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Whats a rumor? - Karen
Why Karen..a rumor is a false remark spread among people that isn't true. It's funny though. Today a person ACCUSSED me of spreading rumors about her. If you have read previous entries, you can guess who. Yes. Well anyways, this person said that I'm spreading rumors about her. NOT TRUE! Remember, a rumor is a FALSE thing spread. What happend with me and this person is true, so it's not considered a rumor.
-Melissa
The above said all. The weird thing is, Kelly obviously doesn't know what the hell rumor even MEANS! The definition above ^ thats what it means, SMART ONE! Then she goes and makes excuses for herself and tells everyone that I shouldn't spread "rumors" AKA - The Truth. I think she just doesn't want to face the fact that I'm right and she knows what shes doing! I think Alanna is fine, but Kelly is a bitch and I'm not the only one who thinks that. She SEEMS like she THINKS the world loves her or something. Well, thats NOT the case. She expects people to feel sorry for her! Like suddenly, SHES the innocent one! She can never face what anyone says and obviously believes what SHE wants to hear.
Although, there is some great news I discovered today! It's about the Kelly situation. I won't announce it because I can save it all for tomorrow when it ALL comes out. MWAHAHAHA!
PS - Kelly doesn't know what a REAL rumor is. I could spread the meanest, nastiest, awfulest rumor about her if she wants! Then she'll know what a rumor really is. She deserves anything and everything that comes to her.
8/17/05
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PS > Thanks Alanna and Kelly for in Journalism..totally not even including I'm in the band. Alanna, you just LOVE bragging that you're in one dont you? Yes Kelly..I know. Now's the part when you tell Alanna what I said and you defend Alanna like crazy and she always defends you. HaHaHa. GO FIGURE!
8/16/05
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Lordy! I can't BELIEVE how bad today was! Well first of all, I got a new bus. I no longer ride 1192 but now 1191. The bus driver is okay but she LOVES to yell! Maybe it's because most of the kids are so bad and they are all from my stop.
But this..next part is kind of good? There is this guy in Math class. I dont know. He's pretty cute and I think I may like him! And I always find him staring at me. As though I have this giant flower on me or something. It's creepy but flattering. Yet, I doubt he's looking at me because he likes me. If anything it's because of all my acne. Then this SKANK who I now, officially hate, told me when we were going this card project thing "Do you know Tiffany Vigil?" "Yeah..She's my friend, why?" "Why did you make fun of her?" "What? She's my FRIEND!" "Aren't you the one whos face I totally chewed up." Ok..excuse me? I felt like telling her "If I was, you would be sitting on the other side of the room, not here". But instead I just say "No..I would know if you did" and she said "Oh, well you look like her". Then she did a question crap and asked if I liked anyone. Of course I'm not going to say because I don't even know the guys name, and she makes me out to be some lesbian just because I say "Not that I know of". UGH! I DESPISE this person and I have NEVER dispised anyone since Annette!
Oh yeah, and talk about dispising..there are two people I am truely dispising on at the moment. Bryan..for existing in my ART CLASS!! When I was working on my portfolio, I'm pretty sure either he, or one of his friends, that he TOLD this to do, like screamed/coughed my name! I almost jumped but didnt and ignored them. Yeah right, like I would turn my head knowing he's right there! What an idiot. As for Kelly..AHEM..
