The Pending Works Folder

Story Instigated: March 2003 - Working title only
Beta(s): None
Spoilers: None
Warnings: Earth Bound Fic. Not a happy-ever-after feel to this fic.
Story Length: At this stage there are only 5 pages written.

Daniel wakes after a night of 'first passion' with Jack and wonders what the hell he has done!

Since his return from Abydos, Daniel has been aware of Jack's feelings, and vise versa, but both men resisted out of respect for their careers.

A moment of weakness has Daniel concerned about where he and Jack can go to from here?

I read an amazingly inspiring book called Alered's Sin by Lawrence Scott and fell in love with the style of the story. The bitterness and sadness that it invoked within me, from its two male leads who desired each other but knew that their commitment to their faith kept them apart, had me clambering for a pen to see if I could write anything as haunting....

At first they admired the other, learnt and grew with each other, but remained always within the boundaries of friendship. Sometimes it was hard not to want more, but Daniel had to respect that Jack had dedicated his life to his career - after all, he’d allowed it to affect his marriage, alienate his wife, and play its part in the death of his son, so what did Daniel expect for himself?

Jack was Air force. It left him alone in this world; the ravenous beast had consumed all of his life. It had to be honored, as far as Jack was concerned, and nothing would jeopardize this life for him. Nothing.

Daniel glanced to the bed, to the white sheets stained with their betrayal to Jack’s first love. He felt like a thief in the night, which came and stole under the blanket of darkness. He longed for dawn to fully break over him so that he might feel less in the dark. But with dawn would come awakening. Jack would awaken from his sleep. He’d awaken to what they shared. He’d awaken to what they had done to their love in a moment of weakness. He closed his eyes; perhaps the darkness was a better place to dwell. Perhaps not seeing, not knowing, was easier to live with than the dawn of realization would be.

I'm not convinced I captured it, however I am happy with the resultant 5 pages and fully intend to continue this story once I have the inspiration. With the technique so foreign to me, it is a challenge to write, but a work I'm sure I'll enjoy completing.

I wanted to capture a different kind of first-time story. I've written and read a plethora of stories where they wake up instantly in love after months of suppressed affections, but in life - things are not always so rosy. So, this is my thoughts on how things might end up if, after finally giving in to their feelings, Jack and Daniel woke to realise that neither could play 'happy couples', despite how they loved each other.

I wanted to capture feelings within Daniel of betrayal - his betrayal to Jack's faith and love in him, and their betrayal to Jack's mistress - the Air Force.

This is not a happy first time story nor a happy ever after kind of piece - yet I'm still not sure how it will end...