.::the edge v2.1:::the day of glory comes closer::.

THIS IS IT!!!!

Monday, March 25, 2002

The hour is coming! And I know it. In two hours or less, I'll be leaving home for a while and travel all the way to Laguna for the youth camp. I'll miss home, my bedroom, my PC and.... this blog of course! T-T Kahit limang araw lang ako mawawala, feeling ko ages na yon. Kasi nga I won't be able to log-on during camp. Kaya ayun. I'm praying that this year's camp will as successful as the previous ones. Lalo na't there are major changes in the staff alone. Medyo disappointed lang ako at di na naman ako nasama sa staff, eh, last camp ko na to. *sigh* But kidding aside, this will be my very last camp, and I want to make the most out of it, even if doesn't mean that I need to be in the staff list. If I can make this camp the most meaningful one I attended, hopefully I can do it. Nasa akin na yon kung ano ang gagawin ko to make it happen.

Kaya bago ako ma-off topic eh, I just want to say goodbye to everybody. Although it's only for a while. ^_^

Neo, thanks for calling up last night. Oi! Peace na kami no! *flashes a peace sign at Neo* ^_^ Sabi ko na nga ba't makulit kang nilalang eh. I knew it. Lakas talaga ng seventh sense ko. OK lang ba kung buko pie pasalubong ko? wahehehehehehehe.... ^_^ I'll try to text you while I'm away, basta pag di ako busy. At sana lang eh, magkita tayo bago mapanis ang buko pie no. ehehehehehehehehe.... ^_^ See yah soon! *huggles*

Kelly bes and Apple, ...oi ha! Aasahan ko ang surprise visit nyo sa camp. Hayaan nyo at di ko pagsasabi, promise yon! ^_^ I'll miss you guys. *huggles*

Woods, ....sana lang magparamdam ka na! Miss na kita eh... *winks*

Insang Allieza, ...hoy bruha! Tuloy ang grad party ko. Text na lang kita kung saan, kelan at anong oras. Promise! ^_^ Ano na pala ang balita, nahagilap nyo na ba siya? Ay nakow! Kung di naman, hayaan nyo na lang siya. Wala na nga akong pag-asa sa isang yon no!

Rizmell, natanggap mo ba text ko? Wala kang reply eh... At! Don't deny na may load ka na kasi tinext mo kaya ako nung isang araw lang no! Sabihin mo pala sa lalakeng iyon (you know who am I taliking to) na mag-usap kami sa Friday (pag-uwi ko from camp). Bahala ka na magkwento sa kanya about myself. You know me well di ba? Miss ya friend, pati kayo ni She at Menchie. See yah sa Baccalaureate. *huggles*

Abi & Atlie, di ko muna mababasa ang mga blog nyo. And I'll miss it, kahit ba ilang araw lang ako mawawala. Drama ko no? ehehehehehehehehe.... ^_^ *winks*

Guess I better get going na. See yah peeps! I'll miss you all..... MWAH!!! ^_^

~~edge counts the days @ 03:19 a.m.

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Saturday, March 23, 2002

I got this from cousin's email. I feel alone again... *sigh*

Mahal Kita, P're!
by Jambaro Martinez

Syet! Kaya pala di ko mahagilap ang loko sa buong school ay dahil may bago na namang kinalolokohan. Sabi, magbi-billiard daw kami, yun pala, kung anu-anong extracurricular activities ang pinagkakaabalahan.

Hay, naku! Ang hirap talagang ma-inlove sa bestfriend mo. Walang kasiguraduhan. Ang hirap pa nito, three years na kaming magkaibigan. Masyado kaming malapit. Ultimo kaliit-liitang detalye sa buhay niya ay alam ko at gayon din naman siya sa akin.

Ang tagal ko na palang inaalagaan itong pagsintang pururot na ito. Imagine, three long years. Di man lang makahalata pagkamanhid manhid!!! hmp... pero siyempre ayaw kong magpa-cute... me pride to noh! ...kahit hirap pigilin.

