2005

We go to San Nicolas Church and I paint the Alhambra in acrylic en plein aire. I was tense.

Many things slide and fall and never get done. I must lower my expectations.  The water bill was due two days ago. Think about triangles and circles.

All I can do is walk my own path, that is all that is required and to learn to love and accept it all. The wholeness:unity.  I love as many ways as we all are. Paint the Alhambra on big piece of wood and more bulls.

Start the day with my mantra of Om Namah Shiva.  All is well and all shall be well. Staining Sienna, vermillion,naples,azul ultramarine and a dash of cobalt blue.

The new club, lonely hearts club. I need time and space. Watch t.v. in English. Sorrolla Paintings at Gran Capitan Center. Reading Goya biography and Carmen Laffon.

Painting, and painting to make my way through all of this misunderstanding.

My husband and I have become friends again.  We sit together like two old crows on a fence.

There is that story of the crow who spends all her time and energy pecking away at her shadow (the past) and eventually the shadow eats her up. What is the moral of my story? How do we teach our children morals that aren´t ours? Look ahead at the Future.

Painting Portrait of a Flamenco Dancer which then become two and go through many stages as recent  lessons  regarding color and stain and mirrors and music push and pull their way through my afternoons.  Reading Dora Maar: With and without Picasso.  Beautiful Catalan Pregnant Woman enters my life in the hot summer months she sits and poses . Girl Party Celebration.

Juan Gris Exhibit in Madrid and a smaller one of Antonio Saura downstairs at the Reina Sofia Museum, then visit San Fernando Escuela de Bellas Artes Museum.

I am working on the spaces between the objects, everything becomes one - deception and comprehension at the same time.  There is no hurry to get anything done now. We may be living out of suitcases and boxes for a long time.