..Yes...about Kelly...what about her? She's slowly not becoming my friend anymore. Is it Alanna..haha...what do you think? Let me tell you a little recap on History. 6th grade - Tiffany/Annette/Me..yeah I ignored both of them and I guess NOW I'm getting payed back for that. And at times Tiffany and Annette became friends and ignored ME. 7th Grade - Kelly S/Me/Elspeth. Ah, yes. 7th grade. The year I hated those two at a point. They ignored me and talked to each other. They were partners for everything, etc. And now..8th grade. As you all know, Alanna, Kelly, and I have Journalism together. If it wasn't for my friend Hailey who was a total stranger at first and we find out we have every class together except one...I would have literally had a breakdown. At lunch today, I sat RIGHT next to Victoria and Alanna for a while. When Kelly was gone and it was just Alanna and I, she asked "Are you okay?" and I replied saying "It's not like you or anyone else cares". This is when my anger kicked in. She said "I do care but if you dont want to tell me, its fine." So I told her it wasn't about her so she shouldn't worried and also spilled about the Camille thing but said thats not what was bugging me. Then Kelly comes back and it's back to silence mode. The thing that made me mad was that Kelly acted as though I wasn't there. It was always "Hi Alanna" "Want gum Alanna?" "Watch my stuff, Alanna" "I'm back, Alanna". If she wasn't talking to Alanna, she was talking to everyone but ME and even SORAYA who I LAST heard they weren't friends. Boy, don't time change. So I went outside and talked and walked with Elspeth. Hell, I'd rather then be suffered anymore. At a point when we were outside, we turn around and GUESS WHO'S BEHIND US!? I'll give you 3 chances...yep...you're right. Alanna and Kelly and then Kelly starts saying how we wouldn't walk to them or nothing and I whispered in Elspeths ear "Im avoiding them" and when they thought they were walking with us, I'd stop and turn around. Yes, this just shows how pissed and fed up I was. Even RIGHT BEFORE 4th when Elspeth walked with me, she was talking to Alanna, obviously wanting me to hear "MELISSA HASN'T TALKED TO ME TODAY" and saying all of this crap and I ignored her and continued my conversation with Elspeth. When Kelly said Hi, I ignored it. When Alanna said Hi, I said "Hi, I guess". Yes, does this whole mood sound familiar? Haha, yep. It's how Kelly treats me all the time. My mom says I should just not ignore her, but I am FED UP! I can not take this. I think dealing with this for 2 years is enough as is. She even says I should tell her how I feel...LOL! Thats new. Riight. I've tryed that SO many times that it's old. Not like she listens anyways. And of course it's when I'm depressed of something that she suddenly goes "Whats wrong? Tell us" Blah Blah Blah. Oh, so NOW you notice me?
I swear though, I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow in Journalism. Probably the same old ignoring stuff. This time, I'll be doing the ignoring and probably vice versa.
8/15/05
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Ok, today was pretty good but from Journalism..skip a class..then Lunch ..bad. Ugh.
First of all, Mr. Sheffer turned out to be nicer then I thought. I guess Angelica was right. He is pretty cool. But I'm not saying I suddenly like him, because I don't. He has to gain my trust, lol.
Second class - Journalism. Oh..what can I say about journalism? It's a cool class! Except for the fact that Kelly and Alanna...well...I'm not going to start anything here.
Third class, Mrs. Button. OMG! She is THE coolest teacher! I love her! She made jokes and she was just SO fun! I think already she is my favorite teacher. I can even say she's the best teacher I've ever had because she is!!
Then Lunch came. Okay. If you all have good memory..and I KNOW most of my friends do..I had told Kelly that if I ever felt left out and/or ignored that we would be friends still but I would NOT hang out with them. Well, at lunch, I had enough. Alanna and Kelly sat together..of course. I just had enough. I talked to Brenda and we talked about them when they were right in front of our eyes but NOBODY noticed! It's amazing of the attention span of people. Brenda and I talked about how we are always ignored by people and no matter what we are always left out in everything! Which is totally true and I won't deny it one bit. So we went outside and walked..said hi to a couple of people. And lookie there. In the distance was Kelly looking for me..haha...and then she saw me and waved to go over there. And I refuse. Oh yeah. Be ignored and then go over there and be ignored even more..no. In other words, I treated her the way that I always feel. I waved like she did to me at her birthday party on Saturday. I'm just not taking this anymore. Whoever reads this can think it's silly..but whatever. I don't care what people think or what people say. It's my life, dont you forget!
8/14/05
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Wow! These past two days have been SO fun! At Kellys party, we danced and had a blast but Aaron and Josh kept running away from us as though we were poison! Not to mention busted their swing along with some photos! I even hated them at a point because they had no sympothy or anything.
The next thing I knew, it was night and everyone got along! Aaron and Josh had quit running away and we all were so happy! We played Truth Or Dare. I had to eat a Frito that Carey licked and Kelly had to lick lotion and frosting off of my foot. Yuck. Oh yeah! And Carey had to kiss Aaron on the cheek. HAHA!
I tryed to go to sleep SO many times Friday Night. Aaron kept saying I looking like his friend Rihanna or someone and was being so evil to me. Well on Saturday anyways. Friday night, he was pretty cool. Although he kept asking me why I wouldn't go to sleep. I finally did at about 2 and then HAD to wake up at 4. Victoria told me that they were talking, I was already asleep, well I think it was Victoria. Maybe it was Alanna. But Aaron told a story of how he saw a penguin and it looked like me. Oh yeah. That makes me feel better. But he just loved torturing me. *crys*
Saturday morning, we had to get up at 4:00 because we were going to fly the balloon! But we didn't leave until 6:30. The main purpose of the balloon ride was for James. AKA - Coach. He has really bad diabetis and a failing kidney. He's only 49! It's really sad! He's dying and they are saying he won't be along much longer. I think it's really great they flew him. Along with us! The only bad thing that I know about Saturday is Victoria and I felt SO awful! We were wasted! We seriously didn't even want to be there afterwards. I mean, come on! Who would want to? They were literally playing in dirt and mud. How old are these people again? I thought they were supposed the hit the mature age already. But what REALLY pissed me off was that me and Victoria felt a 'certain way' and then Alanna comes by and explains basically what we're feeling. Next thing you know, after the ceremony, she goes up to Kelly and them like everything was fine and like she never told us any of that. It makes me wonder if she was spying on us or something. But Victoria and I were really mad. But like I said, everything was pretty good that day. Although Victoria and I had our thoughts and feelings and both were SO tired, I was happy. It was the first time that we were REALLY good friends! And I just loved that. I hope much more of that happens in the future. BTW, before I go, I recut my bangs! They look AWESOME. Well, goodnight!
