Tomorrow I'm going to Denver! I seriously don't want to. Maybe it's the fact that we originally planned to go on account of some concert. OR maybe it's because everyone wants to go to Eleches Amuzement Park and not ride rides but me ride the rides. Yeah. someone who doesn't even WANT to go! Or maybe it's because Andrew is taking Pat, otherwise - BROTHER, with us. I hate that. I don't want him to go. It's bad enough he comes like every weekend now. Yeah, I'm stubborn and selfish and all that, and I'm sorry for that! But the plus signs are that I get money to spend on whatever I want (+), we're going swimming (+), and we get to have "fun" (+). Or maybe that should be a negative considering the whole concert thing is coming up. Another problem is, that my cousin wants my mom, her aunt, to go visit her in some town. It's by Denver but takes 1 hour and 1/2 just to get there! The plan was to go to Colorado Spings and Denver. That's all. No other places. I find that her wanting to visit, JUST for the day, is ruining the plans. She wants to go so desperately to her concert so why add more things to do? It will just make this whole trip worse. But maybe it would kind of be a good thing. I'd get my mom out of my hair. Of course my cousin, Maria, will probably want me to come too so if that happens, HELL NO!
Hmm..I think it's been 20 days that Adam left his home and just around this time that Adam left to Montana. I wonder how he's doing? He hasn't contacted me at all which is crazy!
As for Kelly, I'm a bit disappointed in her. I don't know why. I guess since Denver is here...well....nevermind..
-Melissa
6/29/05
I'm probably going to start ANOTHER fight but today I was so frustrated! With Kelly! Here's how today went:
I IMed her asking about what would happend today with the meeting, wanting the 411. Then she was all "What? Meeting? I thought you weren't coming...". Yeah, I know that I said during the fight I wanted no more transpertation from her anymore because I hate depending on people, her actually listening to me, is another story. I was shocked she had said that so I went along with it. It upset me though. I mean, she talks about the band and all and how she wants to help yet she assumed from when we were fighting that I wasn't coming. Then she tells me she wants me to come. And blah blah blah. So I didn't know what the situation was. I didn't know if practice was today or not or if I was going. She had gotten off and I just went into my room, just wearing my night shirt, watching my soaps and eatting lunch. I figured, Hey? I told her not to pick me up so what's there to worry about? Boy was I wrong. By 1:00, I was freaking out and I didn't know if she had listened to me or not. She had said that she is willing to pick me up and she would do anything for the band and she was depending on ME. So I went online, saw her, and talked. Then about the band, I said "Ok" meaning "Ok, I'll go". Then she said she would pick me up at 3:30 but it may be around 3:45. She also claimed that she would try to contact Alanna and once she had, she would call me and then pick me up. She ALSO said that if Alanna can't come, her and I will meet up so she can tell me the chords and all. So I figured "Awesome! But I better hurry". Being me, taking my time, it was around 3:00 when I actually got dressed! Stupid, I know. It took me 30 minutes for altogether get ready. I dealed with my contacts, clothes, hair, and my make-up. I did all of that. By the time it was 3:30, I hurried with the birds and waited, waited, waited! What was taking her? It was 3:45. She said she could come around this time so I'll continued waiting. Then I couldn't take it anymore. I started walking around just pacing. I went to the window, looked outside, no one! Then I just decided to get on the computer and see if she was on AOL. Nope. I continued signing in and out. FINALLY! She was there! I said Hey and everything, waiting to hear where she was and when she would get here. INSTEAD, she tells me "I couldn't get ahold of Alanna so we'll just meet Saturday". I was freakin pissed. Had she forgotten that she said she would still pick me up to practice either way!? So I blew up on her saying that Saturday I'm going to Denver. I was using the rage of her not picking me up on Denver. But I was SO mad! I felt like the time when Danielle said she would pick me up so we could go swimming in her neighborhood. Then she ditched me. At least I stick to my word! I did about Cliffs and everything worked out. Sadly, this doesn't occur with all of my friends. The only ones I know that keep their word, loyal, etc; are Kelly V and Katie. They are such true friends. I love them to death!
But this day did NOT go like I had hoped. At first I didn't want to go but it changed once 1:00 came. But like Codys famous song goes, "You screwed me all up! Up me all screwed! Screwed me all up! Up me all SCREWED!"
-Melissa
6/28/05
Fire! Fire! The hamburgers are on fire! Too bad I'm serious! At lunch, I was cooking hamburgers. I decided to use the pan that I love using but it had so much oil but I figured, what the heck? Won't do any harm! Boy, was I wrong! After 3 minutes cooking, it was time to flip them over. When I did, they caught on fire! The flames went high! It was scary but SO cool! The fire was on for a good 10 seconds. So I got the turner that I use to flip them and started hitting the fire. Luckily, god helped out a lot. It was out pretty fast. Thank you lord! Who knows what could have happend. And all that from MY home cooking! How insulting! lol
I was talking to Kelly today right? Well first, everything is cool with her and I now so everything is fine. No more fighting and no more of me acting evil. Well she said how she was in this one Message Board thing on AOL and people were making fun of our group for being "gothic/punk/rock" people. I was talking to Jeremy about it all, because I was bored and there was nothing to talk about, and he gave me the whole Gothic history. He told me to tell Kelly she's not gothic and that goth people are basically outsiders and hate life. Etc; Etc. And he said to tell her she's just a rocker, thats it. He's got a good point. Like Kelly believes she's gothic and prep. Since goths are like Jeremy said, she's more Rocker/Prep. I'm like a little of everything but mostly my own person. I'm not labeled. Not goth, prep, rock, but I little bit of everything.
