As time goes by the world change,
people change..
The person you see in the mirror now may not be the same person
you see in a photo frame..
This ... is the current me..
Well it is hard to do a self-description because I always believe
that you are what people perceive you as, but for the sake of
the site I will just do one on what I think about myself.
Me, I'm an ordinary average guy you see on the road and pass
by everyday, though my friends always call me by the name of Siao.
I have some strange and ordinary hobbies, a normal yet wacky family,
some serious yet crazy bunch of friends and I'm a down to earth
person with some big and impossible dreams.
From all accounts I am born at around 7:00pm on the 20th Dec
1982 in the General Hospital of a small town called Johor Bahru
in Malaysia (look it up in an Atlas). Since then I have lived
in my old house for as long as I can remember until recently.
I got only one sibling and in addition to my two parents and a
group of funny yet "evil" cousins. My sister and I have
an age gap of 4 years which may be the reason why we click so
well though we tend to fight a lot when we were young (well who
doesn't), but things have quiet down as we grew older since we
know what pisses each other off so we usually avoid it (of course
there are times...). We also like to talk about the strangest
topics. Like:
Sis: "Si Hao in the future when I grew old you must take
care of me ok."
Me: "Sure sure just throw you into some old folks home can?"
Sis: "Can then make sure you bury me when I die ok?"
Me: "Ok ok, just use some cloth wrap you up and throw into
the drain can liao."
Mother: "Si Hao you cannot do that, you must take care of
your sister ok!" (she really didn't notice)
Sis & Me: "Hahahahaha."
Both my parents are into the teaching business, my father is
a retired Principal my mother is a teacher. My father is both
a funny and strict person who can joke (when he wanted to) and
beats me if I get poor results. After entering Secondary school
he had stopped beating me, maybe he feels that I am old enough
to say the truth I must really thank him for some of the beatings
because if he never beat me I will never have understand some
things (of course I only have this view now instead of back then).
My mother is by no means a less strict person just that she makes
me get it in different ways, but still when she's in the mood
(along with my help) she can be as fearsome as .... no way to
describe. She is also one of the few people on Earth that can
really "stunt" me with the things she say. I shouldn't
use the word cock to describe it because she is not talking crap,
yet at the same time what she says is so ... "innocent"
and "stunting" that you cannot believe what you hear
from her.
I grew up with my cousins from my father's side of the family,
we been playing together for as long as I can remember and most
of them fall under the group called "Evil Cousins & Co."
who will stop at nothing to make fun of me and tease me ... but
time moves on with some of them already married or planning to.
Our family is real big, imagine I am an uncle at the age of 9
- 10, we even got a situation like the one in "Huang Fei
Hong" where a female cousin of mine (10) is the auntie of
a nephew of mine (12), hahaha my nephew always refuses to call
my cousin auntie even though she's his elder hahahah nice.
As for friends you can say they are a bunch of wackies, they
can be classified into several groups, a group from Secondary
School, 2 groups from Ngee Ann Poly, another group from IRC and
now I am building another group in Melbourne. They include Wong
who has a "ICY" face that has a profession in "suaning"
people, Geeks that has a unique look upon the world with his "i
like it cause it's my way", Tat a nice guy who tends to drift
off into the void of nothingness, Kai who teaches me a lot about
myself - the worst side that I never knew ever existed (no kidding)
and thinking too much is bad, Min who taught me that a person
need to go outside sometimes and mix with people (after school),
Lao Da who always amazes us with his cock and show me that there
really is someone out there that is more stubborn then me, Kenneth
that taught me how to befriend other people and it's not good
to play with other people's pencil box, Wee Liang who always wanted
to take over Malaysia, Zhi Jie the nicest guy in the world that
will never lose his temper the list just go on and if I write
for everyone of them there will be no space left, just check out
the Friends section of my site.
I think of myself as a very friendly person, despite my face
which even my mother uses the terms - Scary, Cold, Unfriendly,
Serious, Old and Mature (ok this one I add one) to describe. I
used to have a hobby - Scaring kids with my looks hahaha that's
fun, well I quit already. Anyway I think sometime somewhere I
took on a perpetual frown which till this day I work hard to dispel,
add that to the fact that when the sun is up I will thin my eyelids
which resulted in a scary face (I started changing it when I scared
myself once). In addition I have pimples (yes Wong I heard that
no need reminding me at least 50 times whenever we go out) it
makes matter worse. This doesn’t stop me from making more
friends hahaha (just that it needs more time for me to befriend
people), I remember in the past when I took a personality test
which says that I am an introvert now taking the same test I'm
an extrovert, people really do change. Of course I treat everyone
like a good friend from the start it's just a matter of clicking,
but there are the few that really really pisses me off and once
these people reaches a certain point they are marked (rest assure
not for death), once marked there is no second chance. In addition
I hate people who are hypocrites and backstabber especially the
backstabbers, I will go out of my way just to nail those assholes
and I really mean it.