8/11/05
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I am SO sorry I haven't been posted! I've actually been quite busy along with lazy. What can I say? I'm a normal chick! ;)
On MySpace though, there has been this really creepy guy who messages me. It's not really creepy but gross and weird. I'll only tell those in person or on the phone or maybe post it tomorrow or something, just because, well, Im lazy.
The Kelly situation is solved! Thank goodness. Which means tomorrow is the party. I am SO ready and SO set! I can't wait! Although I still have to wrap her present. Whoops!
Last night, me, Kelly V, and Katie, along with their moms, went to the movies. They bought the movie and everything! Even popcorn. It was awesome. Of course it was the Dollar Theatres but it didn't lower my appreciation any! We went and saw The Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants. And WOW. That movie is GOOD! Along with deep! I love Tibby. I can relate to her. "Screw the world! It all sucks"
8/9/05
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Have you ever felt like you lost your best friend? Thats how it was for me today. I dont keep track of my worst days unless they are really bad and this was indeed one of my worst.
My day started really good. Then Kelly IMed me saying that she and Alanna have so many classes together. She also said that we all have journalism together. Thats good...then I thought..it's going to be another 3 friends thing. I've had these before. But the one that I felt most left out in was with Elspeth, Kelly, and I. The thing is, I don't want that to happen this time. I really don't. It would be just like the movies that one time when I was left out along with Carey.
So I told Kelly. We fought, of course. Then the subjects kept changing. It was first about Journalism...then about the movies...then, I don't know how, but it got on the subject of our lives. I complimented her life and told her all these reasons why it's better then mine and she said "Shut the f**k up about my life. You dont know my life so quit acting like you understand". Wait..what? Aren't compliments supposed to be good and someone say "thanks" or something? Yeah, thats what I thought.
Then she basically blocked me. But she expected me to feel sorry for her life because she kept bringing her life up. Well, I guess I kind of did the same but I tryed to stay on our main subject. I don't know. Now we're not friends anymore. Oh well. Maybe my friends are right. Maybe I should move on and find my own clique.
8/4/05
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Today was so stressful! I guess to first part wasn't bad. My soaps. :p But then things got awful. I wanted to go to Party City to get my mask thing for Kellys party. Mainly because I figured if I dont get it now, I never will. Not only that but I was stressing. Maybe because her party is a week away. I dunno. I even gave them a choice and everything. I told them how I would buy it and all this stuff. Then they said we'd go look and we never did. Ah well. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I'm tired. Later!
8/3/05
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Today was the...best...day...ever! The first part SUCKED though! I got up early (kind of) and got dressed at 10:00 am (earlier then usual) just so I can go to the Family Dollar or Dollar Tree and see if they had any mascarade masks for Kellys party. (yep, shes throwing a themed birthday party. Charles and Kelly suggest I should be the Wheel Of Fortune host but I'm still not sure). But anyways, I was otherwise hoping for a little mask so I can decorade it with feathers or something. I didn't find either one! Not only that, but my mom had to come! Ugh! Why lord? BECAUSE before that we went to some place for people who need help to drop off applications (no..we're not crazy...not much =p) and she had just gone for the ride! But dang that place is creepy. Before we found out we could drop it off in the "Drop Box", the guard was there ready to scan us for weapons and etc. It was creepy dude! But thats really all for that.
Another reason the beginning of the day just plain sucked, was because I have been having to wear glasses for a long while now. You see, my contacts lifespan expired. They waited til I started complaining too much to order the contacts! So I was so horrified of having to go with my glasses. Silly I know.
But you see, the night before, I prayed "And God, I know this is being selfish, but PLEASE let my contacts come in tomorrow!"..well guess what? The lord answered my prayers! When I was watching GH, the phone rang and my mom answered. 10 minutes later, Andrew comes in and says "Guess what came innn?" OMG! NO one knows how HAPPY I was! Not only was I going to be able to go to registration with NO glasses what so ever, BUT, people have been wanting to see me on webcam and the reason I said no, was because I hate my glasses..yeah, I shall say no more. But the lord answered my prayers and believe it or not, I am SO thankful!