Tonight I watched Average Joe 4! It's awesome! Because this time, of the people that get kicked out, they pick one of the guys and give them a makeover! It's a really awesome show this season. And there were three of the guys from Season 2 on also! And I loved all the guys there! Oh and guess what? There was a guy, his name is Aaron. He's an Average Joe and ALSO from Albuquerque! Go Aaron! Like they said, the Average Joes started this and they have to finish it. ;)
-Melissa
6/27/05
Have you guys ever seen Raven Symone get Punk'd? I did tonight! In the new season of Punk'd, Raven gets PUNKD! It was so good! She was debating herself so well that you feel sorry for her. She didn't cry like Ashlee Simpson did on one episode last season. Nope. Rae held strong and took the comments but defended herself like crazy. The punk trick was this. Raven, her mother, and family, went out to eat at a restaurant. When they were inside, Ashtons crew were secretly creating a Handicap Parking Lot space. After that, they drove Ravens car into the space. They also got angry old people, who went out to eat, to be there when Raven came back. An "officer" was there as well and they blamed her of not caring about the elderly and how she didn't have a Handicap sticker parking there. It was a really good episode! Along with Raven who got punk'd, it was also The Game and SIMON COWELL! For those who missed the episode, I feel ya! It was really good. And if you tune in next Sunday, George Lopez gets punk'd who is who I am really exciting on watching!
As for the Kelly situation, I dont know. I guess it has got better but my feelings remain the same on it all. I try to forget about it and maybe I should. You all know that if I had to chose between Green Day and a Britney Spears concert, I would pick Britney Spears. I've never been to a concert before so I really wanted to go to this Green Day concert. But not going is just another disappointment on my list. I've been promised many times that I will go to concerts but I never do! I was promised that I can go to the Cher Farewell concert. Another time I was promised to go to the Britney Spears Onyx Hotel Tour. I never went to either of those so what makes this one any different? I'll tell you. Kelly gets to go, Alanna gets to go. So where does that leave me? Here at my house, on the computer when they're out having a blast time. It's funny though. I was the first one to tell them all about the Green Day concert, the first to buy the album, and the first in my group to talk about them. And then it seemed like suddenly they were the huge fans and I wasn't. You know that song right? "Welcome to my life"
If you guys noticed, I added some sparkles! Aren't they cool? I love them a lot.
Someday I will understand in gods whole plan and what he does to me.. - Just LOVE Someday! ^^
-Melissa
6/26/05
Okay. Here it is/ Full honesty. Right here in this blog. Of course I have to be honest. This is my blog! If you're wondering why I'm saying this whole honest thing, I will of course explain.
I had got on the computer from a regular normal Sunday, except this time we didn't go to church. But we went to the store, out to eat, then to PetsMart. I was so tired so I was looking forward to getting on the computer to check e-mail, chat, internet. And of course listen to my music while doing so. The first person I talked to on AOL was Kelly. She asked where I have been and why I wasn't at practice. I explained to her why I couldn't go due to the fact that I came HOME on Saturday. Anyways, then it came. She told me she got tickets to the Green Day concert. Normally, any non-fan of them would be happy for them and could careless. Me being a fan, it hurt! lol. I know that sounds weird but it did! We had planned to sit together and there are still plenty of tickets left. But according to her the situation was this, and I quote: "Well, I had to get them now because we have money and they might sell out and my parents don't want me to go with you and Andrew because they don't know you guys all that well. Sorry. And my mom didn't think it would work out so I had to get them." *cough* Sorry, 'congestion'. I simply HATED what she said! HATED IT! It frustrated me so damn much! It was like she was bragging it how she got tickets to Green Day and how she was going. When she had to go, I went and ate and had a chat with my mom. Neither of us like braggers. Even if she wasn't bragging, anything to do with braggers, we hate it. It's a big pet peeve in our zone. It's like saying to their face "Ooh, I got tickets are you don't". You know what I mean? It's mean! I really didn't need to hear it either. If she got them. she could have kept it to herself because she knew I wanted to go and that we planned on going together. According to my mom, she could have got a ticket for me and we pay her back. I guess that's expecting a bit much so I didn't really expect her to do that. I didn't expect it at all! But it's like a while back when we were discussing rides for the Tuesday meetings, which is what I'm still a bit mad about. She said she could pick me up but that Victoria should take me home since "she lives closer". It kind of upset me. Call me weird, whatever you want, but it did. My mom gets upset when I hitch rides with people she doesn't know. Kelly's mom had said before how she would be happy to gives me rides. So for Kelly to put up the stop sign, it infurriated me! Another expectation. I'm really weird, I guess. I feel I'm expecting too much and I try to back down from that. Maybe I just got my moms genes. I'm really picky and stubborn and petty! Everything I dislike in a person, is what I am. Crazy right?