Actually, nag-ki-click kaming dalawa kasi pareho kami ng trip sa buhay. We share the same hobbies. Sabi nga ng iba, bagay daw kami pero tatawanan lang namin 'yun sabay magko-chorus ng "'di kami talo, 'no!" "Lam mo kasi Meg, kung magdadamit babae ka lang, ano'ng panama ni Dawn Zulueta sa'yo?" kantiyaw pa nila. Binatukan ko nga isa-isa. Loko'tong mga 'to, ah! Tuturuan akong magdamit. Frankly speaking, tama sila. Boyish kasi ang dating ko. Tapos 'yung mga hobbies ko, eh, panlalake pa. Pero babaeng-babae ako by heart, take note! Nakasanayan ko na ang ganito mula nang mamatay ang parents ko at matira ang apat na barako kong kapatid.

Alam lahat 'to ni Uriel, ang mahal kong bestfriend. Minsan, sabi nya sa akin, "Sagutin mo na kasi ang isa sa mga manliligaw mo para foursome tayo pag nag-date. AT saka p're, beauty ka naman, eh," Sabay akbay sa akin. Mangani-ngani ko nang batukan. Ang hirap na ngang maghintay at umasa bubuladas pa ng ganon. Actually, hindi ako comfortable sa mga bestida at palda. Mas gusto ko pa 'yung maong at t-shirt with matching sneakers.

Pero teka, three hours na siyang wala ah! Ang tagal naman' atang maghatid ng babae niya. Baka kung saan na sila nagpunta. Naku! Huwag naman sana doon.

Ehem! Dumating na ang loko. Kaasar! Ang ngiti, abot-tenga. "P're, teka lang! Pumapanget ka, eh! 'Yung kilay mo, salubong na. Let me explain first", bungad niya.

"Di ko alam na may brand new victim ka na naman", kanda-tulis ang nguso ko. "Ah, si Irene, I met her when she approached me during the team practice. My teammates introduced me to her. Kanina, coincidence lang na nagkita kami and she asked me to accompany her in her friend's birthday so I joined her.

I think she's nice and I think too, that I'm in love with her," proud pa niyang sabi sabay ngiti. "Neknek mo. Mamaya diyan, mag-emote ka na naman gaya ng nangyari sa inyo ni Crissy," sabi ko. Si Crissy 'yung last girlfriend niya na niloko siya dahil tatlo pala silang boyfriend nito.

"Well, this time, I'll make sure that it wont happen again." "Tingin ko nga eh...kasi tatlong oras mo akong pinaghintay." "Halika na nga. Iti-treat na lang kita."

Naging constant date ni Bespren si Irene na mukhang cellphone. Grrr, modesty aside (ulit!), mas maganda pa ako sa mga naging girlfriends niya. Correction, I'm not sour graping 'coz I'm just telling the truth.

Hay, naku! Nakalimutan na 'ata ako. Two weeks na kaming di nagkikita.I think he's serious about the girl. Later I found out that he's courting her. Aray! Masakit, ah. Di na ko nasanay. Ilang babae na ba ang nagdaan sa buhay niya? At ilang beses na ba akong umiyak? Tinigil ko na ang pagbilang.

Ni ha, ni ho, wala talaga. Palagi nang absent sa mga subjets namin. Tinamaan ng lintik, bahala siya sa buhay niya. Di ko mahagilap.

One day, sa billiard hall... "Meg, congratulate me, P're. Girlfriend ko na si Irene," di niya raw tinigilan. Excited pa siya nu'ng binabalita sa akin. Nakuha raw sa tiyaga. Parang hinang-hina ako. Kailangang sumandal ako. Tingin ko, bugbog-sarado na ang puso ko. "Really?", kuha ko pang ngumiti (plastic ako eh...). "Mamaya, inuman tayo. Tayong dalawa lang. 'Lam mo, P're, aalagaan ko na itong relationship ko with Irene. I love her very much," at nag-day dreaming na ang loko. Sarap talagang batukan!

"Hoy, Mr. Uriel Martinez, baka nakakalimutan mo, ang dami mo nang absences. At saka, may project tayo sa lahat ng subjects. Malapit na ang finals, mag-aral ka naman. Porket nakilala mo lang 'yun, eh, nagkaganyan ka na," nakapameywang kong sabi. Uriel is a constant scholar and I wonder kung mare-retain niya 'yun.

