There is something that I have been meaning to tell you but, as you know, I am not really good with verbally expressing myself. Each chance that I have come across where the opportunity to talk to you arose I began thinking too much about what I wanted to say and ended up chickening out. What I want to say may shock you or it may not, but whatever your reaction, I hope that this will not change our friendship as you are very important to me. But I can not let another day go by before I tell you my truth. I feel each time that we are together that I am lying to you and I hate that feeling. I wish for you to know me completely but to do so I must say this one thing that could forever change our friendship.
Friend, what I have been trying to tell you is that I am a lesbian. Yes, I am attracted to girls, but this does not change who I am. I am no different now then I was before you started reading this letter. I have always been this way, the only difference is now you know. I will not start acting differently or dressing differently when I am out to everyone, but I will no longer hide the direction of my eyes or what is in my heart. It has taken many years for me to get to this point in my life. For many years I questioned my sexuality, unsure of how to know for sure and afraid that my answer could mean losing everyone that has ever meant something to me. I still fear that, it is a constant worry in the back of my mind as I write this to you but through my personal struggles to discover myself I have also discovered that I can not hide from the truth out of fear. If people start to turn from me because of my sexuality then I have to accept that they were not meant to stay forever in my life, and thank them for the times that we have had.
I hope Friend, as you read this that you realize how much you mean to me and that I want you to remain in my life. I know this may not be an easy thing for you to accept, but I am always open to any questions you have and if you want to talk about any of this, please let me know. I want to help you through any doubts you might have so we can continue as friends. There is just one more thing I want to tell you, and that is that this wasn't a choice I have made. I was not asked if I wanted to be a lesbian, I just am and like you I have had to also accept that fact. So I know the kinds of questions that are running through your mind, I have asked them of myself. I did not accept my sexuality overnight, it was a process that I went through and continue to go through as I come out to more and more people. If there is any help I can give you to make accepting this any easier please just lay it straight out and I will do my best to help you see me better.
No matter your reaction to what I have told you, whether we continue from this point same as we were yesterday, or whether you come to see that you can not accept my lifestyle, I will always keep you in my heart and thank you for everything that we have shared.
Luv always, Kim