But after that, I came up with a schemey plan. Notice that this is the part where Kelly is thinking while reading this, "What?". She was telling me about honesty so here it is. I'm gonna be honest here.
Anyways, this was the plan. Tell Kelly that I just so happened to win Front Row tickets to the Green Day concert from a radio station along with Back Stage Passes! I know, I'm really evil. But I've been evil lately. Maybe because I'm bugged about my eye situation. ANYWAYS, Kelly, I know you're reading this and are probably BEYOND pissed, but I'm thinking right now, oh well, because I'm pissed as well. To the rest of you, the plan was to brag to Kelly and see how she would like it. When she asked me to get autographs for her, which I knew she would, I told her I'd think about it. I guess I just wanted her to feel what I was feeling. I've been feeling this way for a while, so nothing new. And I wanted her to feel how I felt when she told me about the Green Day thing and how badly I wanted to go and she just bragged about it to me. So I gave her a taste of her own medicine. Don't worry. The cuts heal and the medicine works. Let it teach people a lesson, including myself is this, Payback's A Bitch
-Melissa
6/25/05
Wow! I'm so tired but I decided to come and do an entry just for the heck of it. Might as well tonight. I didn't like the visit too much, but that's just me. I'd rather be home than anywhere else. I'm not a big fan of traveling, let's just say that. Here's what happend though:
Day 1 - Wednesday, 6/22/05
Well, it started out kind of good. I didn't have to get up early because the people taking care of our pets, I guess you can say, "offered" to take us to the bus depot. So instead of waking up at 5:00 in the morning, we could get up at 6:00 in the morning. Big whoop but it helped. Once there, we went and got the tickets, waited, got on the bus, and were on our way. Everything was going great. I was listening to my CD player and played about five CDs. But then, our "perfect" world crumbled from everything going great, to everything going beyond bad. We were in Charizozo and one woman on the bus, who just so happend to look like Mrs. Maloney, but it wasn't, wanted to get down to smoke a cigarette, along with her group of homies. So they got down and the bus driver gave them five minutes. When they all got back on, the eight there were riding, everything got bad. Mom and I overheard the bus driver on the phone. He was saying that the bolts on the front right tire, were coming off. He said on the first stop, two of the bolts came off, but he thought everything would be okay so we continued. But then he said now he discovered more fell off. So he called someone to come by from Albuquerque. He also announced that we would have to STAY there for four hours because that's how long it would take for them to get there. We went into the station that was there, got some food and drinks, and sat. That's all we could do. Then, like a miracle, three hours later, we saw my Aunt Nellie! She was "rescuing" us! Finally! Freedom. We didn't have to wait afterall. So she took us to her house.
Then we ate at her house, turkey and mashed potatos and peas. Then it was off to visit. First we went to my moms friends house. Her name is Sandy. Sandy adopted a dog recently and that dog LOVED me. But he loves to nibble and lick a lot. His tongue was like a LIZARD! After we left, we went to my friend Davids house. I hadn't seen David in YEARS. We lost contact a year before I moved and I still don't know why. But we visited. He seemed pretty shy and I was shocked I was even there. He looked different from when I last saw him. He was taller, longer hair, and he even got those hot baggy pants. Baggy pants on guys ROCK! They make any guy look so darn sexy! After that, we exchanged phone numbers and e-mails and headed back to Aunt Nellies. It was a tiring day and extremely exciting.
Day 2 - Thursday, 6/23/05
Now this was the day I was REALLY REALLY looking forward to! Going to El Paso to visit my practically 2nd momma and my bestest friend Joyce who's practically my sister! It was so fun! We hung out and Angie was there for a while, who is her cousin (she's 16 so she's 3 years older than us). But around 6, it all kind of went downhill. We were at Jackie's house (Lieda *sp?* and Linda's mother). They had planned to go to some amuzment park there in El Paso and I couldn't go since Aunt Nellie wanted to leave around 6:00 so we were all pretty bumbed and we got to a point where Joyce didn't want to go to..oh yeah! The amuzment park is Western Playland. Anyways, Joyce didn't want to go without me which made me happy that she cared but sad that she felt that way. I told them to have fun and hopefully they did! It was pretty awesome too! Jackie gave them $20 and she also gave me a 20! She insisted I have it! Pretty crazy huh? So I still have that. It's good I didn't go to Western Playland though because soon after we had to go. Once we left El Paso, we went to Aunt Nellies and headed to bed.