"With the girl of my dreams, mas lalo akong na-inspire ngayon. I'm gonna talk to all profesors." Pinahiram ko siya ng mga notes and he survived.

Uriel is every girl's dream and ideal man. A varsity player, a consistent scholar and with the killer looks. He's also immensely rich with good traits at may kaya rin ang pamilya niya.

After the final examinations, nanood kami ng "My Bestfriend's wedding". Buti nga, di sumama si "mukhang cellphone". Nayaya daw ng barkada,sabi ni Bespren.

Come to think of it, parang gusto kong mag-emote habang nanonood. Parang nakakarelate ako pero Diyos ko, ayokong pong in the end, eh, ako ang magsasabing "My Bestfriend's (Uriel) Wedding". Please, oh God, I love him very much.

There's one particular scene na talagang napaiyak ako agad that's the wedding scene. feeling ko, si Julia Roberts ako. Iniisip ko pa lang na mawawala siya sa akin, parang gusto ko nang mamatay. "P're, ok ka lang? Napaka-senti mo pala. Paiyak-iyak ka pa diyan. Corny mo ha! O, hayan, the end na. Let's go," sabay hila sa kamay ko.

'Langya 'to, ang daming sinabe eh kung bakit ako nag-eemote dito. Syet! Napakalaking eskandalo. Kahiya!

Second semester...

"Meg, can I talk to you?" bungad niya sa akin pagpasok ko pa lang ng room. It was two weeks after the classes started. "O, what's up? You look upset. Problem?" "Sana, you'll understand. About Irene. You know from the very start that I love her. Eh, ano, God, how will I say this? Meg, she's jealous about you. Masyado raw tayong close. Bawas-bawasan ko raw ang pakikitungo ko sa'yo," he said trying to control his voice.

Shock naman ako. Ako, pagseselosan? Grabe. It's absurd. may tililing yata sa ulo ang babaeng 'yun. Di ko 'ata alam kung paanong mag-react. "O, ano? Tumahimik ka na diyan." "E, kasi naman, sira-ulo pala 'yung girlfriend mo eh... alam naman niyang magkaibigan na tayo eversince..."

"Selosa siya, P're. So please Pare, bear with me." Actually, masakit. Dahil lang sa babaeng 'yun! Parang gusto kong sumbatan si Bespren. Para kasing ipinagpalit niya ako sa babaeng 'yun, to think na matagal na ang pinagsamahan namin.

Then he spoke, "Sana, 'wag kang mag-isip na mas pinahalagahan ko siya kaysa sa iyo kaya lang, mahal na mahal ko siya, eh...Know what? Pag nakita mo na ang lalaking para sa iyo at ma-inlove ka ng todo, maiintindihan mo ako.

Damn you, Uriel. Nagmamahal na ko, three years ago pa. "Okay, tama na. Nag-monologue ka na diyan. Sige, didistansiya na muna ako." "Di ka galit?" "Of course not." (Plastic talaga ako eh... Orocan ang brand).

I can't imagine, all of a sudden, solo flight na ako. Wala na akong kaututang-dila. Wala na akong kasama sa pag-bibilliard at pag-lalaro ng basketball. Higit sa lahat, tumamlay na ang mundo ko. Love means sacrifices and I'm ready for it. Okay lang, sana, maligaya siya sa piling ng babaeng 'yun.

One afternoon, sa garden ng bahay namin, an unexpected visitor came...it's Uriel. "P're, inuman tayo," salubong agad niya sa akin. Mukhang problemado ang mama. "Himala ng mga himala. Anong milagro 'to? Buti, pinayagan ka ng bantay mo?", sabi ko habang sini-switch ko 'yung radio. I chose an FM station. The song "How do I Live" by Trisha Yearwood eh, naging background namin. Quite romantic, isn't it?

Good Lord, buti na lang, wala ang mga asungot kong mga kapatid kundi tutuksuhin na naman nila ako kay Uriel kasi they wont believe na friends lang kami.