To offset the look on my face I try to smile and laugh more nowadays,
more openly I mean because in the past I do laugh but in a more
"reserve" way. Laughing more openly is much much better
makes you feel happier, it also makes you look nicer on photos
(you don't want to see my photos before poly).Well I am helped
in this after knowing the guys Kai, Lao Da and Wen Jie. Till today
I can speak out confidently that you can find no one that talks
cock more then them, so much so that one of them earned the title
"Lao Da" due to his power in cockness. As for me I do
more cold jokes and crazy fun instead, some of my new friends
even claimed that my nick of Siao is not given wrongly hahaha.
I am a hardworking person (when I am in it) at the same time
I can just slack around doing nothing, I can tell myself "Siao
you need to get up and study, but let's just lie for another 5
minutes." and fell asleep. I like to talk to myself ... you
know chat to myself, of course I have learnt to do that in the
head and not openly after I saw another guy doing that, he don't
look all that sane to me (Note: my nick is Siao). I think too
much ... I can make up all kinds of stories from the smallest
of things, imagine waiting for a bus and you see a bus that looks
like the one you’re waiting for what will you think of?
Me, you may board it and find that it's the wrong bus when it's
too late because you fell asleep on it and when you woke up the
bus broke down in some ulu place in kranji in the middle of a
heavy rainstorm ... just great. I can be very nice to a person,
but after a while I may just be bad to him/her for a while just
to balance things a bit (This I also don't understand).
I think of myself as a loner for most of the time, true I got
plenty of friends but since most of them are trapped in something
called "National Slavery" I can only make do with myself.
I learnt to live with "myself" in terms of going around
alone and doing stuff alone, of course I still hang out with the
guys when they are free. It is during this period of time I develop
an interest in "strolling" where I will just walk around
with no reason other then walk around and see new things. Sometimes
I will see interesting stuff and other times some very inspirational
ones, generally it becomes a part of my life where when I'm bored
I will just go and walk around (not in Melbourne though just too
cold to do that).
I am a person with a lot of self-confidence, except some stuff
lah like studies, jay walking in Melbourne, going to market, ....
If compared to the same guy in Primary school and early Secondary
school you will see a big change in me, this I attribute it to
my friends and mostly Geeks. Well that guy really taught me what
is called "be yourself", I used to be a person who is
easily affected by what others think about me so I tend to act
the way other people like and not what I am. Then this guy pops
out and show me how he live his life his way (one of his most
famous stunts is when he went walking along Orchad Road in a Jacky
Chan's T-shirt that is all faded out from machine wash, a pair
of Ferrari shorts that has a hole in it and a pair of slippers)
and how he doesn't give a shit about what other people think about
him. I'm really impressed and so the slow process of finding myself
started which by Sec 3 is going very well (Note: it is during
this period that Kenneth gave me my nick which stuck on). So a
thanks is in order for this guy.
I like to read novels and manga, watch anime, movies, listen
to music, take pictures with my digi cam or do something with
my PC. My PC is like my "wife" if I lose it one day
I might very well die, even though I like to waste my life in
front of the monitor I still like to go outside. I like to play
soccer, badminton, table tennis and cycle. I also like to take
pictures with my Canon S30 especially "artistic" (my
words) pictures - which means taking pictures of yourself or with
your friends by yourself. This requires certain kind of skill
because it's not easy to take an "artisitc" picture.
I also like to drive around in my mother's proton Iswara (which
is my favourite car) alone or with the guys, I can say I'm a careful
and competent driver (not my words) because of the value I put
on my passenger's life and my own life.
That brings us to the last part about me and that’s "my
Views of Life", the favourite quote of mine is "Life
Suxs" ... but that is in the past today it's "Life Suxs,
but it's GOOD to be ALIVE". Why the big change? Because of
a near death experience I realise that although life is suxky
and there are ups and downs in your life, you only live through
it once and whine about it which won't change it much. Thus I
tend to appreciate life very much since knowing that the very
next moment maybe your last really change your perception of life.
My constant talk of death may turn some people off especially
my mother hahaha, but understanding that "You Live to Die"
can really make you a different person.
Lastly this is all my personal views and does not contain my
bad points (purposely one), if you want to know them you should
ask the guys they understand me more then myself (my bad points
that is).
Cold, Scary and Stern is what people see I am.
Crazy, Crappy and Stubborn is what people think I am.
Confident, Serious and Dreamy is what I really am.
Carefree, Happiness and Innocence is what I really want.
P.S Just want to add something that I left out, I am also a person
who can (usually) take criticism. As long as they are the truth,
don't believe me? Well try befriending a guy called Wong Yuan
Shun and he will teach you the fine art of tolerating a person
when what you really want is to get the nearest object and throttle
him hahaha kidding. The guy's straight forwardness and his usual
skills in "suan" people really make me more or less
immune to all kinds of insults, of course don't try insulting
my family and friends. So thanks man for all the "suaning"
:)
- 28/11/2003 |