Day 3 - Friday, 6/24/05
Yesterday...what can I say about yesterday? Pretty hard to say 'bout yesterday. We ate then headed out! I forgot where all we went to but we kept calling David to see if in the evening he could go to White Sands with me. Sadly, there was no answer. We called about 3 times and no answer at all! It was strange. I don't know if they were avoiding me or what! Keep in mind that we lost touch for a year. Either they don't like me or there was family troubles. I remember back when we were younger, I would go over everyday, and I would always see his parents fight. It was that or maybe they believed David and I were getting too close. We danced at his house one time and on Valentines Day, he went to my house and gave me a Valentines Day present. I don't know what the deal was. Anyways, we went and dropped my mom off at her friend Jeff's house and headed out to the IMAX theatre and saw a really cool movie! It was about natural disasters. The screen was really large. On the ceiling, the walls. It was awesome! I loved it a lot.
Then we picked up mom, took her to another friend, back to Aunt Nellies, ate, dropped her off at Jeff's, then headed to White Sands. She forgot where Emmily lived so we accidentally went to the trailer park and we passed David's house and to my disappointment, there were cars at his house so they were home, which got me upset. They were diliberately not answering their phone. I really don't know though.
After that, we went to White Sands. I was stupid and wore my contacts so sand got in my eyes. And the sand is like glass!....No, not really. lol. But my mom is freaked out that I damanged them. Anyways, we slid down the slopes and had a BLAST! We also took pictures that Aunt Nellie has in her digital camera so I may be getting those back soon and I'll put um up!
Day 4 - Saturday, 6/25/05, The Final Day/Homecoming
Today went by SO fast! We got up, went to the pistachio ranch, got some stuff, then we went to Jose Maria. They were SO happy to see us! They gave us hugs and Jose was saying how he saw us and told Maria how I got bigger. He was right! It was nice to see them too. After that, we went and got mom an Ice Cream Cone, went to Jeff's, picked him up, headed to Verizon, got mom her phone while Aunt Nellie and I went to get the tickets, picked um up, waited for the bus, said goodbyes, and off we went! I was so happy! I like Alamogordo but nothing is good like home and I didn't get sad, like mom, coming home. In fact, I was excited and happy! Could you honestly blame me? Oh yeah! I forgot to mention that Aunt Nellies house is SO hot! And Alamogordo is a small town with nothing to do. Now do you blame me? Thought so. Then, once we came home, we didn't go to my band practice like I wanted to, since they are STUBBORN, but went to Lotaburger, got something to eat, then I took a shower, and now I'm here typing this. lol. Well I'm tired. I'm going to bed. Laters! Goodnight!
-Melissa
6/21/05
Tomorrow is Alamogordo everyone! I may go see Emily again. Thursday I get to go to El Paso with my Aunt, and of course mom, to visit my practically second mother and my friend who is my very very very best friend because I have known her since the diaper ages. I'm looking forward to it actually. In a way, I can't wait! It's going to be fun. Of course it will be extremely unusual though. I haven't been there in like 3 years already. I'm happy though. But I won't be on for 3 days which means no horoscopes or entries untill Saturday. I hope you all said your goodbyes and you all better miss me. Well, off I go! Talk to you Saturday! Much luv my home fries! ^^
-Melissa
6/20/05
Sorry I haven't written lately. Not my fault. I was using Andrews computer for a while and it doesn't have the internet so I couldn't get on. But now I'm back! Yesterday I bought Carrie Underwood's single! It's SO great. Out of the two songs on it (Inside Your Heaven & Independence Day) I think I like Inside Your Heaven more. But it's hard to chose. Both songs are so great. I can't wait till her debut album this Fall 2005. It's going to be awesome and I'm deffinetly buying it!
This Saturday, I had a choice to make. Either go to Nathan's Party or the band meet up. I went to Nathan's party since I was forced. I didn't eat anything there and watched The Incredibles two times since it kept playing over. It was SO boring. Today I found out the band didn't even meet up so I guess it's good I didn't go to Kelly's. But this time I have another decision to make. Or had. Deciding to go to Alamorgordo and El Paso with my mom from Wednesday, to Friday. Earlier today, I really didn't want to. But now I am since te world wants to see me. Who would have thought I would be so popular?
I also have a great extra tune for Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day. I'm thinking about using this tune for my Untitled song. Maybe I will. ^^
-Melissa
6/16/05
Today, I argued with Jay. He pretty much blames me for anything that happend. He insults me, etc. He's turned into a real jerk. I can't believe I ever liked him. Ugh!
I find myself totally hooked on Someday ( I Will Understand ). That song is SO beautiful! I love it so much.
Also, I wrote myself a song today. I was inspired to by Someday and wow! The song came out beautifully. I still need to come up with the medley and all but the song is great. I don't have a title for it yet but below are the lyrics.
-Melissa
Untitled Song
Used to be so clear
Life used to look so good
But something's happend here
Life's not the way it should be
Back to peace
To love
Back to how it was before
Back to the beginning
Chorus
Oh things
Are changing everyday
I feel I'll fade away
Away from all this madness
Oh things
Are changing everyday
I think I'll go away
Away from all this
Sadness
Feel I'm trying too hard now
So what's the point in that?