But there were two things that happend today at registration. Good and Bad. First, the Good news. All of these guys were checking me out! Hot guys too! But I see why. You see, I was stuck having to wear this low V-Neck shirt today because all the other shirts were being washed. Kind of sucky. I wanted to wear this shirt..until I tryed it on and discovered just how low it was! But now..the BAD news. There is this guy. I don't talk of him much and only a few of my friends really know him. His name makes my blood boil. T.J. *blood boils*. Gosh! Well he was in the room the time we went to pick up my schedule. When we were leaving to go pick up my packet, the guy, my worst enemy, the person who I really dislike, was checking me out! Ugh! Now talk about sick! He isn't bad looking or anything but I REALLY don't like him! It's like how last year when Greg (not a favorite person of mine) kept pulling out my dang hair when I was wearing a skirt! Go figure, he liked me in 5th grade. Now guys liking me isn't a bad thing. But why these two? THESE specific people!? Yeesh!
8/1/05
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Today wasn't very fabulous. All day I felt so jynxed! Stupid horoscopes never come true either. First of all, it said not to make plans because they dont happen. I guess in this case, don't plan to go to the grocery store (we planned that yesterday to go today) and we never went. So that part..true. Second part was a load of crap! It said this afternoon was soulmate energy and all of that. The only guy I talked to today was Jeremy and I didn't sence any "soulmate energy". Oh well. Whatever. Anyways, I kept hitting myself! Not deliberatly either. When I would carry my moms knee machine off of the bed and walk back, I scratch myself on the bed! When I get out of my computer desk, I scratch my leg! Things happend like these ALL day today! Why? Because I am seriously unloved, lol.
Other then those 'jynxy moments', last night was the BEST! I had the most awesome dreams! First of all, I was in this one house and sitting on the couch. Before I know it, all of these black celebs (hate to sound racist if I do) start sitting around me. I think one even put his arm around me. We were all just joking and laughing and having a great time! There was this guy there (black too) who was about either 13, 14, or 15. He was REALLY cute. Anyways, we got really close. And then I put my arms around him and we were just about to kiss. Then the dream changed. *So this was Part 1*
Then Part 2. I think I was dreaming of Michael and Jason (GH). Anyways, Jason and Michael were on the run. Next thing you know, they are outside, and Michael looks up at the sky and sees space. There's Saturn, stars, the galaxy, and it's ALL real. The weird thing is, I have seen this in dreams before. I don't know how it keeps popping back. Really weird, huh?
Next, Part 3. I was friends with My Chemical Romance! Dont laugh! (lol). But I really was. And I was REALLY good friends with Gerard. Anyways, I asked him for a picture with me and even an autograph and he said "What for? We're friends!". Then I said "I dont know. Just to have them". Then Gerard was just running around, acting crazy, but being a really fun person.
Part 4 - I was at school. And I guess we had just gone back to school and I missed a couple days or something. Anyways, I asked a friend "Hey, what bus do we ride again? It changes all the time". She said "Bus 7, DUH". Then, I got on the bus and the bus was TINY. It was like one of those small buses for the need. Suddenly the bus driver told me "Sorry but you cant ride this bus" (by the way, it was raining outside). "Why not?" I asked. "You know the rules! No wearing shoes!" she said. Then I pleaded "Oh please let me ride!". Next thing you know I start crying. Then I say "I dont want to walk in the rain home". Then she says "I'll see what I can do" and she accepts me riding, lol. When I get off, Greg is there. On the bus, he was writing a 3 page letter to me. Greg and I don't really get along so I don't know why I was dreaming of HIM. Maybe because he was in my 5th grade class. *shrugs*. When we get off, he gives it to me. I look ahead and see Gerard and HIS girlfriend walking together. Anyways, the note says "Gerard and my girl are getting close and I know just how to split them up. This is what we do.."
It was really weird but REALLY cool. Then I looked up what my dreams meant earlier ago. Dreaming of romance means something like you want something to happen between you and the person you dream of almost kissing but your not sure about their feelings. It's weird because I don't even KNOW the person I was dreaming of kissing nor have I ever seen him! Dreaming of a celeb means that their personality is how you want one of your friends to be. Makes sense and I have a few ideas of who. Dreaming of someone giving you a letter means your mind is trying to tell you something and it's in the letter. Darn it! Why did I have to wake up and not read it all? I still have to see about the space thing. I wonder why I've dreamed that twice already?
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