As I have said before, there is something that I want to tell you, but at that point I was not quite ready to go any further. I know you understand how hard it is to tell someone something when you are unsure of their reaction, but like you were able to say what you had to say I am now able to say what I have to say. You asked at one point when I got so smart when I gave you some advice, well I know exactly when that was. It was the day that I discovered myself, when I stopped asking questions because I had my answer.
The day that I had my answer, I knew that the real struggle was just beginning. I had to find a way to tell everyone around me something they never had reason to wonder about me. It was a long process to realize who I was but Sister, I can tell you now that I am a lesbian. Though you have said before that you support alternative lifestyles, you may never have thought that you would be faced with this in our family rather only among friends. If you do feel differently now knowing that I am gay, please talk to me and I will do what I can to help you see this has not changed the person that I am. I am still the sister you knew ten minutes ago, the only difference is now you know. Just think of this as one more thing we can talk about and the resource from with I 'got so smart.'
While I was questioning my sexuality, I asked myself often if it was worth it. If coming out would be worth jeopardizing family and friends, or opening myself to the risk of hate crimes. I could only answer that one way. Coming out had to be worth all that and more, I could not live my life as a lie, pretending I could love someone that I knew I never could. I am happier now then I have ever been and each time I tell someone new I feel a tremendous weight being lifted from me, I feel liberated and set free from a cage in which I have been trapped. And I know that no matter how people react, the people that truly care for me will eventually come around and accept me for who I am. I may be a lesbian but that is not all that I am. My only hope as I tell people, and as I tell you is that this does not negatively change our relationship. Not only are you my big sis, but you are also my friend and I don't want to loose either.
I am always here for you to talk to, whether it is to answer questions you may have about my sexuality or anything else that is on your mind.
Love always, Kim