It's a useless state of mind
So let's go back
Back to peace
To love
Back to how it was before
Back to the beginning
(Repeat Chorus)
Guess I'll give up
I'll move on with regret
I can't stop this
Because of lifes own way
(Repeat Chorus 2 Xs)
Life's not the way it should be
6/15/05
Today was boring. Because of the Thunderstorm around 1:00 p.m., I felt like just sleeping. As for Adam, yesterday I let all of that out and then I realized something. You shouldn't be sad because a friendship is over. Instead, you should be happy because it happend. Realizing this, I mourned the friendship ending no longer. I know it sounds harsh and all but what would it change? It wouldn't bring him back at all. So now I'm handling things the right way.
And guess what? Kelly is back! I'm so happy! Now we can finally work on that contest! Well..that's what I thought anyways. According to her, she just got back so we have to wait a while. I don't kow why, but I have a feeling we won't do that contest. -shrugs-
When I was talking to Kelly today, I was telling her how hectic Saturday is going to be. And it will! I have Nathan's birthday party to attend (my nephew), the Black Ice meeting, going swimming, get my substitute computer from Best Buy, and meet up with Jeremy at Barnes & Noble so he can let me borrow Battle Royale. I have to do all of that on just 1 day. Black Ice meets up from 3-7:30 and I'm supposed to meet up with Jeremy around 5. Well, he said he doesn't care what time so maybe I can change it with him. As for Nathan's party, I have no clue what time that is. I'm so worried! I won't be able to do everything! I'm scared to not go to the meeting because I want to meet up, first of all. But second, I've missed so many meetings already. Like Kelly said, it's like instead we're meeting up just once a month. Soraya is no help either. Ever since she blocked me on AOL, she never UN-blocked me and the only e-mails I get from her are forwards! I don't know what any of us are going to do with Soraya, much less, Black Ice. We haven't written ONE song yet. And you should see Jeremy's band. They practice everyday and they are already performing! They probably have tons of songs also when we have none. Talk about a sucky band! And us? Being famous? Who was I kidding!?
-Melissa
PS - Jay and I broke up. It's because, according to him, I believe too much rumors. Anyways, I was supposed to break-up with him but it went the other way around. Oh well! I didn't really even like him all that much. I liked him for 1 day. I like someone else now anyways. Laters!
6/14/05
My day was..wow. Let's just stop with that. It was very emotional.
I was on RavenLive and I saw a post by this person called 'Sexy Mama'. Anyways, the topic was My Baby Jay! Of course I was going to look. Inside of it, I was stunned. She basically was saying how Jay is her baby and she loves him so very much. Her LOCATION was 'In Jayz Bed' and her "website" was www.iluvjay.com. Of course the website isn't real, so don't even bother trying to go to it. Then we got into a discussion. She told me that when Jay broke up with this one chick, they were going out too. (That was when he asked me out). Now I wasn't hurt because I have been down this before with this guy. I had suspected he was a cheater but I never knew it for fact. Everyone told me he was. So I wasn't sad. The only thing on my mind was R-E-V-E-N-G-E. And I planned to get it too. I told her about what I planned on doing and she totally agreed...then backed out in the end. But she wouldn't stop me. No. With or without her, revenge would be done and justice would be served. Anyways, I was talking to my friend 'Cheetos' and he was all in to helping in however he can but he wanted to stay out of the drama. He also wants me to go out with him (which I totally will once I dump Jay, lol. I'm so mean) My act for revenge was basically announcing in Lyric posts that I love this other guy. Sadly, Jay wasn't on at all today to see any of these posts so it was totally hopeless. What a bust!
Otherwise, Adam stopped by at noon, when I was still in a shirt! It sucked! I had to rush and get dressed super fast. I managed and then we hung out for the final time. While I curled my hair, he read my blog, we looked at pictures, and I managed to see a little bit of my 30 minute soap opera. Afterwards, we began to film, using the rest of the tape. We sang, danced, and just talked as like no camera was there. We talked about Wesley and of course how much we'll end up missing eachother. In the end, the tape turned out really good. After that, we went to Walgreens for the final time and then hung out at the park. When we came to the point we had to say goodbye, it was so sad. The whole time riding we didn't even speak. We hugged for a good minute, and then Angelica came and I had to go. We exchanged I Love You's in that family way. It was really emotional. My life has changed now and I don't know what I'm going to do for the future. I'll never forget him. Hopefully, he never forgets me. I've never had a friend like him in my whole childhood life. According to my friends, I'll forget him and move on. I doubt that will happen. If it does, for the moment, I know I won't forget him. He was my very best friend and is my very best friend. None of my other friends will take his place. But I know when I tell Kelly the news, she's going to jump for joy and probably have a celebration...just kidding. lol
-Melissa
6/13/05
My day started off so crappy. I got a PM from Kasey, the girl into Jay. She told me that he said he was kind of starting to like her. I was so mad. I felt like I had been down this road before. This time, I was the ex and Kasey was me. I felt so used. I trusted him. Then I confessed everything to Kasey. How I am Jays g/f, why I didn't tell her, etc;. Then, I messaged Jay. Later, I found out he was just joking and he wasn't serious. That adding that he loves me. I guess it kind of brought us closer. I'm thinking about giving him my number on Wednesday so he can call me. I'm going to be really bumbed out on that day.