"Meg, 'yung beer." "Hoy, Uriel, baka biglang dumating ang mga Kuya. O, etong mango juice. Teka, ano ba'ng nangyari?" "Curse her, Pare. I saw her with another man. Don't tell me na baka pinsan niya 'yon or kapatid dahil they are actually kissing, sa lips. Then, kanina, she call it quits 'coz she's no longer happy with me. That girl, lahat ng kapritso niya, sinunod ko even the most difficult one -'yung tungkol sa 'yo tapos, ito pa 'yung igaganti niya."

"Pare, ba't gano'n lahat na lang ba ng mamamhalin ko, eh, iiwanan ako?" Napaiba ako ng direksyon. Gusto ko na kasing batukan. Nangangati na ang kamay ko. Iiwanan daw siya, eh, hanggang ngayon, hopelessly inlove pa rin ako sa kanya.

"Meg, say something."

"Something."

"Corny! Ano? Para kang natigilan."

Buti alam mo. "E, kasi, hanap ka pa ng hanap kung saan-saan, eh, meron naman diyan nagmamahal sa'yo ng lubos at matagal na niyang inaalagaan 'yon." Shame! Lagot ako! Bruha talaga ako, baka makahalata.

"What do you exactly mean by that?" "Err, what have I said? Kainin mo na nga 'yang cheesecake." Deadma galore (palusot!) "No, I heard it right. At sino naman 'yun?"

Teka, ba't parang iba na ang timplada ng mukha niya? At saka, ba't palapit na siya ng palapit? Tingin ko, ang gwapo-gwapo niya. Ala! Nasa harapan ko na. Then inalis niya 'yung bullcap ko. Kinalag niya 'yung pagkakatali ng buhok ko. Bumigay ang buhok kong hanggang baywang. Hey, what's this?

"Ah, eh. Ano-" Stop stammering. Damn! "P're, talagang maganda ka na, noon pa man. But wait, sino ba 'yung sinasabi mo?" Now, his arms were wrapping my body. Aba, parang sumusobra na'to ah! Pilit ko siyang tinutulak palayo pero ang higpit ng pagkakayakap sa akin.

"Hindi kita pakakawalan hangga't di mo sinasabi sa akin kung sino 'yun?"

"Blackmailer."

Huli na, wa na. Bistado na. "Langya ka, Uriel, Matagal na kitang mahal. Di mo ba nahahalata? Ang tagal kong itinago dahil baka pagtawanan mo lang ako," I'm hysterical and I can't stop from crying. At long last, nasabi ko na.

"Hush... I have my own confession, too. Mahal na kita, P're, noon pa pero I have to ignore the feeling kasi kaibigan kita. Kaya ang dami kong niligawan 'coz it's my way of forgetting you. Nang dumating si Irene, akala ko siya na ang pwede kong ipagmalaki sa'yo. In fairness to Irene, minahal ko siya, pero kanina, nabuhay 'yung pinakatagu-tago kong pag-ibig sa 'yo.

Sarap! kiligs..."Do I need to change my identity? Di ba tipo mo 'yung mga sophisticated women?"

"Honey, nu'ng minahal kita, ganyan ka na talaga. By the way, I wont call you pare anymore. Di ata magandang pakinggan, di ba?"

Pero kanina pa nakalingkis yung mga kamay niya sa akin, eh... Kumawala ako. "Mr. Martinez, nakakahalata na ako, eh...Kanina ka pa," sabi ko, then he let go of me.

"One more thing, di kaya kailangan mo akong ligawan?"

"WHAAAT?"

"But of course."

"Pero--"

"No ifs, no buts."

"Okay, okay, I'll start today."

~~edge counts the days @ 11:55 p.m.

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greetings ko.....

