| Though I know we�ll need to part ways, I hope to look back on these days, When we�re all with each other, And be so glad we were together. Although one day we�ll be apart, I�ll do my best to keep you in my heart, In gratitude for all you�ve done, Every time together fun, The small things that show you care, Memories and stupid jokes we share, Everything that we ever do. I�ll try to keep those words true. I want to really thank you all, With you there I don�t feel small. I�d list here every friend, But then this wouldn�t end, I�d have way too much to ever say About each one of you, it�d take all day To list everything I know. Well this poem goes to show That I did have sweet words to write While I contemplated you tonight�. |
There are regrets from the past That everyone seemingly has Healing from them doesn�t last Trying to move on is as Impossible as almost anything Can be or ever was Things not easily gone, like a ring Are lost forever or broken Flung further than possible by wing Hurt by every single word spoken Hearts are extremely sad Happiness is no longer their token Everything�s so lost and bad Everyone�s face is board stiff Never again is there a happy lad The pungent odor, if one may whiff Is saddening and makes hope lost Then no one ever wonders what if We tried to get back what was tossed Away like it was only nothing And covered now in thick frost To get it back is the hardest thing In the world to even attempt to do The effort is greater than everything Everything ever even attempt to Harder because of its impossibility More than the greatest demon ever slew To try and get it back takes an ability Beyond what most can boast Like a free wild cat�s agility It can be desired by many or most But it�s not likely to happen Like bread coming toast But it�s possible to try and then It can turn into something good But also bad things might happen You begin to wish that you could Go back again and change something Oh how nice be it would Oh one it�s lost that one thing It never comes back the way it was It�s amazing the changes it�ll bring When you try and get it back because Once it�s gone it�ll never be the same It will never be the way it once was Even though it may have the name Or essential meaning as it used to have But even with that it�s not the same Now it�s pointless to try and save It�s lost and will always be Say goodbye to it with a quick wave Even though I know that see I don�t want to try To move on truly, really |
I sometimes think I can fly Fly above, get the best of it Then I realize I can�t and sigh In this role I now must fit Give up hope and just exist Live on in spite of it Give up my one true wish Go on without what I want Instead of perhaps a twist That gives a chance, a flaunt Of what might be nice Instead I�ll run away, jaunt Flee across the very thin ice Testing my luck tempting fate To try the same thing twice But the safe way is barred by gate So on ever thinner ice I tread Will I fall through? Guess I�ll wait Nervewracked so much my head Is ready to break in two If another sad thing is said To be heartbroken again, What�ll I do? How can I go on like this? How can I actually make it through? How can I give up on this? On what I thought would be best What I now know I miss Never will I let it rest Until things become more That they are at the present It doesn�t matte what for I do it, it only does That I�m trying to free that door But the reason is because It�s what I want really bad I don�t know the reason, cause Why not having this makes me sad Why this emptiness makes me mourn Why him not seeming to care, mad Yet even in me I�m torn Which way to go I do not know It leaves me even more forlorn How is it that I can grow Right now, the way I am How can I get up and go Again after so rudely Wham! I am knocked off my feet And swept away by a broken dam? Broken now, because of defeat Of what once was firm and true And now is taking back-seat To what I really want to do: Have it work out with me and you. |
| �Follow your dreams!� they always say. �Why�d I tell them that dream?� She thinks to herself, wondering. �It�d not how they make it seem,� �I wasn�t trying to take his life, Although that now seems fun, In that dream so long ago He annoyed me, I wanted him gone.� In that dream she tried to Get away form him, but still He persisted and tagged along, Until she finally lost her will. �I put my hands up to choke him, And after a moment I ran, Ran away because I was afraid Of what I�d done to that man.� You see, �that man� was her friend Except now she�s a little mad At him, and is now tempted To follow her dream, oh so bad. �He-he it�d be fun to do now. After all, why shouldn�t I? If I only follow that dream literally, He�ll live on and will not die!� |
| There once was a girl who lived In a life of despair, so sad. She lived from day to day. No one seemed to care, �Well too bad.� She thought to herself. �Oh well, I should move on, My heart�s broken, so what? Without any healing it�ll be gone.� Then someone else came along. Along he came, so much the same As the one who had broken her Still she was glad that he came. Even though sometime not too far off He�d break again her weary heart, She till was oh too happy To move on again with a fresh start. Her life seemed bright, her step light, A constant smile was on her face. Until things horrid and awful Came, put her back in her dark place. The love she had for him Was hers alone, he joined not it. She wanted to sink down, down far. Her face is blank, not that goofy grin. |
| ~ Following My Dreams ~ |
| ~ Heart Broken One Too Many Times ~ |
| I wish I had sweet words to write While I contemplate you tonight. To all my friends, old and new, All my friends, tried and true. Some seem far away, that�s okay. Others I see nearly every day. Even though I may not act this way, There�s one thing I know I need to say: Thank you. Thank you all. Having you helps me stand tall All of you care, care about me You�ve helped open up my eyes to see The beauty this world has, All it is and ever was, All that it one day will bring, From the smallest to the largest thing. I now see how wonderful they are. Though it may grow dark, I�ll see a star And I�ll remember you are there, Standing right behind me here. Though I may seem to ignore you, I never am blind to what you do, The many ways you show you care, I appreciate them the way they are. |
| I know sometimes I make you mad, But I hope you never are sad. I wish your world bright, Never a cold bleak night. As good a friend I�ll try to be Like what in you I can see. I hope to do better now, Be better I know not how. I want to be nicer, more caring, Kinder, less selfish, more sharing Than I am. I hope to be Full of the traits I see, I see in you all. I know I don�t deserve you, yet how Could anyone ever deserve a friend? What kind of message does that send? You can�t earn what can�t be bought. It�s priceless, though may seem naught To many that have it And don�t show the know it. Friendship is the best thing ever. I hope to lose you never. I wish it to go on forever, Never begin to sever. |
| I could write hate poetry But I won�t I could think of revenge But I don�t I might want to cry But I try not to Although it seems I Should hate you Way deep down There�s no way I could Yeah so what You say I should It�d make sense Or so you say Because of you My world should be gray Yet though it�s bad I�ve been through strife Beyond what I should have To deal with in this lifeYet I know it�s not As bad as it could be If you go beyond outside There�s much more to see |
| Deep down inside of me So much more is there Many times I don�t Know how I can bear What I�ve thrown down Down into my heart How to get rid of the darkness I hardly know how to start Yet already I feel better My heart�s a little light Things are better I know it�ll be alright It�s not your fault You didn�t do this I did this now My own fault it is You couldn�t help it Nothing could you change I guess it was meant to be This though it�s strange Just keep being Exactly who you are Thank you, for you I now love the stars. |
| THANKS FOR EVERYTHING |
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| when something is broken like a pot or a plate there always is the crack even if it is fixed it's never as strong weaker in one spot ready to break again |
| but when other things become broken, split when they are alive a strength comes from deep down within and if they're given a chance to mend themselves they will like a broken bone or a shattered heart or now useless wings |
| the bone becomes stronger than it was before it won't break there again the shattered heart trys futilly at first, but soon it learns to love again useless wings, like i have heal and will once again soar now higher than before..... |
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| sigh... i can't write much anymore.. where have my poems gone..... |
| *** wow, I am just reading over some of these, and I really miss the days when I was writing them, not only for how I felt, but for the fact that I made the time to actually write about my feelings.... |
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