, and I then went to the UK to see Gareth, my family, and our good friends Roy and Jess. I also caught up with Tom, Fred, Randy, Dana, David, Joshua, and a few other bears.

Well, what has happened. I got through the remainder of the year, did all my required work, and then headed to the USA and UK on December 6th 1997. I spent a few hours in Sydney then onto Newark and such (you can see the pictures in the travel section, elsewhere on the site).

The blessings of the break were:

• Christmas with my mum and dad - and generally a good clear atmosphere. I only had a small falling out with mum a few days before I came home to Australia.
• Boxing Day with mum and dad and some of the relatives and friends. Plus the important thing, Gareth was there! He really enjoyed himself, and I felt so at ease. I still believe that Nan knows. I praise God that the whole of Christmas was great.
• A week up in Liverpool with Roy and Jess and friends. There were the testing times, but more in a moment.
• Generally relaxing before returning to Australia on the 23rd January, this time via Tokyo (Narita airport).

So what was the low point? Well I found myself being very jealous of Gareth. Silly reason, and since then I have talked to him, and the Lord, about this.

In the end we argued over it, I walked out of Roy and Jess' to go think, this was before we argued. I needed space. I talk to God so much when I am angry or upset. I seem to spend time with him on a walk somewhere. I know I am not the only one to do this.

We seemed to have resolved it, thankyou to Him above, but it resurfaced the following weekend when we were again in Liverpool. Again it is my problem that myself and, most importantly, God will work through. This time I did not get time to go for a walk, so the two of us argued quite bad. It is silly, we argue over the small points, big things are easy for the two of us to resolve.

I am praying that we can get there.

Well what else. The big news is that Gareth's application for his visa to emmigrate ot Australia has been closed. Why? This is because the visa was granted on the 21st January, but we only found out on the 24rd, after I had got onto the flight to the UK. I am so glad that he will be here before November 1998, to live. My emotional support will be here - that is a key factor to my feelign better about who I am again.

I am so thankful to God for takign my prayers, and those of Gareth, and listening and answering. They are so important to the two of us.

Well more as it develops. It is a new academic year and I am aleady partly stressed, but will get there.