Later on, I talked with Adam and we finally went out on our pre - last day today together. I recorded him on my camcorder because I felt the need to. I'm not going to see him until years later. If that even happens that is. I'm really not looking forward to Wednesday..
-Melissa
6/12/05
Well, since I didn't post anything yesterday because I was watching movies, here's what happend. I recorded all the information that I wanted to keep from my computer since I am getting a new one. Adam came by, we talked, and he gave me a choker Indian thingie...yeah. Anyways, lol. Then, Andrew put up the new computer and there were problems, blah blah. Instead of going out to see a movie, we rented some instead. Which is why I didn't feel like writing in this last night. We watched Are We There Yet? and The Incredibles. I didn't see any of those movies before so they were good. Except AWTY frustrated me SO much! I just wanted to KILL those kids! Even if they did get better after seeing their dad! (That was so sad!)
Tonight, I went to the dance that got rescheduled for tonight. Wow! It was SO fun! I danced like crazy and had a blast. Jay couldn't go. I didn't think he could either. But I danced with all my friends and we had a real fun time. But I feel so drunk. I'm going to have a serious hangover in the morning. =|
HaHa, yeah right. Like I would really drink. Wouldn't even think of it. Plus, I would get SO busted! o_o
Today, I was trying SO hard to convince my mom to use the camcorder tomorrow since Adam is moving on Wednesday. I don't know. I bribed her and she said yes. That was before I didn't help her do something that she didn't even ask me to do and she got all mad at me! Oh well. I'm using it anyways. Screw it! lol
AND, we are officially going to Denver on the 4th of July weekend. I REALLY don't want to. Nor am I looking forward to it. The most is the amuzment parks and the hotel. Otherwise, hell naw. It's going to be boring as hell. The reason we are going there, even to start with, is because of my moms ridiculous obsession with Gary Lewis. If you haven't heard of him, you are SO lucky. You don't WANT to hear of him. AND once you hear of him from my mom, his name will never stop being mentioned and you would wish you would have never even heard of the guy, or name, Gary Lewis, ever, ever, ever, ever, EVER, in your whole life span! Yes, it's THAT bad. I wish I could just turn back time and make sure she was never all into that guy in the 1st place. But of course, that is too good to be true. Even for me. I never get good luck so his name never being mentioned will never happen. EVER! It's a 1% chance. He He. Anyways, Gary Lewis sucks. Just know that.
Anyways, when I got back from the dance, I remembered how Adam told me of this one site called Love Calculator so..I gave it a shot! The site is pretty funny. You enter one persons name and then there's a heart and then you enter another person's name. It's only accurate if you put the full name of the person. I tryed it. I got strange results. With a guy that was in my 5th grade class, I got an 87% chance for us having a relationship. (I was putting names for fun). With my best friend, Adam, I got a 86% chance. With 3 people I met this year, one I got a 41%, another 37%, and the last guy 53%. It's a crazy thing. You should go and search Google for Love Calculator. It's pretty weird. =\
-Melissa
6/10/05
Well, yesterday, Kirsten moved. Only thing is, I'm not sure if she really moved. I remember her telling me how she was supposed to move around the 20th but she told me last Thursday, that in a week she would move. So I dont know.
Tonight there was supposed to be this fun dance I was going to go to. Sadly, it was rescheduled. Doesn't that suck!? I guess it's kind of good though since I need to get someone to go with me.
In the mess of things, my own friend wants to ask Jay to go with her to the dance. How messed up is that!? But since she is too shy, she is going to get her friend to ask him for her. This is kind of good though. I'm looking forward to see what happends. I want to know if Jay will cheat on me with this person. I'm saying this because before he broke up with his girlfriend, he told me he liked me, WHILE he had a girlfriend. It made me mad. And for some reason, a part of me doesn't trust him. I need to talk to Jay though. He's just been at football practice all the time and I never talk to him anymore. Isn't that sad? Hopefully I talk to him soon.
I haven't heard from Adam in a while either! Or Victoria, Alanna, or Kelly. Victoria, I dont know what's up with her. As for Alanna and Kelly, they are STILL out on their trips. They are both getting back next week though which is FANTASTIC considering we need, no, MUST work on that contest entry. I want to get in SO badly. We need the money, trust me, and it would be a great experience. I'm looking forward to what we all can accomplish together. Adam, I dont know where he has been. He didn't talk to me again, the last time we talked. He said we would talk later, (notice when we are doing this conversation, I'm totally bumbed out for a personal reason), and then he doesn't talk to me later. How jacked up. I'm stubborn, I know. Selfish, yeah. Lie, no. It could probably be that he's mad about the whole Jay thing although he claims he supports me. When he asks me questions, he says he's just curious, but my gut tells me otherwise. I can't explain it. Mainly considering he reads my blog entries, lol. Maybe he already moved to the base, but why wouldn't he tell me goodbye? Hmm. I don't know. I guess I'll chat later. I'm going to bed.
-Melissa
6/8/05
I haven't written in a while but honestly, what is there to really right about these days? Kelly is gone on some trip, as is Alanna so there is no purpose on writing about that one contest.