Saturday, March 23, 2002

I wanna greet the following people who are now certified graduates: Kelly Bes! Congrats sa yo. I'm so happy for you. *huggles* Sana'y maging matagumpay ang iyong buhay bilang young pro! Susunod na ako, mga isang linggo pa! Miss yah friend! Love ya! ^_^ My cousin JC, congrats din sa yo. Good luck sa college life. Saan ka nga pala mag-aaral? Wala na kasi akong balita sa yo eh. I'd be happy if you passed the UPCAT. Basta I'll wait for your call tomorrow at lunch time. At nang mapag-usapan na ang ating joint grad party! ehehehehehehe... sana pumayag si lola! ^_^ To other grads, Shiny and JD, congrats din sa inyo! Hope your college life will be successful! Mag-mass comm. na rin kayo. ehehehehehehe.... ^_^ Oi ha! Masaya din dun no! Trust me on this. Oi! Aaron! My HARRY POTTER!!! High school na sya!!! yahoo!!!! Congrats! Ay! Di ka na pala Harry, Killua ka na pala! ehehehehehehe... ^_^ At sa lahat ng mga friends or acquaintances ko na graduates this year, sorry if I had not included you here. But congrats on your graduation anyway. ^_^

BTW, I saw this test on Abi's blog and I took it. Waaaahhhhh!!!! I got Syaoran!!!! Bwahahahahahahaha!!!! ^_^

test by Leanne
which CCS character are you?

Oh well, two days before camp. Guess I'll miss my blog and my faithful PC. *sigh*

~~edge counts the days @ 10:33 p.m.

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me wanna cry..... T-T

Friday, March 22, 2002

It's so early in the morning, and I can't get back to sleep. I thought I'll be fine as I get up. But the disappointment is still there. I supposed to have my entry posted here last night, but I decided to go to bed early to ease my bad mood. I really felt bad, and I still feel bad right now, I wanna cry. T_T

Neo didn't make it yesterday! He had this meeting with his group's manager (I think). Worse is, he texted me when I was already waiting for him for more than two hours! I was so disappointed, my eyes were almost brimming with tears. I mean, at least he told me his reason for not coming. But I what I hate most is that, I went to our meeting place very tired and those more than two hours of waiting for him were just a total waste! I really wished I went home instead of seeing him since I was so tired after I went to ABS-CBN and GMA with my friends. I arrived at the mall with my feet hurt (because of too much walking) and I was less energized. Tapos, ganun lang yun. Haaay naku! Because of this, I decided not to talk to him for a few days, or hangga't di pa lumalamig ang ulo ko. And if he'll ask me out again, maybe I'll go, but after a few weeks na. Kasi, may camp next week, and the week after camp is my graduation week. After that, I'll be busy with job hunting again. Hindi ko na alam kung may time pa ako for him. Well, sana meron pa....

I'll give Neo a second chance. Pero pag naulit pa ang nangyari kahapon, wala na kaming dapat pag-usapan pa. I'm serious here. Unless he can change my mind.

BTW, I now have my own copy of Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. Matatapos ko na rin ang pagbabasa nun. Sana nga may book 4 na in soft-bound cover. Mahal kasi ang hard-bound eh. Kahit may mahal pa siya sa book 3, OK lang. I really missed Harry. At sana, meron na ring book 5 to 7 very soon.

~~edge counts the days @ 05:24 a.m.

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i passed the interview, but......

Wednesday, March 20, 2002

I just got home from the interview. I passed, as expected. The thing is, they're having difficulty what company to place me. Their clients from newpaper companies, radio and TV stations don't have any job openings yet. But they will inform me immediately as soon as their clients confirm. Of course, I'll still hunt for other opportunities. Sana nga open pa rin yung sa ABS-CBN at GMA, lalo na't may connection na ako sa mga tao doon. Thanks to my relatives na may kilala doon, and thank God I had my practicum at ABS-CBN. I'm keeping my fingers crossed here.

BTW, I had my haircut today. And I looked good, as usual. ^_^ Guess that's part of my preparation for tomorrow. Grabe! Bukas na kami magkikita ni Neo! I'm psyched! ^_^

~~edge counts the days @ 05:57 p.m.

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im certified healthy!

Tuesday, March 19, 2002

Are you Addicted to the Internet?

