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2002-02-28 - 12:25 a.m.

firsts freak me out

Talked to Lisa again. We were sure having problems getting our messages to show up for each other. I don't know how many times we rebooted and signed in and out of MSN, a lot. Eventually we were able to talk without interruption for a while, we had a really good conversation, some of which was about my insecurities and embarrasment and the need to take things slowly when we are in person, at first anyway. She is really patient with me and I really need that, even when we are just talking she shows her patience so I know she will be when we do more than talk.

I know once we are together and I get accustomed to her being around we will be able to do everything we both want. But right now just thinking about my first time with her, first time kissing her, first time being naked with her, first time exploring her body and her exploring mine, I get nervous and anxious and she'll understand why I am like that and she will be there to take away my fears and help me through my insecurities.

I took a couple tests today, just joke online tests, and one was a sex test. It said I will have sex with one person in my life, my first time will be when I'm 23, I will love this person, and I should prepare for a long and fruitful relationship. Sounds good to me...except maybe the age;)

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