As for Jay, he gave me his number and then said he loved me, THEN saying he was just kidding. So, he wants me to call him. I dont know, it kind of creeps me out. Everything is going so fast and I dont like it. Am I not into him as much? I dont know. I may call him but I probably wont. He's so immature for a 15 year old.
Kirsten is moving tomorrow! Oh, so sad. I'm going to miss her. But don't think I'm not mad about the movie thing because I am. I was right though. The last time I saw her was the last day of school. And she was all "Dont worry, we'll see each other again". Ha Ha..right.
-Melissa
6/6/05
My day started out good then went to Blah! I was fine at first. I had heard a commercial, it was a music contest, so I told Kelly about it and now we're going to enter it. Hopefully we make it to the finals!
Then, I went to Adams house and we exchanged out yearbooks again and got our own back and we talked a while, although I was missing a show I watch.
While later, I got online and talked to my 15 year old friend Jay. He is SO hot! But anyways, lol. We call each other Brother and Sister since we basically consider one another Brother and Sister. Then he started doing those *kiss* smilies at me. Finally, he confessed that he liked me. I was in shock. Then I told him I liked him too since I was started to. It's pretty awesome because practically EVERYONE likes Jay and he just happend to like me. I love that he confessed it because it was kind of starting to show. Thats also perfect too! My acne is practically gone, thanks to those medicines and cleansers I got, and I'm looking better than I did WITH acne. But then of course, nothing is perfect with a problem coming in. Adam kind of got, what I call, "jealous", when I told him about Jay. He started thinking it was him which I suspected in the beginning. He even was starting to think I made him up untill I sent him a message he sent me. It was awful! Then later, Jay asked me out and I said yes so now we're going out.
Other stuff happend but I wont post about it. ^^
-Melissa
6/5/05
Today was SO frustrating! I have NEVER been SO mad! Yesterday, I called Kirsten. She had forgotten that on Thursday we planned to go to see a movie today (Sunday). Anyways, I had to mention to her about today and then we ended up deciding to see a movie, Madagascar. She said she would call me tomorrow (today, Sunday) after Church is over so we can go. Well, by noon today, I decided to eat PB&J since we probably wouldn't get anything at the theatres. I waited, waited, and WAITED for her to call! I had waited so long, I looked at the clock and the time had went from 12:00, to 2:00! Where was the 1!? Time couldn't have gone THAT fast! Why didn't Kirsten call? So I called her and I got an answering machine. Church ends like at 12:00 and she told me that too! There was NO way she could have stayed there that long unless they went out to eat. It frustrated me so much. So in the end, I figured that she forgot about it just like she did when we discussed it Thursday. She must have short-term memory loss!
Then, we just decided to go to the theatres instead of wait all day for Kirsten to call. We had planned for 12, so why wait any longer? Instead of going to see Madagascar, my family wanted to see The Longest Yard, as did I. We went to the 3:15 showing. WOW! That movie is SO good! I loved it! Nelly stars and he did a great job, as did Adam Sandler! I LOVE Adam Sandler so I knew I would love this movie. The movie is basically about this guy Paul who is a retired football player of 6 years. He ends up in prison with a former football player. Together, they both pair up and help underdog prisoners learn to play football in a game against Cons (the convicts) and "Pros" (The Guards). The movie shows how much disrespect the guards really do treat convicts. The game is basically revenge on the guards from the convicts. It's just awful how they treat them too! And in this movie..well..I wont spoil it! ^^
-Melissa
6/4/05
WOW! Today was SO fun! We finally went to Cliffs! In the morning, around 12:00 p.m., Kelly's mom and Katie's dad dropped them off. I got to meet them and my mom did also. Then we waited for Andrew to get back from dropping Pat off at the mall/movies. Once he was done, right away we headed to Cliffs. It was cool because we passed where Kelly and Katie lived so they showed us. Once we got to Cliffs, we couldn't wait to start the fun! We rode the Scrambler, Galaxy, Noah's Ark, Log Ride, Bumper Cars, YoYo, and of course what Katie and Kelly couldn't get enough of, The Flush. The first time we went on The Flush, it was in the green tube and we didn't get wet as much. Since we couldn't ride in 3, Kelly waited for Katie and I, then I let Kelly and Katie go and I waited for them. Funny, because they said they would go in the black tube this time and guess which one I saw them come down instead? lol After they did that, we all decided to try to go on together in the Black Tube. I was telling Kelly how you couldn't see anything and she didn't want to go down it because she likes to see where she's going. We went down, miracle they let all of us go in the same raft, and by the time the ride ended, we got SOAKED with water! My pants were SO wet as were their shorts. It was SO much fun though. Then we rode other rides. Katie had never ever EVER rode a Rollar Coaster in her whole life. The whole time she kept asking us about how it spins, since she cant ride spinny rides, and how fast it went, etc; When she finally got the courage, Kelly and I rode it for the 2nd time, we all went on it with her! And guess what? By the time it ended, she said it was fun and she wanted to ride again! Of all the rides, we didn't go on this one ride that went up and around, Musik Express, or Cliff Hanger. I wanted to ride those, but not alone! So I just decided not to! ^^ I had a blast though! My mom and Andrew LOVED Katie and Kelly which made me so happy. They thanked me so much for invited them in the end, but I thanked them for coming! I wouldn't have even gone if they couldn't have.