53%

[email protected] (41% - 60%)
You seem to have a healthy balance in your life when it comes to the internet and life away from the computer. You know enough to do what you want online without looking like an idiot (most of the time). You even have your own Yahoo club or online journal! But you enjoy seeing your friends and going out to enjoy life away from your computer.
The Are you Addicted to the Internet? Quiz at Stvlive.com!

~~edge counts the days @ 10:53 a.m.

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i'm youji!!!!

Tuesday, March 19, 2002

You're Youji.
Playboy extrodinaire, you have a few dangerous hobbies, (not including that second night job). You may have every known STD due to your careless nature, as well as lung-cancer to boot~! You have quite expensive tastes in vehicles, fashion, hair upkeep, and women. You're a bit lazy, but overall you're a good friend, and fun to be with. You're willing to take risks others might not want to. You love to make your friends blush.
Which member of Weiß are *you*? Take the quiz!

*evil grin*

~~edge counts the days @ 10:49 a.m.

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da week b4 camp.....

Monday, March 18, 2002

Guess what? I'M GOING OUT WITH MY TEXTMATE!!! Yup. You read it right. But if you're thinking I'm going out with my "boyfriend", well, think again. ^_^ I'll go with my textmate. No! He's not Woods, sad to say. He is a member of a local band, Poetic Sparks. His name is Neo. According to him, he's the group's lead guitarist. I have read a piece of info about the band at Pinoycentral website (with their picture pa). And three days from now, I'll see him in the flesh. Sure, I'd be honored, kahit ba di naman talaga high-profile yung group nya. But the thought that he wanted to see me is soooooo flattering! Gosh! I wonder what I should wear, although I should take note the dating tip I have read from a book. The tip that I should dress normally (lola, di pambahay ah!). What I mean is, I'll just dress casually and just be myself. Of course! Bakit ko naman ikakahiya ang sarili ko na may kagandahan naman no???!!! ^_^ So there. Wish ko lang worth remembering ang pagkikita naming ito, unlike before. ehehehehehehehehe..... ^_^;;

Maiba naman ako. I had a talk with Sheryll on the phone last night. And I have received this nasty news from school. (I shouldn't use the term nasty, kaya lang, nakakainis talaga eh!) Here's the dirt. Graduating students are allowed to bring as many people as they want at PICC (yehey!)... provided that they will pay Php500 per head! Included ang graduate ah! Argh! That's too much. Aalis na nga lang kami sa FEU, kukupitin pa kami, at tumataginting na Php500 per head pa! Actually, there's no cofirmation yet, but if there is..... nakow! Patay ako dyan! I don't have money na nga eh. Kaya I have to limit my company to just three persons, my mom, dad and grandma. Tapos kasama pa ako..... sheht! Php2000 din yun! Pang-camp ko na yun ah (at may allowance nang kasama!)!!! Nakaka-bad trip talaga! At ang masaklap pa eh, Php5000 lang ang binigay sa akin, when it should be Php7500! Ang dami ko pang babayaran eh. Sheht talaga!!!! Sana nga hanggang rumor lang yang t*** i**** Php500 per head na yan!!! Sumosobra na sila ah! At sana lang walang naka-sked na rehearsals next week kasi I'm out of town for five days. Camp namin sa Laguna yun (in Victoria to be exact). Kapag merong rehearsal, well, sorry sila!

BTW, speaking of April 5 2002, my relatives may not make it on my graduation day. I don't know why. But I still hope na matuloy sila. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. At sana matuloy ang grad party ko on April 7. Nanganganib din na di matuloy yun. Naku naman! I really hope it will be pushed through. Minsan lang sa buhay ko ang graduation, sana pagbigyan nila ang kahilingan ko. After all, masaya rin naman sila at nakatapos din ako. I hope they'll ditch some effort. *sigh*

Malapit na rin ang Wednesday, interview ko sa Makati! But I heard from Sheryll na may job opening sa ABS-CBN at GMA!!!! I'll seize those opportunities! Promise!!! Basta any job opening for Mass Comm. graduates, I'll try them all. ^_^ Oi She! Salamat sa impormasyon. *hugs* Miss ya!!!!

Sige na. I'm sleepy na. *yawns* Oyasumi....

~~edge counts the days @ 11:41 p.m.

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