By the time Cliffs ended, we went and picked Pat up at the mall, and now here I am typing this as they are at Furrs eatting dinner. I would be with them, but I ate a late lunch at 3:50/4:00 so I'm not even hungry. Oh well! I'd rather have McDonalds or KFC anyways.
One thing I haven't done today that I was supposed to was go to Kelly Squires' house. I would have for a little bit to practice but my feet hurt and I am SO tired! Plus, Andrew and my mom would have gotten mad at me. They would have said something like "You were already at Cliffs! Why must you need more?". They wouldn't have let me anyhow. (Kelly if you're reading, sorry!)
Hopefully that they will allow, is letting me hang out with Kirsten tomorrow before she moves on Thursday. That's all I want to do. I didn't even give her a proper goodbye at school. Yeah, a hug, but if that was the last time I would have seen her, I'm going to be so sad! Hopefully they'll let me! Speaking of which, I need to call her now to tell her. He He..laters!
-Melissa
6/3/05
I am SO happy! Last nigt, I got my proof that I was telling the truth and today I gave it to Kelly! It proves I was telling the truth!! So happy!
Katie and Kelly can deffinetly go tomorrow! Im so happy about that! On the other hand, now Andrew AND my mom dont want to go to Cliffs. I offered to cancel in the beginning of the week but she was all "No, I want to meet your friends" and now shes complaining?! What the heck? It's so messed up. I'm hoping by tomorrow everyone will be happy and end up looking forward to it. I can only hope because it's not very likely, sadly. ON the brightside, since I cant bring the camcorder, they are coming to my house at 11:00 in the morning so Im going to film them then. YET since they are coming in the morning instead of us picking them up, super cleaning time for me! How fun!
As for Adam, he still has my yearbook gosh dang it! He better give it back soon!
-Melissa
6/2/05
Darn it! I almost had it! The evidence to prove to Kelly I am telling the truth. I asked Soraya why she lied and then she was all "I was just checking my e-mail! Im sorry! I cant talk right now, I feel like Im gonna throw-up. Bye" and right away signed off. Thats so wrong. She could have told me before she signed off. But of course, Soraya is going to avoid answering it. Evil Evil Child!
But Cliffs is a go! Andrew decided that he will drop Pat off at the mall and we'll go to Cliffs. My mom talked to Kelly's mom about it and they were talking about the plans and they will get back to us because she has to talk to her husband about that and the price. Hopefully my mom will be able to talk to Katies parents too. Im not sure when. Hopefully soon. And although Andrew doesn't want to go to Cliffs, he's just going to have to deal with it. Katie and Kelly have been looking forward to it and I discovered I am too! He cant just break all our hearts and take that away. I wont let him.
Something else good happend too! For the first time since school ended I saw Adam again! I haven't been getting good contact with him like we usually always are. We hang out so much people either think we're going out or we're siblings, but it's neither. Today we went to Lotaburger and Walgreens. I had fun. I missed hanging out with him. It was so great! I dont know what I'm going to do once he moves. I've gotten close to him. He's my very best friend more than anyone and he practically is the brother everyone mistakes him to be, although we look nothing alike, lol.
-Melissa
6/1/05
I can't believe I ever thought Kelly was bad. Soraya is worse! Around Kelly, she's supporting Kelly. Around me, she's supporting me. When Kelly even asked Soraya if she felt like I did, she said no! What a backstabber! I almost wish I never mentioned it in the first place. She even showed me their conversations and called Kelly a bitch. Plus, she said that she feels, and I quote, "It's like she's the boss and we're her little workers". Yeah, I told Kelly that in the fight as though it came from me, which makes me look bad AND guilty, but oh well! I know I'm not. If no one believes me, than so be it. I'm tired of trying to prove myself to people.
In the rest of my life, I found out that Andrew (my moms boyfriend) is bringing his brother with him to Albuquerque. This totally sucks! He comes on the weekends since he works in Las Vegas so he either comes on Friday or Saturday. If you have seen my Shout Outs, you have seen what I put for Katie. I invited her to Cliffs with me and Kelly Vedera back in April. Ever since I did, she's been SO excited. Everytime I had seen her, she would ask me "We're still going to Cliffs right?". Everytime I would answer yes. And if she didnt ask me that, she would tell me how close June is coming and how many days until June 4th. She's been so happy and so excited. Thing is, Andrew doesn't want to go! He's been complaining and saying I plan things without letting him know about it, even though I told him back in April!!! Although Katie and Kelly are really looking forward to going to Cliffs, Andrew is complaining of money, how he doesnt want to go, and for what I believe, deliberately bringing his brother because he'll know if he does, I'll cancel it. Maybe it's best if I do. I'll have to come up with a decision. Either put up with Andrew being evil, or breaking Katies heart..
-Melissa
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